26.9.20

 

the windows to his 4Runner were cracked

he heard someone outside

Hey, Joe . . Joe . hey Joe . .

Dont stop now

Huh?

Hey Joe  Hendrix

I dont know what youre talking about.

Kids 
      Wha is it

Let me in.

Why do you want in

I have to know for myself.

Ask Maybe I can facilitate your ques . . 
. . My question doesn’t want to be facilitated. I prefer to know, to learn myself.

Yes you do 
             Good thing your cute

Stop. You’re a sucker for Chapanese 
                                       part of her cuteness she was Chinese Japanese descent that and her perky titslong nipples she could take out an eye 
                                              he happened to walk in on her she hadnt locked the bathroom door

she didnt move

she was toweling her hair

if Aphrodite had armsif she was Asian

Excuse me he didnt avert his eyes youre roommate didnt say you were home I stopped to buy some hash 
                                                                                                              I owe ya a hit

she didnt move

she didnt blush

Maybe two 
               By the way  ya look marvelous   he closed the door behind him

 

Whadaya got a know for yourself

friends had thrown together a weekend at an oceanside campground he had a date late Saturday afternoonpossibly longer Friday night was open so whyknot 
                                             he wasnt going to bust out a tent for overnite
. . know for yourself

Yes.

Whadaya gotta know

What you said.

If I said it its true So you know

 

You owe me.

he knew where this was going he was going to string it out 
                                                                 Owe you

Yes. Don’t tell me you don’t remember.

Remind me

I can’t imagine I need to remind you.

Remind me

Milking this, aren’t you?

Yes 
     Remind me

 

You owe me.

An Im supposed to repay this debt how

By letting me in.

 

You may not be able to afford the price of admission

 

I may kill you, old man.

 

I dig negotiations like this 
                            he stretched out in his sleeping bag and unlocked the door
he slept naked

 


their lesbian friends who threw the ad hoc camp out were making a huge breakfast over the campfire 
                                                                                                           almost a dozen people showed

How can I help Teri

Cut up the melons. They’re in that blue Igloo ice chest. The metal bowl to put them in is in the chest too.

Ai came out of her tent she walked over towards them as they stood by the fire

She’s walking funny. said Teri Like a chaffed Chapenese. she eyeballed him I thought Valarie was loud.

I forgot my gag

Yup. Ai looks like she spent the night whoresback riding.

he blinked once twice Callin me a whore

Joe. If I weren’t queer or if you were a woman I’d fuck you inside out.

An you call me a whore  whore

 

Fuck. I love the life. 

0013 & 0022,  Thursday,  24  9. 20
1354,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20  

25.9.20

 

What are you doing?
                       he had walked up behind his brotherinlaw who stood in the middle of a parking lot  he didnt seem to recognise his approach despite his right foot that was badly broken as a boy and didnt heal right  it flopped
Whasit look like Im doin 
                           evidently he was aware

Standing there.  Could get your ass runover.

Id make a bundle

he cringed he knew his brotherinlaw was always willing to take a beating maybe its in their bloodthose born in Chicago  back East  school-of-hard-knocks hardheaded 
                                                            What are you doing?

Im watching the leaves fall Autumns coming  Californias seasons are subtle

Fire season?

Fire aint a season if Maw Nature divines it it should burn southern states floodlashed by hurricanes  tornadoes tearing up the alley

Alley?

Lemme think Texasno loss Oklahoma 1921 no lossKansas South Dakota   aahIowa  Think Nebraskayah  Annnn ann  thats itNo  believe Louisiana also 
                                          Be fun chasing those spinning skirts

Skirts?

Herricanes whorenadoes  Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned Or more succinctly Maw Nature scorned  We deserve every lash she wants to dispense 
                                             Do I hear an Amen
his brotherinlaw wasnt being rhetorical

he didnt say it to humour him
                                AMEN! despite his brotherinlaw being a funny guy told the best stories

THERE

What?

Ya missed it

Missed what?

he cleared the irritation from his throat The falling leaf

he wanted to say Where but that would bend himhed turn and say Ya stupid so he didnt ask Where 
                                                                                                            I missed it.

There havent been many I love they way they turn 
                                                       Kindalike a virgin youve made standing in the lighted doorway of her house at night turning lingering waving to you before she goes in  going in very different than when she came out earlier that evening

 

Wow. I really missed it.

Hmm

Hmm?

Yah Hmm

I never turned a virgin.

Ive turned threethe first was the best 
                                        She turned me too

he thought Fuckin guy. 
                        So. You about ready to leave?

