20.11.16




it was a sobering thoughtan illuminating thought


Brexit turned like a worm in the apple of his brain


Englands older generation a society onto itself(you couldnt join it if you wanted to) deeply ensconced to the value it held itself in its blue ribbon entitlement was feeling spurned  

they worried of their countrys dislocation its indebtedness to them  and infirm losing their grip at the nations throat 
they pissed away England for a perverse nationalism  redolent fetters  arcane   and obsolete

they decided Brexit  

they brought their fear of death over onto their fear of the Other and amplified the resentment their dying whiteness inspired 


over the pond in America the Sheep watched and baahed and pawed the browning sod  they blew green snot clots out of their noses 

they believed too their Nation ought to be lilywhite




he thought it was funny these latter ancestors of immigrants who swarmed like rats and vermin at Americas unnamed shores failed to see that the new Beginning facilely ignored The People who preceded them

The People werent lilywhite

and if Then their ancestral herd desired the nation to be lilywhite why did they bring to it black slaves

they could have worked the land themselves or lorded over white niggers

why didnt they play that card

there had to be plenty among them they didnt value who they could force to bend to their will bend their backs and till the soil tend and pick the cotton

it could have been all white Then

hell  one could think it would have been preferable to take and fuck a white slaves woman it would have been preferable to have their child suckled at a white mammys breast 

wouldnt one think

they could have saved extravagant coin and toil rather than shipping slaves from Africa or the Caribbean 

wouldnt one think


Now their seed wants a white nation that was had on the beaten backs of black and Indian slaves


how sensible is that  their forefathers could have had a white nation


wouldnt white trash bent in the fields able to speak and understand English rather than the mumbo-jumbo African slaves spoke or Indians tittered been more efficient

to the kind of people who had slaves  white slaves wouldnt have mattered

wouldnt one think

and if the infantile Nation had enslaved its own there might not have been a Civil War
Lincoln would never have weaponised slavery as he did 

although well never know if he would have weaponised white slavery


his point was
  
         Centuries later you dont get to have a white nation


not by what preceded them
Fuckno




sober thoughts

shining thoughts



his last thought for the time being 

                           elders not long for life  Americans of the Greatest Generation who fought World War II
(although virtually all of the actual fighters are now dead)  those remaining souls who enabled the war from stateside
those safe keepers want to make damn sure they wring every last drop of blood out of unearthed stones or turnips for themselves because they feel it is their due  an undying gratitude  the beneficence of a Grateful Nation  

that theyll selfishly leave disarray and ruin to those who conspire to become Americas Greatest White Generation is of no matter to them


Christ  you gotta hand it to those soon-to-be-dead comedians




just a thought


there may be some who accuse him Idle hands are the Devils workshop

but he felt about the Devil as he felt about God

there wasnt such a thing


to him it was very simple
         
                  Man could bear either epithet   he just didnt want to fess up

he couldnt make him fess up to the reality that he was acting in accord to his own mind

No  the Devil and Christ had to be fall guys


Mans white sin his abominable sins were to be absolved  made clean  swept under the rug  and while they denied the evil in their hearts they only needed to look in the mirror as they shaved applied their makeup finished their toiletry to see that which grinned back at them  grinning inside their flesh

a Reaper



afternoon,  Thursday,  17  11. 16
1333,  Friday,  18  11. 16

19.11.16




a mouthful  Testis unus testis nullus


one witness is no witness


Latin


rape in New York State years ago wouldnt be prosecuted if it wasnt witnessed by a third party

Testis unus testis nullus might suggest rape probably wouldnt have been prosecuted unless the third party was actually a party to corroborate the rape

                         or corroborape as in this instance



he couldnt see how anyone reading Testis unus testis nullus wouldnt be attracted to it

at least to the extent of knowing what it meant

he didnt know Latin

however unum(in the same ballfield) was on our dollar bills  one  that made sense

nullus  null  nothing(an informed guess)

hence  blank ONE blank NOTHING   and to be very honest which he was to a fault testis caught his eye  wholesale he turned it out as a ball one ball none and as testis usually came as a matched set testes perhaps having only one – hed never met a man who offered he was swinging one testicle – naïvely  one testis might mean a man was infertile   

infertile  and then a huge fucking hit with women who didnt want to be inseminated

itd be like letting the Lone Ranger loose in the saddle DUH  because the Lone Ranger shoots blanks too

he might be being sexist 
                   but he could assume if a woman knew her partner couldnt inseminate her that their sex would be freeflow uninhibited unencumberedIf he had sex with a woman who couldnt conceive hed be freeflowing all over the damn place unorthodoxed Howbout we dump out the fridge on the kitchen floor and fuck inside it while its still cold blow its mind it can feel the heat and its Wicked Witch-like Oh what a world what a world My perfect frostiness killed by a little girl and a little boy

hed leave his pants down around his ankles on top his laced shoes in a panic for that


