Kahrist he thought wha feeble flagfolders

                                              two men struggling to fold an American flag

Don let it touch the ground assholes

Yah assholes shehe heshe echoed an sneered  Yathink theyre teachers

Thasayah Annex to the Fine Arts Academy

You havent been inside

No  It formed after my girls graduated high school A bit of a disappointment  I hoped itd be middle through high  Fourth through Eighth

Nevertheless Formulative  Helpful yah

   nodding Indubitably

they chuckled Oughtave seen your face  Ya looked 

                                                           Indubitably tickled

I am he grinned large  I really like the word

Whasthabout

Wanna look behind the shutters

Is tha an invite

It is One of few Ill offer

Your look is ah predatory  carnivorous

Is it

It is  Yaknow I think Ill leave well enough alone  I refuse to be baited . .

. . Baited

   Ya heard me

Woud I bait you 

Yahyawoud So no matter how sweetened by temptation I believe Ill let slide one of few invites youll extend me

Coward  Suit yourself

   It was sexual

Definitely

Thaswha I thought

Makes me wonder 

                      Ifyawere a heshe shehe rather than otherwise woudya have bought in

Please Gimme a break was there but they didnt saydidnt waste their breath Its not to say I wasnt tempted

Yawere

Yah their head bobbing Im not were not yare certainly not a prude

Not a prude bone in our bodies No polite company here

Correct

Yah

   A hint

Indubitably

Is tha a question or an affirmation

Whadaya think

I don think I believe an affirmation

Correct

Whydoncha  we  ever say right

Because right directs conversations  Its dropped at the end of sentence to encourage at worse coerce whoever is listening to agree with the comment right

                                            A rhetorical devise  Right

I understand

Stand under 

             To understand is to stand under which is to look up to which is a good way to understand.

Who said tha You were quoting

I was Corita Kent  Pop Art nun

Thank you for reminding me Which circles us back to Fine Arts Academy

                                                                                 But not before indubitably Your smiles sly

Sexually sly

Yes Ive seen hunreds of times before

Beenround a while huh

Sign at the door  More the Merrier

I didnt know tha

Of course not

                     Be tha as it may their expression nonplus

Lets get tha lookoff your face

My nonplus puss

                   I practise it    It is disconcerting isnt it

It is

I also actually have a nonplus plus puss  Innarested 

No

    Its gymnastics have to hurt

A bit but good to have in ones repertoire

As indubitably is

How

A looselipped headshook application between the thighs right to the heart

OH my

        T M I

he smiled wolfishly  pleased as punch

1250,  Reggaefriday,  1  9. 23

1023,  Monday,  4  9. 23

https://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/2018/apr/22/corita-kent-the-pop-art-nun

he was boiling sugarwater – last time – for hummingbirds – they quit showing  and  had shes best on her back cross his mind

         which

wasnt something hed think

made him wondered where the infection came from

he imagined his worthless brother-in-law

                                           but hed been dead sweetsixteen years

dead sweetsixteen upset some people

letem be upset 

               he thought it spoke plainly for his contemptdislike of his piece of shit brother-in-law

were he alive

              hed bet dollars to donuts he thought the same of him

try as he may he couldnt convince his wife

he couldnt convince his wife evenafter his brother-in-law punched hergave her a black eye

Really

He didn’t mean it.

People mean to give people black eyes

she looked askant

                    He didn’t mean to.

If I gave you a black eye youd have me arrested And rightly so    You give him a pass

   He didn’t mean it.

Is this the shit one tells themselves a lie over an over an over an over again until they believe it you came back on the plane the whole while lying to yourself so when I saw you youd say he didnt mean it so I don get on a plane an break his face

He didn’t mean it.

Then Tell your brother

                        If I see him Im breaking his face  No hello    Wha a cunt

Please please don’t use that wor . .

. . Whas your worddescribe your brother

                                               As a matter of fact I don care  Get on the phone tell him its not a threat its a fuckin promise  Ill give you five minutes ifnot Im callin four minutes fiftyseven seconds

walking out of the kitchen past the phone on the wall he slapped the wall above itglanced at the kitchen clock opposite it

she called

never did see him

though twice he didnt go with his family to his father-in-laws house so he didnt beat him senseless

hed beat him senseless

his wife bundled up their girls

he kissed the three of them goodbye

told her to drive safely please call him when she arrived

she said she would

I love you

I love you.

his brother-in-law believed that a woman was only good for one thing  on her back

a good woman

               she was all over the place  ALL OVER THE PLACE

his brother-in-law was myopic unimaginative

                                                a real Blueblood cunt  entitled  privileged

ask him if he had a regret Yah not a snaky nanosecond passed some people were disturbed how quickly he responded

Yah I didnt beat my brother-in-law senseless

some people a lot of people

                           could suck his dick

 

424preferred,  Reggaefriday,  11  11. 22

1421,  Saturday,  2  9. 23

NIN  Not Anymore  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJztazY65Mw

Iring

buddy nodded approvingly after her as she trottedskipped walked off after shyly kissing him goodbye on the cheek

a ways down the mall she did a flawlessly revolution smiled waved he waved back earnestly  she was checkingas always to see if he was watching her he watched until he couldnt see her any longer always 

                                                                                                     She’s something.

Iring Yes she is

Iring.  Irene. When you introduced us you said her name was Irene.

It is Iring is our pet name

                            Tickles usreminds us when we first met

How did you meet?

Innocuously his eyes roved side to side witnessing it again Innocently 

                                                                       Completely unexpectedly 

Lotsa –lys.

high in his chest Yah

Come on, snap out of it.

                          She’s a catch, a beauty. You’re telling me yadidn’t scope her out before you approached her.

Never saw her before

Where did you meet?

In the library At the bank of computers facing each other separated by the translucent partition

I know it.

At the end

By the printers.

Yes The seat openedI sat down quickly saw a shadow opposite me got right to work needed to get in an out

If you got yourself a lapto . .

. . No

       Not therewas there long enough to log-in across from me I heard a sneeze I said godblessyou she   she said thank you I kept working

I got wha I needed inside ten logged-out stood to print-out my work glanced over the partition at her she lookedup

Good afternoon

She smiled goodafternooned me I collected my printing and leavingwalking behind her I wished her a good day 

She sneezed

I said I  I hope youre not allergic to me

She laugheddidnt cover her mouth

You and your comment if a woman covers her mouth or not when she laughs.

Not covering not selfconscious natural  If she were alone she woudnt cover her mouth when she laughed   Right

   I’ve never thought of it that way.

Youre welcome

No, I’m not allergic to you.

Thank goodness  Have a fine day

You too.

I left

You left? Just like that.

Was hustling off to class

Then I ran into herliterally  ran into her outdoor Commons  She was with some friendshad stepped back laughing as I came around the corner blind corner had to grab her so I didnt knock her ass over teakettle

You 

Had to looked like I was dipping her

You. she said startled

Joe

Joe.

Me Joe   You . .

Still in the swooned pose she laughs again  I think shes out of body seated with her friends looking at us

Must be  She laughs harder yet

I stoodhelping her upright

Thank you.

Youre welcome

You.  Joe. she thumped herself on the chest  Me.  I – rene 

                                                              But as she finishing her name the passing bell ringsdrowning her out

When it finished ringing I said  You   I  Ring  Iring

Yes.  

Shes laughing again

Mouth uncovered?

Yes 

She says  You.  Joe.  Me.   Iring.

An Joe gotta go Iring  Class

                               Believe Ill see ya again

I left her with her friends

Couple of days later going up stairs for class A Building behind this girl admiring her fanny she loses a book Since it was at her hip I saw it working its way free I caught it as it fell she halfturnedswitched her other books into her left

Got it I said

            I look up

We got to quit meeting like this, Joe.

Iring

You’re one and only.

Yes Yes you are

We walked up to the landingstopped Made a date there 

                                                              Ive been seeing her since

Only her?

Beginning to feel thaway

0550,  Saturday,  2  9. 23

1155,  Saturday

Dead Can Dance  The Host of Seraphim  (light  ardor  purity)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hThAlY3Q2Kw

   dumbfounded   before he took another step he went to the dictionary and found there were 37 similars for the past-tense 37 similars for dumbfound

                                      typically he was dumbfounded 

after the fact

if he found dumb

he usually shookem not wanting to have anything to do with em

before bed in bed before readingtrying to shake off one too many bowls he decided he didnt its wha he did to write compose

                 evidently he hadnt enough earlier  FACKcomposed throughout the day to either side of taking his sister for their her  twice-a-year walk remembering

                                                       he doggedlyadamantly protected their walks  the walks of many others too 

Kiss my assIm busy  unapologetically

     

fossil trace ichnology which recording for future reference misspelled inchology had dumbfounded him  rather its sense

the sign left in the rock record by the impress of life rather than life itself & marks that the dead and the missed leave behind

        dumbfounded

   

so freestyling refusing to make a vertical list reminded him of honey-dos his buddies wives made for them seemed to him that women liked their demands listed vertical  his wife didnt that was nipped in their courtship she was welcome to make all the lists she wanted for herself

                                              she was exceptional at it

freestyling

             he wrote dumbfounded – deer in the headlights – moth to flame – dog on a bone – trout rising to a fly – shark to blood – bee to honey

                                  temptation   tempted

Christ  Its all temptation

   then

it becomes a trial of willpower

which can be abruptly delineated

heads or tails

if one were so inclined 

he wasnt

heads or tails  morals  good or bad   invocations

an in-between the bi-section is non-existent

either-or

   he paused

pretty black-white

   he thought

when an unassuming geode its all a matter of scale is the size of a room that you can walk into pour yourself a drink put on a record relax in an easy chair

                                     when its all around you

you can breathe it

rub your feet on it

brush static electricity into your hair

bathe in it

   then

its just you-who you think you are

you can indulge yourself savor  finish your drink

luxuriate in your temptation

   then

be who you are 

                                      fascinating

nicest thing about the geode

theres no door

just an opening 

                   readied for the next trial of confidence

2200,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

1204,  Reggaefriday,  1  9. 23

his reallyearly morning sidekick leftie hopped deftly up onto the bed at his feet scurriedup between his legs onto his body and laidout full length on top him for him to scratch her chin stroke her sides shoulders her spine itd been going on for months  her routine   his 

                                     he liked routines     

her purring pickingup her body going limp as she began to fall asleep he took a couple deliberate deepbreaths and went to see if he could catchup with her

eyes closed inside them darkeningdarkeninglying there   the word receipt occurred to him

thered been a lot of talkinghead remarking receipts  lots of courts had deliberated and were handing down sentences to the guilty having determined their justified retribution  providing them their due

before everything went completely blackbefore  he was absorbedabsolved hypnagogic hallucinations which wasnt really true   there is neither hypnagogic nor hypnopompic hallucinations for a lucid dreamer they may pick a place a time characterskick things off  but beyond those introductions GAME ON  all his doing

receipts

acquisitions

art on his walls leaning against them

books on his shelves and tables desks nightstands stacks on the floor 

vinyl records

DVDs  

CDs

   receipts

letters

postcards

destinations 

   evidence  proof of existence

right up to the last breath  maybe moments longer if their last breath is recognised                                                                                  

Deathtination  deserved its capitalisation

 

It was a mansion  and while the host wanted everyoneall the pretty people to accompany him to the stateroomthe host looked like himwas him he laughed like a mischievous boy and tuggingfree his tie he sprinted up the wide staircase smelling bathsalts in hot water flushed female flesh . . .    

0710,  Reggefriday,  1  9. 23

was walkingreading Underland Robert MacFarlance   an had to pullupstep aside take a pen from behind his ear to scribble on a piece of paper he tucked inside the book before heading out in case he came across something that caught his eye dumbfounded him

he was easy prey iron filing to a magnet

                                            Geologists and palaeobiologists speak of trace fossils. A trace fossil is the sign left in the rock record by the impress of life rather than life itself. A dinosaur footprint is a trace fossil.

   or  

marks that the dead and the missed leave behind 

                                                     handwriting on an envelope 

when he was dead he will have left thousands of pages  paper   unfortunately 2D

2D is why he refused to participate  to Skype Face-time   ZOOM 

                                                                      he was three-dimensional being  3D

he was adamant

                   dead and gone he wanted his family friends lovers people he knew to recall him as 3D they could flesh him out in their memories he didnt mind if they teased him out in letters postcards book inscriptions photographs they however grew more and more rare the older he got

he wasnt going to play the easypeasy forgettable game of appearing on screen

                                                                                    unageing images 

false

authenticity moved himwas his brand    

                                               his trace fossil

after 1PM,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

1852, Thursday

Dire Straits  Wild West End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5mfz4393NA

 

  angstNo    irritation

earbuds

not a fan

          though cant expect a Luddite to be one

anhe was a Stone Age Luddite

                                        whats a Luddite

historically 1811- 1816 they were bands of English workers who destroyed machinery especially in cotton and woolen mills because they believed presciently machinery threatened their jobsImagine that

had to hand it to em

                     which woud entailrequire another human being to hand it

he maintained hand tools    

very few electrical

ZERO

      battery tools

cut his lawn with a pushmower

used a rake a broom industrial metal dustpan to clean things up

earbuds

          if one listened to prophets profits “Whether you’re wearing them to listen to music at the gym or block out distractions at work, wireless earbuds are usually essential to our day-to-day lives.” 

