Death stood at the foot of his bed  woke himthumped his sole with Its knee

                                                                                sighedmaybe exasperated Open your eyes.

he chuckledmumbled  No  I donthink I will

I said open your eyes. menacing  though Its voice an effeminate aching falsetto

he thoughtquestioned Castrato  I don think so  He was using it as an irritanttrying to get under my skin

                                                                                                 thought Get it over with

Open your eyes.

If I did  will you be bluelit from insid . .

. . Like the stag?

    I thought you might have sent him

Yes.

        You surprised me when you didn’t veerwhen . . . you accelerated.

Made tha decision a long long time ago

                                            You killed it Shoudve come yourself

Myself. emitted a weirdwily laugh

                                        You can’t kill Death.

    No Apparently only your agents

                                        If I may  Want something doneright do it yourself

He thumped his sole again

                              I thought you wanted to see your death coming, not sneak up on you, not come in your sleep.

Yes I didnt think you were interested in interrupting my dreams

                                                                     Id think you were nothing more than commercialbreak an interruption

Open your eyes.

Wheredya find tha voice

                           Nasally  Whiny

If I had to Id guess dago or Jew tha part of the world    

Ancient civilisations

Ancient.

No doubt

           If human if alive   Birth  Death

Bookends

Literature

               Comix in between

You don’t want to see?

I donwanna see your timeless ugly puss

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0931,  Saturday

. . . was she the one that got away, the white whale?

    maybe he should have bit his tonguebut biting was numbing it

wasnt as articulate afterwards  wassoapparent if he hadnt recovered when he went to give head

                                                                                                      Oh really?

You want to pleasure me?

Two heads are better than one kiddo

                                       was immediatelyfollowed by tickled  happysqueals

his fortune he methung out with the right women

Really man  The white whale

                                How old are you

What do you mean?

No shit last time I was asked tha was by my youngest daughtershe was hangin with her best grrlfriend Junior high

             They were talkin   Hadnt yet their own opportunity

the occasion presented

                         they were talking about Bruce Springsteen he was playing a Spotify playlist buddy constructed and would not alterno matter how many times they heard the same songs overanover    Theres a lot of music out there    I like these.    Ofcourse ya do  they were also talking about Clarence Clemons  sax player with the E Street Band

               buddy asked when he heard them firsthed seen them live

I was familiar withem in Seventytwo

Actually didnt really listen toem till Seventyfour  The fall  At a party

I hadnt wheels  My ride was leavin

She was honeyblonde  Fit

We exchanged too toomany glances

She was there with her boyfriend

Seventyfour.

Early in their career.

Yah

          As I was headin out the door shared another set of eyes  I stopped in the foyer

I turned  slowly   around

                              She was still lookin

Wha the fuck

               Doubled backshe was sitting onremember those enormous pillowscompeted with beanbags  sitting on one  psychedelicprint  a joint smouldered between her fingers  sat at a long blondewood glass coffee table

I knelttook a handful of hair tilted her head back shared an awfully sweetsweet kiss

    What’s that for? she asked

Confirmation

Then I left

You didn’t get her number?

Yamiss she was with her boyfriend

    You don’t think she might have been the one that got away?

No  I got away

   No

Did you ever consider what might have happened if you hadn’t?

No

Why do you say no?

Most things don happen

                           I know youre tryin hard to entertain an alternative reality

But like I say

Take a good look at any big treeolder tree  every leaf on every branch is was a possibility

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Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band  The Angel  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-pdQKRQ_qY 

You think Im a comedian

                             Id venture a comix   C  O  M  I  X

You misspelled comic

                         C not X.

X

    Y do you insist?

Y

Yes.

Look whos being clever

                           Outside your usual purview

You don’t think I’m clever?

Not usually

             Usually your attempts are mixed misplaced   grim

Kinda like your analogues

Weak wide of the mark

    Because you think yours are better.

They are

They’re obtuse.

Then theyre not  after Ive explainem to youkills me

                                                          Like havin to explain a joke

Explain a joke to a joke

    Are you callin’ me a joke?

Thank  Gawd

                   Wont have to explain tha  But we digress

Comix

Arya following

What’s a comix, it’s definition?

 

Thank you for the admission

                                Though I wish yadidnt make it look like it hurt

rolled his eyes  I have an idea, but I rather you said.

Typically a reference to comicbooks comicstrips

                                                  Especially ones written for adults or of an underground or alternative nature

How is it you associate yourself with . . .

