he much preferred the spelling pfzt but discovered difcovered to his dismay disjune disjuly distemper  it was spelled recognised in the dictionary  pfft

Je pfft

Vous pfft

           was he going to allow himself to be cowed bulled   bullied

PFZT

      Methinks not Otis Otto Earl  Paulie  Freddie    Zero    Toad

gang he hung with that couldnt seem to do a damnthing without a ton of bricks dropped on them for the slightest excursionincursion that tickled their fancy and dismayed disjuned disjulyed the selfassigned adolts belligerents  who made it their causetheir Mission to quash them

                                                                             but

they had youth

they were bouncey

try as they may the adolts upset a couple of their teacarts but the majority continued abated  unadolterated

    PFZT

            Put that in your pipe an smoke it

reminded him

             Hey guys who brought the weed

   

0617,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

1021,  Monday,  2  6. 25

Paul Kantner/Jefferson Starship  Have You Seen the Stars Tonight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rvetP_Kcgk

Buy me a drink.

he recognised her from the grocers a spit of a young woman

eyed her

           Have you had a drink

A coupleyeah just donwanna put it on a cardbuy me a drink.

                                                                     Pleeease.

so plaintive

also really liked the plead in her face

                                       sincere   her features brightening

backedup with a slight  wee    smile

lips  slightly parted

white teeth parted

pink tongue fit in between

    Youre workin awfully hard kiddo

I am.

       Is it workin’?

Whaya drinkin an I mean   Wha are you drinkin

Beer. Well whiskey.

Ohman

         

           Bartender

fella hustle over  had to be the bouncer too

                                              looking between the him an her Godzilla a civvy duckancoverin between his toes if stomped  humangrapes

                                                 red red wine

Whas your name

he said Grrreg. thats how it came out

Please Two Redbreast doubles neat

                                        looked to her  Name no nametag on    smiled Roselyn.    Whas your beer    What would you recommend?    Adventurous    Yakiddin me?    Greg whas on tap    Lots.    Porters    Zywiec.    On tap    Crazyhuh?    Yasaid it  Two

What’s a porter?

Youll love it its free

they hit it a second time

 

    So Joe, you like little tits?

her stature could only bear little tits

                                      the question made him think hed have to give her a piggyback ride home  if it wasnt too far

Well Rosely . .

. . Ros. Please.

    Ros  Its hard to dislike tits

Do you prefer them?

I prefer what fits the frame

                               Im not a fan of artificial

My tits are all me.

Ive no doubt

But . . . if you like bigger tits on my kind of frame . my roommate.

Where ya goin with this

Take me home so she doesn’t have to come out pick me up

                                                                I believe . . . we’d make it worthwhile.

Ros  Mama didnt raise no fool

she give him that wee smile

                             lips  slightly parted white teeth parted  pink tongue fit in between

 

2317,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

1148,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

UB40  Red Red Wine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UidFA-dP8GQ

Ken Bruen  quote from The Devil

                                     You come out of a cemetery and it’s but a spit to the nearest pub.

true that

Milwaukee Avenue

cemetery one side for blocks  lotsa dead polacks

                                                      opposite side

Several establishmentsFuck you

                                       Awright awright   Several bars

Old Style on tap

racks of whiskey

                     plenty to chase the blues away

not that they ever caught him 

anesthetised

               they bayedsniffed around  found the tree he wentup

but like Tarzan the Apeman

                               he swung to other trees without his feet touching the ground

inebriated

braided

             but not tied in knots

feet would touched down again in a friends car or hed take a bus to within a few blocks of his parents home

Where have you been? his mother asked

Paulies home from Nam Buried him today

    I put a plate of food in the oven for you.

Thanks Maw

You’re welcome.

she wasnt keen on Paulie

but no onenot even his Maw who had opinions shed rattle off unsolicited  would speak ill of the dead

Nil nisi bonum

she attended enough Latin Masseshad Catholic clergy in the family to know what he said

                                                                                               Yes.

God keep him. because she was over him long before they even got to high school  He’s no good.

Hes a riot

               the dust has settled

ashes to ashes  

dust to dust

itd be a long time before Paulie would molderif ever  pumpedfilled with embalming fluids

                                                                                              if he had good sense he wouldnt have died shot in the back would have died his body obliterated unable to be viewed

Dog tag death

    he wondered what Paulie was thinking

his folks were finally able to tamp him down

theyd visit him frequently to remind him

AwPaulie   Paulie      Paulie

                                   he mused over meat loaf corn niblets roasted potatoes green salad from the frig

         but try as he may in his alcoholic stupor he couldnt communicate with the dead

 

. . . but a spit to the nearest pub.

