he asked the barkeep for some more peanuts

                                                Ananother beer  the same pleaseAn  two fingers of Redbreast  Please 

he was distractedwas watching the picture on the television screen  it just began rolling  the bartender wasnt able to get it to stop

              a slow roll

actually it made him pay keener attention to what was being said  or explained

the barkeep returned  peanuts beer Irish

                                            he shelled peanutsthrew them on the floor  he was pretty sure if there was a heaven he was sitting in its lap

                                 more so if the roll stoppedsuddenly he was transfixedsmitten by the reporters name flashed on the screen under her chin

                                      Whoa Kenny he said to the barkeep  Whadaya make of that name

he looked  Unique. Kenny wasnt impressed

Unique  thats all ya gotUnique

A mouthful.

Better that’s better

                    Wanna go again 

No.

     Kenny looked down the bar  Excuse me, I think I’m needed.

he didnt look it was early afternoonthings didnt pick up till Happy Hourshours off 

                                                                                       Ya better go  Ill likely enjoy it more by myself

           he took a red BIC pen from behind his ear and scribbled the gals name on the paper held in the Bear-of-a-Clip clipboard he rescued from a trashcan at a military base  he was driving truckdelivering desks for a furniture company  he thought he might be creeped inside the facilitythat THEY might know he refused the draft  rather than report he went on a crosscountry road trip and stayed on it for three years until after Nam was buttoned upHow the World’s Mightiest Power Lost the Viet War was the headlines on the Miami Herald  how he ended up in Miami he couldnt remember the exact circumstances  though honestly in all likelihood it was the port where lots of hashish went through and he liked it  want fresh corn  go to the Midwest  entirely sensible

                                                            the clipboard was functionalthe clip sloppy  a sloppy clip was character  he was a huge fan of character

                                             and scars

before Happy Hour Kenny walked up to him 

                                               Renne called, she traded hours with Evelyn, she said if you were here to let you know. You know.

Thanks Kenny more than you kno . .

. . Ohno, I know, if I wasn’t a married man and have this bar to lose, I’d run against you.

Youd lose

You think.

As yasaid I know 

                    Ya can imagine Kenny lemme settle up  Fixing or replacing the tube 

Awwell, I think I’ll have to enter the future, the wife’s been after me to replace it and hang one or two other screens; you know, appeal to younger clientele.

Theyre idiots Your beers second to none Your place is the only place I tout in this one-horse town

What the hell does that mean, one-horse?

One-horse one-whore Small man small

I thought so; say Hi to Renne for me. Wanna put the drinks on your tab?

I don keep a tab I want you to have your money immediately Don want you going anywhere

Hello Renne he said as she opened the door for him  I had my fingers crossed youd carry out your threatblow off work make our rubber match

Rubber match? I’ve dominated you.

DominatedI took you out back last night and spanked yatanned yer fanny Ill grant ya got the best of meoverwhelmed me the night prior I sensed you liked me though I didnt imagine that much

Didn’t imagine, your imagination is an artesian well, why wouldnt you imagine?

For the obvious reason lookin outside in

Have you always been inside and outside of situations?

For a long time nowa long time I wasnt always patient or thoughtful Now I cant think otherwise My girls say Im mindful now to a fault

                        Speaking of which have you ever heard the surname Goodykoontz  saw a female reporter on television with that name

Lemme guess, erotic images?

Haha must say I immediately thought of your koontz

                                                      Anhow damn goody it is

You sweet talker.

Yaought to shut me up

Before dinner?

Call it an appetizer

I thought we’d call it dessert.

Well call it dessert too

                        I don think Ill ever get enough of you  But its early 

Shaddup.

Yes mistress Goodykoontz

they were enthusiastic

                       she nearly broke his nose

2016,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  10. 21

1339,  Thursday,  14  10. 21

 

he was out the gate

ticked his mother off

she had plans for him

might say he was psychic

thats when he was young

now he was out the gate down the road uninhibited

his mother thought he was terrible

                                    You’re terrible, Joe, terrible; absolutely terribly.   then in spite of herself she laughed

it began with they were enthusiastic gotta pensee cooking herethats seven syllables 

subject

       had to be oral sex two syllables   

description in four boy meets hot girl

action germinated the pensee they were enthusiastic 

eight syllables described setting ‘bout anywhere and everywhere

finally thought in six  so happy he likes it

                                             or adjacent  who does not like oysters

figured this out in nine minutes

oral sex

boy meets hot girl

they were enthusiastic

‘bout anywhere an everywhere

so happy he likes it

                     who does not like oysters

1101,  ReggaeFriday,  15  10. 21

  

