18.2.18

Karmaman




What the hell are you wearing?

Wearing Oh  my K tshirt   You like it

It looks something like Superman’s S that he wears on his chest

Excellent  I was inspired by itthat was my intent  You picked up on it immediately

Hard not to, the red and yellow against the blue background, except it’s shortsleeved whereas Superman’s is long sleeved.

Gotham versus the Pacific Coast  Really how often do we have to wear longsleeved shirt aside from the occasion when we dressup formallydo monkeysuits for workkinds of work I never sought

Well  I’ll admit while Superman’s longsleeves hint at his arms underneath your shortsleeves leave nothing to imagine, there’s no doubt.

Thank you

You’re welcome, however you’re fit, been fit, and cut, I say with some reluctance, because you’re older than me and make me feel that I should look more like you than I do.

Different circumstances

Yes.  So what’s the K stand for?

It refers to karma

Karma. Like you’re what, Karmaman?

I like that Yes  Thank you 

Karma. Why Karmaman?

You can drop that anytime you like  You recall me talking about my girlfriend being attacked

I do.

Then maybe youll recall that because the prick was unidentifiedlikely to get away with the assault  that you mentioned even if he does eventually karma will catch up with him

Oh yes. There’s always karma.

And then youll remember we remarked that thats the bitch about karma  that it happens and we who were victims of being wronged miss out on them suffering karmic retributionwe just have to trust what goes around comes around  Miserable cause and effect

Yeah.  I remember.

Well everybody whos asked about the tshirt Im telling the K is for karma  an they can help affect an earlier karma on those who deserve ithave earned it  I urge them to be vigilant  I tell them so  However I also cant help but hope that some will be more than just vigilantmore like me   Ill brain a muthafucker if I have the misfortune to witness them hurting someone

I would too.

You said so when we talked




So you truly are Karmaman.
Fuck you


eveningTueday,  13  2. 18
1420,  Sunday,  18  2. 18
The White Stripes  Effect and Cause  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzWckYfZhbA

17.2.18


                  sometimes it happened like this not always   she wasnt sure what she heard
it fell in with the musicbehind itnestled in the lyrics the verse its modulations falling like gaycoloured autumn leaves or grayashfluttering from above in the pipedmusic that coursed through the store  she wasnt listeningnot really  she concentrated on her optionstried to read past the marketingtried to read their fine print that was worked and conspired very hard to dissuade her from reading  she was trying to get at the truth of the productspeeling back the layers like an onion and each layer frustrating her eachto her mind deceptive evading the truth  like a clusterfuck of attorneys or other professionals who sang their severe circumspect vernacular lingoes to exclude outsiders stokeanthrill insiders

                                                              sometimes it was like this
sometimes it came in night terrorsfusillades of deathcold sweat
                                                                          sometimes she intuited it a queer feeling she had to pay attention toan itch she couldnt scratch forced to concede   to wait    
                                                                                     until it presented itself


this evening it was a voice calling to her  distorted   making her work hard to decipher itidentify it    she couldnt hear who was speaking   who  

she put the boxes she held in her hands back on the shelfshe tilted her head  her left ear upright ear up  long ago she discerned that each was more susceptible than the other to frequenciessounds   she slowly rocked her head side to side to sense which ear would be favored
 

                  Ah her name  elongated    her name distorted      coming from far off


the voice

      then the voice clearer
and the clearer the voice became tears seeped into her eyes  they welled uprolled onto her eyelidssparkled in her eyelashesslipped relieved to her sharp cheekbones her cheeks 

she wept unapologetically


she stood in the aisle weeping



she left the basket that held the other items she intended to buy on the floor before the shelves and walked out of the store oblivious to the eyes that saw herheads that turned to follow her out of the store onto the seldom used sidewalk into the night marred by flickering neon glaring headlights sheets of whitepaned storefronts that relentedgiving way to brush cultured bushes tall trees bluepaned house windows

at home thered either be a uncommitted message on the telephone machine Give me a call or shed sit in a candlelit dark and wait for the telephone call to come  the event not yet happenedbut soon  


premonitions   foreseeing     neither

                                         knowing
since she was a girl



she befriended it

it was between the two of them


                                  old friends



Thursdayevening,  15  2. 18
1510,  Saturday,  17  2. 18

16.2.18




cunt  deadpanlying through his teeth
                                         robotically myopically reading from surrounding teleprompters: “It is not enough,” he pronounced, “to simply take actions that make us feel like we are making a difference. We must actually make that difference.”   

maybe he can explain his rhetoric his bullshit against this:
                                        https://www.thenation.com/article/how-trump-is-undermining-the-fight-against-mass-shootings/utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Daily%2002152018&utm_term=daily

cunt cant help from hanging himself daily(must think hes a meth (Methuselah – Altered Carbon) an can re-iterate himself unscathed unscabbed unsoiled

1241,  Friday,  16  2. 18
1069 days remaining or less
John Mellencamp  Crumblin Down https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G68ziTDKGn8

