16.7.20


he had too many thoughtswords going through in his head at any given moment and when someone came alongthrough no fault of their own inadvertently per se and added another spoonful of sugar it ticked him off
                                                                                                      the tick sounded particularly loud when it was family
                                       and the fact was their only access to him was through a telephone or cellfone yet another nemesis tick  the irritation was more sharp more grating


his brotherinlaw wouldnt quit sending him the word ratiocination a word that seemingly thrilled him a vocabulary word of Harris and Hitchens – the activitythe process of reasoning he texted him Think Sherlock Holmes
                                                                                                        then hot on his heels was his brotheryounger by a year who want to discuss their sister who died nearly two years prior and how she and her husband and daughter shunned the family – he could write shunned now – but had misplaced the word for better than an afternoon and whichas he thought on it again and again he had badly managed with rebuffed and spurned both incorrect and inferior . . words crowded his head like mercury bent on reforming after a thermometer is dropped and broken on the floor
                     a keen way to learn if your linoleum floor was level or not


Shunned  Since youre using the word I assume you know it

Of course.

Tell me

You know it.

I know it Before I respond to your remarks I want to know what you understand shun to mean

It means ignore, or reject.


Okay

Okay, what?

Take that into context regarding what you just said to me
                                                             You asserted for the last eighteen years first horseshit You pull eighteen out of your ass Sisters been dead two years she suffered her cancers for ten years not nine months of remission between her breast an the onset of her ovarian cancer an yawanna tell me that she and hers shunned the rest of the family while undergoing chemo almost every other week for months at a time


They shunned you

They did.


Lets examine how fuckin ridiculous your words are 

Three people shunnedlets do the fucking math shall we Mom and Dad . two . . your family . four . six . . Robins family and offspring . seven . thirteen . . Toms family and offspring . ten . . twentythree . Joe .one . . twentyfour . Marys family . five . . twentynine . David and his wife . two . . thirtyone 
                                                            Thirtyone people majority adults were shunned by three adults while they contended with Sisters cancers

Thats horseshit 

What it also is  is rank family bullying the silent treatment the cold shoulder It was cruel It was unnecessary And it began shortly after Sister was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2008

Mom set the stage Dad had to live with herhe wasnt going to cross her he submitted  And then the rest of you just went along with it 


They didnt shun you

Thats what you did to them

An very fortunate for all of you then  I lived on the West Coast 



I disagree.

As youre welcome to

1457, off Twosday afternoon telephone call, & 2147,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 15  7. 20


illegal Georgia governor Brian Kemp -- he remembers Secretary of State Brian Kemp counting the votes for his gubernatorial election in 2018 -- screwing Stacey Abrams over – Governor Kemp is striving to fill the same Bozo shoes as his president – hes suing Atlanta mayor Keisha Lance Bottoms over her mask mandate which he says violate his emergency orders

$138K -- killed


                                if the president did his work if he was succeedingHES NOT loyalty wouldnt be a matter of concern 
           his YESmen and YESwomen invariably serve themselves their job is saying YES no matter how miserably they actually perform their work
                                   think of all the “Acting” members this administration has under an “Acting” president 
None will win Awards
1234,  Thursday,  16  7. 20




wont have a Loyalty Test for Medicare and Medicaid Services chief Seema Verma

                                 the HHS IG has charged Ms Verma with violating federal contracting rules by steering funneling more than five million dollars to GOP-aligned communications consultants
                                                                                         Trump & Co can save time and money and the paper and pen testing Ms Verma – which is to say it probably wasnt – Ms Verma is tight with Acting vice president Pence  
1307,  Thursday,  16  7. 20


Roger Stone who ought to shut his mouth and thank his lucky stars instead cockadoodledoos “ I know that Kevin McCarthy and Elsie Stefanik (good for them) were lobbying the president against any act of clemency. They, I guess (dont have to guess Roger), wanted me to die in a fetid, squalid hellhole in Georgia of coronavirus.” “I know that Matt Gaetz was standing tall, both privately and in public, on my behalf (because Gaetz is a fuckin idiot).”  


curious that Stone remains unrepentant of the 7 felony convictions that should have had him incarcerated  “ . . in a fetid, squalid hellhole . . to die”  maybe dies . . but maybe not by coronavirus . maybe . he hangs himself . . commits suicide

1319,  Thursday,  16  7. 20

15.7.20


they fired up a bowl of opiated hash

Big Steve hooked him up

Steves business Apogee which he had started with a student college loan was thriving  he sold outrageous bongs to headshops known heads came by the factory and paid under the table

Steve hawked them up and down the coast 

heads and headshops loved them

Steve dabbled in product low volume variety of grass thai sticks blunts hashish

occasionally he ran for Steve though strictly merchandise bongs and pipes steamrollers clips hemostats and occasionally Steve turned him onto a treat in addition to his time and mileage

friends
   

his brotherinlaw flinched they passed the bowl back and forth back an forth FLINCH  Really Nomo

I’m good.

