Ex libris Latin  From the library the collection of

I know I know.

                How did you get to Traci Lords from there?

Hop skip an a jump

                     Comon

I told you you lose me a lot.

Youre not going to make me explain

I don’t know who Traci Lords is?

Cum  On

Don’t come on me.

almost lost his shit laughing so hard

Not funny, not funny. I’m feeling like the butt of a joke.

                                                           I know ex libris.

Awright wiped tears from his eyes Awright   Hint

You want me to guess after laughing at me?

Thaswha you do  How many times have you You’ll never guess.d me

                                                                          An I don

An when I slipup an say Youll never guess you start guessing

An never guess right

So no A hint is different than guessing

Are you getting sore?

No Im in awe of you  Ill go to it

                                    Ex libris  You can spell it

I told you I know it.

Liberate the ex

What do you mean liberate the ex?

An X

An ex what?

I like tha too Annex the X

What?

Not ex  X

           The letter I hate explaining jokes

    X. 

Yes

Traci Lords is X?

And

      An underaged X at tha

    A porn star?

With sweet puffy nipples

                           Like pastries not pasties don cover them up  Ohno

shaking his head Jesus. The way you think.

I think I think

                  I think you grewup cloistered  My deepest condolences

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You may be the wrong person to ask since youve spent the majority of your life here  But when you werent living here did you find yourself homesick

    Homesick.

                I’d have to think on that to be honest with you.  You.

No

That’s abrupt.

No Not when you consider I left home two years later than I wanted to ansince have only returned for brief visits antha my childhood home was razed

Home

It is a negligible term

You’ve lived here twenty years. Do you think of this as home?

No

     he chuckled      Im homeless

Wha about you

                    Homesick

I don’t know if I can say. I was only gone a year.

                                                     I can’t remember feeling homesick.  Though I may have been. I can’t remember.

he nodded

So what made you think to ask?

I was reading

                I came across a word fernweh  spelled F E R N W E H   It attracted me German Farsickness  Longing for unseen places

To be homesick for a place youve never been

A melancholic desire

See

    I do.

          That would be . . . uncomfortable.

Yes  Thank you

                  Not having been I was curious looking for a perspective of being homesick

I don’t imagine I’ll be the only person you ask.

No  Im fascinated

                      An attractive looking word

You’ll let me know?

Ill letya know

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E O T M.

    Really

G K I T.

L O L

      Woudya fuckin say whaya mean  You know acronyms irritate me

I do. Why I do.

                 Abbreviations of any kind frost your fanny.

Yah

C A.

No California I L Illinois M D Maryland or doctorhence   confusion

                                                                          Say whaya mean

Apparently frosting’s become a bug up your ass.

Damnright

            No patience for nonsense

Come on man, the world turns on acronyms, abbreviations, hashtags, you need onl . .

. . You need only

                    Im not playin

Either say or Im walkin away

Christ.

        E O T M.  You know it, I’ve told you before.

Anwhy youd think Id keep useless information in my head is beyond me

                                                                             You say I dump it immediately

Alright, alright.  E O T M. East of the Mississippi.

 

East of the Mississippi.

Ive no idea

Come on. he looked irritated Your friend, your buddy, has only been west of the Mississippi once so we . .

. . Mouse in your pocket  Best not include me in your we

Then your friend and I . .

. . Parlance between you

                           Your shorthand 

I’m sure she’s shared . .

. . With you

Lets add to your irritation

                             I believe E O T M also means end of the month

See the confusion

See why I don play

Just being a pain in the ass.

No Lets drive a nail through its skull once an for all

                                                       Ever see an emoji in a text from me

No

Lastly

       Whas G K I T just for now  Ill be forgetting it

God knows I try.

Ya don

          Don goround pattin yourself on the back or Ill call ya by your real name not your clever nickname

Anwe know wha a dealkiller tha is with the ladies

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Tha lines crap You know tha right

                                    Excuse me  I dislike right  Despise it when its used on meRight  Fuckno

Wrong

on defence  jaw set lips wire thin  I don’t believe it’s a line.

No  Who told you

                         Yatell me an Ill tell you You I coud guess  I bet Id be right

You’d bet? You’re not a betting man.

Im not but Ive got a damngood idea who laid tha on you

What’s your damn good idea?

Buckleup

               Your mother

he flinched didnt expect that  Youah . you’re right.

                                                      How’dya know? 

Got a mother too

                    Thas the line they were selling all mothers of our generation 

Clothes make the man

Horseshit

               I gotta wonder if they ever heard of an empty suit

Dress for success

The other  If you look successful people will believe you are

                                                               Horseshit

Success dresses any way they want

Suits How many suits do you own  Have a tuxedo

A few suits.

              Not a tuxedo.

