the shit he found scribbled on papers he kept

rereading them made him as curious as he was when he wrote

                                                                        leuk plaatje

                                                                        Oblivously

not English

    he didnt indicate where he found it

                                            lacked context

the only thing sharing the page were instructions his daughter gave him over the telephone to help him make operable on his cellphone “Block This Caller”

it didnt work

sometimes one has to learn to negotiate unfortunate things

                                                              phone rings  number isnt in his phonebook  he lets it go

fortunately he tolerated noise

                                wasnt really tolerance  more an ability to turn it off in his head

a survival skill honed in a large family home

twelve

        if he couldnt turn them off he would have gone mad

as it was

           slightly   touched

leuk plaatje

plaatje -s plural

                  Dutch  picture  something adorable  that was OOC  out of character for him

but he dug how the word looked

                                    attracted him

leuk  white  but also means fun

                                    thereby the whole made entire sense to him

digging deeper  found gezellig lekker  they were synonymous to leuk  fun  pleasantly sociable/friendly

                                                                                                                  wondered

if it was legit in Dutch to say gezellig plaatje lekker plaatje

                                                                no matter

if he met a woman named either shed be hot

                                               Lekker or gezellig me.  not kosher

she could bet her bottom dollarguildereuro hed lekker or gezellig her

she wouldnt have to ask him Again. 

                                         Lemme take a minute or two massage my jaw relax my tongue

labour of love

    loved pussy

1155,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  9. 21

1315,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

they called him Hafway Always

                                 HA  for short  Obviously   Of course  OOC

no matter what the gang was up to

                                      he couldnt keep up

not that he wasnt committeddidnt want to

was just slow on the uptake

                               anthen   less enthusiastic

because he was late to the game

yet when the gang let him call the terms

                                          they werent inconsiderate  he was one of them

he found the ground under his feet turn to sand  slipped  lost ground 

they arrived

     he was hafway

they waited for him

                      although

less and less he was invited around

upset  begrudgingly he learned to accept that

                                                 he recognised he wasnt fire on all cylinders 

HOWEVER

              when the gang needed something worked out  something sedentary

HA was the man

maybe not a man of action

                            rather  a plodder a plotter    patience

hence how he discoveredthey discovered how he really fit in

                                                                  a cog to their gear

Say gang . . think we could change my nickname?

a chorus  Nope.    

1155,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  9. 21

1104,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

he wrote pensees to distract himself he needed that

they are a thought or reflection in literary form composed of lines of syllables

the title or subject has two

the description is four

action seven

setting eight

a final thought  six

Rubber

fit my wallet

fumbling for it went off

in the backseat of her Moms car

vinyl cleans up easy

1111,  reggaefriday,  27  1. 23

Nose Muff

my nose was cold

called When can I see you

thrusted it deep between her thighs

Why was I late to this

1206,  reggaefriday,  27  1. 23

0853,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

what when brown people who voted for expresident are rounded up for mass deportation rounded up  confinedinterred in concentrations camps

                                What

1711,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

Drumpf wants to bring Guantanamo home  https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/new-trump-admin-rule-to-detain-migrant-families-indefinitely-66903621803

indefinite internment of families OR lets call it what it is  concentration camps

2314,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  8. 19

https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/trump-seizing-unilateral-powers-to-detain-people-indefinitely-66915909768 

Oh by the way  nationalise Americas private for-profit prisons

a cutup of his own

. . . his daughters . . .

. . . phone feature matrixes

. . . licked the end of his pinkie . . .

Thas nice but unnecessary . . .

. . . his work was peerless

Since were fresh you shoud know you can say anything you like . . .

He’s a fan of three.

Why do you have them?keep them?

I don’t agree.

. . . my wife isnt here . . .

. . . their last words

. . . frantic way down

1313, day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

the muck on the bottom of the lake felt like cold raw liver on his feet

December 8, 1980

1243,  day-between-2-T,  6  11. 24

Beatles  A Day in the Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYeV7jLBXvA

the telephone rang

he picked up

on the other end

                         So . . . . what do you think?

he chuckled darkly

                     Just texted my grrl Time for Biden to pull the trigger, utilise his Supreme Court presidential immunity clause

Jesus.

Ya caught the laugh

    Still.

Yah

       I am profoundly disappointed

                                       But

Theyre gonna get wha they deserve

You . .

. . No  Not me not you not most people I know an love  Ive not befriended a single fearful person not a single aggrieved person I woud not soil myselfwaste my time

                                                 Theyre gonna get exactly wha they wanted

What about us?

Well witness them debauched They voted against their interests as historically  white sharecroppers did when they went against black sharecroppers thinking their white skin made them better more like the wealthy white landowners

They debased themselves

They only think they won

I think you have more to say.

