21.2.25

   unstuck in time  occurred to him
                                              Yes   conceded

                                                                               his daughters songtheir song
played inside a gray Tacoma pickup stopped at a traffic light
                                                                               her Toyota was red  ’84
crossing in front of it he closed the book he was reading on his finger
                                                                          hard
hard
       to read through tearedeyes
                              

   he couldnt make out the driver
                                    a woman
hidden behind the reflection a slash of noonsun
                                                  saw her hand
a colouredbeaded bracelet round her wrist
                                             saw hanging from the rearview mirror 
a small catgut dreamweaver
                               a spray of matching beads
a single feather hung from it
                               twisting in the air from the open windows

as he passed he did not glanceleft over his shoulder
                                                          if a wraith

he could not bear to see

1415,  Thursday,  24  2. 22
1117,  reggaefriday,  21  2. 25
Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

out of a hot lavendersalt bath

into bed
               sighed to himself   No   No not tonight
Whadaya mean not tonight 
                             last thing he wanted to do was argue with himself Not tonight

Whadaya mean  not tonight

   Wha I said

Yakiddin me
               Thas tantamount  denyin  if someone NO thank you wanted to have sex with you
Yakiddin me

Come  Its not like havin sex with someone

Excuse me all to Hellmake love  winked

You know its better than tha

Better

Imagination  Think
                       Think of all the impossible gumbypositions Ive contorted myselfcontorted tied in knots tiedup knots my partnerpartners

   Aah
        There is tha

Yeh  Tha

So wha youre saying isan I cant believe Im sayin this
                                                           Youre not in the mood
he chuckled
             Yeh    Ive got a headache

2236,  Thursday,  20  2. 25
1014,  reggaefriday,  21  2. 25
Pet Shop Boys  I’m Losing My Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l87T-7aW5Tk

20.2.25

Axis of Evil

 

Bush the Younger determinedly spoke of the Axis of Evil

America has a new Axis

that is

China Russia the United States

welcome to felons world

1703,  Thursday,  20  2. 25

something happenedtheyd never learn whatno one ever would
                                                                     the learned
taken to their knees  anyoneeveryone who survived

nomads
           or went mad
which was generous of nature
                                 She provided anesthetics

they felt nothing as they went as they tipped over   not eating    not drinking
                                                                                    died


he was stubborn
                    No. You're a prick.
he was a prick

he determineddecided to finally head home see if his folks survived
                                                                        always thought the nut didnt fall far from the tree


   it took him months of days
                                 he did the math in the dirt with his toe HA  twothousand miles
forty miles a day
sixtysixpointsixsixsixsixsixandonanonanon  666
                                                  on a highway to Hell ?
hed find out

 

   there

reminded him of a girder & panel building set  sans panels  orangerust girders  piled   arrayed
had to have an animalanimals
or slaves

   his father
                mother sat mutely at the mouth of a wooden shambles reminded him of his childhood house

it  dead center    it    its heart                  

   they looked beat
                           not beaten

he said Looks like youre doin well

guarded  We’re getting’ along.

Other family

No.
     None.

  Along

Along.
          You do what you got to do, son. man never called him by his name   always son

he motioned headnodded to the stackedstrewed orange metal
                                                                    Oer the ramparts brightly gleamin
You could say.

I did
         It looks like a fort

It’s a compound. a weirdsmile sideslithered across his face

   Compound

Words, son.
                   Of all people you ought to know to be specific using them.

Compound

Yes.

Suggestive

Yes.
             I hope you fare well.

Overnight dream,  Thursday,  20  2. 25
1504,  Thursday

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11.2.25


Forgetting is a gift.
                       someone said that  he read it   he couldnt remember who  Ha hah
to his friend
              Though youre sensational at it

he chuckled  It’s a gift.

Might say then  youre gifted

   You don’t mean that?

No
      Im being facetious Happy you picked up the tone in my voice
Youre in a league of your own


Facetious?
Squared

   You have to beat up on me?

I wish I didnt
               But if I didnt youd think you were gold

his arms fell haplessly to his sides

Looks like surrender

I am becaus . .
. . Submission
Ya got to be a prick?

Me an Popeye

   What’s that supposed to mean?

I yam wha I yam
                   Singlehandedly he helped me dislike my dislike of spinach
Although coudnt ever grasp his affection for Olive Oil
                                                         Jesus
Long and lean?
Teenytits  No thank you
                            An Brutus chasing her ass too
Maybe  maybe had hidden talents
Ifya catch my drift
No.

No
     You rarely catch my drifts

Surrender

Surrender?

Please

Please?

Gifted   Forgetting
   Ah.

You forgot

Ya took me off my pace.

A onelegged pace
                    Called a hop 
A prick, and a braggart.

Aint braggin if I can remember

A wicked memory.

Long wicked memory



   You know whas occurred to me

You?

Never.

Is it possible tha zombies are just horrific Alzheimers
                                                         Runs in your family right

   How shall I say this?

Please  Indelicately

Fuck you in the ass.

