19.5.22


they hadnt seen each other in three years  an months 

they talked on the telephonewrote every week

he got it in his head he was going to see her

he told her he was coming

she sounded excited at the prospect


she met him at her door

they embraced

he went to kiss her but she turned her head    

he felt her reluctanceher weight against his arms
he let her go

she put her arms around herself  I’m sorry . .
. . No   I apologise
                    I was excited to see you   I didnt ask if you wanted me . . . wanted me . to come I was being selfish


I should have said.

he gently chucked her two fingers under her chin
                                                    Yes   You should have

0042,  Twosday,  17  5. 22
1117,  Thursday,  19  5. 22


he took a shortcut to the mall through a department storethrough womens clothing

a pregnant woman stood before a fulllength mirror mounted on a structural pillar

she wasnt holding anything up against herselfhadnt anything in her hands
                                                                                 was looking   fixated 
she looked fantastic in bloom he had a thing for pregnant women knew they fucked  
he had to saycouldnt help himself
                                    into the mirror over her shoulder Seem iffy bout whaya see
her eyes clearedseeing again she looked at him in his reflection
                                                                      I can’t say.
she closed one eye  looked  Can’t say.

she opened itclosed the other
                                No.     No I can’t say.
May I

she looked at him with both eyes a touch bemused  he hoped 
                                                                she turned halffacing him  What?

Better far better  Thank you

Perhaps.
          You were going to . .
. . Yare absolutely beautiful  flowering  ripening  your womanhood motherhood   probably more beautiful than you ever have beenTake that to the bank  Im from a huge family as a boy in relativesin my grandmothers livingroom jostled  my head bounced off bellys halfdozen pregnant auntsacquaintances  I coudnt help but absorb their joy

Yaought to cherish yourself  Yare quite beautiful   Arresting


she smiled wistfully  Keep it up brother, I might take you home, my husband doesn’t share your enthusiasm.

Didnt do it alone  he bears responsibility

    Hmmm. 
                she lingered  then turned back towards the mirror   seemed now to like what she saw

whatever she saw he saw  it made him smile

I gotta go
              Be well be happy

Thank you.
Hellno thank you 
                      You were an unexpecteddelicious treat this afternoon

1916,  Twosday,  17  5. 22
354preferred,  Thursday,  19  5. 22


he pickedup his bagcarried it as they began walking

she glanced at him  mused
                               The bag's got wheels.

Not this bagthis is my bag No wheels

she leaned to a side and looked it didnt
                                             No it doesn’t.
No

It’s old luggage.

If it aint broke don fix it
                        I don travel that much anthen Im not gone long when I do  If I cant carry it Ive packed too much

You can never pack too much.

  Never  An absolutist

she smiled
           You can absolutely not pack too much, have to have choices.

Might be Americas problem that an its got wheels


she pulled up short 

he stopped a stride ahead of her  halfturned

Choices and wheels are a problem?

According to me  You can quote me ifya like

Why would you say that?

Thats another American problem things have to be easy Im not going to say You havent given it proper thoughthavent given yourself time to think it through
                                         Which you should 

You’re a strange bird.

Stranger than you know

1908,  Twosday,  17  5. 22
1043,  Thursday,  19  5. 22
Doors  People Are Strange  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgHaGrZkkv4          

18.5.22


Yathink they still make babypins

Whos they?

   Nice  My mistakethank you Ill rephrase   Are babypins still being made

I wouldn’t know, when I had kids we used premade adhesive disposal diapers; havent used a pin in my life.

Arya kiddin me

No.

Thas freaking remarkablealmost hard to believe 
                                                    Like me you were the eldest as a kid I changed my siblings diapers
Not me.

Why not you

Not my job.

It wasnt a job it was helping out lending a hand

Not my job. Weren’t my kids. 
                                 Wasn’t my choice to have them.

Awrightokay didnt mean to touch a nervebut nevertheless thinkin bout it my youngest isnt a year older than your eldest

There’s nothing to think about . . no way in hell I was gonna stab me or my kids.

A rite of passage man for you for them Manhood childhood arent suppose to pass unscathed

Stabbing isn’t scathing, dumb . . but as you say . thinking about it . . I wore diapers as a kid . . went through the ritual to . .
. . Horseshit aint a ritual if ya werent aware of it No default rites of passage  gotta look it in the teeth

Or maybe . just maybe . . I’m smarter than you . .
. . No sense getting snarky

he put his hand to his chest exaggerating I didn’t mean to come off snar . .
. . No no perhaps ya lack courage
                                   NO ya never do but but  maybe ya don think ahead or possibly for that matter think at all  Queer for a smart manyes backhanded compliment intentionally rude 
                                                                              Seeme   I thought ahead


he found Americanmade babypins
                                   anhe didnt have to go to TARGET Superstore CHINA to buy a packet
    
1210,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  18  5. 22
338preferred (nice and round),  Day-between-Two-Ts


he kneweveryone knows
                             your guts constrictsicken  yacant seem to stop the gushcant flush quick enoughnot no way no how ya dam an clog the pot with your stool
                                                WHELL thas exactly wha some Republican House members did today then left it to Capitol maintenance (again) to cleanup mopup disinfect the chamber floor


they proposed EXPUNGING FORMERS 2nd HOUSE IMPEACHMENT  Christs dog 


they are violating their oaths to the Constitution they swore to God to uphold  LIARS 
                                                                                  Mike Rogers AL  Markwayne Mullin OK 
Jason Smith MO 
Jeff Duncan SC
Ronny Jackson TX 
Ken Buck CO 
Greg Steube FL
Diana Harshbarger TN 
Randy Weber TX 
Matt Rosendale & Clay Higgins LA no idea why their names were linked 
Alex Mooney WV 
Scott DesJarlais TN 
Mike Bost IL 
Steve Palazzo MS 
Rick Allen GA 
Trent Kelly MS
Bob Gibbs OH 
Mike Kelly PA 
Elise Stefanik NY
Mike Johnson LA
John Rutherford FL 
Doug LaMalfa CA 
Matt Gaetz FL 
Andrew Clyde GA 
Mike Carey OH 
Andy Biggs AZ
Brian Mast FL 
Jody Hice GA

too many to swing from Pences pitiful gallows

2147,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  18  5. 22
MAKING THEIR STATES PROUD 


  Awbrother
                 he coudntsay last time he heard anyone say that  made his eardrums itch he poked at them with his baby fingers   

hedsaid yahhedid he knew her biblically
                                           who the fuck says tha  Awwshut it down man
Really

he seemed bewildered
                        What do you mean, really?

Ya said ya knew her biblically

I did, yes. I figure saying it that way I’m not detailing anything, preservingprotecting her honor; not kissing an tellin . .
. . Man  Ya flummox me I cant believe yasaid that either Who the fuck says that Yer blowin my mind blowin a hole in the side of time Im sucked outlike suffering decompression breached hull jetplane airborne   Ya gotta quit wid tha swear ya wont repeat it to another soul as long as ya live pleease   For your own sake

he droppedshook his head like a child being scold

lifting it again he smiled looked bemused 
                                              You’re being ridiculous.
Im not
          Ive had very few biblical relationships Shit weve done woud make a priest pull his collar up over his eyes stick his fingers in his ears blabber nahnahnah so he coudnt hear  Aint ridiculous 
                                                                                     Frankly sublime

he pouted

Arya pouting

I . . I think I am.

  I preserved an protected their honour too  Didnt I

Yes.

Yare welcome to it if it saves ya from uttering biblically biblical Bible bilge

That’s generous of you.

Not really gotta million of em

1503,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1143,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  18  5. 22


The bathroom toiletmy toilet 

Yes.

his yes humoured him a cringe accompanied it 
                                                   Whell whaif I tellya I call the look retro Clark gasoline station Im not concerned how its looks but rather its function

You ought to replace the seat and lid.

Because

You can’t be serious, they’re unsightly.
Theyre old 
           Hell a third to half the time you use it its behind yayare sitting on it Its clean wont bite ya in the ass or nip your dick

Quit being ridiculous, it's unsightly.

Whell man whaever  But whaever ya do donclose your eyes while taking a leak  Pretty please    

0959,  Twosday,  17  5. 22

17.5.22


he was mighty stonedwas sitting out by the apartment complexs swimming pool in the sun

his beer bottle was sweating

he wasnt doing too bad either

was thinking to himself Whas this tune

he listened it was familiar

I know this song he thought 
                               Wha is it

it was coming
             like peeling an onion but without tears

I know this I know this he thought

entering through the gate onto the deck his buddyhoisting a small blue Igloo cooler hollered Yaready for another?

he shook his bottlenearly empty he nodded

Awwyes got it Scarecrow Wizard of Oz  If I Only Had a Brain

sitting down across from himopening a bottle with a church key
                                                                   What’s that song you’re whistling?sounds familiar.

1443,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1517,  Twosday – Happy Birthday Dad,  17  5. 22
Wizard of Oz  If I Only Had a Brain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hG3mJcUzwaI


he honestly didnt get it
                           Yare servingI doubt it

No.

That was a lot of years ago

What’s your point? he shiftedside to side in his chairmiffed angry was beyond himhe couldnt do a damn thing about it now ifhe wanted 
                   so he glared  asif glaring was combative

Not so much my point rather yours   Help me understand


What?

Marine

I’m a Marine.

You were a Marine

I am.

Youre an ex-Marine a former Marine

I’m a Marine.

Your declaration is wha I don understand I was an Eagle Scout  I don call myself an Eagle Scout that was once upon a time

Scouts isn’t service.
More a service than the military
                                 We helped people assisted the community We didnt carry weaponsthreaten lives or kill anyone

You’re deluded.  irritation in his voice

Yare not honest  

he flinched 

Yare old enough to have served in Nam Incountry See action Or were attached to a marine vesselNavy  Or served stateside My kid brother served four years with the Marines  stateside  in Japan  Air wing
                                                                                                  He doesnt call himself a Marineprefers his name calls himself a father tickled to death to call himself a grandfather

So what's your point?

It was a long time ago 
                        Kindalike a tattoo  Once freshprobably looked tremendous  now faded hangs on loose skin

1438,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1222,  Twosday,  17  5. 22

irreplaceable


  Replacement theory 
                        whitey unnerveddesperate  looking over their shoulder fearfully  hatefully  whos gaining on their Legacyperceived entitlement 

he was ill trying to understand which was worse
                                                    to be taught to fear  or taught hate  indoctrinated  decrepit  their free thought spirit humanity erodeddepleted  incandescent  believing they deserve an exclamation point
                                                                                              put a manhole cover on it

whitey who evangelise replacement theory their article of irreligious faith myth ought to rock back on their heels as they squat before their fire and realise they are without a doubt irreplaceable 
                                                                                   irreplaceable  in the sense that who
whowho would want to inhabit their sewer an stinkthat greasy cesspool  their grotesquelyinduced deformative brain cancer


they have submitted  surrendered

     they are not authentic   

2227,  Monday,  16  5. 22
0958,  Twosday,  17  5. 22
Rachel Maddow  replacement  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tgQtfw9aZo 


Bob Hobbs . .
. . Stop 
         Truly    Bob Hobbs

Yes. And unfortunately Bob had a bad le . .
. . Hobbled Bob Hobbs

Sonofabitch, took the words out of my mouth.  Yes.  Chubby too. 

  A blob

Chubby white guys tend towards blobbish . don’t they?
They do 
         So beginning anew Chubbyblobbish hobbled Bob Hobbs


Ooh, that sounds terribl . .
. . Creates a vivid image  
                               Bet a redhead to boot


            could hear boids tweet crickets chirp
 
Yes he was.

Stood to reason

Come on, there’s no possible reason . .
. . Misfortune
                Misfortune is reason enough to paint elaborate pictureswe can always whiteout correct errors   paint over it again accurately

I’ve seen, I’m not interested in seeing again.

