29.12.22


. . . seminal . . . 
                 ofcourse he knew how it was spelledunderstood of a work an event a moment a figure strongly influencing later development

but he preferred it spelt semenal keep it in close sexual  a blowtorch heating the heart or at very least close to his   

as usual he distracted himself 
                                 Im sorryexcuse me   Again Semenal wha
he harrumphed Harrumph well excuse me 
                                                 I need interludesintermissions so ya don bore me all to hell
I was talking about seminal thinking. 

Thinking There wasnt a damn thing we talkedbout invited semenal thinking  Unless   You happen to be inside my head 
      Then lotsa gooeysticky semenal things splashinround seeking cleavages in your dull forays

he cleared his throat What are you talking about?

I was talkinbout sexual tension present inside Italian restaurants McDonalds Carls Junior curly fries Subway pizzaNAH no some joints got tha jive   anya meandered off about a restaurant in Italia which you know for damn sure Ive never been swinging the needle back to yourself 
                                                         You have sex inside that cant-remember-the-name ristorante
   No.

You make love tohave sex with a woman over fortyfour

Yes.

I havent anya know my age 
                              So excuse me all to hell when you propose a weak ristorante memoryFUCK yacant remember whaya had for dinner during this mindblowning semenal experience
                                                                                   And and and an  you shared it with your three cousins all guys
Follow my drift

No place Id rather eat out than at a good Italian restaurant candlelight jug house vino 


Why don’t we chalk it up to a difference of ways.

   Sure Why not 
                    But brother we aint even on the same planet

2300,  Monday,  28  11. 22
2040,  Thursday,  29  12. 22
Dean Martin  That’s Amore  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OnFlx2Lnr9Q


she said she could read his palm

Mebbe to freshen up a bit yacoud  mebbe yacoud start with my mind 

I’m not a mind reader . .
. . Really his hard-on was evident her hand rested high on his thighhad been there since they took a seat on folding chairs after dancing to rockanroll   disco forced them off their feetsomething else they had in common   

she was suddenly sheepish 
                           was one of his many recruits off the street
Ah but yare 

Stop. she giggledthen laughed  hadnt let go of his leg 

Feels wonderful

Would you stop?

You think I can control this

her sheepishness went to fluster 


they were at an eighthfloor rooftop dorm party

he met herrolled to a stop at her feet straddling one her ankles

What the hell are you doing? 
You enthused me
                  Woudya come to a party later this eveningbring some girlfriends  therell be lotsa of people there if I concern you  my seemingly seemingly over-the-top anticsNO I intended to get your attention  Driving pastyellin dumb ridiculous  excuse me  passe.

   she rolled her eyes Passe? Really? And jumping from a moving car? 
Inspired 
         Thats on you you inspired me

   You could have hurt yourself.

Only hurt here is if you don show tonight  he handed her a card printed with the dorm address

Oh I see, you’ve thought this through . .
. . The card isnt my idea 


he was asked again to roust up some women 
                                                Come on Let someone else loosehave a go                                                   
Are you kidding me? Last time you smoked it. Why would this time be different? Let loose to your own devisesaint a soul among us who’s got what you got.  You just do whatever it takes . . I understand. 
                                                                                       he referred to his enthusiasm an his propensity to accelerate the same in women


soft green grass landings compelled him to jump 
                                                  athletic he knew how to fall roll not hurt himself he practised it wasnt in the terms of the crummy idiom his first rodeo 


Awright  Ill tell ya wha 
What? 
liking her trended higher Wha 
Yahwhat?

   Can I say Im really enjoying you

Yes, you can say . . 
. . Im really enjoying you

Ohmy . . there you have ityou’ve said . . I’m happy you did.

   Me too
          Ill tell ya wha

Yes.

If I letya have a shot at reading my palm mebbe laterthen woudya try reading my mind

she laughed didnt cover her mouth 
                                      collecting herself If they stop the disco return to rockanroll . . you’ll dance with me again.
After reading my mind 
No.
     I think if I get to reading your mind we won’t make the dance floor.

Hmm good point 
                   Better read my palm real quickbut first  is there such a thing as a line for death and destruction

There’s a life line, which could be read if you would, as death. 
                                                                  Destruction. No. 
Okay 
       Thought mebbe

Death destruction, pretty dark stuff.

There ought to be the opposite of a cloud with a silver lining  Cant have oneseems to me without the other

Can’t say I’ve considered that.

