he was trying to read

sat in a chaise lounge sun at his back iced whisky light on soda at handJESUS  WOUDYA SHUT UP

a bird somewhere in the trees at his feet  harsh   scolding

reminded him of three buddies who married shrills

each had asked him to standup to their wedding

he declined

they asked why

   Comon  Really

I wouldn’t be asking if I wasn’t confuseddidn’t understand.

Yawoudnt be askin ifya listened to me

You never said.

Because goes without saying 

                                Ever remember me ever saying a kind word to her Id say Hello but didnt engager

She thought you were a prick.

She was right I was a prick

                               But she took your prick and thasall tha mattered  Her shrill nattering hasnt changed an iota since you introduced me  Better you than me brother 

fucking bird chased him inside the house

thawas awright  he had groceries to buy

hed walk and read

1615,  Twosday,  26  4. 22

1201,  Twosday,  27  12. 22

The Band  Weight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWu-f7HFFJE

paraphrasing Thomas Paine because who wants to walk in anothers footsteps  If you are afraid to offend you cant tell the truth 

      Paine said He who dare not offend cannot be honest.

    

whos he Thomas

who are they them 

                    whenever others drop pronouns its raises hackles on his neck hes suspiciousgets aggressive cant help himself  is adamantly adverse to citations without a proper name proper source  cant say who the initiator was   Trust me didnt play in his mouth

since satire is lost on idiots unfortunately felt hed met more than his share he slathered them with sarcasm 

                                                                                                             idiots can understands sarcasm although theyre not sure of the word

          

Yes yes  wha is it

I knows it.

I can see I can see it in your face ya do 

                                           Just spit it out  

It’s on the tip of my tongue . .

. . On the tip

Yeah.

   Stuck out your tonguelemme see

You can see it?

If you stick out your tongueyah

they stick their tongue out

Well Ill be damn there is it

Yuuh thas Yeah with their tongue stuck out

   No doubtwithout a doubt  Sarcasm

I don’t think I was thinking that. 

On the tip of your tongue 

                            Aint suggesting tongues think

No.

There you have it ya got it right 

                                  I was being sarcastic anya picked up on tha 

I did?

Ya did 

         Otherwise woudnt have seen it nowwoud I

   No.  Unlikely.

Ya gonna keep that in mind so the next time round it pops out of the toaster like an Eggo waffle Pop Tart held his tongue  not Pop Retard

   Maybe eyeballs were fogging up 

Lets hold out for Maybe 

                         Sarcasm right eyeballs were cloudy  Say it after me  Sarcasm

Sarcasm.

Good  Again

Sarcasm.

Keep repeating it

Sarcasm.

I got a way you can remember

What?

Sarcasm Again

Sarcasm.

Right  A mnemonic trick

A what?

Sorry nevermind 

                   I meant to say a trigger  Sarcasm

Sarcasm.

Right 

       A trigger Like Roy Rogers horse

I know Roy Rogers horse. 

Sarcasm Trigger

Sarcasm.  Trigger.

Correct 

         Sarcasm  Orgasm

What?

Nevermind No no  nevermind  Sarcasm

Sarcasm. 

           I think I got it.  Sarcasm.

Atta boy

What was that other thing?

Neveryamind Lets stick to sarcasm

Sarcasm.

1630?  Twosday,  26  4. 22

1611,  Twosday,  26  12. 22

He was a god

wore a toga

was muscled up as only gods can be

though this cat wore a crewneck tshirt under his toga

something was written on it

he coudnt make it out through the toga was made of durable materialnot gauzy  anticlimactic anticlimaxtic goddesses were built too but no peekaboo 

                                      which was likely fortunate for him they fuckedround with mortals  because they coud

Whas ah  printed on your tshirt 

I had a point to make.

   Awright ookay  Maybe we can swing back to it

He glared at him

Or not Im a curious sort

I could complete you, turn you into a cat. 

No  no thanks 

                Though you might understand my curiosity far as I can tell yare the only god wearing a tshirt 

My choice, we make up things as we go along I do whatever I want.

Yes yare ah  welcome to tha

I had a point to make.

Ya said

I think it was something about . about . . . vaginal travesty . . yes yes he sighed I had a point.

Sounds unfortunate 

                       Vaginally Ive not met a travesty   Not oncenot ever

His eyes shifted sideways to him  You’re not a god, are you?

No

   No   Im not a god

No you’re not . I’m exhausted. 

                                   sighed again  Think I’m gonna take five have a Red Bull.  Want one?