15.2.18



Linda
       her legs went on and on and on foreverhe never did get tired of turning her over and over again to admire her forevers
            Man girl  you got any pictures of your parentscuz you won out with some mighty fantastic genes

Linda was six-twoshe touched him out  had a lithe figure which he usually wasnt drawn to  a short blonde shagwhich he usually wasnt drawn to  but what snapped his neckdoubletaking was the high cutoff jeansher cheeks peekingout like firm peaches and the shortietop tshirt emblazoned in mother-of-pearl silvertrimmed shimmering BITCH
                                                                                                               how could he not want to get to know her despite his various aversions

with his mind arguing against him as he trailed her across the Union he shuthimdown Now you listen to me  Its time we went outside ourselvestook a walk on the wild side

Man you dont have a line

Nobody should have a line


it was a blurhe didnt remember what he said to her from behindMYGOD what a view that stopped herturned herwheeled her around on her platform sandals  six-five  a long long captivating six-five   he parked it somewhere outside his body and let his soul talk
                           talktalktalk while he gazed into her crystalblue eyes watched her smile break on her faceher arms relaxingher hands becoming animatedher blood quietly pulse in her throat

she was magnificent  she spoke with an Eastern seaboard accent  intelligently  


BITCH he was coming down from the grandstands

Don’t you think?  Don’t you think  haughty BITCH?                                                              
Intriguing BITCH

Bitches intrigue you?

Labeled BITCH you intrigue me his voice was thickhusky standing directly in front of her Would you like to have a drink with me at the Checkmate this evening I dont have a car wed have to hoof it

I have a car.


You realise youve implied yes   Yes I have a car

Am I shaking your confidence?

You shake me up but you havent grazed my confidence


I like that you admit I shake you up.


Id be a fool to say otherwise


And I’d be a fool not to admit you shake me up too. Men rarely approach me.

Youre intimidating

I didn’t intimidate you.

Well  I can take No

Women say no to you.

Women have said No  But more women have said Yes  Ive been encouraged by the odds

You don’t appear to me to be someone who needs much encouragement.

I dont need any encouragement when interest screams in my ear  An interest absolutely howled when I saw you  I would have been unnatural if I didnt follow youtake a chance

Because, you can take No?

That   An because I wanted to see youlook you in the face  Look into your eyes

Sometimes a sip of water can quench a terrible thirst



What time this evening? I have labs . .
. . You have the car
                      BITCH  you tell me

Are we going to make some mileage out of my tshirt?

We will  At least until we get you out of your tshirt

                                                                      


LindadrovethatyearsVetteCheckmateLoungewasoutonUSOneMontyAlexanderTrioshehadaLemonDropMartinihehada RustyNailshehadasecondshethrewhimthekeystheydrovetoacondosheownedNorthBayTowersoverlookingPelicanIsland theytoreitupforamonth 
                        theywereablur


0943,  Thursday,  15  2. 18

14.2.18



First World problems

                    then there are First World hoi polloi problems
                                                                          hoi polloi the masses  the commonfolk
the commonfucks who cant afford exotic fucks questionable fucks  who lack influence affluencewho havent game to play in second or third home parlours own Mercedeses seek Excesses  Exceed Excesses  Excesses are Best or are morally degenerate(he was once told You dont have enough money to be immoral)


not that hoi polloi are humble
                             they might have been as cancerous too had they stumbled into a different birthright

America  is a land founded in birthrights


besides  hoi polloi
                 sounds like a disease



First World hoi polloi problems
                                 she was attacked assaulted  victimised
she didnt care for those wordsbeing associated with their terminology

What  I should say your unlucky   I call a spade a spade you were victimised  If you dont like itgive me a different word

I dont want to be called a victim   It suggests Im weak

Weak   It might suggest your attacker was a coward I could be victimised Im not weak  You have to own up to what happened to you or by being intransigent youll only hurt delay your recovery   You know what else youre gonna hate

Im hating a lot right now What

Youre gonna hate having to be patient though lo and behold  you are a patientthats youre job now  Own up to it
You are a victim
You have to be patient

So you say

No  youre gonna sayyoure gonna say it

What  I should say it Really  Are you intent on treating me like a child

No Worse  Im treating you like a babybecause a baby cant speakit mewls it cries  Mebbe you can show meconvince me at least youre a child

                                                      Im listening

Youre listening

Are you mocking me

Mocking  Whos mocking   Im livid with youYoure not being kind . .
. . Youre livid with me  Youre not being kind to yourselfdammit  Admit it  Capitulate  I am a victim  I have to be patient   If you dont say it you wont know it You cant say it you cant know it  Ive been somewhere near where you arebut I did it to myself I had to learn to be patient   If you knew me before I hurt myself youd know I was an impatient sonofabitch 

But this is about you


Can you be kind to yourself
                                          Can you    


Alright


Im waiting

You really want me to say it out loud

Yes  Frankly Id prefer to hear you yell it at the top of your lungs


Im a victim I have to be patient
With some authority please 


a breath Im a victim I have to be patient

With some ballswouldya

I am a victim and I have to be patient

Very goodsome moxie You ought to make it your mantra while you healwhile you treat yourself well




he told his daughters in separate conversations that his girlfriend was victimised   he knew they talked

his eldest last to know texted him
                                    Man  she seriously needs to practice some clearing and cleansing multiple times a day. It will help to raise her vibrations so instances like this aren’t a possibility and she can receive more abundance.(10:00) 

(10:02) BTW  I say that in a very kind and caring way . . . no blame or insensitivity intended. 

I recently learned how ppl can have “luck” much like this because somewhere along the line, past lives, etc., they wrote a contract that they need to pay a karmic debt by choosing to live a life where they “learn” and “pay their debt” with pain and suffering, like a beacon to those not so desirable; (10:06)  when all they have to do is decide this process no longer serves their purpose and they can rewrite their contract and move forward by inviting love, light, kindness and abundance as their lessons, thereby aspiring to be their brightest and pure-est versions of themselves. (10:10)

pure-est  she intrigued him
                               he couldnt help but wondered if she was pulling a him on himhe was forever fashioning words words to suit his purpose  he wondered if she wasnt copping est which had exhausted itself before she was born Erhard Seminars Training  Latin for is “We need to distinguish distinction There’s no seeing, there’s only the seer There isn’t any is” 

family and friends who read letters he wrote them told him they were rife with misspellings  he laughed  he told them there was a reason why he spelled the word the way he did  if they missed his intention then they ought to go back and reread the passages  realise his context

he could have referred to his lettershis madeup words as Socratic interrogation  but knowing them as he did why have his words or them fall flat on their faces

yes  he knew he was laborious

he asked why?  Because wasnt an answernot ever 

he perhaps terribly expected answers to his questions fashioned in outline form 1. 1A. 1B. 1B.1 1B.2 1B.2.a. 1B.2.b.  

in his letters he cited sources for verification in case they thought he was blowing smoke up their ass 

he asked questions for clarification questions which probed assumptions  he asked questions that sought reasons and evidencethey better have their ducks in a row if they were going to come after him  he asked questions about their viewpointsperspectives were there alternatives were they necessary were there benefitswho benefited  he asked if there were implications what might be the consequences of their assumptions 

he asked questions of the question  What was its point Why do you think I asked               




hoi pəˈloi
         in his guts he knew they were more than they were cracked up to be


Tuesday evening,  6  2. 18
                        1214,  Valentine’s Day,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  2. 18

13.2.18



she was an attractive young blonde woman

which was saying something

he rarely found blondes attractive


her hair was cut shortTomboyish  but that enabled her features to take centerstage stand out  wideeyed  sharp cheekbones   if she wasnt blonde hed lean towards First People ancestry  not that it was impossible 

Awright baby  Anteup  You got a babyface

I do

Great  I love it when I dont have a fight with someone about their babyface

No  When my hairs long no one questions how old I am  I was being served in bars at seventeen  Cut my hair short and Im challenged every time

Well  My hats off to your genetics  Take care of your faceyour health an youll be challengedas you say  until youre in your forties

Thank you

No  Thank you  Id be ridiculous if I didnt admit I enjoy gazing at attractive women

Thank you

Youre welcome


he scanned her purchase  a Teeling single malt  Irish  which simply improved her attractiveness  You have a savings card

I dont but my boyfriend does  she screwed up her face   If I can remember his number

No pressure he isnt here  An no matter we have a remedy if you fall down 


Okay  the twist in her features didnt relent

but she looked even better twisting  hooked on a line

Ten digits babe

Area code

Area code too

Youre only making it harder

Ive got confidence in you

she spat out the area code  then one digit at a time at different intervalsunsure pauses  excruciating  she emitted the remaining seven


Was I right

I havent entered it yet  Building the suspense    Though I must say  while you havent the ability to witness your expressionshow your face worked  Im entirely sure you hit the nail on the head


Ready

Youre killin me

he hit ENTER and the savings card posted her savings to the screen  BINGO baby  
YEAH!

Love your enthusiasm

I wasnt sure

Not being sure is like delicious seasonings on food  Ups the game

Thats a nice way of putting it  Normally I wouldnt agree

Comon  What fun is a sure thing    Theres no challenge

Youre right


So now I gotta ask  Your boyfriend know your number
No

No

No  It took him six months to remember my middle name

Then I suggest you go home an tell him you got the savings on the Teeling by remembering his numberAn WHATS MY NUMBER?

No  He doesnt know my number

Your boyfriend doesnt know your telephone number

No  No   Hes a kind of head-in-the-clouds kind of guy


Ah
     he was proud of himself  he held his tongue  he didnt usually hold his tongue

probably the only reason he held his tongue was to not take her down from her piqued high  remembering struggling to recall his number  that she did all on her own   an would likely continue to do in the relationship

he would have preferred to shrug an say Ah  the kinda guy who has his head up his ass  You might deserve someone better
              but he didnt


he put the Teeling in a brownpaper sleeve and handed it to her  Have a fine evening kiddo

I will
        happy  she literally skipped out of the liquor store


1705,  Sunday,  11  2. 18
1540,  Monday,  12  2. 18