its always nice to write with that thin  mercurial   quivering edge of liquor the corona its bright leaks obliterating his continuity

if youre looking for continuity  bundle up packup  youll have to find it elsewhere this shit HA siht  this siht aint for you

     doncha hate it when someone tells ya it aint for you

for him hed gag forcefeed himself  wipe the tears out of his eyes   vomit only after his persecutor left the room

they might win out

not that theyd know

Sue loved cock

she never did say OBVIOUSLY  why

he never asked

never

how would he ask 

                    So ah  Sue  Whos cock you suck first  When

yad have to be a piece of shit to spring that question some clown who didnt want head

maybe if one became  intimate   with her ya kiddin me

intimate

intimate

         when youre #4 in a line of six guys yer dicks out shes mowin ya down like a pro barely a breathe in between her lips mouth teeth slick with cum her eyes on yers  not that ya could takes yer eyes off her like ya wouldnt be watching sharp  she dragged her teeth on ya 

                                                    ya pay attention 

he paid a distilled attention  

she was the third girl to take his cock in her mouth  

she wasnt shy

not shy

         she was hot

she didnt spit his cum into a tissue 

she took it 

            that was hot

dont get him wrong he was gratefulterribly grateful to the tissue gaggers

he just didnt know it could be this hot

he was infatuated

he made an end-run made himself #7 in the line of six 

                                                          wasnt one cock like another

the other guys zipped upeyes bugged they headed back upstairs out of the basement back to the party

Yakiddinme?

Huh

I said clearly  Yakiddinme

playing stupid had worked for him in other arenas   Huh

You retarded? dont understand English?

Quoi

Quoi? she laughed You got a sense of humour.

Oui

First year French?

Quoi

Junior high, first year of French. Idiot.

You don’t remember? We were in the same French class. But Siemers had you sit up front because he had a thing for you.

If youd have blown him you could have gotten an A in French.

Siemers  Seventh grade  Yah   You were in that class

Yah. Don’t suppose you could have noticed, all the girls were seated in back. We could have been fingerfucking each other for all he cared.

Christ

You tried real hard. I remember.

Verb conjugation.

You struggled.

You struggled she laughed with a noun being masculine or feminine.

I can still remember your crazy exit on your way to Sweat’s office: What does sex have to do with a noun?

I couldn’t believe you were that thick.

But you were really cute.

Us girls liked you, a lot.

You should have paid more attention, rather than sports, rather than playing with the boys.

I might have blown you sooner.

Oh my, you’re eager she tugged on his hard-on You’re all ready to go again.

for all his excitementhis panting he didnt have breath to answer her so he nodded he nodded like a freakin bobblehead

she smiled

            she curled her lips bared her teeth like a wolf

Sue    Sue 

               she loved cock

2226, Saturday,  8  6. 19

0252,  Sunday,  9  4. 19

she was a redhead
                     so why did he think think  shed know what the Mueller Report was  he wasnt being derogatoryclassifying redheads  just remarking of his experience with them

he knew better as he wouldnt have thought a buxomblonde would have known of the Report eitheragain by his experience

and those experiences informed him to keep redheads and blondes at arms length

the redheads he knew were cerebral

but that cerebralityHA cerebrality he liked that an awful lot meant their attention was blinkeredthey saw neither right nor left they were extremely focused straight ahead  honed like a laser

                                                                         although that said he particularly liked it when they were all about his cockthere was nothing like a woman who enjoyed pleasuring him which he did in kind discovering theirs and making them happy

they had amazing fucks 
                          he still fantasised about themplayed with his cock  

but neither they nor he amounted to anything more than a sensational fuck

when they came off his cock they swung back to their focused compelling passions  fixations 

he called them fixations

they didnt like that

they suggested You ought to shaddup.

I ought to shaddup  We ought to just fuck

Yes.

Ahyes but just fucking gets old when thats all you have in common

water eventually boils out of a hot pan

and nobody likes being burned

1444,  Sunday,  2  6. 19
1231,  Monday,  3  6. 19

Kinks  Got my Feet on the Ground  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NftN7IY6Ec

he found it awkwardnot inappropriate  honestly it was safer for single women  he wasnt disgruntled  he was just terribly sorry that terms between peoplebetween men and women had been degraded 

