13.7.22


they crossed the creekwalked on water walked on big rocksbut not so big that they didnt shimmy a bit made the crossing funnot a sure bet 
                   Careful brother think that joint shook ya up a bit  Inept
abruptly I’m fine.

Stop with fine you stumbled on the dirt pathaint picking up your feet while ya walk

he was on the rocks halfwaycross so he didnt dare stop balance turn an say he yelled I’m fine. Leave me be.
                                                                                                                    he would have said alone Leave me alone but be understandably was shorterless an effort 
                                                                                       if brother went down he wasnt going after him he was being mercenarygave him a wide berth hadnt stepped onto the rocks yet was taking in the sight
   and . . .
              he stumbledfell incaught himself got his hands out ahead of his face he looked like an ape a big awkward human
        had to laughhad to enjoy brothers misery enjoyed his misery because eventually it would come around on him and someone would laugh

Don’t laugh at me.

Have to he started across the rocks Yare funny
                                                   Mebbe I should have lead the way  halfwaycross Thaway ya coudsee how its done he stoppedrocking on a rock to watch him stagger out of the water onto the bank no worse for wear  he didnt take a knee or knees  he might rollup his sleeves or take his shirt off   You okay

I’m okay I’m okay, you’re gonna tell Dottie in a heartbeat that I fell in aren’t you?  crossing his arms over his chest he made himself into an exclamation point aren’t you?!

laughter bubbled out of him as he finished crossing 
                                                      In a heartbeat Hellnah  Ive written it in the sky shes already seen it  Im a skywriter Anyone bothering to look up coud see it whichmeans yare safe  But Dottie looks up like me Yare doomed

1542,  Thursday,  27  1. 22
1224,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  7. 22


only one of twohunredninetynine babies survived  there were those who were tempted to call it a miracle 
                                                                                                               he deferredhe said if that baby grew up and became an atheist then he might concede it was miraculous
                                                                                               he wouldnt win a popularity contest
        not that he cared 


if a babys born to atheist parents unbaptised   according to the Catholic church should he or she die  their soul would go to limbo
           Awcomon   How low can ya go
 
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1041,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  7. 22

12.7.22


driving they rolled past a billboard alongside the rural highway County Road 18   WE BACK THE BLUE!
Trumps face leers out from the upper left corner    

his passenger mused How do people deal with the cognitive dissonance of the fact that he launched an attack against the Capitol on January Six?

he let him muse 

was gonna keep his two cents to himself

otherwise that conversation would have gone round and round chasing its tail

cognitive dissonance
                       did he really think that the majority of Americans who voted for the former would even know what cognitive dissonance was let alone be able to actually pronounce the words back to back
                                                                                                 cognitive dissonance
a social psychology theory  referring to the mental conflict not menial  if it were the odds might possibly improve that occurs when a persons behaviours and beliefs do not align 
                                                       BACK THE BLUE  but they beat them senseless at the Capitol

1639,  Monday,  11  7. 22
2024,  Twosday,  12  7. 22
January6 Select Committee Hearing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sox95cYqJ0Y


some girls play hard to get

some guy dont want to work that hard


when a girl says No. some guys think she means Yes. she only said No. so she could remain a good girl retain her reputation 
           those guys are idiots  if a guy said No. its probably a good bet he meant it

such an interaction would be amusing if it wasnt so terribly gallingso bitterly offensive he thinks her No. means Yes.

wheres his head he lose it playing marbles

youd think his conscience would kick it
                                           but a conscience can be fickled  particularly if he stands to gain somethingcan benefit

conscience isnt derived from religionfrom Mommie or Daddy  it hunkers down among his fear and hopes of what others other guys its a mans world might think of him

when he actsviolates his conscience imagines someone someone disinterested   someone who hasnt skin in the game watching him  judging him    

0934,  Twosday,  12  7. 22
2001,  Twosday,  12  7. 22

11.7.22

Impermanence

 
   last seen alive
                         their impermanence finalised

he has pictures

pictures of them him with them    they make him weep  Whawas Whawoud never be again

he didnt take themtheir shared time for granted
                                                   like anyoneeveryone he believed theyd have more time

he was not cheated

  he only felt he was  the photographs are shadows brightly reminding him hurting his heart   stirring memories in his mindturning turning his long memory 
                                            his mother told him  Quit asking me if I remember, whenever you have you’ve remembered correctly . . and since I’m not remembering as good as I used to, I want you to trust what you remember is true . was real, love, you are not wrong.

now she was gone  Stop with gone  his mother was dead
                                                                    Yes  She is dead    I miss you I love you Maw


last seen alive

1457,  Sunday,  26  6. 22
1128,  Monday,  11  7. 22


tha blew his mind
                    an eternal family  cant make tha shit up 
he had a family didnt consider it eternalnothing is


Heaven is eternal.