Perceptive  Youre perceptive                      

Hate  I don hate

                    I do however  detest him with extreme prejudice

I hear ya. I like abhor.

Ohyah didnt think of tha

                           Abhor   An awfully nice word handsome five letters

Yes.  Emphasis second syllable.

I hear ya brother

                    I hear ya

0940,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

closing her eyes again  she stared into the darkness that undulated stirred  simmered to boiling

                                                                                                       there was something there  beyond that film

                           daresay  a room   vault

suspended in her eyes

as if underwater

                   gazing up into the bluepurpling depth of the sea

a chamber

              trove

that collapses in on its origami-self

                                         dreams

did they seep from there  were the sharp architectures that could put her eyes out  forged there  were strangers she saw or conversed with

                          assembled there

rare times she knew someone

                                 were they kept there to play hideanseek

there  was   something

                           Present    Presence

which deepened

                   fell up

away

       then

disintegrated

dissolved

                softlysilvered

became?

            the siftingquivering veil

she cast her dreams on

0410,  Saturday,  19  8. 23

1251,  Monday,  4  11. 24

Youre the perfect lass to ask

Lass?

If you were younger Id say lassie

                                    Youre of Irish descent

Mmmk. 

         My red hair freckles give me away?

O’Toole  Kind of a dead ringer

she laughed deeply didnt cover her mouth   both attracted him

                                                                       Kind of.

Yah

       So you know wha circumcision is

Where’s this going?

                       Not the nurse?

The nurse

Yes.

Nah  Wha nurse

    She says, she works in a circumcision ward, pays not good but the tips are great.  Wah wah wahhh.

he laughed  high in his throat

                                  A comedian

Actually my Da. He toltha at the dinner table.

I like your old man

He’d have liked you.

he nodded

               her father contracted Trumpvirus  died                                                              

 

    Yes. breaking the silence  Yes I know circumcision. I know you.

I wasnt goin there

That’s out of character.

Lemme get this out anthen Ill get into character

                                                   If you have time

she rolled her wrist looked at her watch shook her head

                                                            Aww.     But I could make time.

that beautiful musical laughter again

he hadnt intended going there but  aww  wha the hell   he loved the constellations across her chest an breasts  naming them   everywhere

                                

So weve established circumcision

Yes.

Ever hear of hibernicised

    Couldn’t say could you spell it?

Of course  H I B E R N I C I S E D

she repeated the spelling

Correct

she repeated it again

                             No.   Could I guess?

made him smile

I’d guess, since you commenced with circumcision, freezing penis tips?

burst out laughingshe joined in

                                      Howdya get there

Hibernate. Freeze ‘em.

For wha purpose

I don’t know. I guessed.

                           What would you do with frozen penis tips? Or or or . . . hi- . error . cut tips too high?

Jesus

Then answer my question.

Thawem to nosh on later

Really?

Flesh

       Ever eat duck feet chicken feet  Flesh

Jesus.

Duelin Jesuses

Come now I’m on the clock. I wanna get there.  What is hibernicised?

To make Irish in character

I didn’t know that.

I hadnt either

Suppose we’ll not forget.

Nah

    Motel nearby.

Read my mind

1143,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

1034,  Monday,  4  11. 24

You say rumor monger I say rumour mongrel Lets call the whole thing off

facetiously You’re a funny guy. 

he knew the inflection Don mean to be

                                          Butwha youre spewin friend youve earned mongrel

You didn’t see the picture if you did you’d agree with me.

                                                               He shit in his pants.

He didnt

He did it was shot from behind while he was getting out of his golf cart. You could see a huge shit stain, was going down the back of his legs.

    Who took the photograph

I don’t know.

Where did you see it

A site on social media.

Wha site

I don’t know.

Static  not moving

A picture.

    Im callin horseshit callin fake callin photoshop youve seen deepfakes

                                                                               Phony  Rumour

Yeahwell, I believe this is true.

Anthas how rumours start spread are fed  ignorant people want to believe

                                                                                Step right up yes step right up Ladies and Gentlemen you wont believe your eyesHell the huckster hawker peddler monger mongrel  hes even tellinya wont believe your eyes

Pay a dime a quarter they believe their eyes

An the while ya bitch about political rumours against candidates we prefer

friend slowly shook his head the entire time he was speaking

                                                                No. No. No.   I believe the rumor is true.           

motherfucker ninetyninepointnine percent of the time he says I think

1729,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

0920,  Monday,  4  11. 24

Ella Fitzgerald/Louie Armstrong  Let’s Call the Whole Thing Off  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2oEmPP5dTM

. . . but you said you said . . without you.

I did

    What did you mean?

Wha I said

What you said was . . was . what’s . what’s the damn word

   Ambiguous

YES yes, that’s it.