                                                                          but because he was a friendly sort enjoyed engaging people sharing Good day How are you he still thought it awkward if he found himself walking towardssharing a sidewalk with a woman there are few pedestrians found it was awkward that many women didnt raise their eyes as they approached each other and many more who didnt acknowledge his wellwishing

she was a younger woman

slender

not particularly attractive

a plain Jane

she was just walking 

purse slung over her shoulder 

no earbuds in

he had seen her at a distance when he briefly lifted his eyes up out of his book to spy the terrain he would walk

traffic was busy on his left otherwise he would have crossed and let her forego his Hello Happy Twosday he understood the unfortunate degradation

passing her he tipped his book forward raised his eyes Hello  Happy Twosday

she didnt have any of it

she averted her eyes left  away from himmaking him wonder with what she contended that she couldnt bring herself to be courtesy

perhaps she was born to parents who lacked social graces or werent attendant  or she was a keylatch kid  

others called it latchkey  but keylatch reminded him of Polish kolaches  delicacies he enjoyed as a boy  and perversely he enjoyed something indelicate rubbing up against a delicacy 

he tried to let his wondering pass

why unfortunately she had to own her lack of courtesy

something grated him  

                       and grating him he cast a look back at her retreating form

she was tugging at the butt of her shorts

which made him laugh

theres nothing like being caughtwhen you thought you werent

he had daughters

over his humourover his right shoulder  courteously he had taken the curbpassed closest to the street as a gentleman would he said after her Thats the bitch about thongs kid they dont keep yer ass from eating your pants     

1625,  Twosday,  28  5. 19

1147,  Thursday,  30  5. 19

Missing Persons  Walking in LA  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80WyBxo0Hto  

Daughter  Human  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbCeyb9okac

Daughter  Doing the Right Thing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zSGlbPI3ss

had to clean that off the counter

                                 he knew what it was

however having feral cats he didnt wanna think what it could be otherwise  

it was slopped coffee from when he tried placing the full carafe back into the cradle of the inexpensive Proctor Silex coffeemaker  

         he only needed something simplesomething that didnt tell time have preset capabilities or could scratch his balls for him

he liked to do things for himself

automation wasnt his thing

he wetted a sponge and wiped away the coffee spatter There he thought now it doesnt look like a cat shat on the counter 

he thoughttalked to himself

it gave him comfort 

                    nearly the same comfort as talking to his cats who to the best of his knowledge didnt understand English they probably spoke French or another Romance language

people covet comfort 

                     they take it in all kinds of shape and manner

sometimes their comfort is destructive albeit comfortingly destructive

but who is anyone to tell another what they should or shouldnt do when they ought to grasp that they should have their hands full of themselves

Love thyself aint a part-time gig

hed meet very few people who had the capacity to juggle themselves and others without they or the other suffering some kind of innocent neglect

innocent neglect

                        yes

he had found images of Louise Bourgeois work a new book paired her and Picasso

he wished he might have found Bourgeois works sooner and thought maybe he had otherwise something akin to her organic fashions or faux-arachnids visited his dreams

he didnt think shed much worry about cleaning that off the ocunter sometimes its really nice to get ahead of oneself misstroke  sit back  and wonder what to make of ones err  to err is human (to forgive, divine) hed stick with err  there was nothing divine in him

he could relate to Bourgeois obsessionher art

as he could relate to others

who withheld their art

who were shy

or feared it

it taking them outside that realm called normal

who the fuck wanted to be normalto be that round peg pounded unmercifully into that  round  receptive   hole

hole

         hole

it doesnt magically change into a whole unless one changes it

change is difficult 

                    uncomfortable

it is good to recall that people covet comfort 

                                              because some people beat other people to death with their comfort 

no different than being maced with their own Mace stabbed with their own knife shot with their own gun

he mused 

                    was amused

0953,  Saturday,  8  6. 19

Iron Butterfly  Most Anything You Want  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfjFhl9iKR0

Molecules of freedom!

Drumpfs Energy Department is trying to rebrand fossil fuels as drumroll Molecules of freedom  https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/george-clinton-tells-pulitzer-winner-how-to-keep-it-funky-61512773862

think its about time to clear his mind with a thick lengthy dildo

No no no its not anal rape its Moby helping him free his mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=calm3oK08QU

ROCK that bass beat

CHRIST 

0011,  Saturday,  8  6. 19

zat indawha

wha indafuck

                 sometimes he spoke in tongues

while he spoke them he had an idea what they meant

however 

          on the other side of it the gushing run to a poor dribble it was goneits comprehension at an end he scribbled zat indawha and wha indafuck before the onslaught swept the pen from out of his hand because he couldnt hope to take dicktation or even knew how the words were spelled  maybe if he honed his phonetics

that was a big maybe

his visiting tongues were infrequent

they usually caught him with his pants down when all he could do was enjoy the guttural braying  spilling   nonsense

