he fooled himself

                   just because she appeared little didnt mean she was young

she was little

and young

was in a pasture attending a horse how he scaled her

she hailed him  waved   waved him over

he started to climb the fence

leg over he paused

                        hed seenexperienced this scenario before he waved from the field

she waved  started    stopped

heldup an indexfinger

wagged it

climbed off the fence

kept walkingup the dirt road to the rented farmhouse where her family was staying

    he knew what he was thinking in the middle of that green hayfield

curiosity got the better of him always did

continuedjumped down off the fence  began walking towards her

she didnt get any bigger the closer he got

Christ

         a nymph

was it possible to pack that much cute onto such a small frame

                                                                   her voice  lyrical  matched the vessel

I’ve seen you before on the road a lot.

Stretchin my legs

Your . . . girlfriend? lives up the road.

Yes

I’ve seen her too, she’s beautiful.

he nodded Tha she is

You know . . . sometimes she sunbathes in the nudeI’ve seen.

Shes said

She’s seen me?

                  I’ve been quiet like a mouse.

No  Tha she sunbathes naked

Oh.

       I like her body.

I do toowhas this about  I thought yamight need help with the horse

No. I wanted to say hiya, hiya, meet you.

    Meet me

I’ve only seen you from afar.

So  whas this about

Her breasts are large.

Yes

Mine aren’t.

Maybe as you grow older they will  Lots to do with genetics

Look at mine.  she yanked her blouse open

And

      Im outa here

he turned on his heels

                          her tits remind him of the first girl he felt up she tugged his cock

he was a kid

wasnt now

Mister!  Wait!

    fat chance

beelined

            couldnt wait to tell his girlfriend she had an admirer

0627,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

1514,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

Where’d ya go?

Went waondering off in my headfigured ya woudnt mind

Could have left a note.

A note

       I didnt go anywhere note triggered Miller  “. . . composing music in the key of sassafras.”

You were in the basement. When I called you didn’t respond.

I wasnt listenin  I was gone

Why does nobody else I know, or ever have, except for you, are able to turn off their hearing?

They want to hear

Are you being funny?

You don seem humouredso  no

                                 Weve had this conversation before

We have.

           You could be courteou . .

. . Leave you a note

                      I’m downstairs.

Youd come down an interrupt me

    Correct

If it were important.

Important can wait

Do you hear yourself?

If I wantwhas important

                           Wha youd deem important is important

Then whaif it isnt to me

                                                 An youve interrupted me  Im never gone long

Am I

    No.

This is an old house. You can hear me walking overhead floorboards creaks.

If I were listening

                       I was  Off

To address your question  Again

I grew up in a large family You know

Call it privacy

Call it selfsurvival

    Ill leave a note

1154,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

 

Maurice Blanchot  “. . . if writing is defining the unknown . . . it must always leave the unknown to be unknown, even though its purpose is the attempt to uncover and to disclose that unknown.”

In Louis Menards The Free World: Art and Thought in the Cold War he read “Literary language is figurative and polysemous.”

spirit of his frustrated psychologist rushed in 

used Jungs word association on him

                                       she was legit

apparently he wasnt

                       his associations crushed her 

though he did win his trial

her spirit raved POLYSEMOUS

he howled Cyclops

What?

Polyphemus

What?

Comon  Odysseus Odyssey Homer

    Yaoughta be happy ya held your tongue didnt chide me tried me its noun polysemy

                                                                                             Idve had to reveal something unseemly seamy creamy Campbells soup Cream of Cunt Cream of Semen topshelf stuff tasty upanaway where kids coudnt reachem in good time in plenty of time perhaps when older perhaps not  they became sophisticated  unlike me older I got I only got more curious no time for sophistication  fornicationYes sophisticYes  sophisticationOhno

polysemous

              have multiple meanings

triggered a runaway train

her spirit tucked tail and left

                               Hey

refused to look back

                  Hey  Don go away   Weve only just begun

she disappeared into the tall mirror at the end of the hallway

                                                                 couldnt begin to say how many spirits sought refuge in that mirror

his on occasion peeked outconfronted him

turned his back on him too many times to remember

                                                        Im talkin to you

flipped him the bird

evanesced

            Whard ya go

wished he could go like that

wondered where hed end up

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1120,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

he said  La di dah

                           that was refreshing

couldnt say where it came from hadnt read it heard it or said it in forever

it was perfect for the moment

saw it register in his face

                              dissed

dismissed

eyes grew

wasnt used to being confronted

looked like he was going to spit

how vulgar

he was going to say it again   doubledown  unlike him

                                                      La di dah   La difuckin dah

smiled

         err  shouldnt have smiledshould have tried contrite  evenif insincere 

maybe said

               Hmmm

though wouldnt have brought him to his knees   huge order

ought to be

aggressive What did you say to me?

   Ya deaf

              You heard me

I did.  Clearly.

And what of it?

smirked

        Ah well

Oh well?