   No thank you

You don’t want a Red Bull.

he wasnt one to move off principle No thank you

What if I insist?

No thank you I don drink them  Knock yourself out

He fumbled at a loosethread at the crewneck 

                                                 Suit yourself. 

Thank you

            yet again  at odds with a god

0627,  Sunday,  25  12. 22

1225,  Monday,  26  12. 22

Zeppelin  Dancing Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JpNy6z5sz1M 

Page/Plant  Battle of Evermore  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4axrTFBV3cU

No no  a naked shower isnt redundant

Come on is so, who doesn’t shower naked?

Thasa stupid question Wanna pause reconsider  then open your mouth

I shower naked.

I do too

        A naked shower  Didnt you have a public pool near you growing up as a kid or a YMCA

Ah . . no and no. We swam in the ocean, sunbathed, played volleyball, tossed a football around, hung out.

Ahyes Southern California So you have zero concept he was tempted to say For community We had Lake Michigan thawas an ocean fresh water though and lakes rivers where we also swam skinnydipped  but I digress 

                                                                                                       Coudnt get into a public pool YMCA pool without taking a naked shower  Lotsa kids embarrassedshy wanted to keep their swimsuits on  Dig  Communal showers can do tha

No, only high school, sports.

Not Junior High gym making the seventh eighth grade basketball teams  High school gym an athletics

Wasn’t mandatory.

Fuck mandatory   Obliged

                             No wonder so many guys here don feel they have to wash their naked hands after using a toilet or urinal  Pigs

   

0627,  Sunday,  25  12. 22

1132,  Monday,  26  12. 22

sipping his coffee he made a disturbed face

   took a smaller sip

face looked creepier 

                     How’s your coffee? he asked

saw him make faces 

                       Havent touched mine yet 

Take a sip.

Why

Just take a sip.

Why

Mine tastes funny.

their coffee was from the same pot they drank it black why is it when someone tastes something off they want someone else to taste it too

It tastes funny

   Yes.

Ill take you at your word good enough for me 

                                                immediately he got up dumped his out into the sink

But you didn’t taste it.

I didnt but let me say this if something taste off  like feet or shit to me Id tell ya I woudnt have you taste it

But it may just taste odd to me.

As I said your words good for me Ill make a fresh pot  Yamake this one

No, it was already brewed. 

                             I can’t believe you dumped your coffee without tasting it. 

he filled a clean carafe with water from the cooler

flipping the lid of the coffeemaker to fill the reservoir he recoiled 

                                                                    Iah think  I found the problem 

Problem?

Why your coffee tasted off or bad or whaever it did

standing up from the breakroom table What?

The djinn

The djinn?

naked mottledbluecoloured the djinn put a finger to his redlips attempting to shush him

Yah 

took his finger from his mouthpointed it threateningly at him

Yah there was no love lost between them he didnt think the company shoudve enlisted his services bought into his vague promises of success and wealth 

                       Yah Seems hesah using the reservoir as a hot tub        

djinn floundered getting up on his elbows to get to his feet

he slapped the lid shutunplugged it briefly considered the basement incineratorNAH instead pitched the coffee machine into a chute that had been erected outside the breakroom that ended in a dumpster as two suites were being remodeled

not a believer he wasnt anymore fearful of him than he was of God

0631,  Sunday,  25  12. 22

2341,  Sunday

   G I 

        when he talked with him about it he referred to it familiarly as Gee 

which he coudnt stand 

                      Pleaseplease woudya call it General intelligence none of your single letters antagonising acronyms you consistently prevail upon

                                Iyou know  dislike them 

You fail to understand I use them to pay you a complement . . 

. . I donthank you  Say it asif someone unfamiliar with your nomenclature were with us  Be inclusive   Language is often used to be exclusive

he gruntedsighed an uncomfortable sound  out came his pen

he had clipboard and paper

Could I have a sheet of paper please?

Ofcourse he knew where this was goingthe routine

he began obsessively scribblingcharting Dunning-Krugers Effect

Woudya stop  I know this

You don’t know it for Gee . . 

. . Wha

he stopped drawing You know . .

. . Wha

          Are you talkinbout General intelligence

 

Yes I am.

   Then  say so

Jesus he was irked . . General intelligence.

he was irked too but he didnt let on shoudave been a gambler I knew you coud do it trying to make it sound encouraging

he began drawing again 

                          Now the mean IQ . . 

. . Wha

   I know you know.

Wha IQ 

           Arent you getting sick and tired of me asking wha  I am

Intelligence quotient . . 

. . There ya go  though ya also know I have no time for itnot compared to Emotional quotient  Its superior to intelligence 

It isn’t.