Can be better

You be better.

Dont mind if I do he hit the bowl twice more deep languishing tokes  Man  this shit is delicioustastes like flowers

I didn’t notice.

Ya didnt Because yawere backin out when I said what it was 

I’ve never had opium before.

Laced with oil  Just a tiny bit bulk is hash

Yeah. Not a fan of hash either.

If ya prefer I can twist a joint up for ya Smoke whatcha like keep the roach keep it in the matchbox

No, man, it’s cool, this is good.

Well whadasay  Im warm  Can we hit the pool

Yeah, man, sounds good.


private pool his brotherinlaws the girls were out they werent going to be back until latepossibly spend the night with friends

baching it



after porpoising aroundsavoring the cool blue water they met up in the shallow where they left their beers 

he started talking about some Korean films he saw recently

Subtitled?

Yah Ya hung up on subtitles

I don’t watch them . . 
. . Theyre very good

Too much work, I can’t read that fast, not while watching a film.

Horseshit Said only in America Its horseshit because yahyacan Korea knows our market Theyre worded tersely succinct  Yare just too fuckin lazy

I don’t like them.

Yadon like to be compelled to watch Americans seem casual about film . probably why they prefer mindless violence car chases Prophylactic Commitment prevented

I don’t like them.

Yacant not like something you havent experienced

Yes I can.


Jesus Awright Beer tastes good Brother I am stoned  Howyadoin

A little hig . . 
. . Im a lot high Hope you can keep up

I guess we’ll see.


So gun violence in Americasince were talkin film Did ya know that in Korea handguns are restricted If yacan possibly own one ya cant keep it in your housethe police hold it

I didn’t know tha . . 
. . Yah Yacan buy after a class You fail no sale Yacan buy a hunting rifles or air guns Those are okay to have at home Registered ofcourse   

That doesn’t seem right.

Not right

No.

Far fewer suicides in Korean That seems right

It’s our right to own a handgu . .
. . At the cost of suicides and murders and school children . . wha  fifteentwenty vets a day


Could say those are inherent risks.

Could say no his brotherinlaw went to say something but he cut him off Lemmelemme lemme say Its a horrendous priceSo . unlike here in America . . if a Korean wants to commit suicide they hang themselves they committed suicide with pesticides jump off a bridgeout a window or burned yeontan – coal briquettes – in an unventilated space

Wha Im sayinOutlaw handguns Lives an money saved Anif we wanna commit suicide then we hang ourselves too bufirst we manufacture hemp rope Made in America on . . on halfinch diameter rope . say . fortyfive cents a foot . . six feet . less than three bucks  Yacan do the deed rather than spend fourhundredfifty for a .38 caliber fivehundredfifty for a 9millimeter Think of the money saved  Think of new rope manufacturing in America  Anthen we can utilise more money for mental health money for better lives better public educationFUCK schools-for-profit  Though . . I have to admit . Id love to up-sell . a suicide . . to a 9millimeter . magazine holds fifteenseventeen . sell ‘em a box of munitions . .

I’m lost

Wanem to get practise sodeydon miss

What are you talking about?

So dey don miss

What are, I’m not . I'm not following . .


Am I losin ya . .

Lost. 


