hennaed hands

tripped up his perspective 

                            though seen up close the artfulness threw him off his disgust of tattoos he knew hennahow he knew he couldnt sayhe read a lot  he knew it wasnt permanent not a tattoo  he asked Its not permanent 

she laugheddidnt cover her mouth 

                                   Awhellno, I like to change things up, permanent’s a bit of a swear word in my lexicon. she was growing more attractive to him by the moment

Lexicon

A sweet descriptor, huh? I dig icon being part of it. 

descriptor

he had seen her a couple times priorthey had been introduced but he hadntthey hadnt opportunity to bore down admittedly then the henna throwing him off 

                                           Arya tryin to get into my pants 

Isn’t that my line?

Did I step on your toes

she laughed openmouthed again 

                                   I’m holding the line, bub . you trying to get into my pants? 

Id love to

the laughter bubbled  unforced very natural 

                                                  she was small  built proportionallythough tastefully busty  auburn hairbutched  unruly  saved her from the inane question and answering  This? No, I can’t do a damn thing with it. 

looked like a mad pixielike she might bite him for a reason no reason   feral

they went off to a bar after she closed her shop

they had several drinkshe had no idea where she was putting them

then she admitted she was Indianpart Irish

then he knew

   Say handsome, I don’t live far from here like to walk me home?

they made it as far as a school playground played on the swings he pushed her she kept leaning way back tagging him in the belly with the top of her head 

her playfulness and inversion tickled him 

made him hard

she noticed                       

swinging out and away she exitedflung herself into the air and on woodchips stuck the landing  turning to him as he walked up on her she did a little Rocky dance

she patted his cockfingers pointing down 

                                           Yagonna introduce me to your little friend said it like Tony Montana  Scarface

Happily though youll excuse himhes a little hard of hearing youll have to get very close when you say

undoing his belt buckle she went at the pantsbuttons in abandon she grabbed his cock took a knee HELLO! she gave him a tug and a kiss 

                       Take a look at this would ya?! he was looking See how large your cock looks in my hand?

Theres that  Matter of perspective

she didnt say

0640,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22 

1321, ReggaeFriday,  2  9. 22

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyrnHkX4wS8

https://tenor.com/view/rocky-gif-7297653

lookingup from of his book as he walked into through the parking lot he saw a little boy emerge carrying a schoolbag into the hot sunlight beside his father 

                                   his father was trying to have a conversation with him I had a fine day today, howbout you son?

the boyretarded walked forward blinking madlyhot sun in his eyes he didnt respond

Son, now you mightyou could say . . Dad, I had a good day too; your teacher said you had a very good day today.

the boy almost stumbledDad steadied himhand at his shoulder as he struggled to lift the plaid schoolbag up to his chest with his other hand he gripped itheld it before him asif a shield 

crossing in front of them he saw the boys blinking ceasedgave way to a hard stare it wasnt directed at anything a faraway look 

              he recognised it  his little brother was retarded  they were here and not here entranced  inhabiting a netherworld  oblivious 

                         he remembered thinking that if he was protectedguarded itd be a nice place to go off to  somewhere   over the rainbow    hurtle the horizon  be A-WAY 

                                                                    unfortunately creeping fear broke across the boys face because his father walked beside him he didnt see it 

                                                        then the boys expression twistedagonised

the while his father had continued to try and cajole his son to converse he was diligentthough visibly irritated yet it did not reveal in the tenor his voice 

as he continued walking he couldnt imagine having a retarded childbe responsible for them the rest of their life his life

the little boy began to whine pitifully then crysobbed

he understood it was the sunthe heat it was oppressive aggressive 

                                                                        all the years the boy had been alive  this creature this junior high twelve or thirteen year old  the heat hadnt been onehunednine degrees September First

felt like walking in an oven

                            he thought creature the father was catchingup realising the suddenheat his son was experiencing after being indoors embraced by airconditioning the whole school day  he thought creature because they innatelybasically understood Jungs collective unconscious kollektives Unbewusstes synchronised Unconscious  a fineskein web cast around the earth  engulfing it  communicating the fear of abnormal heatGet out of the sun seek shelter save yourself 

the boy staggered then began to walk backwardsretreating  his father grabbed him by the shoulderhe sobbed louder

Yes son it is hot, but when we get to the car I’ll turn the airconditioning on full blast, cool you down immediately.

the boy tried to shake his fathers hand but couldnt

                                                     he heard the scuffle at his back the father beginning to drag the little creature forward INTO the sun INTO the blazing heat INTO annihilation  INNATELY bound to his creaturesenseGET OUT OF THE SUN  SEEK SHELTER   GET OUT OF THE SUN

midparking lot he assumedhe heard an Umph the fathers gaspbreath as he lifted the boy off his feetstill struggling  bodily carrying him to the car as he sobbedscreamed  unable to flee to hide from the hotwash of the sun

a spectacle he heard  did not watch  

he wanted out of the sun too

his creature instincts were screaming inside his head as loud as the little boy did       

1441,  Thursday,  1  9. 22

1039,  ReggaeFriday,  2  9. 22

K Bleax Survival  https://vimeo.com/127584214

hennaed hands  sleeves

small hands

she was lucky if she was five feet tall he said Id guess 152.4 CM  she giggled  You make me feel taller, thank you.