Man the closest thing to eternal is the universe thirteenpointseven billion years old
Eternal hasnt numbers

Which is why Heaven is.

  It isnt
         When rent quits being paid everyone will have to leavehave to vacate the premises
Rides over 
           Systems begin an systems cease

Ye of little faith.

Nah Ive faith nothings eternal

2355 or 1155PM,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  6. 22
1018,  Monday,  11  7. 22


he bobbed his head with the beat
                                    to his buddy Catchy tunehuh

he listenedwasnt bobbing his head quite right  timing off  looked uncomfortable 
                                                                                        Kinda . . who is it?         
Its Iggy

he quit his quirky head thing and turned to him
                                                 Who?

Songs the Passenger Iggy Pop

said Iggy Pop asif the name tasted queer in his mouth 
                                                             Never heard of him.

Never  Ya kiddin me Soya really did only listen to Bubblegum pop on the radio as a kid

he pulled his head back an in like a turtle
                                            Catchy tunes, man.   

Jaysus thas a crimeNauh itsa sin  Better beat it to church an confess
                                                                             Bless me Father for I have sinned Its been years since my last confession  I don know who Iggy Pop is 
                                                                 Youll be lucky he doesnt throw the book at ya
Stop.

Tellya  Tossin gettin highhavin indecent thoughts of Sister Mary an youll be lightin votivesthree for a quarter an sayin Our Father Who Art in Heaven and Holy Mary Mother of God for hours

Would you stop?

  No Im disturbed

Disturbed we listened to different music?

Bubblegum aint music bro Id bet no blues or jazz  or Motown either

No, only rock and roll.

he was stunnedhappy he couldnt witness the expression that tugged on his faceflattened it
                                                                                                 Christ
Youll be lucky to get out of church without havin to suffer a sulfuric acid enema

think Friday,  10  6. 22
0924,  Monday,  11  7. 22

10.7.22


there were things he marked Time by
                                        he preferred not to be irritated by ticktock alarm clocks calendars datebooks which wasnt to say he didnt know what time it was or the day or date
                                                                              he absorbed it rather than piddled with it

he dug the moon its cycles  new  its slivers    FULL

the solstices 21 June 22 December

he loved the seasonsgrew up under them but living in semi-arid an becoming more arid California they were subtly dispensed with much like his ability now to taste  he needed to be punched in the mouth


    today the last apricots disappeared 
                                                  Time

he watched for poppies to bloom the awewisteria he raised from a seed to green its tendrils climb the white sage grown from a cutting to throwup shoots and flower the slender walnut shoot he planted leaf an grow taller a happy live oak thriving a gift of a squirrel   skinny he still didnt know wha she was her girth thickening but she remained lithe

Time is what people make of it


Time will never be long enough

434preferred,  Saturday,  9  7. 22
1030,  Sunday,  10  7. 22
The Heavy  Short Change Hero  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjTTB6yII4o
Chicago Transit Authority  Does Anybody Really Know What Time It Is   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uy0ldI_1HA 
The Cure  Friday I’m in Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dt7oMSOB7nw
Billy Idol  Bitter Taste  (you can read all my scars) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_9-aUDz9Go

Roy Moore redux

                                                     Well whadahells he gonna do with tha
he originally posted it for Roy Moore in 2017

                     but

revisiting Mr Moore a former Alabama Supreme Court Chief Justice a man who exhibited paedophile tendencies he read that 2 days ago comedian Sacha Baron beat off Moores $95M defamation lawsuit Moores appealingNO hes not appealing Moores appealing the decision that three judges who sit on the second US circuit court of appeals  upholding a lower courts ruling  found that Barons televised skit where he utilised a paedophile detector that beeped when it neared Moore was “clearly comedy”
                                 if it were only that easy to identify paedophiles
   