Im stoned though I think Im makin sense 

Yeah. I feel like I’m watching a foreign film. 

approximately 1715 -- stoned,  Saturday,  11  7. 20
1307,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  7. 20
Rare Earth  I Know I’m Losing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F28X8--2dFU


the cat next to him left his receipt on the bar

where did they keep that paperChrist yellowed  tea-stained  he couldnt blame the guy for not wanting to put it in his pocket it might spawn or corrupt
                                   he had looked around quickly for a drink menu or a cocktail napkin or a flimsy coaster
Sonofabitch Papers paper
                            he wrote a note on the back of the receipt with a red Bic that went everywhere with him and as she went past him to the Ladies Room he slipped it to her  back to grade school

there was plenty of eye-ogling between them but she was with a table of friends raucous women plying themselves with drinks or wine she was a shot and a beer girl sipped them appreciatively 

he liked that they ganged up to enjoy The Girls Girls girls girls bounced out of their mouths as they shared storiesnever breaking into pockets interacting as a whole

nah he wasnt going to step into thathe wouldnt think to interrupt


returning she walked up to him 

he hadnt been watchingdidnt see her coming 

Smooth she said

he turned to her  Ah you read it I crossed my fingers he held them up to show her she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth her stock was rocketing

I did, with some trepidation, it looked like spoiled fortune from a rotting fortune cookie.

Sorry about that I saw you collecting your purselooked around Fact of the matter beggars cant be choosers

You certainly didn’t write it from a beggar’s perspective.

Would you buy an optimistic beggar

No beggar’s that optimistic.

Ill take that as a compliment

Please. I did have trouble, though, making out your printing; usually that’s reserved for handwriting. Then it occurred to me that it might be part of the intrigue.

Optimism  I wouldnt believe needs intrigues help   I get that a lot Often people guess Im writing in Chinese

So, that said, I think I understood it, although would you mind reading it to me for confirmation?

Id be happy to

some girls at her table began calling her over Girls’ night, D! Desiree! Come on, D!  she acknowledged them held up a finger motioning Wait  In a moment

Desiree

Yes.

Beautiful name It really suits you Parents must have seen into the future 

You ought to see my parents. My family, you’ll excuse me for saying so, is attractive.


he smiled at her Then you understand why I took a chan . . 
. . I don’t think you take chances, at least not without high probability of success – which isn’t to say, right now, youre successful.

she smiled big dimples stock continues to climb

I credit years of random opportunities an being willing to fail  an that Im a little nuts

Your note betrayed you. Please.

Yes
    I wrote Hello my name is Joe Cleverhuh

Rhymes.

Poetry Youre not immune to poetry not when you incit . . 
. . Read on, don’t get full of yourself.

Anfun have humour Ya got a real funny bone

You like funny bones?

I do the things you can do playing a funny bone right
                                                         she rolled her greenagate eyes humour washed pleasantly across her features he felt like he was making headway head for her head for him
                                                                                               as I was saying My name is Joe. 
You said.

Yes

And? Get to the rest. I want to be sure I translated it correctly.
                                                                 her lip curled like a wolves snarl STOCK! WAY UP!

he cleared his throat Our looks across the bar aren’t bringing us closer. You can see I’m interested; you seem interested. So, I’ll tell you what, cut to the chase, have a drink with me and we can tease. But if I finger you, I will split your brain in half as if it were a shelled walnut. 
Itll be nice, my word.

I thought that’s what it said.

Youas you said translated it correctly


Finger me?

Yes

Finger me? her eyes narrowedmaybe a little heat building behind them

Finger you Guess you correctly  Ill take you on a nice ride Desiree

OH.


he smiled at her and whispered Get your mind out of the gutter

a smile snapped on her face
                              Please, may I have a Detour and a shot of RedBreast?


he called the bartender over Please Two Detours Two doubles of RedBreast  Thank you


Okay, Joe, talk to me about how you're going to finger me . . 

hypnagogic 0914,  Twosday,  14  7. 20
1111,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  7. 20

14.7.20


2112
31  1. 20

had to throw those 1s together
                                  nice alignment  clean vertical lines     like a tall woman

he had a tall woman 5’10”

he touched her out by one silly inch then she threw on high heels when they went out 

didnt bother him  brought her breasts closer to his mouth ofcourse yes  her mouth closer to his too

shes voluptuous
                  when she enters a room men look and turn to look letem look shes with him and only has eyes for him 
      likewise

when they met the second time it was really nice to meet a woman who wasnt preoccupied with her appearance 
she didnt wear makeup

shes a natural beauty

Cherokee & Sicilian


Hallie
        no need to guess why 2112 and 31  1. 20 attracted him

originally written on Reggae Friday
1124,  Twosday,  14  7. 20


the Trump Administration is delirious to tickle its propagandic ivories and manipulate the nations coronavirus data


he hoped Americas hospitals would reply Suck my dick!
1631,  Twosday,  14  7. 20


Hmm   pharmaceutical companies making profit off a coronavirus vaccine


start with the CEO
                     and if spectacularly dead CEOs dont get their attention then pharmaceutical Boards

no profit should be made saving Humanity 
1536,  Twosday,  14  7. 20
Pfizer which says it does expect to make money on its vaccine – will have a hard time competing with FREE


                                  “Trump today was asked what he would tell concerned parents who saw news that a teacher in Arizona — another virus hotspot — recently died after teaching a summer school class online. ‘Yeah, the schools should be opened,’ Trump responded. ‘Schools should be opened. Kids want to go to school. You're losing a lot of lives by keeping things closed.’