Like I said

           then hauled offkicked him in the balls so there was no mistaking was sure one testicle lodged in his gullet

2300ish,  Reggaefriday,  30  8. 24

0947,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

 ROE or NO

on Novembers ballot in 9 states

Montana

Nevada

South Dakota

Missouri

Florida

Colorado

Maryland

New York

Arizona

https://www.newsweek.com/abortion-reproductive-rights-map-election-2024-1942655

   then

OHbrutha

            have Republicans pushing fetal personhood

https://19thnews.org/2024/07/republican-national-convention-party-platform-fetuses-abortion-ivf/

Zygote says . . .

                 NOTHING  its assembling cells

1439,  Saturday,  31  8. 24

armwrestling

               remains a thing 

krazy

       when its against yourself

   Ladies and gentlemen

                             In the far corner  wearing red trunk  coming out of Sleep  the contender  Hypnopompic

he applauded

                the sole yin yang in attendance

announcer gets paid by the word

Now if youll turn your attention to the near corner

                                                     Wearing blue trunk  slipping into Sleep  the other contender  Hypnagogic

a stout table two stools stand center ring under a diffuse cone lighted fourdegrees below fourdegrees above the horizon just before an after the golden hour  marbling twilight

Please welcome them

he applauds

they shed their satiny for-show robeswhite towels wrapped around their necks stride confidently towards each other shaking out their muscled arms

meet center

shake handsfeel theyre evenly matched  informed by the electric tension of their brief grip

seated 

         they clasps hands

they dont look at each other

if they did their eyes wouldnt see

   a scarcely audible bell sounds cricketcall

anthey spasmtussled over who will command his Sleep when his dreams give way

either too astonished

too disappointed

                   whether he enforces lucid dreaming

or lets them have their heads

hell wake

be aware he is

shift positionTHEN

                     this is the cricketcalled armwrestling

 

when he wakes in the morning he couldnt say if one or the other woncouldnt say who held sway  how long

just that it was Time to riseanshine

get out of bed on the right side

                           Motherfucker

Whawere they about

had his work cut out for him

his hands wrists arms shoulders ached    

409 preferred to 1609,  Reggaefriday,  30  8. 24

1649 missed it by 10minutes,  Reggaefriday

Friday Frida

was pretty sure her name was Frida

                                       but her nametag reclined on her left breast

it wasnt until she leaned forwardher scoopneck top scoopedLORDD that he he wouldnt be a man if he didnt gander Mens Rules and ByLaws specific  strict  he had to glimpse if there was in the extreme a possibility that a glimpse would be tendered

    tendered

disagreed with the verbage

                              fatty chance

Frida

she looked upsmiled didnt straighten her spine wouldnt complain as she keyboarded his account number into the computer

           Yes.

Family namesake or Frida

smile widened

                Frida.

Ahhad my fingers crossed

                             Youre the first flesh an blood Frida Ive ever met an Ive been aware of her her art since I was a teenager  Ive been in a lot of places where one woud think I shoud have stood an awfully good chance of meeting a Frida

Now you have.

I can die a happy man

her smile broke into musical laughter

                                          This may kill you. I’ve been to Casa Azul, Mexico City . .

. . Yes . .

. . I’m returning in November . .

. . Take me stuff me in your suitcase

continuing to laughed

                       Do you have a passport?

Wont need it Ill be stashed in your luggage  Sssh  Clandestine

                                                                       Or perhaps  clandestiny

Antheres always tha moment when one is faced with an iffy decision  thinks Whawoud Frida do You understand youve now compounded things

Ohmy . .

. . Youre a peach

                   I appreciate you takin the joshin

Joshing? What that? I don’t know it.

An I dig you can admit when you don know

                                                Kidding jokin ribbin teasing

Are you a teaser?

Im afraid Im guilt

                    But likely we woudnt be at this juncture if you hadnt been Frida   A Dolores

My mother’s name is Dolores.

tad crestfallen Youre kidding

    I am

his turn to laugh deeply

                          Sppose it takes a kidder to know one

Or a tease to know one.

Tha

     I coud get my headround tha

she glanced at the clock Within a stone’s throw of my quitting time. You should have me for a drink.

Shoud have me

                   Thas loaded

Isn’t it?

         Intrepid?

Does the beat of a butterflys wings affectfelt on the other side of the world

    I think so.

We can put it to a test

We can.

Up the street Lilas Cantina   Outdoor seating

I know Lilas. Twenty minutes.

Im lookin forward to it

I know Lila.

You do

         Are we to be chaperoned

Do I need to be?

I was thinkin of me weve just met

                                     You picked me up

handing him his cash deposit receipt

                                        No no.  I beat you . butterfly . . to the punch.

True?

Theres tha there is tha

approximately 2300,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

1359,  Reggaefriday,  30  8. 24

hes always thrilled by wordshow words triggered other words

                                                                    his psychologist  not so muchdont even get her going when they delved into Rorschach inkblots   Really?I mean . . really?

Soot.

Fuligin

What?what’s that? I’m unfamiliar with the word.