   

   Oh but it is 

                Someone can be a freakin genius yet however lack the wherewithal to perceive understand manage and handle emotions thats not a person I want at my back  but youd prefer themsomeone unable to relate to youwhod look right past you  Howd that make you feelFEEL  emotionally

Lets be honest Ya tout smart intelligence   wisdom 

                                                       Common sense innate beats the pants off them  off their disconnected booklearning.   

1529,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  7. 22

1622,  Sunday,  25  12. 22

https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-general-intelligence-2795210

https://www.verywellmind.com/an-overview-of-the-dunning-kruger-effect-4160740

Steve Roach  Earthman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bviVqo1xw5k 

 

   Fentanyl 

             or as he couldnt himselfcouldnt help but think  Fen10nyl provided him some relief 

possibly 50times more powerful than heroin 100times more than morphine

You’re pronouncing it incorrectly. 

Aye

Fentanyl. 

Ah  No 

          Pronunciation is spot on wha I intended

   Intended?

Yes

he copped a stern look Anthat is . . 

. . Obvious 

             Or rather obvious to me

   Obvious? rolled his shouldersfew things were obvious to him

Yes

Maybe to younot to me. 

No

    No youd be hardpressed a joke thinlysliced humour but yare wound too tight to playlaugh at misfortune at unfortunatemisfortunate people who took a leap might not have looked before they did tha crowded out by coercion peers intimidation  Wha yafraid

his glasses rode up his nose as he grimaced You’re talking about people’s lives. They were . .

. . Were

           Were Now on a slab in a drawer in a morgue to be claimed

 

You understand how grim that is?

   Yes

Yet you can find something humorous in that?

   I look for somethingyes  Fen10nyl 

                                       Femme fatale

What are you talking about? was wearing thinbut he began thin truth be known

Yare aware its fifty times more powerful than heroinhunredtimes more powerful than morphine

I am.

Okay We agree   I imagine a girl walking down the streetthink to myself  Oh goodness on a scale of one to ten

A Fen10nyl 

               Ten multipled by fiveby ten comparatively 

                                                           Yadig

he groaned

Black humour man Laugh or yare gonna cry     

after 1300hrs,  Saturday,  24  12. 22

2334,  Saturday

https://www.statnews.com/2016/09/29/why-fentanyl-is-deadlier-than-heroin/ 

Marilyn Manson  Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUvVdTlA23w

Hey he said it in the ubiquitous manner one would when they had something over the other or their thought unimpeachable 

                           he often stoodrailed unimpeachable which angeredenraged many but who let their heat go knowing cocksure in his vocabulary  was in fact cocksure 

                                                            they liked himbut also detested him at once   he should have been an esquire his failing was that he preferred fists to his voice reckoningarguing to victory was milquetoast to helping up or being helped up from a bareknuckled brawl had he lost more frequently maybe he wouldnt be so offensive 

                                                                                                                                 MEBBE 

they felt they wanted to spit Hey what?

I just learned I cant commit suicide

Jesus Kahrist you come out of rightfield gangbusters . . whaddaya mean . you can’t?

Nope  Cant

            Church let me off the hook he was steeped in Catholicism but dumped the tea when he recognised where it was leading him

Let you off, in particular?

Yes an I imagine anyone who thinks like I do Cant imagine Church woud offer me dispensationnot the Church I know UHUH  not no way in Hell

You’re so assured . . 

. . Ive fucked in pews 

What?

   Yah

Might suppose you can be assured . . 

. . Bareassed the crucifix

                          Though to be sure the way Christs head is lolled he coudnt see  Not that Im shy 

NO.  You are not shy. 

                       So what are you braying aboutunable to commit suicide.

Yes Its called exitus animae  Exit leave Id concur with Jung ones true inner self

So how do you regard it in light of not committing suicide . . if you commit suicide?

The Church weighed in on the implications of what once were iron lungs now ventilators It decided it was permissible to turn off the machine in hopeless cases if  if the soul had left the bodyTHAT said it isnt possible I can commit suicide committing suicide

eyes rolledhe sighed How’s that?

My soul if ever was  abandoned me for greener pastures long long ago 

                                                                           Thereby  exiting  Id just be switching off the machine 

You know . . yourah . thought process is disturbing.

