brayin inanely

                       Woudya stoptake a breath

hurt crept into his eyes What?

Youre killin me

How?

Take me at my word

                        Have me at my druthers

   Wha woud your druthers look like  Mind you

                                                      Plural

More than one

Druthers

   I’m killin’ you?  What druthers?

Preference in a matter  Your preference

                                            Whawoud they look like

You’re nuts.

Flattering  Your druthers woud look like my balls Jesus   KahRist

                                                                         Sppose I oughta say thank you                   

he grimaced Not your bal . .

. . Then wha

                 Free your mind

 

Are you going to say?

Yeh

       Though I think yaoughta step out onto the wild side without guidancewithout  training wheels

I think you can do tha  he didnt believe it

 

   Druthers?

Couple threefour

                    A freakin gaggle

Startin lineup of the San Francisco Giantssomething Christ    Anything

   I don’t know.

 

Youre like snuffin a wood match with wetted fingertipsME

                                                                At the very least  A couple

Females  Braless tight dagoTs coloured horizontallystriped cotton panties  barefoot or wearing tongs  between the toes

Paint a picture

Anything occur

I like your ide . .

. . Theyre mine

                   Come up with something of your own

Lemme think.

 

 

 

Im adios

           Call me ifya think of something

1531,  Sunday,  16  2. 25

1650,  Saturday,  22  2. 25

En Vogue  Free Your Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7iQbBbMAFE

had to shut him up  was droning inane

                                           or

nothing comin out of his mouth interested him

interruptedEver  attend a congregation

Church?

Answer your own question

                              Have you

suspicious  he had good reason to be

                                   What are you getting at?

Simple question

   When my wife was unwell my sisters counseled her to attend a congregation, up north, Templeton. They insisted the minister there was believed to have mysticalpurported to have powers . . . the ability to lay hands on.

Gosh  coudnt let tha go

                            I didnt know they were tha full of shit

Hey. My sisters.

Tha doesnt letem off the hook

Why do you have to be so rude?

Sometimes the truth is rude or ugly or mean

                                                  Ya took herdidnt ya

   We felt it woudnt hurt. Figured why not throw everything at the wall.

And

He told her she ought to embrace going to Christ.  I almost punch him in the mouth.

Why almost

I couldn’t.

Lawsuit

Police. Lawsuit.

A Man of God woudnt understand your duress

I think not.

   Shoudave visited him at a later date night wearin a black ski mask

I couldn’t do something like that.

I coud

             Sorry for bringin up a difficult memory  Thas not where I was goin

Congregation I was referring to woud be an orgy  Templeton Templetation Contempleplaytion  Church of Commingling  Church of Cunniligus Church of Fellatio Church on Anilingus

The wholly trinity

That’s blasphemous.

Youre not a churchgoer  I said wholly  W H O L L Y

                                                         Not H O L Y 

Oh.

      I wouldn’t do that.

Woudnt participate

                     Whaif we splashed extra virgin olive oil all over it

Jeez.  No.

Shy

No.

   Like a shy one at some orgy Cohen saw his face scurry Leonard Cohen Last Years Man

No.  I have no idea who he is what you’re talking about.

You got your phone  Text yourself play it on YouTube

Your loss

              Beats the hell out of me how youll ever grow

Like an orgy some singer will make me grow.

Ha wha an asshole

                       Cant grow at an orgy youre dead

1455,  Sunday,  16  2. 25

1353,  Saturday,  22  2. 25

Cohen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryHsUGUeMkc                                             

had edibles

             five milligrams twoanahaf kickers

poured coffee

Hold on

What?

Ill have mine black thank you

I got creamer, hazelnut.

Not today

Why not today?

Not feelin it

Jesus, if you ain’t a moving target.

Make my Dad proud

                        Im movin since hes more a sittin duck these days

Sometimes gets so engrossed doin jigsaw puzzles he forgets to eat lunch

I can imagine.

You No

         Slave to your belly

I’m not.

Correct me if Im wrong

                         You said when we head south this weekend to meet your son meet my daughter  wed get there in time for brunch

Sure as shit I don think tha way

No one thinks the way you do.