See  thats how you get from a staid legitimate standard for historians to dadada da dumb  playful thought!


0820,  Monday  --  Election Eve,  7  11. 16

18.11.16

strangeland



he drove east on blue line 58 towards McKittrick 92351

then turned south up a dirt road that claimed Pozo in 20 miles

10 miles up in it traversing a coarse road terraformed by violent runoff he realised he wasnt thinking at the onset of the ride and now was suddenly pressed for time

he altered his dirt and stone road travail to catch 58 west

as he braved the back hills the Los Padres National Forest he passed small ramshackle houses and marveled at other lots that bore long rusted mobile homes and how they ever got up there




maybe it was the light





it was definitely the election

three years ago he traipsed these back roads but they didnt feel like America today


he felt like a stranger in a strange land



what he had going for himself was his whitishness and if his whitishness wasnt claim enough then in his jacket pocket he had a switchblade his fathers sap lead slag stitched up inside worked leather and knuckles a cop friend of his cousin gave him at a party long ago

he wasnt a scout for nothing

he hadnt boxed Golden Gloves for nothing




the cop was a huge Chicago cop

his cousin lived in a brownstone on the third floor accessible by one of the famous Chicago-style woodbeamed backporches and staircases  riveted and hammocked and chainswinged

he sat just inside the screened backdoor at a small linoleum kitchen table and fired up a joint

a couple of tokes in it a cop making everything around him suddenly small walked through the springloaded screen door

he took a single step to the table and menacingly grabbed his wrist

he took the joint out of his hand What have we here

eyeballed it Nice roll and took a deep hit

Wheres Jim he asked as he exhaled  Nice shit Tastes like the shit I confiscated Nobodys gonna admit they had three duffels when theyre booked on one

No he answered Nobody smart

Yeah Dopers are smarter then junkies eh

Sure  I concur

You concur

I do

I love concurring Seen it on Dr Kildare him and GillespieDamn  I concur whenever I get a chance

Small fuckin world

Yeah it is a small fuckin world Who are you

Jimmys cousin

JImmy You call him Jimmy

I do  You probably call him Jim

He prefers Jim

He does but hes Jimmy to me

I think I know of you from Jim  The crazy fuckin polack

I am a polack Dont think Im fuckin crazy

No you are if youre him  You ride bike with Jim on occasion

I do

Youre him  he went into his jacket pocket  Here man these are for you he pressed a set of knuckles into his hand he took another toke  Lifted them off a coon figured he had plenty more where those came from Might help you in your craziness someday

he tossed them in his hand admired their weight  they fit nicely  Brass  Very nice thank you

Yeah thats what I thought too really nice  Going for the coon he momentarily thought to use them against me you learn to see that the twitching in the eyes around them  Had he I would have shot him in the face  Smart coon   I patted him down took this and some ampoules  Crushed the ampoules in the alleyway smeared them in the cinders under my boot  As I said dopers are smarter than junkies


Jims cousin Ill see you inside  I understand hes got more people coming around tonight a gal in particular who Ive taken a shine to  You stickin around

With police protection Oh hell yeah

Yeah well have some fun  Some other boys in blue are coming when theyre off-shift so dont get paranoid

I dont get paranoid

No  Dont imagine you do   Youre fuckin crazy




Good point
        he was feeling like a crazy fuckin stranger in a strangeland
 


1504,  Monday,  14  11. 16
1246,  Twosday,  15  11. 16

Nahko Bear and Medicine for the People  PUEO (The Protector – Hawaiian Owl) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dM8bbQWD5mY&index=21&list=PLz0ZQqOnh7xH3s9Hlgg9Qzm6NfWQrE1DV