Yare welcome

she ran a greeting card shop 

                             printed her own out of the rear of the building interspersed them among the standardfare Hallmark American Greetings local artisans also placed theirs for a nominal display fee 

                                                                                             it had a communal feel her decoration was inviting

a mutual friendwho knew told him a week after she stopped to chat with him outside hennas shop that she was curious about him 

           I think you need to send a card to someone.

he was actually a whore one could lead to water and make him drink 

Mind you  she said   Ana A N A is unique.

Shes sui generis

her face went deadpan

                         Yeah Joe . . whatever.  she said whatever to irk himhe irked her 

Okay Raquel  okay 

                     Friends

If not I wouldn’t have turned you onto her.                         

Thank you

Maybe you thank me after you get a ball rolling. Then you can take me out for a drink.

   ahcovert  possibly a nefarious operation

I  guess well see

Oh I have little doubt you’ll charm her out of her pants like you charmed me out of mine.

   that was insane

he nodded  We certainly sowed wild oats . .

. . We’re lucky we weren’t arrested for she burst out laughingDISORDERLY lewd conduct.

Had we been Idve charged them with being prude 

                                                        We did tear it up

We did!

           If you two hookup don’t tell me . I rather want to see it on her face . . I can remember mine reflected in a storefront window.

he shook his headit was a vivid memory 

                                            We made a time of it

Yes.  Then I left for school.

In Europe

Yes.  There was that. 

                           If I hadn’t we’d’ve been reduced to a heap of ash.

  Thas  poetic 

                Takin blow jobshead by the wind

That wasn't.

  No  Just saying  

                        Between us head was might popular

Stop.

      Go buy a card, introduce yourself to Ana. 

he did

Ana rolled out of bedDammit, I’m late again! she went to the bathroom and started the shower 

it was a shower stall

he pulled the curtain aside 

he leered

          she was so beautiful wet   slick  like an otter

she laughedgave him a little tug I don’t think there’s room in here for the three of us.

Well  I got an idea

                       Lets make him disappear one way or another

00:00,  Thursday,  1  9. 22

1236,  Thursday

  its golden hour

                maybefingers crossed someone shot him as he walked across the field past razedtoppled trees land choppedup into lots some foundations excavated or maybe an interior Mariachi bandit recording him to cut him intoedit him into  dreams   memories  shooting black an white or cinemascope

he was angered 

                  he had argued strenuously before the City Council against selling off the green parcelsarguing they ought to be maintainedEVERYTHINGeverything didnt have to be about chasing the almighty buck

                                                                                                     without greenways yards their community would eventually collapse into sterile urban monotony 

standing at the edge of a trench some threefourfeet deep he glanced a glittering in the crumbledearth rock shale reflecting shards of sunlight whichnot ten minutes later  he would never have seen

he jumped down into it

toed away the collapsedearth

a flask

bending to pick it up not a few feet away more glittering  another flask  then another    another  strung out in the same cease not thirty metres apart 

                                           then the sunlighting was gone the sky darkening quickly 

he put the flasks in his jacket pockets climbed out of the cut and walked home

all four were filled

                   with blood

a little diabolical

macabre

as dinner was going he poured himself refrigerated Ouzo wanted something as viscousabsent colour to mirror the blood

     he could be macabre too

in the morning hed take the flasks to the police lead them to the ditch

he hoped once they were no longer evidence they would return them to him so he could rinse them out and use

they were handsome flasks

friends heard that and freaked

                                 he decided he wouldnt tell them the steak knives they used at dinner were once murder weapons 

               how could he not  they were superior Japanese cutlery Lotus  Damascus steel  Sapele wood handles 

it often used for guitar necks

    he wouldnt say

                        theyd be offended at a minimum        

0746,  Monday,  29  8. 22

1057,  Thursday,  1  9. 22

he mused You’re my lover/I’m my rival. 