You may havestill early were young 
                                       Its called the fine print

after 1445,  Reggaefriday,  18  2. 22
1604,  Thursday,  29  12. 22


NO wrong door
                 Unless you intend to use a catbox

Maybe I will.

I have when theyve pissed me off 
                                      Though Ive decided it wasnt in my best interest  to be the bigger person   Im who has to clean it up

Logic in that Or you could hire someonelet them clean it up.

Counterproductive to pay someone to do something I can do 
                                                                     he staunched a laugh in his throat I aint you 
   You’re not me. 
                    What’s that crack supposed to mean?

Not a crack Yare a person of meanshave always been Money might be a solution for youhasnt been for me 
                                                                                                                 No crack statement of factin fact not even a knock  I understand somebodys got to do it and the jobs fallen to you Im also a realistmonetarily speaking  Have or have not

So you’re not jealous? 
No
     You havent got my looksmy mind If I had your money Idve been devastating he didnt staunch that laugh
     
1143,  Twosday,  27  12. 22
1143,  Thursday,  29  12. 22
Zeppelin  Good Times Bad Times  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsZG7n7ries

28.12.22


beginning of the year  darkness has grown deeper every year since

when he looked forward into it the brightlycoloured Christmas lightsflickering Hanukah candles reflect sharper 
   the darkness is the mirrors silver 

   as a boy that tickled him
he could kneel by the front windowpull the drapes aside and see the wintry outdoorshis face like a ghosts paintedilluminated over it 
                             then he believed in ghosts    then he understood that his stayhis let was not permanent

when none of his playmates understood what he was talking about he went to his oldest friends his parents 
they confirmed what he assumed 

Grandmother they lived with her on the first floor of a two-flat house would die.

Your aunt and uncle who live above you will die.

I his mother said will die, your father who couldnt bring himself to talk to himnot without reason will also die.

he shrugged mournful Then whats all of this about

she smiledran her finger down his cheekhis jawhis chin pinched it between her finger and thumb as she often did her affection 
          You know it as well as I do.   It’s just occurred to you much sooner than most.

she was not comforting

I should lie to you? 

   No
No.


the darkness grows nearer

if he lives long enough it will encroachenvelope the beautiful electriclights swallow  the beeswax candles 

they will continue to burn


but he wont be able to see them
  
222 preferred,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  12. 22
1519,  Day-between-Two-Ts
Peggy Lee  Is That All There Is?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QPP6UgkmyM4
The Youngbloods  Darkness, Darkness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORSD_u2upP4


purposefully he shunned comforts 

most are momentary temporary   insincere   

although he had a particular one one he repeatedly returned to  it was irreplaceable
                                                                                           if anyone ever askedthey hadnt
he woudnt try to explain they hadnt a comparable experience and sharing his would demean it 
theyd hear his words but wouldnt be unable to wrap their brain around them


his comfort was across the hall from his bedroom in the laundry room

he washed his clothing at night when he went to bed
                                                         the sound of it was the brother or sister to the soundthe wash of Huey rotor blades made so many years ago incountry plucking him to safety from behind enemy lines inside through sliding doors or dangling under it from stirrups loops to thrust his arms through and cinch  fly  most who risked it were the same guys except one pilot first snatch Warrant Officer Mack he took a bullet from the jungleno one heard the shot it came up through the bellystruck him under his chinout the top of his head blew his right eye out they didnt find it but in desperate moments retrieving him over two years they blackjoked Mack had his eye on them  theyd be fine theyd make it

four Hueys were lost retrieving him

Mack was the only man who didnt make it

2200,  Twosday,  27  12. 22
1200,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  12. 22


30,000 year old Indigenous Koonalda limestone cave drawings destroyed by pieces of shit  Press calls them vandals 

a remote cave

they got past barbedwire dug under a steel gate

vandals doesnt cover it

they are violators

when caught they ought to be violated  cut off their fingers  leave their thumbs 
                                                                                    that seems fitting

Tis the Season  1540,  Twosday,  27 12. 22

27.12.22

 

not on himhe didnt start it

god sat across from him nodding in affirmation his curly head and beard  a togaed bobblehead

No no Aint taking no bullet for you You let the cat out of the boxwasnt even a thought in my head 
                                                                                                       You had to make a pointsaid it was about something   Said about  about   Stuttered

god shook his curls no

he became the bobblehead OhYes was avid 
                                                 Your bullet to eat no fingerpointing at me 
I don’t have to. I make it so and it is.

