22.11.19


the FAKE PRESIDENT went on FOX today  ohbrother   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIsnIt1p978

cunt  got caught with his hand in the cookie jar and yet says No 
                                                                   Yes  but it is his party and his party whinesfalls in lockstep directly behind him  cowards

2345,  Friday,  22  11. 19  President Kennedy is spinning in his grave



his daughter texted him  : :  Anxious? (1123 hours)

 : :  He’s anxious to see you. It has been a while.

Anxious. Excited. Happy.

 : :  I always think of anxious in bad ways.

 : :  I don’t ever use anxious in a negative connotation.


 : :  Okay. Good. (1131 hrs)   

 : :  Hahaha. I suppose I should read a series of text messages before answering, rather than going text by text; might save myself some time.

It is an innarestin’ perception to gather, how people read, consume their texts.




(1310 hrs) she texted  : :  I only use it with a negative connotation (i.e., anxious – stress to me).

(1315 hrs)  : :  Haha. Grab “anxious – stress” by its skinny neck and wring it.

Anxious is JOYOUS! filled with as much promise as when the sun rises on the day and colours it with seductive possibilities.

 : :  You make me laugh. Eternally positive.

(1321 hrs)  : :  I try to overwhelm negativity – helps to be an enthusiastic confrontational muthafucker damn sure, cocky, of my stand.

(1322 hrs)  : :  But then, I’ve been a muthafucker since I was 9; it’s my life.


(1330 hrs)  : :  Good job, Papa.

 : :  Good job, yes, but I’ve had wonderful, understanding help along the way. I will always be grateful that my prickishness wasn’t too much for those who loved me, and aided me. Very fortunate.
       

1123,  Saturday,  5  10. 19
1255,  Reggae Friday,  22  11. 19 – JFK would have concurred

21.11.19


yacant make this shit up
                         Bibi  Donny  the FAKE PRESIDENT  joined at the hip in Nazi lockstep highstep giving lip service to all the same old tired Republican talking points

though well have to wait for Bibis Show Trial which is salient  only in regards – should it be forgotten – to those trials Stalin invoked his Purge his Show Trials a million detained a halfmillion executed
                                                                                         that the United States House Permanent Select Committee on Intelligence should be accused of entertaining a Show Trial  as Republican members of that Committee have intoned  is repugnant preposterous ludicrous  those GOP House members should not be returned to Congress

they have steadfastly defied their vowtheir oath to the American Constitution

2318,  Thursday,  21  11. 19



“Life is a rental proposition with no lease; for everybody, tall and short, muscle and fat, white and yellow, rich and poor. I know that now.”
                    a sobering confession
a confession he concurred with he loved concurring  he loved concurring almost as much as he loved fucking You concur? Fuckyes.



life is a rental proposition

he rented his entire lifehe understood it intimately

never did get close to buying owning

too many billstoo many health emergencies and obligations


had he boughtthey bought they would have lost their home  

they stitched paycheck to paycheck and surprise! they didnt go under


some people went on vacation

they met doctor bills and hospital bills
                                        met their daughters college bills  priorities

it would have been nicewonderful to do something other with their money


when his wife complained Why is life so hard? 
                                                  from his experiences before meeting her all he could reply was  Whoever said it was going to be easy


maybe he could have been more gentle more compassionate 
                                                                        maybe
but compassion from where he was from would be phony 
                                                             she was the last person in the world he would ever lie to
he never did

he was skin and bone and brassknuckles  busted jaws
                                                           he wouldnt tell her anything other than what was true

an while she loved him sometimes she didnt like him very much 

which was too fuckin bad

he made a vow to love and honour her
                                         he didnt remember any bitch or lie to lessen their pain

it was their pain shared  an sharing somehow made the pain tolerable


fortunately their pain thresholds were extraordinarily high



they pitied people who whinedwho cried Ouchie ouchieouchie
                                                                 Get a fuckin grip  endure


they endured
               they endured until she died  leaving him to endure for them 



he had no doubt she would not have endured for them
                                                        not a single moment
   

1400,  Monday,  23  9. 19
1704,  Saturday, 16  11. 19

20.11.19



the young man walked on air

an attractive young woman walked into the store under his long armhis hand trailing before her breast through the huuush of sliding automatic doors

she was white

he was Mexican

they were quietly ecstatic  glee showing on their faces


How are you, man?  the young Mexican asked him

Im sensational  though I dare say you might have me beat

Yeah. She’s pregnant. She asked me to marry her.

