Thas choice

               coudnt brook if had he tried

someone else might be embarrassed

never occurred to him

withholding the truth

coudbe cancerous

                    certainly stressful

he coudnt brook that either

Excuse me?

Lawd knows you try

That’s what I said.

Yah

       Redundant

You being coy or cryptic?

Wha woudya like

                      Playfully pretending  Obscure    Enigmatic

Hint

          Yare not a chick

Although given the context  be it negligibleslight  yaoughta be able to follow

When you’re being cryptic you’re extremely hard to follow. It’s almost as if I have to try and read your mind.

Undecipherable

                  An evenif ya coud as the government says May be hazardous to your health  Ive hazarded it all my life an am calloused

Don even try

   There.  I don’t even know what that means.

You do

I don’t.

You do

I said I don’t.

Lawd

Yes.

You said Lawd knows I try

Yes.

Ya believe in the Lawdbelieve in Gawd Amighty

You know I don’t.

I do

     Hence you understand mybe there any doubt  my obscure reference

Whas your relationship with Gawd

I haven’t one . .

. . You do

           Scratch the surface man

The surface?

               No surface.

I dislike with extreme prejudi . .

. . Hate.

shrugged his shouldersrolled his headround loosened his neck which instantly seizedup quivered  rattlesnakes tailshake

                disliked with extreme prejudice people trying to put words in his mouth

I dislike having to explain the obvious Explaining a joke is ruinous

                                                                      Please    Scratch

My relationship with God.

                              Even though I don’t have one.

Eventhough

he twisted in the wind

                         ugly to witness

Hint

Would you?

I woud

           Your sisters

Fuck.

Not your sisters

                 Not that I woud find anything wrong with tha my sisters are better looking in better shape anif they were agreeable consented  off to the races

You’re sick.

No cuts End of the line

                            Your  Fuck

I’m their plus One.

Yah  Just a wedding

                        Your relationship with Gawd to get into Heaven    A question

Question?

             What’s that?

Does tha mean when one of them goes ya gotta go or if you go its a coin toss

Probably the fine print

                          Better make sure ya got tha sorted out

1114,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

Johnny Cash  Life’s Railway to Heaven  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKoIuz71hbg

 

former calls America a Third World country

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN5A-mjz8p0

when discussing immigration from African – Third World – countries came up former complained “Why are we having these people from shithole countries come here?

https://theintercept.com/2018/06/28/trump-tps-shithole-countries-lawsuit/

by deduction

               America is a shithole country

and the former is running for president to stay out of prison

   an amoral unethical felon cunt

1522,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

PBS  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIug8Ghe9L8

Claire

                  how to describe

fair

plain

nondescript

              leaning towards cipher

she called him by name as he walked reading

lookingup out of the book he did not recognise her

odd he ran into pedestrians

rarelyever on hot days

                         traffic spedby windows up music muted  airconditioning Henry Miller described them long agocant improve upon perfection

Yes

I’m Claire, we met months ago.

I don remember

We were walking as now . . you were reading then too.

Thank you for remembering me

What are you reading?

he turned the cover to her let her read

                                          Physics.

Yes I like to read it evenif I don understand it Figure one day it will dawn on me until then Ill keep plugging away at it

he pointed to her earplugs hopeful Audiobook

Yes. Something I’m sure wouldn’t interest you.

since she was sure he didnt ask

they exchanged pleasantries several more minutes and before he said she said

                                                                                   I really must be going.

very Aliceish or White Rabbitish

Myself as well

                 Thank you for recognisingstopping me

I couldn’t help myself, your walking and reading is very quaint.

