brother couldnt sit outside and gasbag without having music playing behind them

itd been something new in just the last year

was influenced

a new friend

woman

was desperate to make her a girlfriend

desperate looks good on no one

told brother three months deep

Girl friend

Wrap your skull around tha

I don’t know that.

Pity

     I do

the music was synched with his iPhone

had borrowed a playlist from his girl  friend

Arya ever gonna change this upWha  last two months

I like it.

Id like if it didnt distract you from our conversation

You don’t like it?

I try not hearing it

                    Usually successful until you do something on your phone an the volume shrieks

Yeah. Still not sure what I’m doing to cause that.

Quit playinround with your phone an it wont

I get texts.

Youre talkin with me texts can languish  Look at me See   Look Mom no hands    Alluding to riding a bicycle

That’s you. I like being connected.

Correction You need  to be connected

                                          Ultimately its rude

You’d know.

               Few people are as rude as you.

   When provoked when provoked

 

he got a text

picking it up the volume squealed an end of an advertisement a woman reeling off a products disclaimer in the fashion of an auctioneer

kept jugglingjumbling his phone trying to kill the volume

gal finished  a song started SCREAMING

volume dropped to zip

                        DAMMIT.

   volume began to come up

                              THERE.  Good. Good volume?

Im in love

What?

Hear tha auctioneering at the end

Heard something.

You hear a womans voice

I did. Yes. Was a woman.

Im in love

You’re in love?

Yah

     Love to jam my cock in her mouth as her tongues speedin alongKaHrist

Yes please

Fuckin’ way you think.

Tell me Im wrong

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of course he wasnt going to let that go

went immediately to his trusty iPhone

Lookin up spirit spiritual

I am.

I am means nothing

Sonofabitch.

              I am looking up spirit.

he settled back sipped his chilled vodka freshground black pepper in it

                                                                                 itd be a bit

brother wasnt particularly deft on his phone

worse when trying to search Google

Sonofabitch.

not particularly deft

 

 

Here. Spirit. he seemed proud

                                 Several definitions.  he looked at him eagerly

All ears bro

One. “The nonphysical part of a person which is the seat of emotions and character; the soul . .

. . No soul Excuse me

“The soul. ‘We seek a harmony between body and spirit.’”

Two. “The nonphysical part of a person regarded as their true self and as capable of surviving physical death or separation. ‘A year after he left, his spirit is still present.’”

Three. “The nonphysical part of a person manifested as an apparition after their death . . .” No. Four “A supernatural being. ‘Shrines to nature spirits.’”

Three

Five. “The Holy Spirit.”

You playing the Holy Spirit card

                                     Three Nonphysical part  An apparition after their death    Spook Ghost

So  Spiritual heir

Howbout this

                 Spiritual err   E R R

I still don’t believe.

                     I can read more “Qualities regarded as forming the definitive or typical element in the character of a person . . .”

I think were good

                   Weve arrived much to your dismay

Rather your disJuly whawill be your disAugust  I shant continue

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You pull this all the time

I do not.

You do

       Again  You deny the existence of ghosts

I do.

Yet refusing to call yourself an atheist which I am you refer to yourself as spiritual

I am.

Say it

       Or as I prefer commit  Out of context I am means nothing I am wha

Really?

Yes really  Commit

What do you want me . .

. . Quit being obtuse

                     You understand exactly wha Im asking so  commit

I am . . spiritual.

Did tha hurt

No. You’re the one hung up on . .

. . Precision  Details   Commitment

                                         You deny the existence of ghosts

I said earlier.

Then let me ask you

                        Is ghost and spirit synonymous

They’re not the same.

I didnt ask if they were the same

                                       Synonymous

I don’t know.

You do Youre being difficult

                               Id say ghost spirit apparition banshee daemon kelpie manes phantasm poltergeist shade revenant spook visitor wraith are synonymous

Agree  Disagree

You have to be so freakin’ thorough.

   Awright. I agree.

Thank you Like pulling teeth

                                 With tha admission let me as you this

he nodded

You understand the word habit It is my habit Im particular  You have habits

Yes.

Please  Commit

Pain in the ass.

                    Yes Joe I have habits.

Thank you

               Now do you agree if one has habits they are habitual Habitually have habits.

Redundant. Yes.

Wha

Are you kiddin’ me?

Wha

Awright. If one has habits they are habitual, better?

Confirmation  Commitment   Better

   Then  if habit inhabits habitual

                                      Then spirit ghost would inhabit spiritual as you admit you are

You cant be spiritual and not believe in ghosts banshees shade daemons spooks revenants an on

                                                                                                       Im particularly fond of revenants

 

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https://www.summitdaily.com/news/summit-spirits-what-is-the-difference-between-a-ghost-and-a-spirit/#:~:text=We%20use%20the%20word%20ghost,incapable%20of%20reasoning%20for%20themselves.%20%E2%80%A6

I don wanna see a Venn diagram

You asked.

I asked for a verbal reply

                           It was astonishing  A Venns not pulling your ass out of tha

No. Look.