And

My baby, we’re getting married.

he bit his tongue
                 getting married because youre pregnant  wasnt a good reason
he had buddies also his sister his brother whose pregnancies didnt avert eventual divorces or sidestepped the ensuing years of devolving ugliness that preceded them

get married

then get pregnant

two precedes three
                     at least by how he learned to count


the young Mexican man bought champagne not sparkling wine

he bought himself a nice cigar

It’s a time for celebration; right, boss?

he hated being called boss Every day is worth celebrating

It’s a fine day.  the young man said

Remember it an remember your emotions right now

I ain’t gonna forget, not ever.



he hoped so

1736,  Friday,  15  11. 19
1443, Saturday,  16  11. 19
The Supremes  Love Child  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdmGO-GvHyo
Blue Cheer  Peace of Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjrrcF3sQuU

17.11.19




                                                                                               takin a little trip


Sunday,  17  11. 19



some people might pay to have the dreams he had

                                                             she clutched at herself
her fingers working between her legs
on her knees
her breasts squeezed tightly together
her arms pressing themswelling them

AWWWshe came KAAhrist she gaspedpanted

                                                  when she collapsed on her haunchesher hands falling to her sidesher breasts falling hanging deliciously 
                                     the flush of her orgasm still tingling her cheeksher throat
he brushed her loosened hairs from her face with his fingers Baby that was seismic

she swallowed drily

nodded

she couldnt speak

0736,  Monday,  16  9. 19
1623,  Friday,  15  11. 19

16.11.19





You wouldn't know unless I said


: :  Golly, love  you ran across my mind again and left your beautiful footprints



“I believe in all that is unspoken.”  Rainer Maria Rilke  


he liked Rilkes poetics
                        though he didnt read him enough to . . to challenge him . . . challenging is  probablyNo  its the right word   his sensibilities took issue with the word “believe”

I believe

I think

I know
         believe is the least physical of the three  the weakest


he texted his girlfriend  : :  . . . you wouldn’t know unless I said                                                         
hed rather commit words to paper
                                    on paper in his hand words are decisive  declarative
they are less likely to be twisted out of shape or tortured  defied attempts to subvertchange the context they were used in


when he was younger he wrote incessantly  sixseven letters a week

in the few letters he received back he found his wordswhat he said were often taken out of context so often in fact that he began writing with carbons and mimeographing his letters so when he received return letters he correctedcombated their disinformation dysfunction 

sometimes his replies cited entire paragraphs

perhaps they didnt think hed be so thorough with his casual daily correspondences

out of sight out of mind  he minded

Who does that? they wrote

he did
       he had little patience being misquoted maligned Kaahrist Its family and close friends an always on his tongue was  State your source. Provide your evidenceNOT accusatory more from his staid point  one two three a b c  their reasons in descending order
THAT was his nature


it was apparentevident  one shouldnt get on the wrong side of him


he had a short fuse



whether in a letter or in person

1220,  Twosday,  17  9. 19
1519,  Friday,  15  11. 19

15.11.19




the light was better in the livingroom to write
natural
         as opposed to writing under a lightbulb  

in the livingroom he was nearly under a skylight
                                                   to his right was a bank of windows unfettered by curtains or blinds

he opened the two French doors

as he did overhead he heard a hawk cry
                                           no better affirmation



he teased his daughterhis son-in-law that their home was as much childproofed as it was grandparentproofed  for him he couldnt speak for his son-in-laws parents
maybe they knew how to escape
Door ajar  the system warned

No a door is a door  it is never a jar


there was a shallow woven basket at his elbow that held a blackplastic controller likely it controlled the plasma television screen above the fireplace gas fed the music system  the security system 
he didnt have any ideahe didnt want to know

he chose to have no aptitude for the technology


there were three laptops in the livingroom

they were locked by passwords
                                  an even if he knew the words Word up! he wasnt enticed he preferred the security of his PC look at him and his acronym he despised acronyms he preferred his tower and screen and faulty keyboard the keyboard was reminiscent of a steel-caged Underwood typewriter he banged his school papers and thoughts out on

he was from the Stone Age
                           rather  the Stoned Age
unencumbered
freeer

less clothed
less madeup
rarely tatted
more humane

then he thought of the freaks today makingup policy 
                                                       fuckers commiserate to his agehis years though probably since childhood they were overinflated overindulged  they were taught they were exceptional Why wouldnt they buy into their parents and that cultures assessment
Money talks!