                                                                   not a pause

she had determined it was  wondered if she rehearsed it

he did not remark

Be well

You too.

they continued in opposite directions

She called you quaint

he smiled  shehes heshes loved to lurk an appropriate his time

                                                                     No

She did

No

    She said my walking an reading was quaint

she could have said unusual

a curious choice of word

not in his vernacular

   quaint

1400,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

1018,  Thursday,  13  6. 24

Everything we see hides another thing. So fucking appropriate

                                                                         Surrealist painter Rene Magritte

the physicist Laura Mersini-Houghton in her book Before the Big Bang employed this statement as a guide to help understand the concept of string theory M-theorys eleven dimensions

Space-Time has four  width length height and time

the difference the seven hidden dimensions are behind them

the last time he contended with something in kindYes

                                                         In  Kind

happened in college

in a fight on a Fort Lauderdale ocean sand strip across the road from a bar where they drank

got their asses handed to them

                                 had thought it was going to be a fair fight

one buddy asked Who are they?

another Where did they come from?

the third Fuuck. We’re going to get our asses kicked.

   words

he launched himself into the fray

it was right thing to do

Police broke it up

one of the few times he liked Police

despite the lumps gooseeggs and bruises

he couldnt say he didnt have fun

1550,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

2320,  day-between-2-Ts

   asked casually    Sowhere yawanna die

it landed like a slap across his face Are you serious? breath fast

Wha  You know me to ask unserious questions toss softballs

                                                                        In bed

Yeah. Yeah.  I think in bed is the perfect place.

   Really

          Im curious  Do tell

What’s to tell? In my bed.

Coudbe in a hospitalcoud have been in it for months sucking recirculated air head strapped in an EHMR elastomeric half mask respiratorlook at me  used an acronym despite my disgust you woudnt have known

I wouldn’t?

No

I said my bed.

Hospital bed coudbe your bed

Bed in my home.

Why exasperated I was clarifying your answer

                                                  Reread your will recently  Youre pretty sloppy inexact regarding your intentions

You a fuckin esquire?

Rhetorical

              So you aspire to expire in your bed

Cute.

        And you don’t?you usually say before we’ve gotten in this deep.

   Usually

              I wasnt prepared for your upset  Kneejerkish

Oh, so like your question wasn’t upsetting?

Were gonna die I didnt think Id upset you

                                               Also

he nodded  Also.  Also what?

I assume in your sleep in your bed

I think dying in bed assumes one’s asleep.

   I don think so

We’ll disagree.

                So if not in your bed if not in your sleep . . . where do you want to die?

Not so much where

                        I want to see it coming

Entered unknowing

I want to see it coming

1204,  Sunday,  9  6. 24

1300,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

always ask the question ask it again and again until it is firmly answered

                                                                               because

often the question that begs to be answered is left begging

reading Stephen Pfohl Parasite Café

                                       Clarity is always ideological and reality adaptive . . . demand for clear communication often proves to be nothing else but an intolerance for any language other than the one approved by the dominant ideology. At times obscured and at other times blatant, this inability and unwillingness to deal with the unfamiliar, or what a language different from one’s own, is, in fact, a trait that intimately belongs to the man of coercive power.

New World Order

staked on exploitive efforts to underdevelop the minds and bodily functions of those made to oppose as the Other

Under the Sign of Saturn Susan Sontag   Fascist Aesthetics

                                                                  . . . characteristic pageantry: the massing of groups of people; the turning of people into things; the replication of things; and grouping of people/things around an all-powerful . . . force.

Walter Benjamin 1936

                         theorized that a conjunction of telecommmunicative technologies and fascist dread was in the process of constructing a New World Order of Capitalist power.

New World Order . . . typified by dense and high speed aestheticization of (almost) everything, everywhere in No Time At All.

the attempts of Reality TV are to make viewers believe the reel world is the real world

                                                                                           an imagery is produced by producers

people are urged to swallow the scripted productions Produce  as if Real

he felt at best they were probably  possible he didnt participate  but Not Real

                                                                                 wouldnt buy-in on the War on Reality

Real is subjective

one defines their Reality after their definition

                                               however

if they coerce another

                      their Reality is not redefined but rather repressed   falsified

visual on-site productions cannot be legitimate for they are blindedwear blinkers they lack peripheral or periferal   they do not turn side-to-side look over their shoulders  they present a staged drama unfolding only BEFORE it

an objective perception point-of-view witness witlessly functioning 

the while encouraging viewers to make up their minds without benefit of the rest of the Whole