  idiot 

        whawas the definition of idiot 

the new Oxford American Dictionary 2^nd Edition 

idiot n. informal a stupid person archaic Medicine a mentally handicapped person Middle English (denoting a person of low intelligence): via Old French from Latin odiota ‘ignorant person’

hed suggest another variant

   theirs a bulletproof plan

                               a white male politician who believes that a womans right to an abortion is their business who believes that a woman should be forced to bear her rapists or her fathers brothers uncles cousins baby who believes that particularly those white women and their forced offspring will have tender feelings for their party and vote Republican in the future

he thought these idiots practised a kind of slow autoerotic asphyxiation leaning on their ropes looking down at their legislation laid neatly on the floor their beltedpants and white underwear down around their ankles as they masturbate

Aw aw YESyes   oooh yes 

                            We’ll make America White Again! Again!

1614,  Twosday,  12  10. 21

1116,  Thursday,  14  10. 21

late at nightearly in the morningthey colluded he liked to take hot baths  tried to melt like the beeswax candle he lit to soak under its flickering halo licked by the breeze through the windowscreen

his cats would come in and check on himalways looking perplexed

                                                                     Really  water Whadahell  then saunter off Nothing to see here

this morning laying there sipping whisky from a shotglass he set over his left shoulder on the molded fiberglass ledge his eyes lazilyabsently closing and opening he gazed up into the corner opposite him where once upon a time a daddylonglegs appleseed he called her  kept a web 

When was thathe had to think when he first met her he wasnt well he was stoved up

a specialist a rheumatologist fantasised it was RA rheumatoid arthritis

                                                                            Yare full of shit doc  Yare cherrypicking didnt listen when I answered the questions ya put to me  Eleven of thirteen indicators ya said  I agreed with only three

Tryin too hard

the doctor wanted to prescribe a drug but before he would submit the prescription he informed him hed have to go to the hospital to establish baselines for his internal organs

                                                            Why would I do that

Because  he looked exasperatedlooked at him over his spectacles because the side effects of the drug affect your organs.

Ah So to alleviate my pain I should fuck my internal organsEver see Andy Warhols Frankenstein doc To know life you have to fuck it in the gall bladder

                                   I don think so

he met appleseed prior to consulting with the physician  she was absorbednegative panic bobbing in the churning water as he ran a bath  he was taking threefour hot baths with salts a day to manage his pain  he used a scrubbrush snatched her up out of the water with it asif she was lint just before the drain

                                                                                saved her life

or rather interrupted her suicidehe saved her two more times

  she relentedconceded

                            she finally made a web in the corner opposite him and remained his steadfast companion for more than ten months before his pain subsided

laying there looking into the empty corner he wondered  How long ago was that

Five years

          hed guess '16

the next day he looked in his journalfound the exact date

                                                            he was righthe related their happenstance later that morning  Friday May 27

one morning mid '18 he entered the bathroomlooked up into appleseeds corner and found her web vacant

he immediately looked on the sink under it expecting to find her body

he didnt

she didnt return

he left her web intact on the offchance she might

they were together nearly two years

this morning in the haloed light appleseeds corner was lit faintly by a nightlight beneath it which cast alternating coloured light  amber blue purple green amber again

he watched herher shadow in that lighting for so long  

remembering made him smile 

he missed her

0020,  Monday,  11  10. 21

1356,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  10. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwHjLMLdnf8 

 

Whadafuckwha was at the back of his leghis calf

he had gone outside pulled some weeds went out to transplant a wisteria his daughter gave himgave him seeds from her wisteria  two years he tried  finally one seed of too too many seeds sucseeded

                                                                                  Eureka muthafucker he cried when he found the sprout his thumb turned the palestpalegreen ever a long time coming

                                                                               I persevered baby he hollered she died a yearanahalf earlier I perseveredya got me baby ya got me tears crept into his eyes he wasnt getting over her death anytime soon he was crippled

there at the back of his calf

                            badgered by a moth a pale limecoloured mothFitting  so very fitting truly badgering him

he brushed it away a couplethree times it kept coming back a bad hombre HA a bad mujer

his daughter had been a bad mujer

                                     they were at a bar together  given their fast affection some clown took exception to an older guy enjoying the company of a younger woman

                                                           push came to shoveshe saw it come into his eyes his old man told him When a fights inevitable throw the first punchWHAM other clowns heaped on himshe leapt on them landed several punches before other patrons intercededbroke up the melee

                                                              she took a shot in the mouth

Lemme see that he said

                          Hmm a busted lip Cold drink or ice 

Stupid question Dad

Barkeep  two cold beers two whiskys please

he turned back to her

                       Thanks for having my back baby  Really   Your mouth okay

It's fine, Dad, he hit like a li’l girl.

