Je t'aime à vous

he heard it as plain as day heard it in his voice  in a dream

   he knew had he been awake and French who he would have addressed

but in dreams

                all bets are off

   a woman was beside him  he could feel her presenceher heat 

                                                                     but he couldnt see her

he wonderedperhaps  if his eyes were shut 

                                              that would be unlike him  professing his love without looking into her eyes

he was asleep though

   he repeated himself repeated himself because she hadnt in kind

                                                                   was it the first time

that awkward declaration  hope she felt the same although he wouldnt have said if he doubted her love

though she didnt say

   Je t'aime à vous 

                    she was therehe was sure  his eyes were wide openhe ran his fingertips across his eyelashes  he couldnt see his fingers either

   and again 

              but this time the words sounded like an echothey didnt feel like they came out of his throat 

                                                                                                               or else he wasnt confident she felt the sameHE WOKE 

he growled 

           something in his throat

he sat up tried to clear it 

                            still there

he roused two cats who were sleeping with him 

                                                       they looked as sleepy as he imagined he looked to them

he went to say good morning to them but said Je t'aime à vous 

                                                                  they looked as confused as he imagined he looked to them 

tried again  Good morning leftie Good morning bomber  thank goodness it wasnt beyond him to imagine he could wakeup speaking French

it was earlythe sun hadnt blushed the skys cheeks

   he laid back downwas going back in to find out who she was  at least give it a shot

he willed his hypnagogic visionwilled a womans silhouette into his eyesNah Alouette gentile alouette alouette je te plumerai 

           Whellshit  thasnot going to help matters

early AM,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  11. 22

1157,  Sunday,  27  11. 22

Alouette, gentille alouette  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xM0UyNqrS0o 

Explosions in the Sky  Losing the Light  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBUuarDZyeI

1-2-3-4  clock read

Thas how easy he thoughtrecalling The Dovells  then he thought Easy for me

Man donbe touchin me with those cold hands 

Always outspoken he thought Gotta 

                                    Gotta direct the stream aint marking new territory pissing haphazard on the floor  tha Id have to cleanup

   he read the clock a distraction had things in hand last thing he wanted to do just then was converse with his cock

he knew his hands were cold it was cold  Just suck it up dispense dispiss he thought with the antics an youll be warm again up against body in no time

If ya knew . .

. . I do yare me . .

. . Don interrupt . .

. . Shaddup an do wha yare out for

 

   odd he quit with the lip

finishing up he looked down at his cock 

                                         Oh quit the shit woudya 

cock was preeningtryin to tempt him 

                                       seductively We don have to be cold 

   STOP Im goodyoull be warm again in a heartbeat  Whadafucks with this guy he thought 

cock could read his mind 

                          Im horny  Spare the cock blue the balls 

Thasnot how it goes

I know how it goes  Im trying to be clevertryin to get a little attention here

   he rolled his eyes Later 

Howbout some attention other than yours

   I hear ya bro 

Ansince were being biblical Ill cite brother Bobbys mantra  Good things come to he who waits . . 

. . He paraphrased  Be patient . . . the husbandman waiteth for the precious fruit . . . hath long patience for it  Excuse me all to hell for the ellipses

Precious fruit I like it   Proverb  Patience is a virgin

Asshole

Buttoning this up were done talkin turkey

whatever his cock had to say was muffled wasntcouldntwouldnt listen anymore had stuffed him back in his pants

He has a point a mariachi

   Blow me Im not contending with you immediately after tha   Take five

dejected mariachi yanked hisher herhis sombrero down low over their eyes

he could still make out the pout on their mouth 

                                                  Save it for another timenot in the mood  Yare welcome to return to it later awright

mariachis Awright was baleful

Awright Some other time

   its a bitch to be besetbeseiged by ones body 

                                                  seemed everyone thought they had a say in him twocents worth pitching

Sunday,  27  11. 22

Dovells  1 – 2 – 3  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGIH_LzjJ80

preying mantis 

praying mantis 

praying mantra

preying mantra

   tough to sort wheat from chaff

but all the above seemed like kernels to him fleshy  nutritious if one dug inwere open to suggestionwilling to not dismiss things immediately out of hand 

                                            play  be playful 

haftwist a strip of coloured paper join the ends Mobius strip

apply continuity where otherwise it might not exist 

                                                     annot if he tortured the process  any coloured paper one might want the entire spectrum 

                       or vantablack to brilliantwhite

   he liked opening doors then leaving them gapingwide open

222 preferred,  Sunday,  27  11. 22

Steve Roach  Dream Circle  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZAQhuetZdhc

his telephone rang  Jesus Christ obviously he was running behind he muttered Why call  Hello 

Where are you?