 

    drove him nuts

2ish,  Tuesday,  6  4. 04

Wednesday,  7  4. 04

0959,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  6. 24

The Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y1c3xllo8c

riding home on a bus

sitting at the back

shes WHITE

                wondering  takes out pen and paper a book to write atop                                                                                                  

writes haltingly

WHITE RITES

WHITE RIoTES

WHITE RIOTS

WHITE RIOTaS

WHITE RATIOS

WHITE IOTAS – WHITE QUOTAS

 

WHY

White  right

     she wondered

1800ish,  Thursday – April Fools,  1  4. 04

1018,  2sday,  11  6. 24

crap

holdin onto his biboverall  aint a damn thing under them

                                                                  It’s crap, it’s all crap.

that was what he was thinking in answer to whatever hed been thinking undecided unaware what percolated the remark prior had read Who Said That?

Anonymous

                  Whellshit that made him laugh out loud

   so many whistlestops

if he hadnt declared them whistlestops

                                          they would otherwise have remained vagrants

unheeded unrecognized vagrants

                                      hoboes tramps and bumsGO CHER

hoboes

hoboys

whoreboes

whore oboes

             riffing

why was

           Who Said That?

so important

accountability

                You utter it, you own it.

utterance

utterrants

mutterrants

mutterance

mutants

           organic growths from somewhere

Who Said That?

Why do you say that?

                         What was the birdseedthe kernelthe coitus of mind that created the revelation?

Revealation?

Exposed the exposition?

                         explosion?

Does mind have a kneejerk reaction?penetrated

Is it a gasp from a fissure?a fission?a fusion?a vent?a lesion?an eruption?a rupture?                                                                                                                                 from wherever

it has basis

             and emittedadmitted base for a fair rational question  Y do U say that?

                                                                       Y dO U say that?

                                                                       Y O U said that

Isnt Who Said That? second to Why do you say that?

one says You can count on me.

                                  they say  I am accountable.  I am a-count-able

grotesque gruesome 

                 disfigure something

                      torture the plasticity of a word  plasticined

                 contra-figurement

                 out-rageous

casting hooked lines treblehooks gaffs spears tridents burredlassoes to capture detain distort with leverage coerce brutestrength yank  till something tears

                                             however if rarified

yanked tortured  shy of tearing

                                   only nominally grotesque grewtesque tortureesqued torturetested  grotesque tortureattested tortureaffirmed torturetagged  picturesque grotesque

you can see why

things may

desire

anonymity

              amoeba anemone

terminology

vagrant

         vacantgrant  cantgrant  cant-chant-vagrant  cantatonicvagrant

                                                                              I . I . I cacacacant

430ish,  Saturday,  8  5. 04

1128,  2sday,  11  6. 24

Cher  Gypsys, Tramps & Thieves  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltUytgMaZYY

 

WHO?  WHO SAID THAT?

2004  April Fools

Me

writing

        sometimes he gets dicked by dictationhe hears  he pens   hes bound and determined to get each word right

catch and record

his handwriting the only evidence of his involvement  his culpability blame   an accomplice

he is nonplussed uninterested in/of his crime should it be  TRUTH FREEDOM  Miller does that to him

he hears  Obscenity  Pornography  cried

                                            cautions Let it go  Its all a continuum a twisted Moebus strip gobbling its tail

No Highs

No Lows

          Lofty or Mean

Fluid

       It bubblespercolates anwha in one moment is bathed in atmosphererarified sucking anaerobicmuck in the next

From either or in-between

It succors nourishment provides learning

                                            whether wise or whorish

a dispassionate latchkey  jailer

The birds scream howl formdeform in murmuration

                                                       they know there is always something to sing of

They are immortal

because

          they are unaware of their mortality

Thats what makes their song true unabashed  natural

They dont beg arent panhandlers robbers if necessary

                                                           “I ain’t asking nor will I ask to take.”  he blames Henry

Lead by action

Talking tempts lies

And lies cant wait to be admittedcant hardly wait for their freedom

And freedwiggles like a freshhooked angleworm

                                                   Or subtly  a festering wound

Lies are the hardest thing to kill

                                  Opening ones mouth tempts another

Lies dont die

They have to be killed

WHO SAID THAT?

cunts

        48 House Republicans voted to defund NATO North Atlantic Treaty Organisation created in the aftermath of World War II

               these clowns voted their conscience after returning to Congress in the shadow of the 80th commemoration of D-Day