                                               That came out of nowhere

Come now actually it didnt 

Mariachi gang members

                       Awright gang it did not Boy Georgehis image  prompted me to think of herDAMMIT IT  Karren Gotta work on that Shes not she  they  non-binary   Think Im sticking with Karren

                                                                                           Or they

They? he interrupted them they forgot he was in the room given over to their distraction  Culture Club lyric What are you talking aboutyou talking to yourself?

I interrupted myself I do that

                                Yes he nodded to him  They  Karren theyre outside gender binary  He she she he him her her him  Ditchin the masculine feminine forms pronouns

he shook his head like a fighter clearing his mind after taking a punch I don’t know what are you talking about?

Ohcomeon Pleading ignorance lets not be square  We offer it as a matter of respect You prefer your nickname to your given name I respect that  Its no different its the same

Makes me uncomfortablesounds hard . . 

. . Hard 

         How hard is it to say they them rather than he she 

Its their pronounced pronoun preference  Alliteration  all – littered – rations  rations liberally littered anYES ass-onance repeated vowel sounds in multiple words lets not brake consonance  repeated consonant sounds in multiple words

he smiled

You’re having too much fun . .

. . Edumacating you

So you think . I’m square?

I prefer you werent

By acceptin . .

. . Yes 

      Accept  Thas why Im labouring it  Non-binary   Non-square cat

1537,  Monday,  11  4. 22

1103,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

Boy George – Culture Club  Karma Chameleon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmcA9LIIXWw

Tricky  Hero  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TcEsGV9_Gqk

dogs didnt unnerve himhe just didnt care for them 

                                                            I think we ought to cross the street 

she was talking either head down or looking at him she wasnt looking up the street as they walked

he was listening occasionally met her eyes they conversed but he kept his head on a swivel and because he was she didnt need to  he watched out as far as he possibly could there was nothing ought to be short term 

                                                                                                          and for that many thought he was a stick in the mudhustled things to probable outcomes if this then that then if this  that  this if that that then this 

               Can’t you just stay in the moment?                 

Which moment is that The present is already gone

he often frustrated herhe frustrated a lot of peopleChrist he frustrated himself  but thats the way he was wired water off a ducks back he could put it away but only after it pricked him

he interrupted herrepeated himself 

                                     I think we ought to cross the street he pointed up the street  Tha dog

she glanced up to see

she saw a man walking a huge dog 

                                       It’s unlike you to give way let alone go across the street. 

Awbabe yare nearsighted   Trust me on this

You really want . . . 

                   but he had taken her by the elbowlooked up and down the streetno trafficlead her into the grassy parkway off the curb onto the street 

                                        I do

she let herself be lead

                              on the other side of the street she didnt remember what she was talking about

The galleon the galleon you saw in the harbor he said reminding her 

                                                                          he was able to hook and hang conversations in his brainsee through sudden distractions  then return to them

Ohyes, of course, the galleon, I’d forgotten . . crazy how you remember.

Nah had I not interrupted you taken you off your game youdve had it  Also I was listening hence obliged 

                                                                                                               Can you see the dog better now

she looked they were closing 

                                 it was a really huge dog  something was queer

he saw the expression turn in her face confusionconfounded 

                                                                  Let me help you with that  Cerberus 

her head snapped backRECOGNITION

                                        Cerberus.  Isn’t that impossible?

A threeheaded dog 

Mans got him in harness

Keepin him on point

You agree it was wise to giving them a wide berth 

I didnt want to say 

                     Ohmy wha a handsome dog coud I pet him   I woudntve known which nose to offer my palm

0850,  Thursday,  7  4. 22

1244,  Twosday,  30 8. 22

https://www.theoi.com/Ther/KuonKerberos.html 

Burial  Rival Dealer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qiYh2teAbr0 

lyrics  https://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/burial/rival+dealer_21326525.html

SOUTH CAROLINA senator Lindsey Graham  503PM 3May 2016

“If we nominate Trump, we will get destroyed . . . . and we will deserve it.” 

                                                                                   prophesy

he a seer

over the weekend he chimed “America will riot if the Former is indicted   . . . we will get destroyed.”

seems the little man likes the verb

   but hes evolved 

since the Formers administration a wannabe oligarch  now a criminal confederate

Graham deftly reminds him of American evangelical Christians who coddle Israel their eschatology Biblical literalism inducing their support 

                        The State of Israel is proof of the fulfillment of prophesy regarding the nearing of Jesus’ Second Coming the beginning of the Rapture – the end times 

                                  Jews are Gods chosen people

                                                                                   prophesy

     selfishly not one without the other of violence annihilation

1708,  Twosday,  30  8. 22

0918,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

criminal confederate Congress an elsewhere crawlin with them  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PiiFS6qNCXI  

quisling Graham  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xld3YpyJFwI  

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/politics/wp/2018/05/14/half-of-evangelicals-support-israel-because-they-believe-it-is-important-for-fulfilling-end-times-prophecy/ 

dedicated to Graham  Bobby Vinton  Mr. Lonely  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mYvBBl1WAvU

he was running latetold him hed visit today

while calling for visiting hours hed check up on him 

the desk answered

she gave him the hours 

May I speak with Room 313 bed 1

One moment, please. 

