page among a sheaf 

                     things that occur he sees them in his mind  they occularcur

once seen he tries his damnedest to arrest them but like vapour most tend to shimmer  ease away

some things unseen are thoughts sharplightning against black night

                                                                           what of expectations

what he had to do to have them

   he couldnt say

majority of his life the things that mattered most had been unexpected

                                                                            therefore

to relish the truly unexpected he tries to live without expectations 

   without   anticipations

career which hes eluded manage expectations

                                                when they fail they breed disappointment disillusionment distemper  breed unhappiness

while on the other hand

                          to not expect helps foster happiness which hes enjoyed abundantly

he wrote he was heading to work rode the bus thought of Dickens Great Expectations which he hadnt read and taking a seat beside Monty a rider acquaintance he mentioned Dickens Monty said Chapter Twentytwo.

Don tell me you know the verse too

got ruffled a little was a religious cat  dryly drolly  No.

                                                            ChapterTwentytwo “I wavered again, and began to think there were greater expectations than my own.”

You know this why

he laughed

             Aside from the synopsi . .

. . Which is whaIve not read it

It’s a classic.

It is

     Tha Ive not read

The synopsis. Pip. An orphan. Rises to Wealth. Deserts his true friends. Then becomes humbled by his arrogance. Monty was a college science librarian

Thank you        

You’re welcome.

Monty got off the bus

                        his greater expectations stayed  unexpectedly

he thought great is abused  few farfew things people are great falling from great can kill

he thought I think Id be aware if I was in the presence of greatness or for that matter inclined to greatness or declining ordeal

OR

Ya gotta say

I do Thas why we hang around

                                      May I

Knock yourself out

Or youve simply lead your life on a small stage few actors few characters

I coud

        I can say I havent been around  he chuckled

Wha

When I was younger I expected   choicehuh

                                                I expected Id have been around much much more My stage could have been larger unexpectedly  but didnt

Im not disappointed

You are not

             We are not

he nodded gently A good team

    Is tha praise

We don need praise  

0550 – in the shower,  Monday,  7  4. 08

0948,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

Aaron Ross  Methlab  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DeXg99eUsU

howbout something simple

                           he needed to unwind unknot straighten his spine

something awfully simple

stand it on its two legs

I always have whiskey on handnever truer words

thats –E Y –E Y –E Y oh whiskey  Irish twelveyear Redbreast  --Y whisky  American

he had whiskey around to sip

had it as an antiseptic

kept it in lieu a styptic pen  to stop bleeding

simple

easy to follow

best joke of the day

likely hed be the only one to enjoy it

skin in the game

no skin

couldnt give a fuck no matter who they were because

                                                         had no skin in the game

it was that simple knowledge that made him an outstanding intermediary  negotiator

made a good living

allround him Skins freaking out which was perfectly understandableperfectly human

he was the quiet handsomewrapped bundle of patience and sanity

best joke he toldhad told in some time

I always have whiskey on hand

his huge tom a tabbySTARTED nextdoor neighbour firedup something mechanical had been lying on his lap as he sat at his desk reading an on-line article about Mieville Reeves book Book of Elsewhere hed bet money hypnagogic not that he was a betting man tom tornup his arm chewedup his thumb gouged his thigh belly opposite arm

                                                                             punch line whiskey on hand

poured some into a Hazel Atlas fourounce Say When frosted shotglass and stuck his damaged bleeding thumb in it

On hand

    Simple

1302,  2sday,  23  7. 24

if not a gymnast go near bottom of the piece without the gymnastics

  

from a reef of pages emerging like a red volcanic island boiledup from the seabed

                                                                                       five

first page  simple

                    1  2. 08  1February

smackdab middle he printed               

                                                inspired by R. Crumb video . . .

second page righthand corner he reiterated the date

angling down from the lefthand corner

                                      I gradually felt I was becoming UNHINGED

So I took drugs

became hinged

angling left from midpage halfway down

                                       The screws twisted tight the shackles lost a link When I looked away the slackshackles became

below the fold the page was empty

page three the same date in the upper left albeit EVENING added

                                                                       immediately hardright He blew his descending letter by letter one beneath the other S T A C K slipright a space A C K slipright a space A C K antiaircraft fire