F U L  I G  I N

                 Lampblack darker than black

Thank you. Didn’t how to spell it, or know it.

Kinda coolhuh

Cool.

Frigid

No.

     I was referring to your comment not giving you a word.

I know tha We can play

We’re working.

I mix it up Work an play

Don’t. Please. We’re here for a purpose.

Only here because Court required it

                                       The prosecutor ought to be here She possibly has a problem beside the bug up her ass

It wasn’t your place to challenge her.

My defence wasnt

                    She was having her way with him

When Court gavels you to quiet, or face contempt.

Didnt have contempt for Court for the prosecutor  an her twitchy lengthy unlubricated multilegged  bugger

Please. looked either peeved or exhausted  Can we continue?

did his best Bugsy Bunny Whassup Doc couldnt help himself thought Be a duck let the water roll off your back youll feel better thought how attractive she was when she wore her clinical large blackrimmed glasses fuligin foolinround  Care to doc  Inappropriate did his best Curly Three Stooges

                                                   Soitenly

she looked at him over the top of her glasses

                                                We’ll continue.

Cavalry.

One of two

sighed

        One of two. They occurred to you at the same time?

Simultaneously elbowed each other coming in

One word.

Tellem tha

             Yaoughta hear me out might be or not  important in poor taste occurred to him when he said important word association

   Very well.

You can choose

Choose?   What am I choosing?

Which to record Enter

Ah.

     Being helpful?or being helpful.

You choose

             Either cataphract C A T A P H R A C T early form of an armoured heavy cavalry or Jesus  misspelling occurred  cavalry C A V A L R Y  C A L V A R Y  slipsliding letters  J E S U S  Or  G O L G O T H A where he was crucified according to the four highlysuspicious Gospels  Matthew Mark Luke John

                                                                                        sang If I had a hammer Id hammer in the morning Id hamme . . . saw her expressed ceased

                                                             Gospel of Peter Paul Mary

Are you serious?

Word association I cant help it youre prompting me

                                                        Or one coud say provoking me

he put an indexfinger to his temple

                                      I cant helpaint apologising how it works inside there Its involuntary like breathing

Frenetic P H R E N E T I C  P H R E N O L O G I C A L  L O G I C A L 

                                                                           E H

More doc

   Let’s take a break.

Leg

1259,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

1159,  Reggaefriday,  30  8. 24

mental lexicon  https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9905442/

Eurythmics  Would I Lie To You?   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7C3HYOLJSoM

Soitenly  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9AuTriTmro

Peter, Paul and Mary  If I Had A Hammer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0hsIdJHsuQ

https://www.britannica.com/topic/phrenology

    cacogens

             the word attracted him as piss repulsed him

words had their way with him

                                 Please yaoughta buy me a drink first Ya know Ill put out

Thats the way thats the way thats the way I like it ahha ahha thats the way . . .

he looked it up

Gene Wolfe The Book of the New Sun was cited read the definition

                                                                        “. . . broad categorical name for beings descended from humans that left Earth long ago and subsequent generations living in space.”

obviously scifidefined

    hed argue  Not necessarily
now if only there were someone around he could argue with Mariachis shehes heshes were on holiday

                                                                                                             had they been around theyd have a ball

desperate times call for desperate measures

tall hallway mirror

set a ladderback diningroom chair before it

standing behind it he fixed his eyes on his mirroreyes

                                                         paused

needed a drink

                Twelve oclock somewhere

“. . . had an Old Fashioned prior to dinner . . . tasty, Elijah Craig with one big round icecube enjoyed the concept of a round cube . . . bitters, simple syrup.” 

                                         text from a friend yesterday evening

curious he didnt mention fruit cherry orange slice zest hoped fine sugar was muddled

he knew mixed drinks but liked spirits straight here Mariachi might venture Like your women which wouldnt be true

returned to the chair with a frosted Say When Hazel Atlas shotglass filled to four ounces

sat

     after a sip  eyes to mirroreyes   Where were we

playing hardball eyes glared

Think I forgot

took another sip

    Space Subsequent generations living in space

Outer space is assumed

We live in space

eyes wasnt going to nod so he did

this was a dismal idea

Beings descended from humans that left Earth long ago

nodded again

I we pointing at eyes were descendants our ancestors unknown to us their Grandmother arrived in America from Poland in 1905 and the small town she was from the church where genealogical records were kept was razed incinerated swept from the face of the Earth by the Nazis  Theyre dead They left Earth long ago

sniffed inhaled Redbreast took a big sipheld it in his mouth salivated thought Let him ponder tha a moment

swallowed smarted too big a sip

                                   continued salivating savoredsucked it  swallowed spit

I conclude as Ive reasoned were cacogens

                                                Howya feelbout tha

Strong silent type

Still waters run deep

I think were done here

he left the chair in the hallway for a while to celebrate his familyhis roots those who made him possible thousandsanthousands of years ago

1259,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

0959,  Reggaefriday,  30  8. 24

KC and the Sunshine Band  That’s The Way (I Like it)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yupPvZF6oBw