  Well thaexplains wha he was going to do with Ivys Touch Me video

1103,  Sunday,  10  7. 22


Wendat statesman sage  Kandiaronk 
                                          “ . . . I affirm that what you call money is the devil of devils; the tyrant . . . the source of all evils; the bane of souls and slaughterhouse of the living. To imagine one can live in the country of money and preserve one’s soul is like imagining one could preserve one’s life at the bottom of a lake. Money is the father of luxury, lasciviousness, intrigues, trickery, lies, betrayal, insincerity -- of all the world’s worst behaviour. Fathers sell their children, husbands their wives, wives betray their husbands, brothers kill each other, friends are false, and all because of money.” 
                      from Curious Dialogues with a Savage of Good Sense Who Has Travelled (1703) written by aristocrat Louis-Armand de Lom d’Arce, Baronde la Hontan later known as Lahontan 
                                                                                           cited in The Dawn of Everything – A New History of Humanity David Graeber and David Wengrow


when he thought of politics he thought Game rigged  if money didnt cross ones mind first thing they were deluded if our democracy is to prevail  obscene scads of money have to be eliminated

only public money at play 
                            awarded to worthwhile candidates worthwhile meaning those who can present a conducive platform and have the ability to argue its pros and cons

they have to effectively budget that money throughout their campaign    an baby when its gone its gone

those elected will work every week  not languishing time off  month-long vacations  and will earn substantial incomes commiserate to the private sector  although not greedy CEO salaries nowadays which are corrupted by American capitalism that is distinctly not free market capitalism       

suntime,  Reggaefriday,  8  7. 22
324preferred,  Saturday,  9  7. 22
Wendat  a confederacy of four Iroquois-speaking bands of the Huron nation – the Rock Bear Cord and Deer bands
Hank Williams, Jr.  Attitude Adjustment  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFhubbRugak

9.7.22

Duffy


Duffy sent me woodpecker sawdust
                                         Reminds me Tinkerbell her Pixie dust  without it shes unable to fly  I hope Duffy wasnt too generousdidnt diminish her abilities for whatever woodpecker sawdust provides

I’ve . . I’ve never heard of . that.

Me neither It came inside a coffinshaped glass jewelry box   A bit unsettling A small note inside it facing up on bonecoloured parchment said it was woodpecker sawdust

What is that?

  Logically bits an dust of wood excavated by a woodpecker either from it searching for insects or to storepack seeds or nuts in
         It seems me   You have an idea
 
No.
     What are you going to do with it?And whos Duffy?

Duffys my mother She wants to be known as Duffy from here on

he cringed  uncomfortably
                             Your mother?

Yes  Don make a face

Your mother’s dead.

  Yes

Are you okay?
Yes
       I was moved  The notes in her handwriting  I believe it was written with the fountain pen I gave her years ago  Her cursive is beautiful and the flourish of ink not ballpoint is quite exquisite  An unmistakable

he shifted his feet  Are you sure you’re okay?

I can show you the jewelry box the dust the note Yare familiar with her handwriting you can see for yourself

he slowly shook his head side to side  mulling   indecisive
                                                                    Duffy 
Yes  Thank you

No. I’d rather not.
                    I’ll take your word.

Should you change your mind Id be happy to show you
                                                              The glass coffinshaped boxI believe  acknowledges her acceptance of her death  You remember she didnt want to be buriedcoudnt breathe didnt want to be cremated itd burn 
In a coffin in a crypt was an excellent solution to her dilemma
                                                                 An maybe afterall  she gave me all her dust  She doesnt need to flymaybe  I don know  Ill have to give it more thought but off the top of my head  that’s my consideration   Ill give it more thought


You are sure you’re okay?

Yes thank you I am   Im surprised but okay an grateful  This confirmsfalls in line with my considered belief that theres an unseen veil to say biologically a lenticel aerenchyma auriferous parenchyma  stomata  that allows exchangesinteractions between  us 
                                       It separates life an death  a febrilefor lack of a better word or word I havent right now  A febrile passage

I don’t know what to say.

 Ifya don don

AMish,  Sunday,  3  7. 22
1155,  Saturday,  9  7. 22

Oops its happened again

Las Vegas Nevada  or did you forget

Buffalo New York

Awright ya have to get this down pat Summons piety sorrow really sell it   Repeat after me  humbly   I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers

I . I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.

You got it

Yes.

Lemme hear it again

I . . I offer

No ya cant deliver it like that  not rote  Say it with feelingmake eye contact  Emote   Try again


I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.
Yes  Eyes
           Once again

deeply warmly solicitously  unblinking   I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.

  Yes 
       At night when you kneel down beside your bed ifya kneel to say your prayers   pause a moment say it first  It cant be reflexive but from the heartthe depths of your soul   Got it

Yes.

Yes Good  Your political career your standing depends on it


Uvalde Texas

A word, senator? 

  head bowed griefstricken  Yes. A moment please  clears his throat  its husky with grief   I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.


Tulsa Oklahoma

Five people are dead, congressman.

I'm terribly shaken.  I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.


Highland Park Illinois

Senator, someone from atop a building opened fire on a Fourth of July parade, six people are believed dead, a seventh in critical condition . . what are you going to do about this horrific shooting?

cow eyes sniffsniff   I offer my most fervent and urgent prayers.