313. Bed 1.

Yes maam

I’m . . I'm so so terribly sorry . . your friend expired.

    expired

   expired

he didnt think we had expiration dateswhere would that be

written behind himbehind his back

he only used a mirror to shave

hed have to check that out 

Frankie expired

Yes. I’m afraid so sir, I am terribly sorry. 

You said

            May I ask your name please

I’m a new volunteer, my name is Mary.

   Mary your last name please

Sir, I wouldn’t be comfortable sharing it. Perhaps . . Mary S.

Mary S  Yes  Thank you Mary S 

                                       that was sufficient hed share with her supervisor  expired isnt something one wants to hear over the telephone

You’re welcome, sir. 

she beat him hanging up

either she was enthusiastic tending another call  or coolly efficient

Mary he repeated Mary S  Mary Snake  No rattle

1758,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1131,  Monday,  29  8. 22

he couldnt get enough JoyceJOY to his right among a stack were Ulysses Finnegans Wake  Ulysses one hunred years old this year he was rereading it to celebrate 

                                             but Finnegans was stealthy vied for his time                                                                                                                            had no choicecouldnt help itself 

for that matter he couldnt help himself 

                                         He addle liddle phific Annie ugged the little craythur wither hayre in honds tuck up your part in her. 

                     one cant lookup from reading annot have stars in their eyes 

he fondseed it

                craythur  tuck up your part in her   sopoetic

Joyce was the reason his mind was unmoored that he didnt struggle with wrioters block

if something hadnt scrabbled his brainpanhe had swabbed up all last nights drippings smeared them on a page then all he need do was open Finnegans wide Up against the wall! shove the suspect against a graffiticoloured wall Spreadem! friskem 

        Bompromifazzio! Shumpum for Pa-li-di and oukosouso for the nipper dandy! Trinkoff this scup and be bladdy orafferateed! To bug at?

snarl at em Tell it to the judge! it was above his pay grade a mans got to know his limitation a simple cop ought to know that 

Penetrator are permitted into the museomound. 

                                                    fuckin’ tickledamused him                      

1234AGAIN,  Twosday,  5  4. 22

1055,  Twosday,  30  8. 22

Dirty Harry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CG2cux_6Rcw

she was having an offday

apparently it was apparent 

                                 Ya look like the dog ate your biscuit

she fixed him with her eyes hard

You undressing mecuz I can help you with tha

Everything's always a joke with you.

Aneverythins a heartbeat from turning to shit for you I don know how you maintain tha

Thingsfor some reason go south for me. I tread lightly as I possibly can trying not to offend a soul and you walk up to the same character and fly in their face  offend them . .

. . If theyre due Yes  Have to have provocation

Your provocation is pretty thinskinned.

It is In regards to that Im impatient I look for provocation but I have a confrontational personality you do not 

                                                                                                                  Youre like a beautiful piece of porcelain tossed in a sack with hardwood bowls waiting to be brokenwhy thawhy did you take on the persona victimhood people cant waitare eager to beat you with it 

                                                                           Youre very sensitive  Everything hurts

she unfixed him

he was always honest with her 

                                  brutally honest 

                                                   today wasnt an exception 

                                                                                but what she realisedknew was that when she was with him no one would cause affrontNot not while she was with him

she was safe with him

if he were to scald her

she forgave him

she knew she frustrated him

and sometimes that got the better of his humour

                                                      You love me. 

he smiledshook his head 

                            Im hopelessly in love with you 

Youre having an offday

I’m having an offday an offweek . . maybe a fucking offmonth. 

                                                                 tears welled in her eyes

Wellbaby you are consistentrarely surprising

                                                 Youll tell me if theres something I can do to help

I don’t want to take advantage of you . .

. . You know Id take advantage of youyah 

                                            he shot her a lascivious wink  he undressed her a bit he could see through her clothing a God granted super power in answer to his prayers  

she laughed in spite of herself

it was music to his ears

                           I also love your laughter  And your nose

2145,  Sunday,  28  8. 22

1419,  Monday,  29  8. 22

Massive Attack  Safe from Harm  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKtTmZnVhhI

Tricky  Hate This Pain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzSXIhVjfH0