5.3.22


she deflected his last twothree sexual advances

her expression was pained 
                          I’m sorry please . I’m . not . . . there.

he understood when a woman says no she means no
                                                         Yare okay love Ive always told you to be honest with me Thank you for saying so not submitting   I want to make love with you

she didnt question him

she knew he didnt say anything he didnt mean

reaching out she gently touched his arm
                                             I am sorry.   she was genuine he loved that about her

he took her in his arms hugged herburied his nose in her neck and inhaled he loved her warm smell   fresh bread 

they stood silently hugged each other

no words necessary


after a bit they broke their embrace
                                       I better get along love

You know what this means? she smiled wicked

Means he returned her smile   Wha does this mean

It means when I’m in the right place, I'm eating you alive.

HA he laughed  Excellent   Steak tartare
                                            he took her chin between his thumb and finger kissed her warmly
                                                                                                                   I look forward to being chum

 

 

it was late
            I better get going love

Oh.  I . ah . I thought perhaps . . . you’d like to spend the night.

didnt have to ask him twice


they undressed each other

took a hot shower
                   Dammit how do you take that water

It feels soo good.

he watched the water stream down her body she washed her hair sudrunlets ran off her head down her face throat shoulders curled slickly round her breasts embraced her belly foamcurrents between her legs down her spine lacey at her dimples of Venus slipping her cheeks the back of her thighs calves shimmered Goldfingerish in the flickering candlelight through the glass doors 

from behind he held her breasts smelled her kissed her neck tenderly
                                                                        whispered Youll be a little longerYes  pinched her ass
Yare hmm not  quite   cooked

she chuckled closed her eyes  Not quite.

Okay I cant take it  Im heading out

Just a bit longer, love.

Don know how you don scald yourself

Never. This is glorious.

In a bit longer
                he got out toweled dry took her towel to the dryer tossed it in heated it for her when she was ready

poured her a chilled white

opened a bottle of beer 

 

Oh she said when he handed her the towel  Hmm, this is wonderful.

I poured you some wine its on the sink Ill give you some room   Ill be in bed

There directly.

he turned to leave

Wait.

turning back Yes

she embraced him
                    You’re so kind to me, so generous . .
. . Shaddup  Kiss me

a deep lusty kiss
                      when they broke off he was poking her in the belly There's so much more from where that came.

Tartare

she laugheddidnt cover her mouth  her gale stirred the remnantswirls of steam

 

she took him in her mouth 
                              somewhere    out there        in the ether  in her eyes closing his eyes on the back of his eyelids  he turned into an illustrated ram     his heavy curled horns unraveling gathering unravelinggathering unraveling like a kids toy   music  strangesounding    moansic  Aawed AAHing  his horns flickering complete with coloured feathers stuck to their ends 
                                      he went orgasmblind

1424,  Monday,  31  1. 22
404preferred,  ReggaeFriday,  4  3. 22

4.3.22


she called

she was hurt again

I’m trying my best I am . I . really am . . I . a sob strangled her words . she gulped  I am . . I am.

she didnt have to convince him she was struggling to convince herself
                                                                            You have been

Try try try again proverb amateurverb
                                          If first you don succeed  maybe yare not meant to
she had been trying in her relationship for months and it was taking a toll shes not the bright happy girl she usually is


Wha

Clarifying questions.  

Clarifying questionswho says that I havent used it in agesclarify butter Ive clarified butter more recently than Ive said it or even read it


Wha

He says I scold him reprimand him.

    didnt sound like her
                           We scold or reprimand children

Yes.  I haven’t been scolded since I was a child.


I cornered him with an unanswerable question; asking, as he wishes, a clarifying question.
                                                                                               she didnt corner people

he listened Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity.
                                                                    he said Hes not listening to you when you speak


He she said didn’t like the tone of her text. she said The tone of a text that doesn’t exist.

    It does not
                 Whoever reads it assigns it a tone 

texts are meant for informal banter 

if someone had something serious to discuss theyd text  :  :  Can we talk? Can we meet?