Yes  Leave 

1130,  Reggae Friday,  18  9. 20
1144,  Reggae Friday,  25  9. 20

The Byrds  Turn! Turn! Turn!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVOJla2vYx8

 
Down there

Yes.
      It is part of your punishment. You have to go down there.  GO.
                                                                         he spoke with harsh authority 
he usually didnt acquiesce to authority

he must have known 
                       the men behind him menacedthreatened him with strong arms and hands knotted around horsehair and porcupine needle whips that made him anxious 
                                                                   and not in the way he usually thought of anxious

he went

the descent was a slightly vertiginous he wasnt affected by acrophobia 
                                                                             necrophilia possibly affected him more  Please Marilyn no  this might be wrong   Wrong? Why? What could possibly be wrong with us making love?  Youre dead   I seem pretty lively; I respond enthusiastically to your touch, your cock, you make me wet.  Yesyes You are  What can be wrong with that? It’s your dream. 
                                                   she made a goodan excellent point

the smooth marble chute ran down to a gutter 

the stone was dull not slick
                                barefooted he was able to descend without much trouble

at the foot of the chute where it elegantly joined the gutter or trough kneeled an old woman she was not particularly well-preservedshe wasnt dead rather she hadnt appeared to age well she wore a large illfitting blueplaid flannel the shirttail in front hung in the gutter she wore paleblue work jeans she plucked turds from small stagnant puddles and played with them asif they were Lincoln Logs 
                                                 maybe as a child she had

he spoke to her  
                 Yaought to stop messing around there Stop  

she looked up to him her faceat the edges of her mouth were smears

Please stop maam  Wha your doing isnt healthy 

she didnt look inquisitive or seem to understand him
                                                        she remained quiet blind as only a 30s40s German might then casually returned to her labourher fetching and building she was content

he stood straddling the trough 
                                 a soft ambercoloured light descended from the ceiling bleeding through the stone asif it was translucent or asif the light itself emanated in the raggedlychiseled stone overhead 

if this is Hell he thought it wasnt imagined by Hieronymus Bosch 
                                                                      or perhaps Bosch his hands amputated eyes put out
smearing raggedly  like the feeble old woman

0638,  Thursday,  17  9. 20 
1638,  Thursday,  24  9. 20

24.9.20


he met a girl in a restaurant

it was his first night bussing tables

she worked as the cashier and a hostess


it was Halloween night

management encouraged staff to dress up

she dressed as a black cat

ballet slippers tights leotard teased her hair into ears she did the whiskers across her cheeks with eyeliner

she was the best-looking pussy he ever laid eyes on


she looked like a really nice girl

he wasnt nice

he ignored her

later that evening sidestepping each other frequently she approached him and introduced herself

they shook hands

someone taught her how to shake hands   

she was  a really nice girl

he decided then itd be best he stayed wide of her

he was content to place her on a pedestal and enjoy her from afar


she trained as a server 

better money off tips

they were constantly thrown ad hoc into diningrooms

she decided to form up a group of stellar servers and they approached him about bussing exclusively for them

they tipped him equal-share

her initiative created quite the stir in the company

other servers were disgruntled because none of the other bussers turned tables like him or were as attentive to their customers

their clique ran like that through Thanksgiving flushed with cash

management disbanded them before Christmas bowing to bitchy servers

 

New Years Eve approached

he knew her better

he decided to take her down from the pedestal he placed her on and asked her to see him New Years Eve

See you? How do you mean see you?

See me

You mean . . like be your date . New Years Eve?

Yah Yah   Be my date
                          A bunch of usas you know are heading over to Crandon to celebrate  bonfire  wine  stay out greet the sun when it rises

So, be your date? 
                   Like you and me and me an you?

Yah  Im hoping you hadnt made other plans  still a little better than two weeks off You hadnthad you

No.  No. But what if something better comes along, you’ve been . . in demand . tentatively accepting . you may . . or may not make it.

Baby  aint nothing better could happen to me than you going as my date to Crandon on New Years Eve

 

27 New Years later

                                                                                              2353,  Thursday,  24  9. 20 

Mes couilles

 
his educationhis learning   his learning  was made up for its best part by smatterings of knowledge that drifted down on him like lazy snowflakes and ashes  revealed randomly as he read the knowledge which he soughthunted and pecked  sometimes exasperating  yet he pursued and eventually found the answersinformed the questions that piqued him as opposed to questions forced on him by teachers

he didnt relate well with teachers
                                    there was something about them that irked him he felt they were dishonest at a base level  and as he grew older answered his questions he discovered words like pedagogy indoctrination  curriculum

obviously he would not be a good student 
                                            but maybe they thought he make decent cannon fodder later for a government that drafted young men who either couldnt afford student deferment or had been stupid enough to listen to their fathers and uncles who served in the Second World War who listened to false equivalences who listened to words like honor loyalty  patriotism 
                     who had been indoctrinated
he could only assume they hadnt read Hemingway I was always embarrassed by the words sacred, glorious, and sacrifice . .