2258,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

1037,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

    eejits

             regarded as too obvious or inapposite to be mentioned

how could he not

eejits

       just the double Es alone  E  E  J I T S  is tasty hoping someone other than he could feel it

hes known double Ds

                             double Es

he was unable to resist

                         its temptation   dare hehe dared  teemptations   teemingtemptations

    was anyone feelin him

felt like talking to an empty theatre

howd he get in

he snuck

entered through the EXIT

                            as he did as a kid gang ponyedup to get one in and their job was to go to the front of the theatre as the previews light fluttered hypnotichypnotising glittering light lunged at the door in rushed a slew

                thick ushers

useless redjacketed phalanx at the back of the theatre trying to make time with candypopcorncounter girls

woefully inept

                they rushed to the front flashlights burning audiencing BooBooBooing

nice Os

they hadnt a clue who they were looking for

                                               and the gang  wellpractised   poker faces

the clowns returned to the back emptyhanded

    Tell me Im not talkin to an empty theatre

   

2253,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

0918,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

Lady Gaga  Poker Face  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNNeHeFTjtA

a large daddylonglegsnot as large as appleseed walked upsidedown on “air” across the ceiling towards the corner where ingesteddesiccated silkwrapped insectcorpses missing only pretty red bows hung in the web waiting housekeeping

he hoped   perhaps he/she was of appleseeds lineage

                                                             which made him smile 

hoppingup on the pot he stood blew at her/him Its a spider Their sex doesnt matter You can shut your face It does to me  hisher body moved with his breath they bristled they didnt give an inch

                                                                                      which made him miss appleseed all the more

   after three suicide attempts  she leapt into the running bathwaterhe captured her before she went down the drain set her on the sink returned plugged the tub to soak

                                                                  she

became a fixture benevolent stalwart in the corner over the sink where she could see himwatch him while he struggled with an unidentified malady  rheumatologist didnt know what he was talking about Yahsure Doc Load me up with a cancer drugs that might possibly affect my internal organs all in the name of less pain

she monitored him while he took three hot baths a day to keep movinghelp minimise his pain a skosche

    he really really hoped this daddylonglegs was related to appleseed

2013,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

0821,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

you annoy me  –  therefore I exist

 

“been around for a long long year”

    his ambition   his career

                                         was to be

              Happy

hes made it

2215,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

THIS IS A TEST . . .

 

                                         IF IT HAD BEEN A REAL EMERGENCY . . .                                                          

those were the days

                      Atomic nuclear obliteration annihilation or  as not one soldier who goes to war thinks they might return maimed dismemberedNo   they don

this test wasnt that

quizzed himself Remember what you wrote this morning

                                                                    I DO  freakin confident

CONFESSIONS

                          Wha

It aint coerced

                 No

Confessions   Coerced  Wrong

Yer ass  Giraffe

Confessions

                       Wha

Maybe I don

I remember heaven haven friend friendly fiend  mosaic mosaick   mosaicicky

                                                                                     Wha after confessions

I remember throatremember liking thruat more

    Wha

arguably  a great start to May

Man  Kids schools out in a month almost didnt realise that occupied with his routine (ruetine)(sssh No)  his need to merge  coin

                        the needaddiction to jam words together that he heard in speech but writing denies

he noticed the paper he was writing on wasnt quality

                                                         when he pressed where he had folded four pages together it crackled like bay leaf seasoning would think it would crumble under the tines of his rake would make excellent kindling for a fire

 

    last nightprobably this morning dreaming  it was the first time he ever heard his last name pronounced

maybe the Fates  Moirai   three cloistered in a chamber sniveling

                                                                        he walked past them

You they crowed

he didnt turn around

he backed up

                 backed up to their doorway                     

the largest didnt know if they were Clotho Lachesis Atropos approached himhe stepped into the doorway filling it

they paused  retreated

                          whatever curse they were going to admit stuck in their mouth in their craw

Yes  You called my name

her eyes started  but said nothing

he thought Fates because of their haggish appearance how he was impressed

he stepped back again into the hallway

                                          continued up it where his roomhis chamber was

undressed

went to sleep naked 

                             that night

having to urinate

he went back up the hall to a shared water closet past the threes chamber

                                                                                the one he confronted came into the hall behind him

he flew his nakedness in her face as one can before another who is undesirable

he did not shut the door

                         urinated like a fire hose into a wallmounted urinal the wholewhile leaning on his left arm bracing the wall