Ill take tha as a compliment

Don’t.

they took the coffees outside and sat in the sun

                                                  had been cool rainy past couplethree days

warmth would feel good

Which are you Siloed or silenced

What are you talking about?

Our current political climate

                              With my computer down no television cant get my hands on a decent newspaper you not keepin me in the loop despite sayin ya woud

Silo

Silent

You usually say.

I do

      Thought Id change it up

Between reading books Ive been writing letters Wrote our senators House rep urgingem to challenge felon an letter F backslash elon at every opportunity

You really wrote them?

Them  Letters to family too

he shook his head

                     How do you do that?

Pick up a pen a piece of paper

                                  Last time you wrote a letter

I couldn’t say.

                What’s the price of stamps?

First Class  Seventythree cents

Jesus.

Ive no idea

             Your soul

   What are you talking about?

Jesus' price

                At the end of the Bible

You know wha ought to be there instead of The End

I don’t think The End is at the end of the Bible.

Probably not

               Probably not God is Dead either

No.

       Probably not.

Ya know how it ought to end

   Here we go.

                   No.  How should it end?

In Latin

In Latin?

Capto per globos corda et mentes sequentur

Meaning?

Grabem by the balls their hearts an minds will follow

Jesus.

   Had He espoused tha I might have quit laughing at the Biblical stories the nuns read Daniel in the lions den fat chance they woudnt eat him an woudnt have had to kneel on broomsticks

Coudave had a believer    

1410,  Sunday,  16  2. 25

1107,  Saturday,  22  2. 25

Monkees  I’m a Believer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PQAqprjOuA

he wokedidnt stir

                           didnt  open  his  eyes

imaged his expression mirrored on the back of his eyelids

hed be wrong

                was no good at sketching

   finally

               opened his eyes

There you are  well

   Again

Again such a pained look

OUCH tha looks like it hurt

Yadidnt pull the trigger

A euphemism     Really

                           No didnt an don I donwanna hear knew hed mock him

he did

       Pull your pud

KahRist

           Youre dating yourself

Yeh  Dating my age

                      Youre dating yourself

Clever

Clever enough thaif I were you Id pull the trigger

                                                   Id be enthusedHell    Enthusiastic

Yahwell youre myself not me

If we swappe . .

. . No can do . .

. . Don interrup . .

. . We tried once

                  Yaforget

No

       No really turned ourselves into a pretzel chuckled

he chuckled too Didnt leave the house for nearly a week

Was unfortunate

   Unfortunate

                  Though funnyepically funny  Not often one gets to gaze into their rectum

HA near wreckedus

Nearly

           Tonight

Yapromise

             Maybe gaze at some pictures before bed

   The Playmate Book

Late Sixties early Seventies

I coud do tha

If I coud I woud

Deal

       Then we will

early AM,  Saturday,  22  2. 25

0921,  Saturday

Sorry . excuse me . . talking to yourself?

   You don

I do.

       Do you talk out loud or telepathically?

Ill give you a moment to gather yourself restate your question

What?

Why  ratherhow    telepathic

annoyed  To yourself.

We shoud agree telepathic is the ability to communicate without speakin readin anothers thoughtsthough

woud be more likely my ability to read yours rather than you read mine  Half the time you cant follow wha comes out of my mouth

Shit.  You’re correct.

No  I do not speak

                     Why exert the energy

I’ll talk to myself out loud.

For purpose of memory

How do you mean?

Remind yourself theres something wha you wish to rememberfix in your mind for another time  or say you began hardboiling eggs but left the kitchen to do a quick chore tha absorbed ya

Did tha once ruined the eggs

Ruined?

Burnedem one exploded

You shouldn’t admit that.

Im unlike you

I . . I don’t appreciate your tonewhy would you say it like that?

Lying by omission

   I don . .

. . Ya do

            My girls lived at home they tried tha pull the wool over the old mans eyes Ive spent years grazin snatch kept my eyes peeled

Christ.

When I asked wha they did when they were out they learned shortorder I didnt want CliffsNotes  Thamade for our terribly honest relationships

Which you struggle with

                            Despite singing the praise of how honest you are

Yes  I burned boiled eggs

Admission

              Not omission

The truth shall set you free

                               laughter peeled out his throat 

HAR HAR.