                                                                                          Harry writes for NBCNews.com

he duly appreciated that Harry included “are usually essential”

                                                                    the bitterness was his an his ilk

when a products noise-cancellation was touted it galled him he appreciated long battery lifehe had a cellphone fast recharging

              but noise-cancellation

weresuddenly many stricken with misophonia hatred dislike of sound anyet curiously  listened through earbuds

hes asked no ones been able to explainlegitimise that to him

                                                                and he couldnt be the only one who looked at people in the market on the street remote interviewsZOOMed appearing on television the computer who thought earbud wearers looked like Frankenstein bolts electrodes sticking out of their ears

to be fair 

          his ire detest of technological noise-cancellation was because he chalkedup his cancel-ability to being raised in a small house with his parents grandmother and eight siblings

                                                                   to not hear was a matter of survival    

todays nuclear family is usually small  four five

and impatient

and dependent

on technology

to each his own correctly so 

   but he coudnt help but wonder where they would be when the lights went out

itll be ugly

1813,  2sday,  29  8. 23

1137,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

https://www.nbcnews.com/select/shopping/best-wireless-earbuds-ncna1303634

PS bonuses swipe for volume control lanyard loop on the case multiple ear tips

bizarro priorities

boycotts

Conservative consumers lose their shit over BudLight and trans influencer Dylan Mulvaney

https://www.cnn.com/2023/08/03/business/anheuser-busch-revenue-bud-light-intl-hnk/index.html?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Sentences%208/31&utm_term=Sentences

Conservative consumers lose their shit over Targets annual LGBTQIA+ Pride collection

https://www.vox.com/politics/2023/5/25/23737338/target-abprallen-pride-boycott-bud-light-trans-controversy-stock-price?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e

yet boycott BDS – Boycott Divestment Sanctions something truly meaningful  Israeli apartheid  they refuse and condemn those who would

                   but then with ones head up their ass it is hard to see  tunnelcolonvision 

1509,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

https://www.vox.com/money/23851108/bud-light-target-boycott-success-trans-issues-woke-capitalism?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e

   he went out every night  1. (perhaps more than once) to take a leak into the yard off the back porchhis peppermint was terribly pleased  midthigh height  2. to look at the stars for his parents who lived in Chicago and couldnt see them for light pollution

they tried once a yearevery two to make a trip to visit him

                                                              he lived remote

his brothers and sisters called it Left Coast boonies boondocks  out Nowhere

                                                                                   but

went out particularly for his Mom

                                    she spoke Polish until she was six in the city she had to go early to attend English school where after school after chores after dinner was served eaten dishes washed dried putaway she sat with her parents to help them improve their broken English

then shed do her homework

                              until she was six she lived on the farm in rural Indiana

used an outhouse

propped open its door for  1. to breath  2. to watch the starswatch for shooting stars and imagine she was piloting a craft that could fly in the air and into outer space

where did he get his expansive imagination

he pushed back against her kiddingly  ansay from his eclectic reading

Who taught you to read?

fucked

       he conceded

every night stars were present he went outside to look at them

for his Dad

            his Dad told him he was conceived on their honeymoon in the backseat of a 1950 Buick convertible that had Dynaflow Transmission a passing gear that allowed him to kick it up a notch by simply jumping on the gas its steel grillwork looked like maniacal sharks teeth set in a frown an HUUNGRRY

                                                                              Like I was, son. he said

his fathers best boyhood friend told him when he was a boy that when his father saw his mother at a company picnic they worked for that his father said

                                      Donny, I’m going to get in her pants even if I have to marry her.

Brother he thought  thas romantic

he told himself those stories and others virtually every night looking at the stars since his circumstances had turned him out

1402,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23