Aaron Bean  FL

Andy Biggs  AZ

Dan Bishop  NC

Lauren Boebert  CO

Mike Bost  IL

Josh Brecheen  OK

Tim Burchett  TN

Ben Cline  VA

Michael Cloud  TX

Mike Collins  GA

James Comer  KY

Eli Crane  AZ

Bryon Donalds  FA

Michelle Fischback  MN

Russell Fry  SC

Matt Gaetz  FL

Bob Good  AZ 

Paul Goser  AZ

Marjorie Taylor-Greene  GA

Harriet Hageman  WY

Andy Harris  MD

Diana Harshbarger  TN

Kevin Hern  OK

French Hill  AR

Wesley Hunt  TX

John Joyce  PA

Debbie Lesko  AZ

Anna Paulina Luna  FL

Thomas Massie  KY

Brian Mast  FL

Mary Miller  IL

Cory Mills  FL

Alex Mooney  WY

Barry Moore  AL

Ralph Norman  SC

Andy Ogles  TX

Scott Perry  PA

Bill Posey  FL

Matt Rosendale  MN

Chip Roy  TX

Kevin Self  TX

Jason Smith  MO

Greg Steube  FL

Tom Tiffany  WI

William Timmons  SC

Michael Waltz  FL

    may they fall down the Capitol steps smash their jaws bust out their teeth choke to death on them

2041,  Monday,  10  6. 24

imagination

                 Beloved imagination, what I most like in you is your unsparing quality . . .

Carefulcareful warning himself

                                        Careful not to slip down the un- path unsparing again

it was a trigger an interruption he had to guard against because theyd sweep him away and he didnt have enough white Hansel and Gretel pebbles in his pockets to pinpoint a path find his way back from where he departed

                                                                                                                  not that he was particularly interested in finding where he begannot  some queerweird sense of mastering himself

his wife who unfortunately died  had nearbegged him for that which he did not   he preferred the unruliness unexpectedness of it

                  TAME   he should tame himself

Jesus babe youll recall thawaswha attracted you to me

                                                             So you said

she either thought hed grow out of it or assumed he was a project she could finish

    Beloved imagination Andre Breton 1924  Surrealist Manifesto

Gerard de Nerval influenced by Symbolists and Surrealists took his pet lobster on a promenade he walked Thibault on a blue velvet leash his point was that humans made themselves masters of their environment and the beasts around them

      but they lost the Sense of the universe the natural order among beings earthlings  they do not recognise obligations that go with their mastery

Eh quoi, tout est sensible. All things feel.

unlikely Nervals act was as comic as it might have been understood

                                                                        Thibault knows the depths and the secret of the ocean and does not willynilly seek to harm anything

   Nerval was believed to be mad

didnt sound mad to him

sometime between 15July – 29Sep 2002

1156,  Monday,  10  6. 24

Miller gotta love the guy

wakeup

          rubbed sleep out of his eye

he shoved his thumb in it

had read in The Cosmological Eye

                                      Hope is a bad thing.

It means that you are not what you want to be.

It means that part of you is dead, if not all of you.

It means that you entertain illusions.

It’s sort of a spiritual clap, I should say.

                                           Shoud hesounds like shitty

Henry

uncontained

uncontaminated

                    but what Henry  when youre abruptly confronted

he didnt say  unconfronted   that was his jobbeing that he was assertive  pushed boundaries asked questions  a sceptic  nothing unperused unquestioned

Wha of tha Henry

recognised

recognition

regeneration

selfignition

            possibly volatile   possibly compliant  cointosscoitus inquisitive curious 

                                                                                        but he digressed

he loved doing that  the pathways channels courses options he was like a door-to-door salesman

stuck his big fat oxblood brogue in the door

couldnt close it till he had his way

    because he was curious

curious what made them say or do what they diddid they think before they performed

his delicious certitude of not having been down that road before and its ripepromise of the unknown

                                                                                      Surprise surprise

 

Tuesday,  30Dec  2003

0937,  Monday,  10  6. 24

Chicago  Does Anyone Really Know What Time It Is  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AxzNJdqqJJc