although he had a feeling it wasnt nonsense

it reminded him of freestylin letting fly whaneeded to be said

jeat

no jew

whaneeded to be expelled  exhelled

                                      kept in would cause him grievous bodily harm

anif yabody aint been grievously harmed 

then yahaf no idea wha he was talkin bout

seventeen broken bones

kidney damage

concussions

bad back

in four years

                yapay tention

2108,  Monday,  3  6. 19

1123,  Twosday,  4  6. 19

Rod Stewart  Maggie May  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOl7dh7a-6g

it was time to get back to glass before we ever entertained all-things-PLASTIC recycle my ass  plastics created a Throwaway WorldThrow it away! Everything is dispensable  Ah  the US aint indispensable

plastics are economical so the Industry says of course they would  they have skin in the game less weight to transport breakage minimised -- which simply means they dont have to take care -- they can throw product around like baggagehandlers  

plastics fed us a mickey took us back to its room and had its way with us sssh its still having its way with us

call a spade a spade 

                       its rape

were being raped (to death) in the name of the Almighty Buck and those who passionately pursue it think theyre someone for others to aspire To be

To be a sociopath

To be a psychopath

To be  or not to be

1056,  Thursday,  6  6. 19

https://www.npr.org/sections/thesalt/2019/06/06/729419975/microplastics-have-invaded-the-deep-ocean-and-the-food-chain?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20190606&utm_campaign=breakingnews&utm_term=nprnews&utm_id=28916831 

to know life you have to fuck it “in the guts” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwHjLMLdnf8

he was smelling a little ripe even with the windows to the house flung wide open

it had been a hot night

he was too lazy to throw off a blanketthough thats not fair he was coerced he had kittens and their momma sleeping between his legs

he took one for the team

he threw a leg out into the night air

when he woke at shortly after five the kittens were tearing around the bedroom the hall the house doubling back traipsinghurling across the bed over his body in more ways than he could count and then again in ten minutes  an another ten then maybe fifteen 

he slept intermittently

                        even with them off his body he didnt shed the second blanket he sweat was too lazysleepily to throw it off

he sweated

             left his body to its tasks

typically he left his body to its druthers he hadnt met one but he was sure they were ugly and formidable

if his body couldnt take care of it and him  then what good was it

when he fell sick

he let his body dig him out

thats why he had it he didnt need chemicalspharmaceuticals to diminish the body he was born into

when the time came that it couldnt hold up its end hed check his dance card

                                                                                 because maybe there wasnt anyone he was eager to dance with 

everything would come down to them

theyd present themselves

they were intimate

So his body asked  how yawanna play this?

How do I wanna play this Isnt this whacha get paid the big bucks for

I suppose it is.

Then do whacha need to do

It may not be comfortable for you.

Sometimes comforts a luxury Do whacha need to do

Anif I can’t?

If yacant  then we had a good run a bitchin run

I’ve always admired that about you.

Thank you for sayin so

                         I got my pom-poms outmy short shirtaint wearin panties Im cheerin for yacheerin for us

Awh Christ, not too many split kicks, okay?

Ill try he winked

You’ll try? You’re such a tease.

Ya love me

1144,  Twosday,  4  6. 19

D-Day

        

                    D-Day

no disrespect intended  Duh-Day 

                                  he asked nearly every customer who waltzed up to his register to buy liquor how they were going to commemorate D-Day June Sixth

unfortunately

                 a terribly thin portion of his customers Americans   Americansmind you  had no idea what he was talking about  foreign tourists did

when he told them what D-Day waswhy he asked  they asked him if he was sure

Am I sure  

              Im sure I asked youyou didnt ask me  So Ill ask again more blatantly  How are you going to commemorate perhaps the single greatest day in modern World History in American History

he would have anticipated some quiet embarrassmentmodest chagrin that they hadnt know the historical significance of June Sixth

instead 

          a lackluster Oh my bad                                                                                                             

My bad

these were people old enough to breed  

                                             probably had 

their kids are fucked

not to minimise D-Daywhat happened seventyfive years ago

he was hoping for a harbinger of a new d-day a democratic day  a day for Democrats to finally stand up against an American president who is a grifter a cunthed call him that to his face if he had the chance quoting MSNBC analyst Jeremy Bash: . . if America was challenged again as it was in the 1940s, would we stand up to a Hitler, would we stand up to a tyrant; and the answer is if we look at the honour and sacrifice of previous generations, hopefully, we would muster the courage.

it is terrible to place what is honestwhat is necessary  as courage   most courageous acts happen without thinking  acting by natural inclination

acting morally

  

2258,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 5  6. 19

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/trump-s-loose-lipped-overseas-interview-that-has-heads-spinning-61380677886