                     Why ambiguous?

Plausible deniability

                       Watch enough politics ya learn things  Ive probably earned a Masters degree

    You’re being facetious . . aren’t you?

Am I

         Coudbe a doctorate

You getting out over your skis?

shaking his head I don think so

    Again.  What did you say?

Didnt I wrote it

They’re the same.

Writings commitment  Fixed   Unerasable

                                              I wouldnt have been able to do this  without you

I don’t know.

Not yours to know

                       I do

 

1234AM  0034,  Sunday,  3  11. 24

2039, Sunday,  3  11. 24

Harry Nilsson  Without You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dnUv3DUP4E

Hold on hold on hold onwoudya  hold on one freakin minute

WHAT?

    Please  No reason for agitation

                                      Ya losin your mind

You losing yours?

Are you a child

Are you?

he laughed  what else is one supposed to do with that

Are you?

hed play his game

                     act not that the child acted  act like he couldnt remember from one minute to the next what transpired in the last five minutes

Am I wha

What do you mean what?

Exactly   Wha

                Your diatribe  Im listening   All ears

Wha was anticipating What you said

Nothing

    I got steamed up.

I get steamed up.

Why

Your default is defence

                         Im not attacking you  Im urgent  aggressive   Confrontational

But I aint attacking                               

It feels like it.

Cant tell you how to feel

                           To reiterate  Points I make  is to deliberate converse argue  not berate

It feels like it.

Correct me if Im wrongIm not

There. Again.  Pejoratively I’m not, you hear yourself?

    I hear you  An Im not wrong

                                    It must feel like tha because youre not confrontational

You strive  ya go along to get along

I don

Which is why I said  wha provoked this

                                            Its not interfering  when youre one interfering

339preferred,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

1257,  Sunday,  3  11. 24

O   For tha you deserve a latitude named after you

A latitude?

Doncha think

A latitude?  Like . . . on a globe . .

. . The globe the planet earth

I’m . .

. . A coordinate specifying north an south positions Tropic of Cancer Tropic of Capricornyoud be in the northern hemisphere

                 Coud also be a coordinate on another celestial body

Don let celestial go to your head

    Why do you say that?

Come on

           We were just discussing that

Latitude?

No

Then what?

What were we discussing

                            You are present when we talk . .

. . You talk

As do you

I can’t talk like you do.

No you cant  Im the idea guy

                                    We volley

We do not.

             Ratio . tenfifteen to one I’m able to return.

You exaggerate

I do not.

           Know tsunami?                                                 

Yes  Seiche Lake Superior Lake Eerie gave it a second E Lake Michigan   White horses white caps breaking waves

Jesus!  SEE?

Cant help myself

                   Tsunami  a lovely looking word  if a woman Id date her sight unseen  an audacious name for a female child

And on an on.

You know these things Im telling you

    No.

Im sorry  We agree its important to learn something new every day

We do.

Sowha

         Is one your quota

I didn’t say that.

I did    I did

                 Hence latitude   Northern latitude

Minimal  scope for freedom of thought

                                               Instead  Maybe a highway

429preferred,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

1043,  Sunday,  3  11. 24

Gordon Lightfoot  The Wreck of the Edmond Fitzgerald  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LhA9pd51GIM

harp  she called it harping

                             Can’t we just talk without these wild tangents you entertain, go off on?

Wild tangents

Yes.

Hold on grrlcatch a breath  breathe    Yes a tad breathless

    You’re absolutely maddening.

An entertaining

                 Not something in your orbit which is why were friendswhy we didnt date

I wouldn’t date you even if you asked.

My apology  You are entertaining

You’re a smug sonofabitch.

I try

Who replies to defamation with I try?

Rhetorical  but Ill play

                           I also try  took a deep breath this is like beating a dead horse I try to give you wide latitude to keep up

Keep up?really?  Keep up.

                            Out the gate you’re gone leaving me bread crumbs.

Which you eventually follow

she shruggedmuttered Freakin’ maddening.

    Howeve . .

. . No.

Hear me out hear me out

                            However  We agree

It is important to learn something new every day

                                                       I do give you tha

she put her head in her hands

Odd confirmation

                      Ill take it

Now

she lifted her head

Looks heavy

I’m . . . I’m . . tired . . . defeated.

Youre not

Don’t tell me what I am. 

Excuse me

             Correct

Though you agree

 

    That I learn something new . .

. . From me

    From you.

I learn something new.

    An most unimaginable in your realm

                                              Why I wait for you to catchup

Wait. You call that waiting?

Wait with goadingopening your eyes  I incentivise

    Why the hell don’t you just use a bullwhip?

Don give me ideas  No

                          No    Then wed have to date

  

429preferred,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

0930,  Sunday,  3  11. 24