           It’ll make sense.

he continued scribbling away

Im havin another beer  You care for one

Don’t go, I’m almost done.

You can sit with your bastard Im goin for a beer

                                                  Want one

I’m good.

Its warm This will be my third to your first

I’m goodWAIT I’m almost done.

got up walked to the house

muttered to himself on the way in

muttered on the way out

Imagine your defense is complete

                                     I must say Im not keennever did like the circles maybe if they were amorphous rangy   inchoate

I like them . .

. . Because they look like tits pushed together Tits Cleavage

                                                                I could have been sold on Venn if they were

Titles tattooed on tits

Hmm I like tha

                   Coudnt be taught in school though

Would you shaddup and look.

he looked

           Garbagethas garbage

It’s not.

Drawing doesnt make it true

                               Youre trying to provide a defense for tha which is indefensible

Your concept is horrible

But youve never been hungry

Your stomachs never been emptyexcept  if youve chosen to fast

                                                                      Think anyone in Third World woud fast

Yaoughta be ashamed of yourself

Fuck you. I stand by this.

AnId recommend you share it with no one

Why wouldn’t I?

Sociopathic

No.

Yes

     Suggesting theres an overlap of greed an hunger  Hunger is greedy

Ohyes

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it was a testy exchange

he planted his flag on the fact that he metknew buddys wife first an had unvarnished conversations an arguments with her

    I didnt like her

So your opinion of her is prejudiced.

Prejudiced

You’re going to say you aren’t?

Who   prejudiced me

What do you mean?

You tell me

              I think believe  its evident

   No. You tell me.

Shit

     Shit came out of her mouth I may lack compassionadmit its hard won at best but she was a reptile

She was not.

Howd she treat her sister how did the other siblings her father treat their sister an daughterLIKE SHIT

I told you I got the pick of the litter  Her three siblings took after their fatherkowtowed to him sucked up to him

My wife took after her motherwas her double an like her mother suffered the family

You don’t know what you’re talking about.

I do but I can understand why you think so

                                               You married her

I don’t recognise the woman you’re defaming, she wasn . .

. . She was

            Tell me Committed or encumbered cumbersome   I was in lovewas committed so you know how I felt  Feel

What are you asking?

   You answered

I did not.

Its not something you have to think aboutreflex

Maybe you . .

. . Reflex man  Reflex

                        Lets drop it    Alls water under the bridge

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Seven Mary Three  Cumbersome https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXFqtKz54xM

So you’re okay not attending the memorial.

hed come to grips with it  griping was no good

                                              I have  I have to live within my means

Sometimes theyre mean

I coul . .

. . You coud Excuse me   I appreciate your thoughts

                                                        You earn I havent earned in a long time

I haven’t said.

You have not baby

                    Anplease   Id rather you not

You’ve provided for me.

Which is wha a parent does

                               If wed have had more you an your sister might have had another sibling

Kids An expensive hobby

Hobby?

Habit

       My case a habit  Not your mothers

Habits formhappen when one is from an enormous family

                                                             Then all the vagrants we attracted an enjoyed Whawas one more

Gram an Grampa were generous.

To a fault to a fault

                      My guiding stars despite their foibles failings

Failings?

Those are personal Ive shared with them

In your inimitable style?  she chuckled

You coud say tha

                     Id say harsh

You’d be correct.

                  You’ve not ever pulled your punches with anyone, family, friends, strangers.

An equal opportunity offender

So unlike Mom.

Yes Your Mom was unlike anyone Ive ever met

                                                    Kind to a fault    Thoughtful to a fault

You, yang to her yin?

No  Opposites as you know attract

                                        Me vantablack to her radiant blinding white

Very fortunately we were committed to each other

I coudnt have had a better loving partner raising you an your sister

   I said habit  hobby

                         I meant  passion

he heard her sniffle through the receiver

                                           could almost hear her nodding

I appreciate very much youll be attending the memorial

could almost hear her nod

If I coud afford it I woud

I gotta go Dad.

Okay Thanks for checking in on me

                                       I love you

she pulled her mother I love you more.

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1202,  Reggaefriday

 

former asks why he should debate a “third-rate” candidate

 

Rev calls him a political punk

                               “When someone calls his bluff, he won't show up to the fight.”

hmmm

   growinup if he didnt show when likely hed get the snot knocked out of him

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Aq-be7Y_yyY

Be like tha Duckin’ Donald

                              Best ya don show

1449,  Reggaefriday,  2  8. 24

was checking in on Dad telephoned him

So correct me.

Whastha Dad

You prefer the Mexican market to the, as you say, white market.

Thas how I distinguish them Mexican  White

Why do you do that?

Kinda sets the table for you doesnt it

                                        I don think youd be caught dead in a Mexican market

I wouldn’t.

No yawoudnt Though tha in itself is an incentive

                                                    I love you through an through but youre a racist

Your fathers son Not an excuse  Fact

   Grampa was involved the 1919 Chicago race riot

Yes. Yes he was. He said so.

He wasnt a braggart

He was not.

Probably a good thing he died when I was a little boy

                                                         We woudnt have gotten along

He might have changed you if he hadn’t died.