Not in my book

Book? You haven’t a book.  We make book.

riffing off gangsters book For others perhaps not me
                                                     You said  I think it was something about . . about Wha  Yare Allknowing Omnipotent Omniscient  Cant seeya as a liar though one coud assume ya coudbe if ya wanted  Huh
Huh whadya say  I remember shall I say   You know I will if you refuse or lie

I said . .
. . Atta boy . . 
. . I said I think it was something about . . about . . . vaginal travesty . . yes, yes . I had a point.

You also sighed before  I had a point

I did.

Shall I say what I replied  Or you

You said and then in his voice god said Sounds unfortunate 
                                                                  Vaginally Ive not met a travesty  Not oncenot ever 

god flipped it because he could

dropped him face down between a womans legs

vaginal lips as big as wings

like eating a live bird

he grabbed ahold of her ass with both handssteadying her 
                                                             she buckedup against his facemay have broken his nose it bledwas tender he lost his grip an instantgrabbed ahold anew shoved a thumb up her ass to anchor her her lips flapped against his face he bit at themtore out their flight feathers flipped her overgnawed on her ass took some gas out of her tank flipped her again she gaspedwings gasped he heard her suck air her cunt grippedyanked his tongue  a nanosecond before she came he shut his eyesshe came volumes over his face
                                                                                  she was afterall  gods creation

she nearly drowned him 
he turnedgasping onto a shoulder
                                   thought bald eagle petrel puffin murre cormorant Ah haha coot   Cunt 

getting to his knees between her legs she dematerialise left without a kiss

god smirked

Quit your grinning  Wasnt a travesty

Nearly drowned you cumming.

Thank youwas gonna ask coudnt see  an Asian girl 

Asian?

Cum-Ming  Thas a dynastyyah
                                   he cracked himself up  the Joker sitting across from him woudnt

1445,  Reggaefriday,  18  2. 22
1438,  Twosday, 27  12. 22
Plant/Page  The Rain Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYYYoEfuAPY


How do ya kill a dense zombie

Shoot em in the head!

No
   A dense zombie  a freakin idiot

What are you talking about? In the head.

If they didnt know while they were alive why woud they know when they were dead  Follow

Shit. There is some reason in that.

Yah 
     Say they were one of the fiftythree percent of American adults ages sixteen to seventythree who cant read at a fifth grade level

That doesn’t particularly make them an idiot.

Ya sure  In my bookyah 
                          Whas Plan B  Decapitate themnegate sight hearing smell  letem clutchbout like an unmoored hydra Phylum Cnidaria class Hydrozoa 
Christ.

   Christ wha

Don’t ever become a fuckin’ zombie, man, you’d duck a bullet.

The whiff of a neutrino

Yeahwhatever . what the fuck.  What’s a neutrino?

Almost a ghost 
                Id be a ghosty zombie with an appetite
  Fuck. You.

1645?  Twosday,  26  4. 22
1252,  Twosday,  27  12. 22


he was trying to read

sat in a chaise lounge sun at his back iced whisky light on soda at handJESUS  WOUDYA SHUT UP

a bird somewhere in the trees at his feet  harsh   scolding


reminded him of three buddies who married shrills

each had asked him to standup to their wedding

he declined

they asked why

   Comon  Really

I wouldn’t be asking if I wasn’t confuseddidn’t understand.

Yawoudnt be askin ifya listened to me

You never said.

Because goes without saying 
                                Ever remember me ever saying a kind word to her Id say Hello but didnt engager

She thought you were a prick.

She was right I was a prick
                               But she took your prick and thasall tha mattered  Her shrill nattering hasnt changed an iota since you introduced me  Better you than me brother 


fucking bird chased him inside the house

thawas awright  he had groceries to buy

hed walk and read

1615,  Twosday,  26  4. 22
1201,  Twosday,  27  12. 22

26.12.22



paraphrasing Thomas Paine because who wants to walk in anothers footsteps  If you are afraid to offend you cant tell the truth 
      Paine said He who dare not offend cannot be honest.
    
whos he Thomas

who are they them 
                    whenever others drop pronouns its raises hackles on his neck hes suspiciousgets aggressive cant help himself  is adamantly adverse to citations without a proper name proper source  cant say who the initiator was   Trust me didnt play in his mouth

since satire is lost on idiots unfortunately felt hed met more than his share he slathered them with sarcasm 
                                                                                                             idiots can understands sarcasm although theyre not sure of the word
          
Yes yes  wha is it

I knows it.