Try it

        Youll like it

I’ve my reaso . .

. . To lie

   To restrain . . . exactly . . how I feel.

It doesnt feel dishonest  Is tha whaya think

Something like that.

Nothing?

   Make your bed  Sleep in it

1449,  Sunday,  16  2. 25

1236,  reggaefriday,  21  2. 25

Eurythmics  Would I Lie to You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7C3HYOLJSoM

   unstuck in time  occurred to him

                                              Yes   conceded

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z26BvHOD_sg played

                                                                               his daughters songtheir song

played inside a gray Tacoma pickup stopped at a traffic light

                                                                               her Toyota was red  ’84

crossing in front of it he closed the book he was reading on his finger

                                                                          hard

hard

       to read through tearedeyes

                              

   he couldnt make out the driver

                                    a woman

hidden behind the reflection a slash of noonsun

                                                  saw her hand

a colouredbeaded bracelet round her wrist

                                             saw hanging from the rearview mirror 

a small catgut dreamweaver

                               a spray of matching beads

a single feather hung from it

                               twisting in the air from the open windows

as he passed he did not glanceleft over his shoulder

                                                          if a wraith

he could not bear to see

1415,  Thursday,  24  2. 22

1117,  reggaefriday,  21  2. 25

Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

out of a hot lavendersalt bath

into bed

               sighed to himself   No   No not tonight

Whadaya mean not tonight 

                             last thing he wanted to do was argue with himself Not tonight

Whadaya mean  not tonight

   Wha I said

Yakiddin me

               Thas tantamount  denyin  if someone NO thank you wanted to have sex with you

Yakiddin me

Come  Its not like havin sex with someone

Excuse me all to Hellmake love  winked

You know its better than tha

Better

Imagination  Think

                       Think of all the impossible gumbypositions Ive contorted myselfcontorted tied in knots tiedup knots my partnerpartners

   Aah

        There is tha

Yeh  Tha

So wha youre saying isan I cant believe Im sayin this

                                                           Youre not in the mood

he chuckled

             Yeh    Ive got a headache

2236,  Thursday,  20  2. 25

1014,  reggaefriday,  21  2. 25

Pet Shop Boys  I’m Losing My Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l87T-7aW5Tk

Axis of Evil

 

Bush the Younger determinedly spoke of the Axis of Evil

America has a new Axis

that is

China Russia the United States

welcome to felons world

1703,  Thursday,  20  2. 25

something happenedtheyd never learn whatno one ever would

                                                                     the learned

taken to their knees  anyoneeveryone who survived

nomads

           or went mad

which was generous of nature

                                 She provided anesthetics

they felt nothing as they went as they tipped over   not eating    not drinking

                                                                                    died

he was stubborn

                    No. You're a prick.

he was a prick

he determineddecided to finally head home see if his folks survived

                                                                        always thought the nut didnt fall far from the tree

   it took him months of days

                                 he did the math in the dirt with his toe HA  twothousand miles

forty miles a day

sixtysixpointsixsixsixsixsixandonanonanon  666

                                                  on a highway to Hell ?

hed find out

 

   there

reminded him of a girder & panel building set  sans panels  orangerust girders  piled   arrayed

had to have an animalanimals

or slaves

   his father

                mother sat mutely at the mouth of a wooden shambles reminded him of his childhood house

it  dead center    it    its heart                  

   they looked beat

                           not beaten

he said Looks like youre doin well

guarded  We’re getting’ along.

Other family

No.

     None.

  Along

Along.

          You do what you got to do, son. man never called him by his name   always son

he motioned headnodded to the stackedstrewed orange metal

                                                                    Oer the ramparts brightly gleamin

You could say.

I did

         It looks like a fort

It’s a compound. a weirdsmile sideslithered across his face

   Compound

Words, son.

                   Of all people you ought to know to be specific using them.

Compound

Yes.

Suggestive

Yes.

             I hope you fare well.

Overnight dream,  Thursday,  20  2. 25

1504,  Thursday

AC/DC  Highway to Hell  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MjAMHH3vysA

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