Aww  Yamake me proud
                           My little boy all grownup

2257,  Monday,  10  2. 25
2047,  Tuesday,  11  2. 25

f/Elon
   alive and well    Well  alive  certainly jitteryanimated
                                                             “. . . we have people in there (Social Security) that are 150 years old.”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IatRmhSDths

Golly  why didnt he name them before the White House press gaggle

 

President Roosevelt signed the act creating the Social Security Administration August 14, 1935

taxes were first collected January, 1937
                                            then one-time lump-sum payments were made

regular ongoing monthly payments began January, 1940

   soo  85 years ago payments began


if 150 years old
                   those recipients were born in 1875


why didnt f/Elon name them
                                 he said people

2118,  Tuesday,  11  2. 25

he was on a rollhed say
                          on a  fat  powdersugardusted  stuffed    raspberry jellyroll
smacked his lips


   Aftered?  You said that right? shifting in his chaircocking his head like a little birdy

I did
      Whas the confusion

Confusion?
              It’s not a word.
Is
     Not how I mean it   However indicative present perfect   English verb conjugation To After

You’re sure?

Wanna give me a fuckin break You know Im careful with words
                                                                    Even while coining new ones
My aftered isnt dictionaries


What is your . . aftered?

Violet

You’ve said.
             Wha have I said

Correct me if my quote is off.

As I woud

Violet’s hair, either red dyed blonde blonde dyed red.

Atta boy

Aftered refers to her?

Yah

Toppling into her stationwagon pushed her in on her back strippedsnapped her black leotard top an bra down to her waistflipped her overyanked her panties to her knees  Aftered her ravenously

What did you do?

   Violet was braziled  Bare fore an aft   Aft
                                                      Aftered
I don’t understand.

Brazilian waxed

That means nothing to me.

A hoot to me
                After wards  words  nonespoken    Fucked like crazed rabbits

he hesitated  then shrugged

   Cant help ya bro
                        Im on a roll

11PM,  Saturday,  8  2. 25
1959,  Tuesday,  11  2. 25
Beatles  Got to Get You Ito My Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r95-7zfgtLw

PS  only threepeat this week

2345hrs
         Yafuckin kiddin me
he was talkin to himself


Guess you’ll see.

   he asked if her rawragged stripes were blonde dyed red redhead dyed blonde
                                                                                        dug her wicked grin
Guess you’ll see.


Bitch  Brasiled bare fore an aft
                                  builtfashioned  to take a lickin
gaspedsighed gagged Ohno . don’t ya dare motherfucker . . doncha dare stop.
                                                                                       Bitch Yabitch . . . don’t you dare.
he wasnt keen
                 but hed take it from her
she was slick wet as warming ice
                                     tasty
tasty as an iceconeWha flavour
                                     Wha flavours tha kept lappinsuckin
itd come to him

   shoved his thumb up her assshe GASPed
                                                yanked his head roundround by his hair ground his face
he bit her
MOTHERFUCKER.

   Yah  tasted like motherfucker tasted like softpeachlike  apricot marmalade

11PM,  Saturday,  8  2. 25
Monday,  10  2. 25
Three Dog Night  Just An Old Fashion Love Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8oiXpHojBjg

10.2.25


Amos Bronson Alcott  1799 –1888
                                      he was repeating a quote of his to himself as he groceryshopped  Our dreams drench us in sense, and sense steep us again in dreams.
he really liked it
                  distracted  he cutsharp past an endcap nearly rocking a woman employee walking up the aisle he enteredgrabbed her by the arms so he didnt bowl her overdrop her on her back
You okay
   I am I am I’m sorry.

Im sorry though looking into her hand her cellphone yaoughta watch where youre driving

chuckled
          Yeah. Suppose I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going.

But youre okay

I am, yes, thank you.   I’m okay.

Then off ya go he glanced at her breast Violet stitched in the apron Violet
                                                                           A story behind tha huh
she smiled mischievously liked her dimples There is.

he released her

she moved away dazed like a trout freed from a hook
                                                            Ill seeya around
quicklook over her shoulder said  Likely.

 

Ahshit
        he liked going to cashiers  disliked the Self Checkout 
but there were two extremely long lines

the people in them had one thing in common

they had beer booze  Super Bowl
not allowed through Self Checkout

but this is where corporate coercion falls flat
                                               while it rather people use Self Checkout it fails to realise their alcohol rules force people to stand in long lines and either havent the personnel to run cash registers or arent interested in opening lanes opening fresh cashdrawers that have to be counted at closing