Few  Fews defined as a small number

                                          How many

I’d have to think about it.

Think

You’re kidding.

I think if it were a few itd be at the top of your head Dark suit light suit  Not talkin sport jackets  Ive got one of those

How many suits do you have?

Stallin

How many?

None  Never have

                     If I were buried familyd have to find a suit in a secondhand shop

How many

             as he spoke he watched him play with his fingers

How many

I’m thinking.

Youre counting

    Yes.

I’ve eleven.

 

    Eleven

             Fashion maven

I don’tdidn’t . . . think so.

                              Not one suit?

No need  Sport jacket sufficed

Weddings?

Jacket

        Funerals  Jacket  Graduations  Jacket

I have plenty of ties though

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Z Z Top  Sharp Dressed Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wRHBLwpASw

a fresh new word

                     heard it he couldnt pronounce it asked the sayer if they could spell it

they looked at him asif he had two heads

                                             Im not shittin you When Im ignorant I admit it

she cleared her throat of course sayer was a she  guys are densebecoming denser

                          Five syllables  ooh she was going to school him  School me

                                          Au-to-poi-long e-ses.  Autopoiesis.

Autopoiesis

Correct.

          A system capable of producing maintaining itself by creating its own parts.

Please tell me this is biology not a computer

A cell, yes. A machine? Likely, but not soon.

Promise

    Who are you?

Joe thrusted his hand out confident she would take it as someone who believes they are superior always do

she took it Thank god knew how to shake Saoirse.

Oh Christ of course you are

                             Again please he held her hand after they shook  Its tha with a string of vowels

Again  Ignorant  Youre my first again please

Saoirse.

         Pronounced first syllable sur spelled S U R second syllable shuh spelled S H U H.

Sur shuh

Got it. Good for you.   

                            May I have my hand back?

Im a romantic Enjoy holding hands  Taking long walks on beaches at sunset

                                                                                 laughed  cracked himself up

Woud imagine thas how some resumes posted on online dating apps appear

                                                                                  Wha a maroon

Be he or she but more likely he

May I buy you a drink after your clutch breaks up

                                                      I apologise  I didnt mean to interlope intervene interrupt

Logophile

A what?

Arya kiddin

I am.

      she laughed mouth unashamedly wideopen he dug that  deepthroated

I like you

Of course you do.

                         I’d enjoy a drink afterwards.   What you reading?you come to a bar and read?

Make a mean Bloody Mary here Reading The Vegetarian Kang South Korean won the Nobel Peace Prize for literature a week back

I didn’t know that.

Ignorant

Must suppose I am.  chirped birdlike

An The Pornographer John McGahern read a lot of The books Baldwins The Price of the Ticket Coates The Message

And the pad?

Clipboard paper pen

                       In case Im moved

Moved?

Taken

        As you have

But more on tha later

                         Please Enjoy your friends

Maybe you’d like come and join us.

No

     No thank you

she was taken back a bit obviously

                                       Decisive.

Astute  I am

               Enjoy your friends please

Then a little later.  Joe.

Yes  Please Saoirse

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She told me I have too much empathy, and sympathy.

                                                               Do I?

Crowdsourcing

No. Talking with people I trust isn’t that.

Kinda is

           I woud thinkbelieve believe  you know without asking    Confirmation

    Maybe.

What do you think

I think I’m struggling, don’t think, know, to understand the difference between them. There is a difference.

Yah

     If they were the same theyd have the same name Why we name things peoplewere namers to distinguish betweenem

    Okay. That was absolutely no help.

You want help

                  Lookem up in the dictionary

You are frustrating. her frustration came on strong and clear through the telephone

I prefer maddenin  More accurate

                                          Awright  But don take me at my word

Empathy is our ability to understand how someone feels

Sympathy is our relief not having the same problems

                                                                You have my sympathy

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Isnt this kinda weird

his brother standing beside him arms loose hands crossed at his groin turned his head he was already looking at him looked him in the eyes

                         Is it anymore weird than standing in Sula at the cemetery above the confluence of the two valleys where Lewis and Clark first entered what would become known as Montana where you intend to have your ashes scattered?

Yes

Why yes? That’s to be your resting place.

Ashes don rest Scattered Ill be as close to the earth as I coudever be playing in the sun an moon wind an rain among wildflowers grasses weeds harassing insects an ants until I dissolve

                                                                           Am absorbed

You wont be Not entombed here

                                   he stirred the grass with his toe at the foot of what would be his brothers grave someday

inevitably

I don't know that.

                    his brother walked across his grave taboo  once he was buried

he laughed

              shivered farcically  Ooooh felt like someone just walked across my grave.

Christ

        Seriously

Brother, I don’t think we’ve ever been serious except for wakes and funerals.