they were never exceptional

he would have loved to have a fistfight with one

but that wasnt possible

they had someone else who would do that  they didnt believe in physical labour




the livingrooms silence was a balm
                                     like the silence inside his twentyteight year old vehicle
no air
no heater
no defroster

no radio

no cassettes


the power locks still worked
                              though his familyhis daughters were grown  he didnt have to worry about protecting them
the power windows still worked

as did the sun roof the closest hed ever come to owning a convertible


driving in it he achieved mobile Zen




when he arrived at his daughters home she shared with him something she had written 

with it she gave him a blue lace agate
                                        the agateshe insisted would provide him gentleness 
You should treat yourself better.

You dont think Im gentle with myself

No. You seek adversity, which provides you a reason to confront, and to be antagonistic.

Im fine baby Mars is my ruling planet Aries is always spoiling for a fight Its my nature Either inherent or inherited
I dont give a fuck Im comfortable in my own skin

Im sorry if I distress you

You should try not to worry about me

Ive been on the planet longer than you 

Gives me a sort of seniorityhuh


she smiled at himtshe had this beatific smile a smile that understands  that encourages  that is accepting yet compelling

he hated when she smiled that smile at him because he couldnt be other than who he was even if he tried

she had to know that


he inhabited a wolf in sheeps clothing



woe to those who didnt see


1124, Twoday,  17  9. 19
1443,  Thursday,  14  11. 19

14.11.19




paraAmerica
               Rolls off the tongue like silkdon it  huh


perhaps he ought to feel ashamed by thinking it

butthen
         he was never ashamed of the truth



it came to possess him as he drove beside one of the sea to shining seas
                                                                             the Pacific  specifically
the stretch of 101 north of Santa Barbara

he had lifted his eyes to the rearview mirror to the noise of knobby offroad tires coming up fast behind him seventythree miles an hour isnt fast enough

offroad tires on the highway amused him a bent functionality  not particularly bright

however
          it wasnt his wallet which in itself also humoured him he didnt carry a wallet  an people afforded themselves extraordinary things  all the time


it was a matte desert camo-painted Toyota pickup

accelerating up on him it crossed into the passing lane without signaling just off his bumper 

maybe the driver thought he was Mad Max

he had to arrest an urge to hit his brakesforcing the driver to swerve on knobby tires he wondered how that might work out                                                                                           
arrested
          as the pickup sped loudly by him he saw the driver had removed the vehicles doors the driver wore matching camo pants and a sandcoloured tshirt

he was either a civilian mockedup or a GI mockedup civilian


no sooner had the marvelous ensemble passed him it crossed sharply in front of himperilously close

wisely he touched his brakescreated a comfortable space  the driver had probably caught him raised his ridiculeeyebrow reason why he didnt play poker

the driver didnt raise his eyes to his rearview mirror either he was too cool or oblivious but after all  he was trying to live in the drivers world
Excuse me all to hell

crossing as close as it did he saw mounted in a cage on its fanny beside a knobby spare tire two camoed five-gallon gas tanks

What crap he thought
that cinched it

nutted him up
               inviting him to cumblow a gasket


America
         is paraAmerica 

quietly hemorrhaging blatantly heroworshipping 

narcissistic

quasiNationalistic

phony militaristic  

paramilitaristic

parasitic


worse
            paraHuman 

1045,  Sunday,  10  9. 19
1111,  Thursday,  14  11. 19
The Sound  Skeletons  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4S_Ia24fjg4     

10.11.19

Ohbrother what was he supposed to do now

the Pharmacy closed in ten minutes

the pharmacist was a woman
                               he didnt know women were even interested in pharmaceuticals hed never seen a woman behind the counter before  granted  he spread his business around but never in any of the other drugstores he frequented did he meet a woman pharmacist

time was forcing his hand 
                           he couldnt make it to another drugstore before they closed

he had a hot date this evening  Cappy  curly raven hair  olive complexion  Italian  crazy body  theyd been aching from afarfriends for a year  enamoured  but the timing was never right  relationships  neither was free when the other was  until a week ago when her boyfriendidiot dropped her

when he caught wind of her being unattached he beat ass to her place to find out from Cappy herself no word of mouth for him

Cappy

Joe. How are you?