Woke late broke a shoelace

Whell . . to make the time slot we have to leave now, you’ll have to catch up.

Odd man out . .

. . Again! But your doing. 

                          sarcastically Broke a shoelace.  I haven’t done that since I was little. 

Go

We have to.

Go 

    Ill see wha I can do

So you’re saying you might not come. 

their statement frosted his fanny Listen Ive covered my sharenot leaving you high an dry 

                                                                                                it seemed a good idea at the time some intimacy  then that went out the window when word got out   I wanna come.   I couldn’t say no, hurt their feelings. 

           An my feelings he didnt ask

he didnt want to hear that there was no consideration for himthat it would be fine  but didnt ask  he didnt want to hear I thought it would be fine with you should have asked but he thought that way because he wasnt one to make assumptions when he could askcould communicate                        

he did things harder than most at work or play

he didnt tie his shoes he tugged them 

                                        when he shook someones handgave them a hug   That’s a strong grip . . when you hug, you really hug.

he drew hard evident lines  had high bars   held himself to them fiercely

    he woke late broke a shoelace 

heat fled the original incentive             

left no one high and dry

1952,  Saturday,  26  11. 22

1030,  Sunday,  27  11. 22

Explosions in the Sky (Mountains mix)  What Do You Go Home To?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oBDRTNevy5Q

 

3:53

Whastha supposed to mean

3:53

Whastha supposed to be

3:53

                                                                                                                                                                                        Repeatin donmean shit or make sense

nevertheless 

              he kept repeating it in his head as he tried to go back to sleep after waking to take a leak badgered by the illuminated hands on the clock on the pigchewed feed trough made nightstand

laying down he refused to open his eyesrefused to get up 

                                                            he was going to go back to sleep 

FUCK 

     he peeked  the bedroom lighter   5:33 Arya fuckin kiddin me

                                                                           he closed his eyesrefused to get up 

he was going to go back to sleep

he repeated 3:53

NO howled 5:33

Scream all ya want 3:53

Its my turn 

   You think its your turn its my choice  animate versus inanimate  got thaonya

5:33

Subliminal Good thinkinglike your style  3:53

they argued

he grew bored

 

he woke at 9:59 sixhours sixminutes after he first woke 

                                                                 Whadafuck 

he figured over coffee he was drawn to numbers  figures 

                                                             a possibility was that he dreamtwas gifted naked women 36-24-36s an others had sex againanagain with Marilyn Monroe had lotsa sex  it was probably a concession he had to concede 

   when he went to sleep tonight hed apologise

To who

   Ill offer to the ether I believe whoever who is has keen ears  theyll hear

1252,  Saturday,  26  11. 22

Excuse me excuseme Ya walkin . . 

. . I am

he looked dumbfounded wasnt a good look  Really

I am

Doesnt tha cross your ethics

No

   No How no

Contended with two strikes this week Figured Id make it best of threewalk away

But this onebest of three iscorrect me if Im wrong contrived

Contrived How

Pits you against your honesty

Pits me against stupidity cantwont correct everything 

Thas a little harsh

                   She might have been near the end of her shiftmight have been tired

   So tired she was blind to the common sense of the transaction 

                                                                      When was the last time nah jokin have you ever seen packaged chicken beef or pork not sold by price per pound droned price per pound price per pound

I gotchagotcha  excellent epizeuxis an alliteration

Thank you very much

I suppose youve awready figured your take 

Winnings I have

I coud look at your scribbles on the chalkboard

Yacoud  Yare right there

Yahwell Im nearing the end of my shift  he chuckled 

he volleyed his chuckle

                          Comedian 

Yare a funny guy

Thank youwe are 

                     So 4point87 pounds plus 4point69 pounds 16 6 carry the one 15 5 carry the one 9  9point56 

I dig how ya do numbers in your head

Don try to take me off my game 9point56 pounds 

                                                   99 cents a poundcall it a dollar 9 dollars 56 cents subtract a dime Owed herthe market 9 dollars 46 cents for the chicken thighs 

   But the raincheck was written 99 cents 

A pound a poun . .