1739,  Twosday,  5  7. 22
224preferred,  Saturday,  9  7. 22


if we hardened our democracy
                                 other things can follow   like boiling an egg

the biggest problem firming things up is the Republican party
                                                                 it stands for nada      
Hemingway  A Clean, Well-lighted Place
                                           “ . . . he knew it was all nada y pues nada y nada y pues nada. Our nada who art in nada, nada be thy name thy kingdom nada thy will be nada in nada as in nada. Give us this nada our daily nada and nada us our nada as we nada our nadas and nada us not into nada but deliver usfrom nada; pues nada. Hail nothing full of nothing, nothing is with thee.”
                                                it killed him to share a muscular Hemingway with them they arent muscular Hemingway parses them  gutted flensed pared fileted offal tossed off to a side he furrows trying to find if they haveat least a pearl inside them he attempts to find something redeeming about them


but they believe their job is to be obstructionists   cockblockers

  hardening democracy
                            to have Republicans help would require them to ingest handfuls of phosphodiesterase type 5 (PDE5) inhibitor pills Viagra and such and submit to plastic surgery  testicular prosthesesLADIES hard to believe that women would side with them  a selective estrogen receptor modulator (SERM) mighty close to sperm  Ospemifene (Osphena) for vaginal atrophy


a subliminal Mariachi band member whispered  Yare being ridiculous

I am 

Yare trying to be offensive

I am they offend me Shit or get off the pot They exhibit no leadership offer no solutions enable a criminal Their justice their Themis peeks out from under her blindfold 
                                                   Theyre an egregious pedigree an my hope overly manipulated  like German Shepherd hip dysplasia it cuts short their political lives


That was a mouthful

A mournful mouthful Theyre trying to eradicate the Twentieth Century
Retro Republicans

   Yes
409preferred,  Thursday,  7  7. 22
1021,  Saturday,  9  7. 22

the Republican Party stands for forcing children to bear children for weapons of war  mass murder  


8.7.22


theyre enraged pobabies

 they think  theythink theyre being ostracisedbut theyve done it to themselves

incels


hed only heard themwha  six  six months ago   his brother-in-law filled him in

Incels  Whadahells an incel   Am I saying it right

Yeah you got it, incel . . it means involuntarily celibate, I know you dislike acronymsanything approaching it.
Online creatures.

Kind of like a simp

Simp? he blinkedlike bright sunlight struck him in the eyes What’s a simp?

Seems to me a synonym of incel a guy whos desperate for the attention affection of a woman although its my understanding a simp can also be a woman

I didn’t know that.

Nutshuh tit for tat   Hope Im not being cold to incels talkinbout tits

he chuckled
             I think not, you didn’t post to social media.

No I did not 
             he chuckled  like cancer hed have nothing to do social media


so these childrenthese manboys who should know better should have grown up who played soldier as kids who likely played violentmurderous point-of-view computer games theyre fixated on their disappointments their disappointments  their failures  theyre fingeringblaming others that they are misfits they bear no responsibility they soothe their anger buy a AK-47 become a murderer  cry because they didnt do everyone a favorblow their brains out before attacking innocent people cry pobabies they were provoked

1844,  Thursday,  7  7. 22
1510,  Reggaefriday,  8  7. 22


res publica 
            loosely translated public issue public matter  commonwealth  the term is thought to be the origin of the word republic which refers to a state where supreme power lies in the people via elected representatives as opposed to a monarchy or an autocracy

 republic
           Republicans insurrectionists white supremacists make a point of calling the United States of America a republic

he called it a democracy he understood they were blended democracys political powers of the majority tempered by a republics system of checks and balances enforced by the Constitution which protects the minority from the majority

currently a corrupt minority is crucifying the majority

when he thinks aboutoften the only time hes considered America a republic was when he said the pledge of allegiance

I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the republic for which it stands, one nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all. 

lotsa of rightswinging Republicans defy the pledge exactly as they defy their oath to office


he preferred the original
                          I pledge allegiance to my Flag and the Republic for whichit stands, one nation, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.

it was written by Francis Bellamy  a socialist minister 

in 1923 Congress fucked with it added the Flag of the United States of America they didnt know wha country they lived in
then really screwed the pooch coudntve played Fetch during the Eisenhower Administration  the president fearful of Communism  he encouraged Congress  1954  “under God”
                                                                theres a precedent that can go
hold hands with Roe

1325,  Thursday,  7  7. 22
1142,  Reggaefriday,  8  7. 22