I think I might be elated

Elated?
Yah 
     she smiled real big what a beautiful mouth Why elated?   

Are you kidding me

Am I kidding you?

Youre killing me  

Ive heard youre free


Yes. Didn’t see that coming. Tommy got a hard-on for one of the twins that moved into town.

The Seagrams

Yes, the Seagrams.

How do you get a hard-on for one identical twin and not the other her smile began breaking down Or maybe Tom doesnt have to choose  Dig

You’re asking me if I dig? he broke up with me . .
 . An kicked the door open for you and I

Finally

her smile began to grow again
                               then she erupted in gay unbrooked laughter
she didnt cover her mouth
she had a beautiful mouth
                            full lips
white even teeth 
                  her old man must have spent a ton of dough on her mouth 

few kids in his neighbourhood were afforded pretty teeth big families needed food  crooked teeth chewed as good as straight teeth

when she came downwhen her wonderful laughter subsided tears in her eyes Yes, Joe.  Finally.

he got swept up in her Finally 
                              he got his right arm around herpulled her body up tight against his paused  looking her in the eyes HUUGE brown eyesflecked green he waondered in them he smiled she smiled warmlyshe didnt resist she put her arms around him he kissed her deeplyhed never kissed her before hed always wanted to his cock grew against her belly  she was aware  she held him tighter
they  kissed  deeper . . .



he and Cappy were going out on their third date 

the petting of their second date had them come out of their clothes in the back seat of his parents ninepassenger Town and Country Chrysler  he spread her legs he admired her  she looked asif she wanted to protest  Cappy Youre beautifulabsolutely beautiful she quieted  he motioned with his eyes and said Take the arm of the door she slowly raised her arms up over her head and took the door  Dont let go his voice was husky with passion Dont let go of it she glistened  then slowly  deliberately  he placed his hand on her he slipped one finger inside her she moved her hips against his hand he slipped his finger out teased her clit round and round slowly  she closed her eyes but not before she looked deeply into his and smiled then she smiled wantonly licentiously  whatever embarrassment she had it was flushed over and arrested by her passion she smelled wonderful he played with her clit chased it awkwardly  chased it accurately dug her face moving with mocked frustration as he teased her  then seriouslyadamantly when he found her spot

he went down on her lapped sucked her  she groaned while playing her with his mouth he slipped a wetted finger bitbybit in her ass she bucked he withdrew it he slipped two fingers bitbybit gently up her ass she groanedgrunted let go of the door with one hand flailing then finding his head she yanked his hairpulled his face tight to her his tongue deeper his fingers deeper inside her  she buckedbucked against his facehis fingers panted she panted buckedpantedgroaned panted OHshe gaspedgasped GASPED raucously she Ooohedshe came she squirted  My god she moaned then moaned animally emanating from deep deep inside her throat

he wanted to be inside her 
                              wanted
want is a good thing


finally she opened her eyesher hand still clutching his hair 

he smiled it was hidden by her mons pubis by wet lazy curls his eyes smiled 

she returned his smile

he licked her  a long slow  doglick from anus to clit then he kissed her clit hardkissed her once more between her wet parted legs

he nuzzled the insides of her thighs as he got up on his arms his knees

she let go of his hairreturned her hand to the door arm

she didnt take her eyes off his face he smiled at her 
                                                         then he turned his eyeshis attention to his cock
he gripped his erection and poked it against her ass her breath quickened he leaned against her paused  she held her breath  he dragged his cock slowly up to her pussy to her widespread lips pushed his cock down with his thumbthe head of his cocknestled nestled at her she pushed with her armspushed her bodyher pussy to receivetake to take him
he lifted his eyes to hers  they stared long

he let go of his cock it slapped up against his belly  she pouted  he smiled  she pouted more

hoarsely Careful A bird could perch on that pout Cappy But maybe thats my intention too

she laughedrather  cooed

he straightened her legs out between his then saddledslid up her hips to her belly  

Hold your tits Cappy squeeze them tight together My turn

she pressed their weight together  watched eagerly

he wanted to be eager too but didnt

he put his hands on the edge of the doorthe window was cold at his fingertips and slowlyever so slowly he fucked her tits watched her rapt attentionher focus on his cockher tongue working under her lipsthe tip of it parting them peeking receding Christ Christhe thought