Know wha happened Bobby


     I do not.
                 We weren’t buddies.

Too bad
          There was a story there Too bad you werent interested to learn Everyoneno matter who  has a story to tell

he sneered You’d want to listen to his story?


  he let it hang to make it embarrassingif that was possible he crossed his fingers
                                                                                                    Ive listened to yours
                                                      
1434,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1623,  Monday,  16  5. 22

16.5.22


You don’t need to wear that. 
                              she was obviously irritatedhad been eyeing him he was aware she hadshe wasnt aware he was 
        she may have thought because she was a woman he wouldnt think shed dare but big an beefy an white an entitled as she was don get big and beefy without a substantial feedbag he figured she couldnt resist 
                                                                                                            he guessed she was a horse or cattlewoman a small rural town it unfortunately crowded to the eyeballs with notoriously small minds
he dug vying with them
                         to egg her on he feigned not to hear her Excuse me 
                                                                               Were you speaking to me 
her face roileddidnt improve her looks one iota 
                                                 I said you don’t need to wear that.
brusquely According to you

bullishly  The government said you don’t have to wear a mask.

Oooh thats on mighty high authority
                                         Wha government said wasthe American government said was theyd leave it to ones discretion  However being yare indiscreet ya might not have understood that

outrage also didnt improve her looks

So fact of the matter is you don have to and I can So I choose to
                                                                    An taking a leap of faith lemme cite your Gadsden flag  Don tread on me  abruptly turning his back on her Fatty hung silently on his lips


going out of the marketremoving his mask he smiled really big
                                                                all teeth for anyone to see a friend had written him  "In the Animal Kingdom showing ones teeth is a sign of aggression, so smile at some rightwing nutjob today.”

444preferred,  Monday,  16  5. 22


How long has it been? 
                      he seemed awfully antsy

How long has wha been

Since you last noted your clipboard?I’ve been talking a streak . . not exactly coherently.

No sweat I cansee your turnssidesteps coming

     You can?
               Am I that obvious?

went without saying 
                     Lemmesee  Last noted    Awwhtwenty  bouttwenty minutes ago
Twentyminutes!Feels like an hour.
                                      I know I can be tedious went without saying; tempus fugit.
I don know wha that means

Latin . . Time flies.

Didnt know tha  Fuggit  hows it spelled

F-U-G-I-T

Awhnah F-U-G-G-I-T  Look at me rewrite a dead language Zombie  No reason I should let a corpse tempus fugit put me off 
    They shoudave buried it deeper  Still worthwhile soup bones

Soup bones?Jesus.

Wastenot wantnot man

Not me.

Tempest in a teapot babe

Tempest in a teapot?

   Yah don think yad know anything about that yare not prone to exaggeration or hyperbole                                                                                                                              Not a lying storyteller dumping sugar onspicing things up Its reality once upon a time or in the future Nothing we thinkup has not or will not happen  Fictions eventually nonfiction

No. Two separate realms.

They aint
         Ya only think so  Im tellinya   Listenup
 
1430,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22
1406,  Monday,  16  5. 22


Replacement Theory (pat unrelenting wrong FOX and Tucker Carlson on the back for lighting peoples hair on fire – if one cant read at a 6th grade level  54% of American adults from 16 to 74 cannot – they only repeat wha theyre told) 
                          Replacement Theory wasnt gestated or came out of the mouths of down-to-earth code Republican workers 
                       Really  Theory    Ohplease

but thats the white supremacist insurrectionistby Christ line
                                                               Democrats the only governing party in Washington are the champions of privileged elites code  so runs the Republican messaging regarding student debt and loan forgiveness

they fail to sayacknowledge their existential purpose is to obstruct  they havent a plank a platform  they havent solutions
         their hands obsession are full pursuing raw power  obstructing the right to vote  obstructing justice  obstructing women minorities and religious rights  obstructing gun laws  deifying a fake a crackpot former
                                                                                                            Creeps 
 
0953, Monday,  16  5. 22