. . Save me another epizeuxis 

Awright awright  he was awfully tempted to pull the trigger 

                                                                9point56 pounds two packages she charged me a dollar ninetyeight cents for them Tha make sense to you by any stretch

   No not really

She didnt brook common sense

Put it thaway

There another way 

                        Look at it this way  She charged me just over twentycents a pound  makes no sense zip nada  When was the last time we paid twentycents a pound for chicken

   No idea 

Me neither but Id guess  before we were born

You were born

You werent far behind

1407,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

1132,  Saturday,  26  11. 22

Mogwai  End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_J8UWSWqdM

he washed his hands

not that they needed it

it seemed something to do something to move time forward  spur it on 

                                                                           recently hes caught himself wanting time to pass quicker  to have leapt the afternoon to dinner  to leap to bed dream and have it be tomorrow morning 

Are you an asshole he asked himself

   Im not

             You know 

We have to go there

Im there  Im there all the time

So Im going to have to keep pulling you backstaying the course

Yes please  I know its a lot to ask 

                                     Be my anchor my tether  hold mekeep me in realtime

   Easier said than done

 

I know 

         But I cant trust anyone else

   Thrusted trust

In a manner of speaking

1128,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

Grouper  Heavy Water/I’d Rather Be Sleeping  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLR9oEnYLxs

Hmmm he mused Learn something new every day 

                                                        socio-sexual hierarchy 

he thought itbut didnt saydidnt put it out into the ether 

                                                         could hear his daughter  Papa, whenever you think, Is that a thing? know that it is.

his learning came on the heels of a title of an articlehe didnt read Who is a sigma male? on MSNBCs tattleteller snitch format that presented when he signed out of Outlook  sigma male? cisgender?whadafuck 

                                                                                                 tuurned out the socio-sexual hierarchy is apexed aped https://www.facebook.com/ZooATL/videos/sound-up-to-hear-a-few-common-gorilla-vocalizations/336795330859701/  aped inside the pyramid by alpha  however equal to alpha though outside the structure is sigma  returning to the hierarchynot necessarily a ladder is beta delta gamma  all who squat on omega

how had he been alive this long without knowing there was a hierarchy 

                                                                             could suppose ignorance was bliss 

or he was good with his fists

   unable to resist he telephoned his daughter 

                                                  Hey baby

Hey Papa, what a nice surprise . . what’s up?

I love you

I love you.

So you ever heard of a sigma male

 

Sweetheart

Yes?

Did you hear me

I did. 

        I’m waiting for it.

Waitin

Yes. he could imagine her nodding

   Did you know that that was a thing . .

. . There it is!That’s my boy! 

                               What’s the answer?

   Thawhen I wonder if something is a thing I ought to understandaccept  it is a thing

Yes. 

     Seeking confirmation?

   Yay

Consider yourself confirmedIve known since college freshman year.

You coud have said

What? 

        And missed this telephone call? Sigma is equal to an alpha, although prefers being a lone wolf, a mavericksound like anybody you know Papa?

Yayyay

Come across like it . spare me.

   Me

Yay.

Yay Is tha complimentary

Not necessarily, but it works for you . . think . otherwise your hard knocks wouldn’t have served you, would have been for nothing.

 

Papa?

Excuse me

              Was thinking

Now you’re thinking.

Yay Usually I react . .

. . Yathink?  she laughed gleefully 

                                     You’re a real peach, Papa.

A peach

Yay.

Maybe thas why I called

Fishing?

Nah

Nah, that’s not your style. 

                             Sorry, Papa, I gotta get going. Love hearing your voice, love to know you’re thinking, learning.

I love ya sweetpea

Love ya peachy Papa.

1452,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

Gims  feat. Dhurata Dora  Only You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xv792jyJNoo

  Africaine 

              he read the word for the first time on page 203 of NOW-some-unremembered book title on another ReggaeFriday  26 August ’22  1430hrs 

he riffed 

          Africocaine which of course would be inaccurate in light of the US drug war  innercity blacks couldnt afford cocaine like whites

                     hence Africrack 

if apprehended

prosecuted 

             Afrincarceration 

Thas it  shot his wad

he didnt say it was a long riff

1242,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

Art Blakely and the Jazz Messengers  Africaine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQ7nanXmZ0o&list=PLUJ7V33M1wR03Kig_AsqibeI00uFk47Nb

Venus Africaine  https://www.rct.uk/collection/41510/venus-africaine

Africrack  https://oig.justice.gov/sites/default/files/archive/special/9712/ch01p1.htm 

100:1  https://www.aclu.org/other/cracks-system-20-years-unjust-federal-crack-cocaine-law 

its irritated him for a while

Google Pixel with Magic Eraser  

Making Life Superficial 

                            You writing copy?

he read what he wrote under his breath 

                                            answered  Its almost poetic 

It reads like advertisement.

   he read it again admitted it did

You really take issue with technology . . 

. . When it can lead us around by the nose I do I find its coarsely he cleared his throat convenience  superfluous . .

. . Unnecessary.  To you. 

                            However people gobble this stuff up.

Honestly I couldnt sayI don know I practise ignorance

Yet you have an acclaimed issueagain . with ignorance.

I do Albeit that ignorance is when someone talks through their hathas little knowledge  though just enough to be dangerous 

            Superficial knowledge

Making life superficial.