   You didnt

Thasaid

          The reason I prefer the Mexican to the white is because they sell fresh organ meat Youll recall Mom served offal walked into the house home for lunch from school the kitchen smelled like hot urine meant kidneys for dinner sourcream horseradish sauce with it over wide egg noodles She shared several handwritten recipes with me

For whaever reason the white markettheir meat market manager told me the factory sends them what they will The FACTORY  It doesnt even sell containers of fresh beef calves liver I found sliced in the freezer section for Christssake

We can buy it here in all the grocery stores.

Im not there

No. You’re not.

                 That was your choice.

Decided long ago

Long ago, yes. You decided as a boy I’m not living here when I grow up.

I remember

Yet your siblings are here.

Within a stones throw of you an Maw

                                         Im glad they found wha they wanted there

Im still looking

You were a strange kid.

Im a strange adult

                           Theres another thing I like about the Mexican market

What’s that?

Holds you accountable

In what manner?

You ever use the automated Checkout lane

I’ve not, no.

I don use them frequently Buy beer liquor has to be purchased from a cashier

That makes sense.

I have to disagree  Liquor has bar codes cashiers scan automated can too theres overseers they watch you buy bottles of soda pop they coud watch you buy bottles of booze A queer system

But I digress

Mexican market holds you accountable

You said.

           I asked what manner.

You did

         Difference is the Mexican automated machines don remind you to take your change if you pay cash White machines are vocalharangue you REMEMBER TO TAKE YOUR CHANGE AND RECEIPT

he chuckled

              Reminds me of pay phones once upon a time At the airport to pickup a relative wed finger all the pay phones for change

his father laughed

                    I remember. Somedays you kids did alright.

Good thing you had a horde of kids

                                      Correct me if Im wrongIm not  You an Maw took a cut

We did. We paid for the gas that got you to the airport. That was legit. Nothing’s free.

You did teach us tha

                         Nuthin      

0929,  Reggaefriday,  2  8. 24

Free  Wishing Well  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIotFhpGmc0

descending the drive slowingpreparing to go right to descend more he hit his brakesGAWDDAMMITthrew the car into PARK yankedlocked his parking brakepushed the fucking door out of his way  exited

muttering he squatted  gently pickedup the crushed squirrel walked to the side of the blacktop cleared leavesdebris with his boot created a shallow rut placed the unfortunate animal in it then gentlyagain covered its destroyedbody with loose soil  leaves

rapped on the front door

buddys wife opened the door

                                Joe.startled  she stepped forward put a hand on his shoulder  Are you okay?

Your husband in

My husband? George.  He’s inside.

Could you get him please

Won’t you come in?

Ida  No thank you

                     Could you please get George

Step insid . .

. . Ill wait here thank you

                            he stepped back onto the porch

Ida didnt question him  shed known him long enough  he didnt do a thing he didnt want to and since his wife died he was constitutional   utterly irrevocable

it wasnt wise to provoke him

I’ll get him.

Thank you Ida

                he shut the front door for her

What’s going on Joe?come in.

You should come out

Come in.

Ida. he called into the house  Outside with Joe.

Shut the door

Christ. You’re in a vile mood.

Wasnt

        Then I had to stop on the drive

Why would you stop on the drive?

I might ask why you woudnt  This wasnt Idas doing

What wasn’t Ida’s doing?

Your doin

My doing?

            You’re being awfully cryptic.

Anyare fuckin’ unthinking

What do you think I did?

The dead squirrel

Oh, did I hit him?he ran onto the drive

   You saw

Obviously.

You coudnt wait for him to clear the pavement

It’s a fuckin’ squirrel for God’s sake.

opening the door Joe called inside

                                    Ida  Bring ice for George hell fill you in  Gotta go

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303preferred,  Thursday,  1  8. 24

kind of a barrage

maybe blitz more accurate

pain in the ass ideal

acronyms

hed conversed with buckwheat about the National Association of Black Journalists if she heard him saying that now shed lightup

              Why not use the acronym since you know its meaning?

Id no more do tha than Id respond to someone calling me bub buddy boss

                                                                                 I got a name

Yeah. That name’s a real pain in the ass.

Your pain in the ass

What was I thinking?

Nothing

         I swept you off your feet dazzled you 

So you think.

               I think I amazed you.

Yadid

        But I play poker Your tell was evident

the news yesterday batted about acronyms galore sneeze  youd miss it

                                                                             D E I   D D D   W C N that one he knew

White Christian Nationalists 

had a trick to remember it slipped in two vowels to either side on the C   I an A

                                                                                        W I C A N  a misspelling to be sure

But if any organisation ought to or was due a misspelling itd be them

he did know D E I  Diversity  Equity  Inclusion   believed in that

D D D stumped him

it was used in print regarding Republican senators representatives campaign members when they were questioned about formers performance at A N B J  everything he does is a performance theres not an authentic genuine bone in his body

D D D he learned in the next sentence

                                         Deny  Defer  Depart

theres some real comedy writers and wit reporting on Washington politics

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Jim Croce  I Got a Name  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3r4_sG5MtY