MOTTO   THEY CAN WAIT people need their groceries

Ahshit a second time Self Checkout  Sounds like suicide

he hadnt liquour

   he was coerced

set his grocery bag on narrow shelf thighhigh to the left of the scanner thighhigh to the right was a long aluminum table after careful stacking twenty cans of catfood he balanced on a book that he would have to scan individually  cashiers scanned one variety entered 4 scanned the next entered 4  a breeze  he wasnt going to be breezy  

no sooner than he set the book on the table the machine reprimanded him actually said Unrecognised product. Remove it to continue. terse  muttered Fuckin machine under his breath he didnt get into an argument with it removed it to the floor at his feet there wasnt room anywhere else

before he began laboriously tediously  scanning  he looked up at the two lines
                                                                                     they were longer
he committed
scanning 

progress

completed the catfood

produce
         laid Anaheim peppers on the scale  scanner screen showed eight pictures of vegetables  no peppers  beneath the pictures was written  Enter item with alphabet pad.
it wasnt QWERTY under his breath KahRist 

the machine did not recognise Anaheim

over his shoulder a voice   Excuse me.
heard that voice before
                        turned slightly  that hair  either red dyed blonde blonde dyed red
Violet  he said

We meet again. Let me help.
                              she Backspaced voiding his entryrapped the eight pictured screen  another set of vegetable pictures appearedrapped the Anaheim pepper picture
This machine has a bit of a personality.

Don they all

there was that dimplepit smile again
                                        I believe you’re off an running again . . .
Im Joe

Joe.  Nice to meet you.

Happy New Year

It’s February.

Its my first opportunity to wish you one

she smiled That’s true he was growing fond of her smile  Happy New Year to you.

Thank you

Think you got it from here?

Few more produce I can be a fast learner if I like cartoned items  I think Im cool

   Cool.
         Who says that?
You

that mischievous smile
                          Violet walked away

this time he watched her go
                              nice ass
accentuated by the dangling ends of her knotted apron tie thumping it
                                                                           slim waist

 

FINISH AND PAY was the prompt

HOW MANY STORE BAGS?

rapped 0

Machine voice Pay with coins first, then bills.

debitcard
           tapped the screen entered his PIN placed his bag beside his groceries
bent over

picked up his book

set it on the table

started bagging

Error. machine voice

Whafuckin error  under his breath

Error. it repeated as if it heard him

Violets voice waft over his shoulder
                                      We have to stop meeting like this.
Where would you like to meet
her laughter tickled his ear
                              Your book, it’s your book.

It doesnt like Bolanos Twentysixsixtysix

It gummedup the works doesn’t recognise it.

I paid

No receipt. See. It’s refused to process your payment.
                                                          Let me help.
she had to scan her IDcard which hung from a lanyard

she leaned against him
                           Awdammit.
stood up stripped off her ID
                              I’m forever forgetting I have to press my ID to the screen to be scanned.
leaned against him

scanned down her blouse Jesus he thought

accepted her ID

she entered some number on the keypad

it was a long number

You’re special.

Special
         Like a retard
No. made a face  that frankly looked retarded
Don make that face

What?

Nothing

   Special. In thatI’d bet a day’s wages . . . you haven’t used Self Checkout a half dozen times . . anywhere. They’ve been around for years.

I havent I don much care for their personalities
                                                   A mutual HATE HATE relationship
Hate hate?

I hate it it hates me hatehate

the machine spit out his receipt

There you have it. You’re good to go.
                                       By the bye  By the time you pack your groceries I’ll have punched out for break
We could meet in my car

Love to

 

crossing the warm tarmacked parking lot  she parked remote
                                                                  Your hair
My hair?

It is blonde streaked red or red streaked blonde

Play your cards right you might find out.

 

it was a stationwagon    Awman I love your car    Thank you.    she unlocked the drivers side swung the door open threw her apron on the seat
                               Plant your groceries there.
she shut the door

opened the passenger door seats were collapsed
                                                     You first.
he crawled in turned to face her she crawled in he didnt scan  blouse was unbuttoned

 

 

he didnt find out

she was a tease

saw an esthetician

afternoon,  Wednesday,  5  2. 25
1345,  Monday,  10  2. 25

What are you reading?

Irish John McGahern  The Pornographer

Comparing yourself or learning at his knee?

Excuse me

You’re a pornographer.

I am not

Ohplease . . . you write about sex you certainly talk about it.

And politics an religion an equal opportunity offender an wha appears to meappeals to me in any given moment  Hence pen tucked over my ear if paper not in a book a piece folded in my pocket

Yacant take me anywhere not social gatherings Im guaranteed to offend an usually in very short order 

Its a talent

But you write about se . .
. . Love  Flirtation   Admiration Desire
                                                Not denying sex
You write graphically about it.      

   Sometimes
                   More often its nuanced
Nuanced. 
          You write about fucking.

I write about imagined  fucking   the way artists use white space
                                                                       Lead the reader up to the edge letem decide if they want to jump  to jump in
Imagine

I hint sexuality

   But you don know because you don read me an therefore assume

I imagine you write like you talk.

Ya don imagine  Ive toldya tha

Have you?

I have
           Im not a pornographer
I write about animated inanimate things spiders cats
                                                        I write about a leaf floating on a pool surface casting a shadow on the bottomwhich looks like a turtle  an as the sun lowers in the sky the leaf drifting towards the end the shadow-turtle climbing the side until it surfacesemerges a turtle   that crawls away into garden beds

 

 

 

What am I supposed to say about that?

Nothing

1040,  Sunday,  9  2. 25
1134,  Monday,  10  2. 25