You’re losing a lot of lives by keeping things (schools) closed.
                                                                eerily reminiscent of House Freedom Caucus member Rep Andy Harris (R-Md)  “The bottom line is that it is safe for children to go back to school. It is not safe for them to remain at home.

how does staying at home equate to . . losing a lot of lives by keeping things closed & It is not safe for them (children) to remain at home

he puzzled
            politics apparently once upon a time was crafted for white male sociopaths and psychopaths

the lurid fantasies that have occurred to him are jawdropping he didnt know he had such a perverse depth
 
1508,  Twosday,  14  7. 20
Rag’n’Bone Man  Human  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wKzyIN1yk


                            No  no no  nono  nah  not confidence  unmitigated hubris  a disease called UH  duh

the president was predatory – no intelligence to appropriate to his thinking – hell be able to say he didnt say it and thereby hang the IDIOT placard around Pences his vice-presidents neck

But wait! the White House is inspired Let’s blame Fauci!
                                                             https://www.cnbc.com/2020/07/14/top-infectious-disease-experts-lend-support-to-fauci-after-white-house-attacks.html 
                                                                White House imbeciles drawing taxpayer-funded salaries


1144,  Twosday,  14  7. 20
https://www.thenation.com/article/society/pandemic-definition-covid/

13.7.20


Anais Nin reminded him  pages thirtytwo through thirtyfour of her unexpurgated diary revealed in Incest
                                                                                                               not to protect anyones ass although she did while she was alivewhile many of her victims were alive  victims she was unmerciful in her assessments


but when everyones deadtheir tongues are dead theyre at the mercy of the diaryist the historian the gospel written by the victor  the ones who didnt die during the conflict

Unexpurgated
                on a books cover caught his attention as did the 60s lurid glossy-covered True Detective magazines  Who would kill a piece of ass like that yakiddin me 

unexpurgated uncensored that made him think of church 
                                                                he was prone to uncensored probably because he was consistently censored at home and school

they seemed to think that they could shut him up with punishments with school detention  no matter he had homework to do threats of suspension which he shutdown he was telling uncomfortable truths he told his teachers the Dean of Boys Howbout you stay home instead

then what they did was disregard himthey wouldnt call on him in class which had he disrupted class would have given them grounds to suspend him
                                    like he didnt see that comingcouldnt figure it out
disregarded

maligned

of the two he preferred maligned and particularly so when he learnedhe had a keen way about him of discoveringcreating leads to learn who maligned him 
                                                        he made it a point
maligners prefer their anonymity

being unidentified
                    or rather as he said  Theyre cowards Aint facing a lion if they dont have to Though eventually they will Kind of like forgiveness People think theyve been forgiven because everyone has a short memory 

his memory -- as his parents said – was corrosively sharp and long he had a lot of slights with which to contend

they werent facing a lion they had help scoundrels cant function without confederates


Nin wrote  I am aware that I cannot catch up on my writing
                                                                likely many sighed to her admission
but that wasnt to say that Nin didnt remember 

he was very sure she remembered evenif she hadnt written it down
                                                                        writers have long memories 

he couldnt keep up on his writing any more than he could count his breaths
                                                                                not that he would find that monotonous think  sexual panting sleepbreathing satiated sighing snorting angrily shallow with expectation shallow with a hope for a long shot to come throughoptimistic determined when thwarted at ease while walking barefooted in the sandfeet and footprints lapped by cool surf holding ones breath as a whale rises spouts and dives again exposing its fluke identifying itself a hawks shriek and dive the inside of a womans thigh when her skirt splits as she gets out of a parked car 
             counting ones breath isnt monotonous  any more than exhaling the bluedsmoke of opium                  
      
1227,  Friday,  31  1. 20
1507,  Monday,  13  7. 20
Jesus Christ Superstar  What’s the Buzz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3LM2iQ8p7A