she stood behind him glaring at his ass

    finished turned sidestepped her

                                        politely  Excuse me

if they were Moirai he was playing with fire

after 9PM,  Thursday,  15  5. 25 winging his way to Seattle

1343,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

he thought as he finished it  Cold flat beer

                                                    Cant say that was particularly tasty

Why did you drink it a nosey one reared their head

Wellshit  Why do I do a lot of things if you were to come to think of it

    Ah   Awright  Fair

Please  Continue

Waste not want not

Coudnt have said it better myself

                                    If I knew you were comin Idve saved some for you

Thas thoughtful I woud have declined

                                           I know yaknow we don subsist as you do

I realise tha

             Realise my innerscape my brain isnt littered with Honey Huts wher . .

. . Yes  Tha was nuts

Seattle

Nuts

Who knew

An blame it on the homeless Aint all dogshit left on the side of the road by owners not pickinup cleaninup after their dog

    Nah    Padlocked Honey Huts

                                        Hurt my heart

Kinda odd

Nah

       Remember when you arrived

During your midlife crisis

Havent had one

                    Maybe youre confused During my assumed midlife wont really know till Im dead

Was a carpenter

I heard you were

Heard

Was before my time

Tha explains it

                 I have a deepanabidin affection for Honey Huts

Deepanabidin

                  Tha scent

I appreciate you callin it  scent

Only because thaswha you call it

When I worked as a carpenter there were Honey Huts

                                                          Virtually every one had black widow nests inem

Actincrazy I told the other guys leave the eggs be

Or youd hurtem

Id hurtem

Tha sorted mentality followed you into other jobs you had beyond construction

It did

I know

    Once upon a time in a crawlspace on my back in the dirt we were replacing a post for a new banister stairs pounded the post from above me once an I felt something things fall on meSTOP

                                                                                            Carpenter above me stopped put a flashlight on me told me Lay still  actually Very still  I was covered with black widows

Was almost an hour before I crept out of the crawlspace

They left me be

I owedem

Hence my craze an hence why no one provoked me left the spiders their eggs be

    Quite the story

Quite the reality     

1129,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

Naascent

What’s nascent?

Ill get there but you ought to know tha Im spelling it with two As

    Two As.  To be clear.  N  A  A  S  C  E  N  T.

Correct

 

Too soon to ask why?

No

     I believe its right up your alley

I don’t care for how you said that.

Why I said it as I did

It doesn’t sound encouraging.

No worries

             Youre incorrigible

Anthat . . . that also doesn’t sound rightI don’t care for how you said it.

    Im consistent

 

So are you going to say?

 

Depends

           Are you ready to hear

This is unlike youconcerned . for my feelings.

Not really

            This is yet part of an ongoing disagreement between us  I think naascen . .

. . Two As.

Of course

           Naascent plays into your mindset Yararely have any ammunition so I thought Id help you along at least you can say you can pointdespite my virulent opposition  Maybe enthusiastic is more accurate than virulent

Very enthusiastic                                        

Either  Or

    Allset

As set as I can ever be in regards to things that emerge from your brain and out your mouth

Naascent

           No Anal Allowed scent 

    No sexfunk in your world

early May,  2025

1102,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

Broheim

Yeah.

    I think  nahbelieve I have a working model why were so different

                                                                          Like magnets  Opposites attract

Irresistibly

A premise.

Ja

     Out the gate  youre righthanded Im left

Youre made leftbrained Im right

                                   Left  logic critical thinking numeracy  Rational

Right  creative imaginativecoud be diplomatic  however Id backpedal on tha Im impatient with thick people

    Annever the two shall merge

Inside our heads our hemispheres interact

                                              But were not hemispheres contained inside the same skull

Woudnt be enough room to stretchout

                                         Or

As Strother Martins character Captain said to Paul Newmans in Cool Hand Luke  What we’ve got here is failure to communicate. he couldnt resist

But I think what we have between us is you Mister Rogers Neighborhood anme Flash Gordons Neighbourhood

Also bending to the permission structure we grewup under

                                                               You asked for permission

I gave myself permission

Did tha turn out well

No

     More often than otherwise

But broheim

              The ones I got away with were sublime anthas how I identifiedem as a kid  Sublime

Admittedly it took me a while to find the word but unshakeable once it was in my mouth

Why woudnt I continue seeking sublime

    Was awfully rational of me

 

 

Nothing  No feedback

Oh.  Excuse me.

                      I thought you just wanted to hear yourself talk.

early May, 2025

0936,  Saturday,  31  5. 25

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