so he kept his course 

he was in the governments words a draft dodger 
                                                     he wrote postcards to his parents as he traveled the country with thousands of dollars he saved since he was a boy cutting lawns raking leaves  shoveling snow 
                                                                                                      in those days money fell from the sky or grew up out of the ground if one sought to work hard  develop an ethic  he was a junkie for physical labour paid to exercise 
         he signed postcards to his worried parents DDT draft dodger terminally  they worried about him more than when he was a boy

What, me worry? he didnt read MAD he had to be thick not to be caught up on common nomenclature and spurious fads

 

threefour days back another genuine snowflake lazily drifted and fell into his lap 
                                                                                     Renoir was reputed to have said when asked if he painted from his head or his heart Non, mes coquilles (my balls)

he always had an affection for Renoirs work 
                                                apparently they shared convictions granularly  Mes coquilles   it was how he thought lived and wrote

1124,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  9. 20
1209,  Thursday,  24  9. 20  


he nearly blew beer out through his nostrils
                                              yah suds tickled his brain almost made him sneeze
Yafuckin tryin to kill me

It wasn’t that fun . . 
. . Not funny a fuckin scream Man yaought take your show on the road That was hilarious

You’re laughing at me his eyes crowded with discomfortdiscontent

Get over yourself Yare fuckedeveryones fucked if we cant laugh at ourselves we get to a point where we cant find humour in our humanness 
                             Fuckin take it out back an kill yourself  End it all

THAT was hilarious

Pitchperfect delivery 

Honest 
         An honesty connects


So, you’re saying you weren’t laughing . not truly . . at me?
Ohfuckno I was laughing at you  
                                   That was delicious 
I want you to appreciate it as well

 

If it was you . . 
. . If it was me Id be on the floor cryinlaughin at myself 
                                                          Although I havent the innocenceall gone to deliver such a line


I’m so upset . . I don’t know what I said now
Good thing he set his beer down and hadntr taken another sip it would have exited out the top of his head like a whales blowhole 
          OoohMan Stop  Yare killin me   Yadon remember

Honestly tears almost creeping into his eyes


Shit  Well  let me remind youweve gotta work on your memorystart makin shit stick to the walls like black tar

Yareally dont recall

he ran his eyes left and right  scrutinised 
                                             No. I truly, truly don’t remember.

he wanted to exhale a hiss like a snake ready to strike  but he obviously was struggling  Awright  Hint  cellar door

Cellar door?

Phonaesthetics

What?

Cacophony  Euphony  Discordant  Harmony

Oh yeah, I recall you saying.

Good  Hint  Cellar door  cellophane floor  cute cunt  Im really leading you with cute cunt

the light went out in his eyes

he turned them out

he wasnt playing the game

nobody home  quit knockingnobodys home

 

Cute cunt summons nothingnada

No. he sighed

Im the one that ought to be sighing Im working like a muthafucker

I’m sorry. Your hints mean nothing. What could I possibly have said that made you veer so drastically . phonaesthetics

That stuck

That stuck because you said ithave said it.

Yadon listen to yourself

What? Excuse me?

When you speak yadon listen to what youre saying

 

No! We were casually talking.  You know I have trouble retain . .                                                                 . . Retainin what Im sayinaint the same as you rememberin what you said

he literally threw his arms up in the sky  I SURRENDER! I GIVE UP!

Sorry bro


Cellophane floor  Cute cunt  
                               You said you were a pornographic virgin

 

1209,  Reggae Friday,  14  8. 20
1043,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  9. 20

 


23.9.20


she caught his eye as he entered the hotel lobby

his girlfriend said she would 
                               it was unfamiliar territory  he preferred roadside motels refurbished older buildings quaint inns less frequented

Eve didnt

she was making the rules

since he was financing it  he was going to listen 
                                                       then he was going to negotiate terms

 

Are you fucking kidding me

No. No.  I know Eve; you might remem . . 
. . I recall  no memory needed   You blew me off our movie date

I didn’t.

You did


I thought . . 
. . All you had to do was call 
                               You thought you could wrangle more work if you made nice  She wasnt interested in what you wanted  Eve was established as you said 

she didnt break eye contactavert her eyes

 

I get that right

she still held his gaze 
                        She’s really good, Joe, some say exceptional. I’ve seen her work and I trust that despite this being an unusual project she’ll create a fine product, which is what we want.

She’ll be discreet.

It’s our private movie.

It can’t be pirated, and if we hire her we’ll be assured it won’t.

 

You know I trust you 
                       You an she are fellow creatives 
Yes.

Mutual respect

Yes.