                                                                                  Have we? I didn’t know?

    No

               No   Cant say tha I remember a timeNo  The night before I got married and you took me to bed held me in your arms  said You love her. Relax. A whole new world for you today.  You chuckled  A whole new adventure.

Then you kissed the back of my head  said Go to sleep.

                                                             An I did

I don’t remember that.

                                        he chuckled

reminiscing early this AM before falling asleep,  Monday,  21  10. 24

0927,  Monday

he loved holes

                  his grandmother mentioned to him he loved dinosaurs Did you know there may be dinosaur bones buried in the backyard?

NO

Yes.

        Did you want to look?

Do I

Shovel’s downstairs in the basement.

Where do you think in the backyard Gramma

Beside the garage, near the alley.

that was where they planted a small garden

he went nuts

              was either was coming away with a bone or a Chinaman

Joe!  Time to come in, wash up, time for dinner.

                                                        No no, fill in the hole. You can try again tomorrow.

he tried every day for weeks on end

his grandmother finally stopped him

                                        she was beginning to believe he wasnt bright

a rabbit hole

               shibboleth sent him down it

he kinda  had an idea but went to the dictionary to confirm custom or principle or belief distinguishing a particular class or group of people

he thought catchwords passwords codes vocabularies used by professionals doctors attorneys dominatrixes tricks

shibboleth lead him to Homer struggling with hapax hegomena

                                                                  what the fuck

hapax once

               hegomen  being said

a word or term that appears only once within a document or corpus

he saw Be still my beating heart he said out loud Honorificabilitudinitatibus  from Shakespeares Loves Labor Lost

the state of being able to achieve honours

                                             it did nothowever better supercalifragilisticexpialidocious  extraordinarily good wonderful   letterwise

Shakespeare also volleyed outvenoms to surpass in venomousness  and pajock  savage degenerate  or peacockHmm 

holes

       loved to find them loved to find what was in them

early October, ’24

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Mary Poppins  Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rihNRTTcztQ

cant help myself

                  The Four Tops https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3bksUSPB4c

rocked

        listenin to radio

it plays Zeppelin  Your Time is Going to Come  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cvEVivHVsU

                                                                                                          Sorry boys youd be on my side  had to dedicate your awesome song to the  forever   former

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What are you going to do with that?

Howbout them apples

she laughed

               Should have expected nothing less from you, you should have been a politician.  Don’t answer questions. Seek plausible deniability.

My Dad was briefly

A politician?

Yah Precinct captain

                       Was actually wooed by a senator and a congressman to convince him to run  They came to the house

No kiddin’?

No He declined because he was married raising five children

But politicians . .

. . Now

          Now politicians mysteriously become wealthy while serving Not then  But he remained well-connected kept askingsaying if I wanted to go to West Point the Naval Academy Annapolis the Air Force Academy Colorado Springs he could get me in

You? In the military?

As incredulous as you just said  thashow I replied

                                                       He said he could also have gotten me to Washington as a Congressional page

Should have pulled the trigger on that.

Tell me about it

                  Although we woudnt have met

Maybe we still would have.

You going to soulmate me

Nah. Pure raw animal magnetism.

he laughed  

               Youre sweet as honey buckwheat

You know it.

they grinned like hyenas at each other

But back to . . what are you going to do with that?

Clade clods

                 First  Phonaesthetics knock off Tolkiens cellar door

You get as much a hard-on for that as you do for me.

Astute

Stud.

Yawanna fuck

After you explain.

                    You understand, I’m trying to incentivise you.

undid the top three buttons of her blouse

Yeesh  Distracting me babe

Think. Concentrate.

My dicks winning out

Remind your dick your brain is in your head.

Clade Primates  Humans apes new world old world monkeys lorises lemurs  Clods  Ohwha the fuck

                                                                                                              MAGA

Decrepit clods

Good

undoing the rest of her buttons she stoodup from the couch and headed down the hall to the bedroom

                                                                                                           Bring ice cubes.

On it

early October, ’24

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sacrilegious  if religioushe wasnt

                                    make no mistake    one  does not degradate the other

a cathedral

a roadside motel

they are the same

listen to their wallsshaddup for a moment  listen

                                                      to sacred whispers  devout intimacies ecstatic joy heartbreak sorrow elation mindnumbing depression jubilation

                                                      despondence

elements conferred making up human beings

    their society

                   their loneliness

listen to silent spiders weave their webs in unseen corners  remote

                                                                         striving   living

tears holy  filling carved stone stoups

holy tears washed away in ironstained bathroom sinks

intimately  they are the same

                                      Motel Cathedral

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I believe youll agree with me

                               When you die youll die with your life unfinished

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Beatles  Now and Then  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AW55J2zE3N4