   Yah

         Will be tough to turn it offbeen too much fun

he had nothing  just shook his head

2301,  Day-between-Two-T’s,  21  12. 22

1111,  Saturday,  24  12. 22

Grand Funk  Sin’s A Good Man’s Brother  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vPdKSlQOBYE

Zelenskyy 

            “Your money is not charity. It’s an investment in the global security and democracy that we handle in the most responsible way.”

   charity 

what was charitable is that certain ignoble Red politicians sceptical that Russia is terrorising Ukraine were allowed to attend  seemingly they were there to spite it

perhaps it is their understanding that charity begins in the home 

                                                                     perhaps aberrantly mistakenthough he wouldnt be surprised  assuming their fortune was that they grewup wellprovided silver spoons between their teeth  wherein Proverbs 22:6 says Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

entitled they act as they were raised  selfaborbed selfish narcissistic

                                                                           he had little doubt verily sociopaths

1634,  Thursday,  22  12. 22

https://www.cnn.com/2022/12/22/politics/zelensky-congress-address-transcript/index.html 

https://thehill.com/homenews/administration/3784551-five-takeaways-from-zelenskys-trip-to-washington/ 

https://www.wkrg.com/hill-politics/zelensky-address-meets-divided-house-gop-preparing-to-grab-purse-strings/ 

https://news.yahoo.com/lauren-boebert-matt-gaetz-stayed-114531757.html

reading the word he thought it sounded like him  he had readheard it before but wouldnt bet wasnt a betting man exactly what it meant 

                but it sounded like him                  

he went to his American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language in red binding the first dictionary ever to publish the definition of fuck 1969 and WhellshitNO oneiric wasnt in it oneiromancy was  n. Divination by dreams hmmm

then he went to his New Oxford American Dictionary 2005  oneiric  There we go  adj. formal  of or relating to dreams or dreaming  coined in 1859 from Greek oneiros dream  he went a step furthur discovering oneirocritic mouthful “a judge or interpreter of dreams” coined during the 1650s from Greek oneirokritikos “of or pertaining to the interpretation of dreams” from oneirokrites “interpreter of dreams” from oneiros “a dream” + krites “discerner, judge” (see critic)(he wouldnt hadnt any appreciation of them no more than he had for a life coach) 

                                                                                             Why belabour it 

because the only one who can truly interpret their dreams is he or she who had them  he was adamant the dreamer is like a child who is given a ball they have no experience with if paying attention one would see the child turn the ball over and over in their handslooking it round and round seeing every aspect of it unfortunately adultsfamiliar with balls distinguishes BALL

                          Why go furthur

Did you dream

I did.

Whadya dream

   I don’t remember.

I dont remember  feeble 

                         he rememberedonly could wished he was able to filmrecord them  they were astonishing

two nights back he dreamt of attending a gathering of people who augmented their bodies  he was the only one there who wasnt tattooed or augmented  one man had a boneribbed skinwebbed frill duckfeet that ran behind his head across his shoulders like that of a stegosaurus  another somehow lengthened his optic nerveshis eyeballs blinking at the end of retractable stalks  like snails      

                                he kept passing outbelieved his drink was spiked  coming to hed find several around him trying to pierce himaugment him  hooks that anchored thin wires off which small intricatelyworked bells and brightblinking coloured lights hung  he tore them offripped his skin  in a slidingglass door he caught his bloodied reflection  they stripped him down to his gray Jockey fitted boxers  marooncolour streaking them 

                                                                                                       through the same slidingglass door he eventually escaped onto a balcony suspended over black water  jumping in under it opening his eyes he saw an underlit sea its rocking surface reflecting him as in a funhouse mirror  his wounds oozed  they looked like stringshe looked like a marionette

   hes still working on that dream

but he would

he was oneiric

ironic

2300,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  12. 22

120preferred,  Thursday,  22  12. 22

as the country braces for a Christmas and other religions bomb cyclone that will drive 81% of it under freezing temperatures there is warm comfort in knowing that the Biden Administration increased NOAAs (National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration) budget while the prior administration every year of its pitiful existence sought to reduce by 17% as well sought to diminish EPAs (Environmental Protection Agency) budget

this bomb cyclone is described as a “once-in-a-generation” event 

                                                                    though its occurred to himas he firmly believes its occurred to others around the world  “once-in-a-generation” events are happeningseemingly  two three times a year

1049,  Thursday,  22  12. 22

Bomb cyclone  https://www.nbcnews.com/science/science-news/bomb-cyclone-speed-intensity-rcna62754 

NOAA  https://www.washingtonpost.com/weather/2021/04/09/biden-budget-increase-noaa/ 

senseless former  https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/trump-administration-seeks-big-budget-cuts-for-climate-research/ & https://electrek.co/2019/03/11/trump-budget-epa-cuts/