                                                                                                              midpage right descending like/he had a/hope in hell/of/knocking/anything an arrow arcsleft descends and immediately across from the prior words he wrote OUT

beneath it  of the sky

beneath it  save an occasional dumb bird

that inadvertently

waondered

into

     words descend one under the other   the   line   of   fire

tuckedright bottom of the page  Your goose is cooked he didnt mean the bird

page four

          angling down from the lefthand corner word under word NOT   EVERYTHING   IS   FOR   EVERYONE

an arrow arcsright ascendsdescends points at AND WHY NOT? beneath that an arrow arcsup to middle of the page and plummetspoints midpage ISN’T   EVERY   THING   FOR   EVERY   ONE? beneath that an arrow arcsup hooksdown at the edge of the page angling left OR beneath it IS EVERYTHING beneath it TOO MUCH? beneath it IS EVERYTHING AN OVERSTIMULATION beneath it THAT THEIR SIMPLE MINDS CAN’T centered beneath it MANAGE, centered beneath it AND THEN MIND?

fifth page

           angling down from the lefthand corner each parcel under the other I   PAINT   WITH A BIC PEN   AND   WORDS   AND WHILE I’LL SEE COLOUR   IN THE WORDS   THEY MAY NOT BE THE SAME COLOUR   THE READERS RENDERS

                       arrow doubles back arcsleft hooks down  AND NEITHER   I   NOR   THEY   SHOULD BE OFFENDED   BY   THE   DIFFERENCE

                                             arrow rollsup right rollsdown points to words angling left down each under the other from the edge of the page THE BEAUTY   OF   LIFE   LIES   IN   OUR   DIFFERENCES   OUR DIFFERFENCES   BOUNDARIES,   MAN,   IT   ALL   COMES   DOWN   TO   BOUNDARIES. 

without the gymnastics

I gradually felt I was becoming UNHINGED So I took drugs became hinged The screws twisted tight the shackles lost a link When I looked away the slackshackles became       

He blew his STACKACKACK antiaircraft fire like he had a hope in hell of knocking anything OUT of the sky save an occasional dumb bird that inadvertently waondered into the line of fire

Your goose is cooked

he didnt mean the bird

NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR EVERYONE  AND WHY NOT?  ISN’T EVERY THING FOR EVERY ONE?  OR  IS EVERYTHING TOO MUCH?  IS EVERYTHING AN OVERSTIMULATION THAT THEIR SIMPLE MINDS CAN’T MANAGE, AND THEN MIND?

I PAINT WITH A BIC PEN AND WORDS AND WHILE I’LL SEE COLOUR IN THE WORDS THEY MAY NOT BE THE SAME COLOUR THE READER RENDERS AND NEITHER I NOR THEY SHOULD BE OFFENDED BY THE DIFFERENCE  THE BEAUTY OF LIFE LIES IN OUR DIFFERENCES OUR DIFFERFENCES  BOUNDARIES, MAN, IT ALL COMES DOWN TO BOUNDARIES.

1151,  2SDAY,  23  7. 24

The Dramatics  Whatcha See Is Whatcha Get   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlNSpyyj1U4

still off an runnin

                     he wondered if he could catch himself saddle the clown running amok

                                                                                                  fingerscrossed

Thas stupid  fingers crossed ya cant grab him by the mane

Good point

Youre welcome shook hisher herhis head in disbelief  Canya believe this guy   No the others agreed

Thank you

            Now ahright ahright break it up move it along

Nothing to see here

My line

Wes stepped on it

Whadaya want from me

A little restraint

No can do not my nature as you know

Ya don try

I leave try for things I can try

Youre tryin us

Ya know where the door is don let it hit ya in the ass on the way out

Just like tha Youd let us go

I didnt extend invites ya showed I didnt evict

he didnt

they hung in

              shehes heshes conceded things wouldnt be as fascinating in the O . .

. . Donyadare

Fuckinguys brutal

                    Awright  The outanbeyond

Thank you

           he disliked with extreme prejudice acronyms  they were going to utter OAB cut em off at the knees

Yah Us at our knees while in the meantime youre still off an running

                                                                          Priorities

Eventually Ill tire get hungry an return Yaoughta runaway sometime

                                                                         When I did my folks didnt come lookin for me  They knew I knew I had it good not the best  but good

imaginengine

dreamer dreamist

                     d-reamer

An were off

Buckleup

D-reamer  finest cut to create a fitting piece from an all-ready fashioned piece

                                                                                   an extantexact tapper

A reamer reamist reaper reapist a rapierer rapiererist  alas   raper rapist

Jesus

An evoker elicitor

Full of shit

Not a revoker

               An evoykeur   Blended  an evokervoyeur

   Sooo full of shit  

Tuesday – Christmas,  25  12. 07

1239,  Monday,  22  7. 24

fetish

his ethics

          he just realised how similar their spellingsletters were only off by an f an a c

tic twitched his cheek while writing f an a c tic

                                                         fanatic matriculated  Marvelous

associations

socialisations

feel Jung

among a sheaf of papers he found a page hed written not stellar

                                                                     the pair of ls careful parallels  fascinated him

hed been a carpenter

he happened into a neighbourhood where two houses were being framed side by side

he walked through them

was terribly proud of one            

disgusted by the other

                          it was  not stellar

he wrote

           There is building and buillding.

Buillding compromises one’s ethics.

Build ethically.

Builld unethically.

Each was devised.

Only one no one could point fingers at afterwards.

You built it – you buillt it – you own it.

the next night he returned with a nearfilled five gallon Blitz gas can splashed it around then fused with a lit cigarette wedged in a matchbook he torched the ill structure

                                    

6-ish-ness,  Tuesday – Christmas,  25  12. 07

1117,  Monday,  22  7. 24

https://www.all-about-psychology.com/association-method.html

ire

his ire

my ire

myired

mired in ire

malaise

myalaise

malease  French mal

malady

myalady

myaladriot  French adriot

curiously conjugated  

                               conjurer

the things we have are the things we accept

                                               he shruggednodded    smiled wrily

The thing I am is what I accept.

                                 smiled more wry

The thing I am is that what I except.

     was having too much fun

6PM-ish-ness,  Tuesday – Xmas,  25  12. 07

1001,  Monday,  22  7. 24

Who  Pinball Wizard  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eQgZHFUqjro

Tina Turner  Acid Queen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBN7nG8RDlw

A weak piece  shrugged   Weak

Cant all be strong

                     Think of music albums

How many sensational Top Ten hits versus fillers despite many of them finding affection

   Thas true

Howbout this

   Im listening

Even when youre least compelling

                                     Youre compelling

I shoud take your word for it  An example

                                             Convince me because your thoughtprocess isn . .

. . Is  Is yoursours  is yours

                                 Prognosticators  Recall

Prognosticators earning paychecks Baby needs new shoes

                                                                Even if she don

Speculation

              Thas not medias job their job is to report out the facts

Yes I recall  Pro-gnostic-actors

Gnostic  Relating to knowledge

Exactly wha I said

Off the cuff

           At a sudden on the tip of your tongue

Careful

          No tellin where it was last  at last smiled

Please  We know exactly

                           You forget a lot  who youre talking to

nodded  hapless

                  Maybe therell be a time when our circumstances are reversed

You don mean tha

                    You think we enjoy this

Well you certainly have at me  I honestly don kno . .