                                                         then
                                                                    she purredturned her eyes up to his Fuck my tits, Joe. Fuck my tits. FuckmeJoe his hands went to the front benchto the seatback of the backseat  he thrusted thrusted  his nuts balled  a bolt gathered  he sexgrimaced Elvissneered  her eyes went madly between from his his cock his eyes cock eyescockeyescock  an she saw in his face  an lockanloaded on his cock he came ferociously a bolt struck her widowspeak a second bolt lasered a Z under her eyeacross the bridge of her noseacross her upper lip a third easing lashed her tits
                she opened her mouth he slipped up her tits between his thighs she grabbed his hipsgrabbed his ass
he thrusted thrusted  in her mouth



Well  later she said We certainly made a mess back here.

Yah his vision was finally untweaking  Yah we did

I like it, our mess. I like it a lot.she hadnt wiped off her face she noticed he noticed  she smiled big

she ran her tongue across her upper lips Hmmm. You ought to kiss me.

he didnt say Fuckyah he leaned forward and kissed her deeply their faces got mussed with his cum   would have been a great time for a cop to tap on the steamedup windows  to move them along





almost eightclosing time  

like it or not she was the gatekeeper 

who spends five minutes picking out a pack of gum  actually he picked out three  Clove Beemans Black Jack

I have to close in five minutes the pharmacist said

Yes I know

Ill take the gum and a half dozen rubbers

she seemed to be watching the words come out of his mouth her eyes opened wide at rubbers quickly she asked  Condoms?

You say condoms I say rubbers potato potatto  Yah

she smiled Yes.

he was a bit uncomfortable but he summonsed his best poker face  it definitely was enabled by the thought of poking her  penetrating Cappy

Which condom did you want?

Which condom do you prefer

she gulped

                  I prefer the ribbed ones; they help, ah pleasure . . a woman.

Im game Your ribbed ones please

she smiled largeshe brushed a lock of red hair from above her eye off her forehead

Well get you locked up on time he looked  on her breast was a nametag Angel she had nice breasts under her palegreen tunic went well with her green eyes he hadnt noticed earlier actually very nice breasts and eyes

she blushed
              maybe female pharmacists can read minds I like your candor; I like that you’re using, using sounds coarse, nevermind, that you’re being smart.

Im not often accused of being smart Thank you Angel

No. You are. I wish more boys . . no, you’re not a boy . . a young man, I wish more young men bought – there – bought, not used, condoms.

she was the one who now was uncomfortable they swapped  You get a kickback for recommending the ribbed condoms

Oh goodness, no.

Well there ought to be something in it for you Youre dispensing practicaltried and true advice she blushed Your recommendation has sold me on doing business with only youwith this drugstore yaknow for all my health needs

Thank you. Six, correct?

Lets make it a dozen

A dozen? a smiled curled over her mouth  A dozen.

Yah I think so 
I suppose Ill see you inside a week he smiled  You work evenings Angel hurriedly My names Joe  he didnt want to seem overt  improper

I do . . Joe.

Look at us On a first name basis

I prefer first names You Takes the formality out of a relationship Cements it

he extended his hand to her Angel So very nice to meet you

she accepted it Joe

then shaking over one another they chorused Nice grip

still holding hands they laughed together




when Tommy came crawling back to Cappy  crying apologising after he found out that she was enthusiastically seeing Joe  seeing one of two identical twins seemed wearying Tommy couldnt tell them apart 

Cappy decided to go back with Tommy Fuck

I love him.

You love him Then its right for you

Yes. Thank you, Joe. You have always said, always wanted, what was right, felt right, for me.

Cappy I want honesty  

And honestly  Ill miss what we shared

It was crazy nice

Crazy nice? It was insane! you turned me inside out! I can’t function inside out. I need something more staid, I’m sorry. But that’s who I am.

Knowing who you are is the battle

It is, isn’t it?

It is




before he left for Miami a year later  after Cappy  after Jane after Janeyafter Janeys voracious Karmann Ghia convertiblewha the fuck was her name built  must be Jello cuz jam dont shake like thatBECKY  OhJesus  Becky

after Cappy  in some nice crazy way  Angel

she did dig the ribbed condoms
                                 when they werent otherwise entertained embroiled  roiled  crazed

she was the only redhead he was ever with
     

1439,  Reggae Friday,  8  11. 19
1604,  Saturday,  9  11. 19

Sugarloaf  Green-Eyed Lady  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_i7PKdQJU4