I am happy to hear her out

 


Eve was dressed to the nines nine was his favorite number  he wasnthe walked into the lobby in his torn bluejeans that hed had for better than twenty years  his tears were earnednot fabricated  sandals  and over his dago-T an open colourful Hawaiian shirt

her statement was chic

his was cool 
              he wondered if she ever got stoned

his girlfriend told him she was East Indian West Indian descent her height and length favored by her West side  soft milk coffee complexion fucking!white teeth   fit
he did his best not to undress her with his mind

she stood fixed in the lobby like a sun in its galaxy exudingdrawing with its gravity 

he felt it
          he was going to have to walk to her

he didnt have a problem with that 
                                     his girlfriend exhibited the same prowess  they were forces of Nature  and hed always been drawn to Nature and natural things

this was seemingly going to be a good fit

 

Eve  he extended his hand

Joe.  Hallie said you’d catch my eye.

Thats what she told me about you 
                                     I believe this may be indicative of a propitious beginning  a preparation for a fine interlude  spelled l-e-w-d

he caught her offguard  she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth

that endeared her to him more than she would ever know

typically he would be put off by nines

though he recognised her fashion suited her like skin

 

they crossed to the bar and had a drink to talk things over  Eve didnt order a champagne cocktail which would have floored him  a double Scotch  17 year old Bunnahabhain  he had a double Irish  Redbreast 15 year old

after she ordered the Scotch and he his Irish he asked the barmaid if shed also please bring two glasses of cold water no ice 
        Eve  Ive only heard of the Bunn-aha  would you mind if I had a sip

she smiledchuckled gayly 
                             No, of course not; I was going to you for a sip of your Redbreast, I haven’t had it either.

Hence the water  he said

I gathered that.

they toasted To Success and sipped their own drinksOohAahed their drinks  still holding their glasses they sipped the waterchurned it in their mouths noisily asif gargling  swallowed  confirmed their drinks were exactly what they remembered and thought theyd be  and having set their waters down handed off their drinks to be sampled 
they chorused OhWow

a sensual beginning

for a very sensual project      

 

Eve explained she had never videographed people making love and was absolutely tossed by the idea when Hallie proposed it  

Yes  Private porn  Im surprised no one has pitched it to you before  It is an event  An weve playeddiscussed our desire to make a movie for ourselves but didnteither of us believe that a static camera would   convey  orcapture   what we had in mindsaw in our minds eyes

I have a tentative script  but youd be the directorby all means  and we anticipate your artistic flair

Thank you.

Youre welcome 
                 Im not shy  Hallies shy but she truly felt she could relaxbe natural  or most natural in front of your lens  in your handsso to speak

 

his words were prophetic

they struck a deal

Eve would be naked too as she filmed

 

 

unscripted 
             a lustful twist at the edge of the bedreversing positions  he on topalmost toppling off  he grabbed Eves thigh  he regrasped to get a better holdbetter leverage  higher up  Eves thigh lacquered by her weep  his thumb brushed her sex  
                  he thumbedplayed her swollen clit 
CUT!
     camera hastily thrust on the bedstand 
                                            she tumbled into bed with them

 

too bad they didnt have a second videographer  
                                                  they were going to have to depend on their seared memories for replays
 
1325,  Thursday,  13  8. 20
1246,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  9. 20

. . the Slime

hes a hoax a FAKE  a wannabe autocrat  a legend in his own mind 
                                                                       its easier to throw out one  he struggled to say to use the term  man   its easier to throw out one man than millions and millions of legitimately cast ballots

2154,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  9. 20

Zappa  I’m the Slime  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iiCQcEW98OY

 
Com’on fat man 
                 step down off the stage and put your money where your mouth is

he wont  hes stupid but he aint that stupid

survival is Fight or Flight 1. fat man cant fight 2. fat man couldnt run to save his life

https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/trump-suggests-protesters-at-his-rallies-aren-t-safe-92373061902

1816,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  9. 20

$202K -- Killed one thousand a day


“ . . (novel coronavirus) affects virtually nobody” 
                                                   hell say his remarks referred to younger people Ignorance is Bliss  we have a CoVidiot as president an ignoramus 
                                               https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/asked-about-200-000-us-deaths-trump-offers-trumpian-answer-n1240801?cid=eml_mra_20200923 pigback! https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/death-toll-climbs-trump-says-coronavirus-affects-virtually-nobody-n1240684 daisy-chain! “They have a strong immune system, who knows. You look – take your hat off to the young, because they have a hell of an immune system. But it affects virtually nobody. It’s an amazing thing.”  
                                                                  No its not Theyre young and the young areif healthy resilient but theyre not immortal or should be political pawns placed at risk . . then if adversely affected offered a fat mans shrug OhWell! If I didn’t do what I did more would be dead!                                                                                                                              https://www.politico.com/news/2020/09/22/trump-downplays-coronavirus-threat-young-people-419883

1623,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  9. 20