Yes

So what do you mean?

I mean lifes a clusterfuck the good an bad knead together  To prettify it to excise erase is a fabrication Its equivocation dishonest 

            It is furthur evidence that one cannot believe their eyes Were visual animals anwhen technology an eraser is deployedId rather see a word struck with a line than it erased when deployed were blinded

                                                                                                  I understand someone thought they were being very clever But cheats tend to be clever CG is clever However   Dishonest

You think entertainment is dishonest?

It isnt creativewe exercise someone elses creativity 

                                                     Im not saying it doesnt have a place however if while drifting with it we don drill downwork to understand it can be negligible it becomes part of our experienceour memory an remembering artifice we are not accurate were lying to ourselves

Which . you tirelessly acclaim is the worse lie to tell.

Yes

   Are you going to keep up this ignorance?

Until the day I die until the day I die

0943,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

https://www.google.com/search?q=google+pixel+phone+magic+eraser&rlz=1C1ILPI_enUS778US778&ei=JQOBY_2yEdjLkPIP1rKeuA8&oq=Google+Pixel+phone+with+eraser&gs_lcp=Cgxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAQARgAMgYIABAWEB4yBQgAEIYDMgUIABCGAzIFCAAQhgMyBQgAEIYDMgUIABCGAzoKCAAQRxDWBBCwAzoHCAAQsAMQQzoNCC4QxwEQ0QMQsAMQQzoNCAAQ5AIQ1gQQsAMYAToPCC4Q5QQQyAMQsAMQQxgCOhIILhDHARDRAxDIAxCwAxBDGAI6EgguEOUEENQCEMgDELADEEMYAjoECAAQRzoLCAAQgAQQsQMQgwE6BAgAEEM6CAgAELEDEIMBOgUIABCABDoHCC4Q5QQQQzoICC4QgAQQ5QQ6BQghEKABOggIIRAWEB4QHUoECEEYAEoFCEASATFKBAhGGAFQ8wNYxjZg71hoAXADeACAAX2IAZoHkgEEMTEuMZgBAKABAcgBCMABAdoBBggBEAEYCdoBBggCEAEYCA&sclient=gws-wiz-serp#fpstate=ive&vld=cid:4b9b5213,vid:z5VNPfrPd5c

how prevalent is fear

she would have preferred it be a rhetorical question it was not

one answer she thought ridiculous 

                                      create your own smart house

she surmised

                create your own prison  

a house surveilled inside and out  its working accessed remotely  it working like an algorithm selfsufficient

a house is not a self

                       that house is not a home

a smart house reveals how fearful its tenant is  they believe what they have is worth stealing they surrender the advantage of knowing their houses guts so if an intruder breached they wouldnt have the sense of outrage to defend what is theirs  defend their family to the death

at home she treated people like vampires she had to invite them inside  

                                                                           if they entered uninvited they ought to know they were playing for all the chips

could suppose she was smarter than brick and mortar

1501,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

0938,  negraReggaefriday,  25  11. 22

Grouper  Holding  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyOFA_sUHBU 

 

   I am who I amcant be no other 

                                        and what I am has been deliriously happy to have been with youshared with you to have had you to have had our delicious intimacies

                                                     which in their midst an depth we couldnt have believed would end 

   yet was doomed 

I fail to understand that natural premise

2254,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

2208,  Thursday – Thanksgiving,  24  11. 22

“I have never been able to ignore the possibility of the spiritual altogether, my brushes with synchronicities, with the divine, with the unnamable, have been too numerous and too real for me to dismiss whatever else is out there.” 

Jeanna Kadlec her book Heretic

. . . whaever else is out there 

                               he concurredloved concurring

hed met whaever face to face or no-face melting face more times than he could say

                                                                                        but he was receptive

he believed the thinnest of veils exists between living and nonliving similar to a two-way mirror from our side reality an images are reflected on the other side whaever sees witnesses us in toto Because some things cannot be explaineddefy reason does not diminish their existence however brief it may have been 

I don’t believe in ghosts.

he heard him before was blasé  You havent an opinion

he glared again  Yes . of course I do. 

Ya don

        Not having experience negates anything you might think you have to say  Whereof one cannot speak thereof one must be silent Wittgenstein Philosopher Logician   Take it up with him

You’re ridiculoustake it up with him. I'm welcome to my opini . .

. . Not when its utterly worthless Ill put it this way 

                                                      If you havent had sex yare a virgin an I have  Why the hell woud I ask you for advise  I woudnt

   I have an opinion.

Empty words

                Yaoughta be embarrassed 

  

1919,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  11. 22

1041,  Thursday – Thanksgiving – 24  11. 22