Literature

It’s not.

It is

How so?

Youve watched me act out scenesbits to enhancebetter reveal  particularly to you  wha Im saying

Yet while Im doin tha in my head I see comicbooksstrips tha I only wish I had the talent to rendersketch  revealand  among friendscertain friends I know theyre painting imagery in their heads to my words

I don have to act for them

                              But on occasion I do  redoubleemphasise my obvious point

Thas me goin over the top

    Where I enjoy being

You enjoy being crazed.

Ive no choice

             Parents they wont admit who dropped me on my head as a baby

Was fat an slippery

Think greasedpig

Slick with breastmilk

I had sixpaks of wet nurses Ah

                                     I see you saw tha in your head 

 

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1051,  reggaefriday,  11  4. 25

Cremation.

             crumbled out of his mouth

Yah  Sure

    She called you for your birthdaysang happy birthday to you . . . . and in the ensuing conversation . . somehow . how’s beyond me . . . you end up talking about cremation . death?

Yah

    Why would you do that?

It was conversation

It was your birthday.

                         I’d think things would be light, would be gayhappy.

Cant say gay

               Nearly tripped over yourself illegitimatelycorrecting yourself   Gay

An adjective lighthearted  Carefree

Once upon a time.

Still

       Ill be damned if Ill let homosexuality coopt confiscate  dominate it

They already hav . .

. . Maybe in your book  Not mine

                                       Butya did say

We agreed we were going to be cremated

I asked her where she wanted her ashes spread or contained

                                                                     She said spread

This is unbelievable.

Youre going to be cremated

I am.

Then it shoudnt be an issue

The issu . .

. . Your issue

Yes yes.

           Yes my issue but . . . .

You tell her how you’re going to be disposed?

    Disposed

Spread.

Better  Thank you

                      I did

What did she say?

She liked my idea

Then she said?

Yes She said she hasnt decided yettheres  some     some   she getting pushback from her daughter who struggles with the concept

She did say she thought Mackinac Island the Grand Hotels flower garden

                                                                             Her daughter near went apoplectic

They don’t let people scatter ashes in their gardens.

I told her to either ask or   or be stealthy

                                            Offered a solution

A solution.  Really. stonyface

Of course  Simple   The Great Escape

    That’s supposed to mean something to me?

You saw it

I did.

Then it shoud

It doesn’t.

It shoud ifya put your mind to it

                                     Ifyadid Plain as day

Well you’re gonna have to shine sunlight for me.

The prisoners tunneled under the he got goosebumps  under the Kriegsgefangenen-Mannschaftsstammlaler Mans shaft stammers wha a wonderful word

What the hell does that mean?

Stalag

         Unknown to you because you love to shorthand things

Your proclivity to give eachaneveryone a nickname

It’s simpler that way.

    Theyre poor nicknames

I think peopl . .

. . People

             Who are these people

Others.

Who are these others

They find my nicknames inspiredclever.

    Whos they

                    But no matter  Mannschaftsstammlaler

You don have a mans shaft he cringed

    I get it cringe deepened

But I digress discovered cringiness wasnt a bad look on him

                                                        I told her to tell her daughter to get a pair of pants  bootcut  looselegged

Shake a leg lose the ashes  Coud spread her mother effortless

Jesus.

       You’re demented. was shakinoff his cringe

Yah

      Creatively so

Grim.

Not really

            I made her laugh

You made her laugh about having her ashes spread?

smiled  I did

              I told her her daughter coud tell people her mother got laid in the Grand Hotels flower garden

1111,  Wednesday,  9  4. 25

0928,  reggaefriday,  11  4. 25

Somewhere in Time  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhcUnpaVyzo

Stalag 17  Get Rid of the Dirt  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zugv1NdMj4

thirtynine

he made a fist with his left

gave him a beckoning look

    Wha

This is an egg.

they had been conversing  conception

                                        Awright

with his right fingers widespreadwiggling  approached his fist

                                                                    You know what these are?

Small sample size  But yah

                                 Though more appropriate if you had manymore arms hands  fingers

I gotta work with what I got.

I appreciate tha

                       Sperm

Yes.

        he jammed his middlefinger    Clever    between his tightlysqueezed fingers

Thank you. Clever. I thought so too.

How many million did your wigglefingers represent

    I don't know.

I do

You do? sarcastically

Yah I do

How many?