. . NO

        Our situation in situ  woud drive you nuts insane   How she said                                                                                                                                Innnnnnnnnsannnnnnnnne

We got the right number of ns

Ya did

Is tha shit youd want to weigh in on  respond to

                                                         Or rather create

2336,  Sunday,  21  7. 24

0903,  Monday,  22  7. 24

Zappa  Help, I’m a Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAOClxd8UJE

Simon and Garfunkel  I Am A Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2nN-Yrt1EU

he wondered the reasonif any reason they were pronounced alike

prophet

profit

profit

prophet

         what when a prophet profits

he she proselytise converts

profits convert

                materially

prophets

           immaterially philosophic

“The mysticism of the humble (prophet?) is opposed to the violence of the arrogant profit.”

                                                                                             article  There Will Be War!

                                                                                               by Chris Hables Gray 

queer these appearedhe penned them on the same page

which begat which

OhChrist

which

witch

witch

which

going down a rabbit hole

                           Lewis Carroll concoction  Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland

article

artickle

political

politickle 

Arya kiddin me

                shehe heshe interrupting

Wha

Volleyin words

Samesounding words click clit chick headdown earaverted sound the same anif so confusion enters as suggested by my earlier confusion

                  O kay

You daboss

Thank you

Youre welcome

they were so polite

                   good thing since they share the same habitat

 

Tuesday  XMAS,  25  12. 07

1510,  Sunday,  21  7. 24

UNFILTERED guest batted clickbait around like a cat with a mouse

                                                                          clickbait

Wha

he misheard

             hed be a fan of clitbait (seems a theme this Sinday) Whas clickbaitOH thinks he knows  some part parlance of socialbitched media

Oxford Languages (Googled) defines clickbait – so he was accurate – “internet content whose main purpose is to attract attention and encourage visitors to click on a link to a particular web page”

not that he was temptedhe was offended

when he purchased his iPhone  wasnt adept  he had his daughter an adept suppress remove any operation except to make and receive calls take (rarely) photos and receive them make and receive texts

DONE

   Are you sure, Papa? There are so many wonderful appli . .

. . Yes  Lobotomise it

                         Pretty isnt it consonantvowelconsonantvowel word to the end

I don’t know how to reply to that.

Say yes

content to attract

content to encourage

visitors

        which sounded scifiVISITORS FROM ANOTHER WORLD VISITORS FROM OUTER SPACE

to click on a link

sounds innocent enough

sounded like shit

actually

           sounds like jailbait

Oxford Languages though Wikipedias entry is tempting defines jailbait – so hes accurate – “a young woman, or young women collectively, considered in sexual terms but under the age of consent.” Wickedpedia how he abuses it defines jailbait as “slang for a person who is younger than the legal age of consent for sexual activity and usually appears older, with the implication that a person above the age of consent might find them sexually attractive”  then exhaustively explores Criteria

person above the age of consent might find them sexually attractive  Ohbrother

Yah

      hed happily remain ignorant and oblivious

unlike some others he chose his ignorance

                                               truly relished them

 

1808,  Saturday,  20  7. 24

1013,  Sinday,  21  7. 24

Roland Martin  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeVbXOPN4vQ

Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlzNvNFqtBE

ohhe was definitely rioting

reverseside of the page was Tom Dispatch dated rather posted 2007-12-17 10:18:44 titled Tomgram: Rebecca Solnit on Hope in Print subtitled The Secret Library of Hope: 12 Books to Stiffen Your Resolve by Rebecca Solnit Resolve would be a fantastic name for someones prick  verb  2. decide firmly on a course of action (definitions from Oxford Languages)

                                                                            cock name set in motion by Stiffen Your Resolve

but he digresses

                     rioting

top left corner of page

24  12. 07

        Monday AM-ish-ness

3 he guessed

rest of the page was originally written in red ink then overwritten in blue ink words omitted from the final palimpsest were crosshatched obliterated with the red ink they were written in the maelstrom-orgy angled down the page  not parallel to the top

hed say unparalleled

sex with an epileptic (woman)

you seldom climax

you eclipse

before the shuddering

youre evicted chucked aside

they dance by themselves

to strange music inside

by a stranger choreographer

and the only way

not to be bucked

would mean reinstraps

and stirrups

a bit between their teeth

thereby stunning sex

with an epileptic committed

bent on fulmination

0909,  Sunday,  21  7. 24