When he was hanging up he told me to email him.
NO he was done listening
No. I’m not emailing, he’s going to have to meet me face to face.

Yes  Stick to your gunsyou know who you are You should be valued
                                                                          I value you I love you

she laughed finally  You haven’t a choice.  I love you too; thank you for listening to me, always listening to me.

Of course  I love you   Yare welcome Sweetpea

2141,  Thursday,  3  3. 22
1029,  ReggaeFriday,  4  3. 22
“not the bright happy girl”  Helots  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1HcJJbn_gc


immoral breeds  incites excites    invests   in the immoral
                                                                 particularthen full of herself
a broodmare queen bitch cow sow and as many that can go aroundcareful not spread them too thin papered stallions pedigreed thoroughbreds toms bulls boars who slink skirts edge whiffing keeping out of the yellowlightthe gaudy halo thrown down from an aluminum lamp post

      he can be anonymous

she aint going anywhere 

shes the star of the show
                           until she births 
cant hear her cries over the CHACHINGingcacophony of vigorously fingered cash registers


Quiet now quiet now girl 

Have a cigarette

Take a few days for yourself live a little

Itll begin again before you know it
                                     ofcourse she wont 
                                                         cogs cant truly think 
                                                                                     if they could theyd be gone

immoral breeds quicker than moral

February,  2022
852,  ReggaeFriday,  4  3. 22

3.3.22

 
     been a while since he penned a pensee
 

obelisk ?

smooth and shiny  ?

it slips in and out and in

chosen from a gleaming array

licked  like a lollipop

434preferred,  Thursday,  3  3. 22


no one repoed furniture like he did
                                   he went to the head of a line that didnt exist because the other employees were keen on the idea

he propositioned his boss who also owned the company and therefore had skin in the game

skin is not brains

he told him they he wanted him to recognise they had similar ambitions for the company they would either repossess the furniture recover lost revenue through small claims court or at the very least toss red flags on credit standings of those who crossed them that would come back and bite them in the ass down the road
                                                                                     he said  Revenge is a dish best served cold

boss swung and missed that too


as he succeeded his coworkers became peeved
                                                 why was he getting more vacation time than they when he arrived late to the game

  more  not brains

unbeknownst to them he negotiated that rather than take money for his timeFREE his boss must have thought let him think that hed otherwise accrue time and a half for repossessions as long as he repossessed the furnitureFREE his boss must have thought again

he used the time and a half for vacations pulled it out against sick time  or not and when he stayed home with his sick kids while his wife was gone on business trips

prior to pulling the trigger on repos he insisted an innocuous line be included in the furniture rental application and agreement it required the description of their vehicle/s and license plate number/s
                                                                                        most people who rented furniture lived in apartments

also prior and ongoing he negotiated access to apartments through small apartment managers and larger property management companies he explained enabling repossessions were mutually advantageous
                                                                                                 Frankly if they withhold payments from me eventually theyll become problematic to your concerns  he knew the hoops theyd have to jump through to evict a tenant You might think of it as soft power  Leverage  

often he got keys
                  when he didnt he either arrived very early in the morning and park the moving truck directly behind the described vehicles – they were going to be very late to work – or if they parked elsewheresecreted their vehicle  he relied on his keen memory for faces the iffy ones particularly the ones he waxed intently Understand me Im also responsible for collections if they hit a rough patch he was willing to work things out
                                                                             after they left their apartment  he might suppose  he aah  broke and entered B & E which looks cooler with tools his father gave to him as he was taking an At Home Through the Mail locksmith course for when he retired
                                                                 he was none to please with him that he used them for
. . their practical application he said that  . . practical application

I am being practical Dad I told them if they couldnt talk with me after I strenuously had insisted they did they werent keeping their furniture


unsaid he was also powerfully incentivised
                                               when his wife was out of town he took his baby girl on repossessions she usually slept through the whole adventure in a purple and pink polkadotted travel bassinet that he secreted in the passenger foot well

she became an utterly remarkable rabbits foot

when she was with him he successfully repoed onehunred percent


          thinking back on it now
                                  not so smartnot a good idea

he was a repoman second to none damn near legendary in his mind

when his boss called a halt to his repos he told him the company wouldnt get another  the clowns in the warehouse didnt have his chutzpah
                            they didnt succeed again

2300,  Twosday,  22  2. 22
1222,  Thursday,  3  3. 22

2.3.22


he had to get up to write this down
                                      mebbe it wasbout time he started keeping a notebook an pen beside his bed since hed been waking recently revelling in a hypnopompic state composing pieces 
                                                                                 behind the smoky wordsthrough them he witnessed an elaborate wood headboard  tall honeyblonde cabinets adjoining it at either side of a large bed he couldnt resist  the words opening a cabinet he found an upright array of vibrators and dildos one dazzled inside wiseguy chortled Hoho no thats not an array thats a phalanx of phalluses

A bit too early to try anbe clever isnt it

Yakiddin me a phalanx of phalluses thats gold man thats plusplus pluses  theyve poked an penetrated a pussy  Gimme one Im gonna suck an lick it like a lollipop
Jeez
       Whered these wiseguys originate he tried awfully hard to slip them keen vigilant bastards without a sense of time

I know wha time it is we know

Then understand its early

Its later than you know


not something he wanted to hear first thing in the morning

0910,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  3. 22


little tits big tits long legs sweet ass nymphomaniac
                                                       could have been a chant  a mantra

Canya help a fella out he asked his wife   What do you mean?   I say no thank you I smileI truly don wanna make wavesoffend anyone but they aint taking no for an answer Theyre your friends babeyour coworkers I know were all isolatednew to Minnesota havent had time to meet other people but  they aint relenting


little tits big tits long legs sweet ass nymphomaniac
      You’re teasing me.
No
    Theyre attractive womensharp if we werent married Id be all in on all though frankly I think its because I am married don believe theyre thinking twice about your friendship  Feels like high school

she sat down with her coffee cup at the kitchen table

she arrived home late from a long four day trip

he let her sleep in it was the weekend


little tits big tits long legs sweet ass nymphomaniac

I think theyre lonely don have a relationship anagain   isolated weve all grown very close

Your Polish bear hugs and kisses might be misconstrued, I don’t know I can’t say they grew up in as affectionate family as yours.
          You're only being you.

I didnt think of that

Might think of that.

he was sure she didnt mean it to make him defensive there was nothing to defend he was he an there was no changing that
                he made a point of telling her when they were dating that he was immutable

Did you say immutable?

I did
      Yare familiar with Popeye I yam wha I yam 

Immutable.

An that goes to my attributes being honest having hardwon loyalty harderwon compassion

I don’t think I’ve ever heard of anyone describe themselves as immut . .
. . Annow ya have please  excuse my abruptness
                                                     When Ive exercised researched made a determination Im virtually nonnegotiable Ive known me a long time I know myself  An because Im learning about you you need to know these things about me
                  I also come out of left field a lot am terribly unorthodox but I guarantee you can hold onto them like steel rings


little tits big tits long legs sweet ass nymphomaniac
                                                           it was good to be tempted a fascination feeling

prior to 2300hrs,  Twosday,  22  2. 22
1057,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  3. 22

1.3.22


Rhonda so freaking as a matter of fact they were having a spaghetti dinner Dago red split seven ways ate pretty cheap because thats all they could afford everyone was just starting out
                                                                              I got little tits.
they were little
she was talking directly to him
                                 Yahave any idea what I got to do to attract a guy?

he didnt think she had too much wine
Yaknow?

I do not
        he looked around the room he was the only guy at dinner the others were nodding
                                                                                               Wha you guys nodding bout youve got great tits

They do don’t they? What I would give to have half of what any of them do.

Debra a promiscuous shapely ginger got up off the couch walked over to Rhonda grabbed her hand by the wrist and put it on her tit
               Now you do . . maybe you can quit your bellyaching. as she said she grabbed Rhondas other hand and placed it on her other tit 

Rhonda squeezed kneaded the shit out her tits

Debra bit her lip she was getting into it

he was getting into it

Rhonda was a Jewess wild curly mane huge brown eyes

                                                                   she finally pushed Debra away with a laugh I said attract a guy.

I’d fuck you. said Debra she meant it  she was a carnivorous
                                                                  I’d fuck you too, Joe.

Mebbe later he winkedlaughed the whole room laughed But for now lets hear wha Rhonda has to say

I’ll tell ya.
           she stood turned round grabbed one of her cheeks fiercely I got a fine ass, I make it work for me. Feel for yourself.

didnt have to ask twice
                         he grabbed her assshe gasped he had two fingers up near her pussy he shook her hard
the others gasped

he didnt have too much wine

another fierce squeeze shake he let go
                                        Ya got a nice ass babe

her voice caught in her chest she had to clear her throat 

Your lure your ass

      Ahem hem ahem . . Yes.
                              Anwhat I do with my tongue.
it was getting warm
                     he asked Is it getting warm in here

everyone laughed nervously  didnt know where this was going

Rhonda walked into the kitchen went into the fridge took out a jar of Maraschino cherries pulled one out by its stem plopped a cherry in her mouth little dribble on her chin set the jar on the counter and walked back to her chair

she sat

holding the cherry between her even white teeth she tugged the stem off chewed the cherry openmouth grinning

she swallowed  flipped the stem into her mouth

closed it

her tongue worked

he saw it movedistend her cheeks


an expectant smile mused her face

her tongue began playing again

he was fascinatedcouldnt take his eyes off her
                                                  the girls were fascinated

then she stopped opened her mouth  stuck her tongue out

a doubleknotted stem laid on it

Mother Fuck he was FLATstartled
                                   the gals WOWed in their seatsrocking backrocked forward then asif choreographed they stood en masse and went for the Maraschinos on the counter to try themselves

five tongue worked madly cheeks pokedbreathing through their noses


Its getting hot in here he said
                                  KahRist
his cock mumbled something
      Yah
              Gals Im out for some air
NO his cock yelled

as he stood Rhonda caught his eye
                                      An that’s what a girl’s got to do. she laughed a muted Cruella or maybe his hearing was disturbed by the blood pounding in his ears
an elsewhere
prior to 2300hrs,  Twosday,  22  2. 22
1220,  Twosday,  1  3. 22


    sometimes  or sumtimes he just couldnt help himself shocked an awed he thought long ago they were an item why had the FDA dragged its feetCHRIST it was the 21st century22 years in
                                                                             maybe his surprise came because he was a bit of a crank certain thingsthis was one tickled himmade him wish he was still working in an office face to face with customers he was a kraNGk in the sense that it tickled him to play with unsuspecting people supposed to have your head on a swiveleyes peeled his sole intention was to humour himself and perhaps his humour would wash over them and theyd get a kick out of it too he wasnt cruelhe was selfdeprecatingWOW clinical trials were held in college threefour times he made money doing drug trials had he known he would have brought a tub of unbuttered popcorn he was that kinda guy Jujubes and Milk Duds
                                    likely they wouldnt have let him in
                                                                        thats awright
                                                                                         at least anal condoms were finally approved hed obviously keep one tucked in his shirt pocket like the time when he carried a Viagra pamphlet around
manager called him into his office
                                     Joe. What are you doing?   Doing   Your pocket.   with his hand going to his pockethis eyes falling My pocket OH  This  he plucked it out  Its an informational handout I took when I left my doctors office this morning  I was curious   Curious?   Yes I forgot I put it in my pocket   Forgot?   poker faceYes   Maybe you should give that to me.   You curious too boss
 
0914,  Twosday,  1  3. 22


the coddled aspiration of many white menmany American Republicans is to be recognised as a strong man

they salivate over world autocrats dictators who they fantasise are strong men

   listen

theyll never be nor would they want to be confronted with such dire lethal circumstances

take a good hard look see what defines a strong man  provoked Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelensky  and the other men and women who stand behind him for their country  
                                                                   for their country

0006,  Twosday,  1  3. 22