Range of each ejaculation approximately twohunredfiftymillion to fivehunredmillion  In rare cases such as myself   sixhunredmil . . 

 . . Ohbullshit.

No

phone was immediately out of his pocket

Youre fortunate Im not a betting man  Id take you to the cleaners

Like I’d believe you.

Vet me  Im just enjoying your screwedup face

                                                    Disbelief isnt a good look on you

I suppose we’ll see.

Youll see I know

 

    frustrated  What should I be looking up?

Average  sperm  per  ejaculate   Woud be a good start

Asshole.

Thad be sodomy wigglefingers cringed  Shoud I spell it

No.

 

    Here we go.

You go

Thirtynine to ninehunredmillion.

Thirtynine

Yes. That’s what it says.

Tha the ejaculate of an eightyyearold man

What?

Woudya quit with the faces

What are you talking about?

You said thirtynine

    I did.

Not tryin to trap you  Thirtynine

                                            You said thirtynine

I did.

Thirtynine sounds like the dribble from a dead mans cock after he died fucking

                                                                                    Sperm count after death

What the hell are you talking about?

Jesus

          Yadeaf to whaya said

I said thirtyninemillion.

Yadidnt

I did.

Yasaid thirtynine to ninehunredmillion not thirtyninemillion to ninehunredmillion

                                                                                   FUCKIN  HUGE difference

 

Ya also didnt say  Gosh     Youre right

I was right

Say it

begrudgingly

             You were right.

Anquit with the faces awready woudya

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past Saturday April5

                         on the heels of the HANDS OFF! demonstration in the city

he and buddy strolled over to a coffee shop

it had been a warm day

                         buddy to his surprise departed from his usualhad a large coldbrewed on ice shot of hazelnut couple fingers of cream

he went small Americano extra shot of espresso black

the young woman behind the counter asked if he might like an extrashot on top the extrashot he ordered  At no charge.

            Yahplease yadmake my day kiddo

she grinned  Makin’ it.

liked her  

          sharp kid

    takinup his Americano he saw buddy made his way to the back of the shop sat facing the its entry located between floor to ceiling panes of glass

                                                 he sat on one of two plushupholstered chairs separated by a small oval side table

when he sat he angled towards himheld up his paper cup Na Zdrowie

Na Zdrowie. they tapped cups

he was a thoroughbred

buddy recently discovered through AncestryDNA he had Polish in him

You know why tha is

    You have an answer why?

Yah  A polack will fuck anything

                                    kiddo in earshot  I heard that.

he turned towards her Im not apologisin Im a hunred percent

Well, I’m Polish too.

Caairful . . .  buddy said

he glanced at her cocked his head 

                                   Yabest get back to work kid 

she laughed outloud  infectious  he joined her she didnt cover her mouth made her that much more attractive

   ambling offglanced over her shoulder  asked

                                                   Anything or anyone?

Anyone

          so she could hear him    Christ shes cute

buddy nodded  She is.

                         Gonna make a play?

No

   Why not?

Two polacks

               Wed burned the house down

You think that much of yourself?

No

        Her

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growing older he decided to throw down a gauntletchallenge    brutallychallenge  himself

    in addition to the various floor surfaces in his house  carpet throwrugs linoleum tile wood

he adoptedrescued a fourth feral

                                   little knuckleheads get underfootAND

bought himself new Adidas flipflops

feeling

        between their cojoined skillsets

                                         their

unique abilities to drop him

YES

         remain nibble  agile

or break his fuckin neck

not necessarily an exit strategy

                                    an Exit Surprise

understand

               his sense of humour has always been a bit    demented  

1658,  Tuesday,  8  4. 25

I know the hypnotised never lie

                                             Do you

I?

Lie.

        Is that the question?

I don know

Are you . .. suddenly .being insecure?

    Insecure

                    Not really my bent

Askin

   Asking me ..  if I’m lying to you?

        Yes

If I am?

Thas a stupid question

                              Say

I can take says

Lyin .. woud make me vomit

                                   Your opportunity to say  unequivocallyVOCALLY  ha

I wouldn’t lie to you.

No

     I woudnt think you woud  Sosay

No. I would not lie to you.

                             I think  ..you’d kill me if I did.

Anthey woudnt find your body

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1247 0047,  Wednesday,  9  4. 25

Neil Young  Cortez the Killer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uX9k9aoX6gk