I can see I can see it in your face ya do 
                                           Just spit it out  
It’s on the tip of my tongue . .
. . On the tip

Yeah.

   Stuck out your tonguelemme see

You can see it?

If you stick out your tongueyah

they stick their tongue out
Well Ill be damn there is it
Yuuh thas Yeah with their tongue stuck out

   No doubtwithout a doubt  Sarcasm

I don’t think I was thinking that. 
On the tip of your tongue 
                            Aint suggesting tongues think
No.

There you have it ya got it right 
                                  I was being sarcastic anya picked up on tha 
I did?
Ya did 
         Otherwise woudnt have seen it nowwoud I

   No.  Unlikely.

Ya gonna keep that in mind so the next time round it pops out of the toaster like an Eggo waffle Pop Tart held his tongue  not Pop Retard

   Maybe eyeballs were fogging up 
Lets hold out for Maybe 
                         Sarcasm right eyeballs were cloudy  Say it after me  Sarcasm
Sarcasm.

Good  Again

Sarcasm.

Keep repeating it

Sarcasm.

I got a way you can remember

What?

Sarcasm Again

Sarcasm.

Right  A mnemonic trick

A what?

Sorry nevermind 
                   I meant to say a trigger  Sarcasm
Sarcasm.
Right 
       A trigger Like Roy Rogers horse
I know Roy Rogers horse. 
Sarcasm Trigger

Sarcasm.  Trigger.

Correct 
         Sarcasm  Orgasm
What?

Nevermind No no  nevermind  Sarcasm

Sarcasm. 
           I think I got it.  Sarcasm.

Atta boy

What was that other thing?

Neveryamind Lets stick to sarcasm

Sarcasm.

1630?  Twosday,  26  4. 22
1611,  Twosday,  26  12. 22


He was a god

wore a toga

was muscled up as only gods can be

though this cat wore a crewneck tshirt under his toga

something was written on it

he coudnt make it out through the toga was made of durable materialnot gauzy  anticlimactic anticlimaxtic goddesses were built too but no peekaboo 
                                      which was likely fortunate for him they fuckedround with mortals  because they coud

Whas ah  printed on your tshirt 
I had a point to make.

   Awright ookay  Maybe we can swing back to it

He glared at him

Or not Im a curious sort

I could complete you, turn you into a cat. 
No  no thanks 
                Though you might understand my curiosity far as I can tell yare the only god wearing a tshirt 
My choice, we make up things as we go along I do whatever I want.

Yes yare ah  welcome to tha

I had a point to make.

Ya said

I think it was something about . about . . . vaginal travesty . . yes yes he sighed I had a point.

Sounds unfortunate 
                       Vaginally Ive not met a travesty   Not oncenot ever

His eyes shifted sideways to him  You’re not a god, are you?
No
   No   Im not a god

No you’re not . I’m exhausted. 
                                   sighed again  Think I’m gonna take five have a Red Bull.  Want one?

   No thank you

You don’t want a Red Bull.

he wasnt one to move off principle No thank you

What if I insist?

No thank you I don drink them  Knock yourself out

He fumbled at a loosethread at the crewneck 
                                                 Suit yourself. 
Thank you
            yet again  at odds with a god

0627,  Sunday,  25  12. 22
1225,  Monday,  26  12. 22
Page/Plant  Battle of Evermore  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4axrTFBV3cU


No no  a naked shower isnt redundant

Come on is so, who doesn’t shower naked?

Thasa stupid question Wanna pause reconsider  then open your mouth

I shower naked.

I do too
        A naked shower  Didnt you have a public pool near you growing up as a kid or a YMCA

Ah . . no and no. We swam in the ocean, sunbathed, played volleyball, tossed a football around, hung out.

Ahyes Southern California So you have zero concept he was tempted to say For community We had Lake Michigan thawas an ocean fresh water though and lakes rivers where we also swam skinnydipped  but I digress 
                                                                                                       Coudnt get into a public pool YMCA pool without taking a naked shower  Lotsa kids embarrassedshy wanted to keep their swimsuits on  Dig  Communal showers can do tha

No, only high school, sports.

Not Junior High gym making the seventh eighth grade basketball teams  High school gym an athletics

Wasn’t mandatory.

Fuck mandatory   Obliged
                             No wonder so many guys here don feel they have to wash their naked hands after using a toilet or urinal  Pigs
   
0627,  Sunday,  25  12. 22
1132,  Monday,  26  12. 22