   Nah he couldnt help itcrept into his skull souls usually don visit in the shape of a moth right

2108,  ReggaFriday,  8  10. 21

1611, Sunday,  10 10. 21

 

Into the Hereafter . .

. . Wha

Hereafter, the Hereafter.

Wha hereafter

The Hereafter, into the Great Beyond beyond Beyond.

Ya playin with meepizeuxis ya emphasising beyond

                                                       For wha purposeya think theres something beyondbeyondbeyond this . . now . since you met blue panties

he looked irritated Her nam . .

. . Yare correct her names Dodger blue panties

Shelli.

       Her name’s Shelli.

So Shelli Dodger blue panties thats a mouthful

                                                  Seems since youve been hanging with her her religionher philosophy . yare better off thinking of it that way  gets ya around religion has been influencing you  Suppose ya gotta play the Gawd card my friend ifya wanna get in her panties Get beyond the cotton You should understand that the vulva is a very sensitive a delicate area a lot like the our lips on our face 

                                                                  Although your lips have rarely come in contact with lips secured in panties Terrible shame  Lips are a terrible thing to waste

What do you know? he was irate

We being philosophical or existentialI know lips Donknow much about the Hereafter or the Great Beyond I believe this is it

     Rather Ill assert that this is it Yap of hereafter the Beyond a dealbreaker  Like owning a dog

he saw his eyes fall

She owns a dog

She does.

Knock yourself out brother

                           Knock yourself into the hereafter Piece be with youa sly smile greased his lips Shalom aleichem Teach her thatshe may come out of her panties  red meat baby

2333,  Sunday,  10  10. 21

1651,  Twosday,  12  10. 21

lotsa people think dogs are smart because they can be trainedYawanna eat Jack Russell Terriers in England used for fox hunting is that still a thing terriers are ratters cats taught them everything they know 

                                                                                            and cats yacant train themdon even try

a child can be trainedYawanna eat

a cat a domesticated catNever Feral   they aint dog or child stupid

he had evidence

                  he liked cats because they were independentDOGS ARENT and because a cat is independent he or she will ignore him if he wants to pet themclaws present rightfully so if they wanted to be petted then he could but the bright independence they enjoy he also enjoys if they wanted him to pet them and he didnt want to Screw yourself he wasnt obliged he and they were very similar  independent

                                                               he wasnt getting lost in thought  he had evidence

some evenings after dinner he decided to take in a film rather than following the political shows on the computer sometimes he needed a break from abysmal Republicans  after all this is what political death throes look like devoid of ideasany realistic platform cultists theyre scratching and clawing to pervert democracy to deny votes steal elections cant have niggers Mexicans and Asians steal their white country out from under themthey had no intentions of contending with them toe-to-toe face-to-face eyeball-to-eyeball dont need uppity human beings thinking themselves equal to white people so theyre doing everythinganything they can think of to break their spines why they werent learning their lessons upset them

                                   he wasnt getting lost in thought  he had evidence

after dinner on occasion he decided to sit on the couch and take in a film when he did he sat with a clipboard paper and pen his usual red ink BIC pen

hed start the VHS or DVD and one by one his cats wanted him to pet themhe had four

one by one he denied themignored them

he scribbled quick thoughtshe was always thinking sometimes particular films from the library greased him and hed have to pause them to writecapture his thoughts

setting his pen down restarting the film one by one his cats returned and jumped up onto the couch they batted the pen down onto the floor   

he set them down and picked up his pen

they were playing with him

by the fourth he let the pen lay and petted her or him until they had enough then the others would return for their affection

         they only stuck around for ten minutes or so then gave way for the next

unbeknownst to them he kept a red BIC tucked above his right earhe sat to the right side of the couch his hair was long and covered it

                so if greased again to write a thought he took the pen from behind his ear and wrotehe was lefthanded while continuing to pet them

he wasnt as stupid as he looked

evidence

2112,  ReggaeFriday,  8  10. 21

1151,  Twosday,  12  10. 21

Mark Linkous  It’s a Wonderful Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vKhVUhX6_M

I live my broken dreams

                           Daniel Johnston            it is hard not to be a fan

suck it up

you can admit it

donbe a pansy

                what we left home forwent out into the world to pursue was like stalking a prey too quicktoo elusive  we shot too highdeluded ourselves

                                 but thats what youth is for  were still bendy pliable  bouncy   agile wouldnt be accurate   a twisted rubberband is not agile agile is sophisticated   bouncy aint

                                                                                      bouncy absorbs recovers reexpands regains its shape  bouncy cant think too much  the hurt hurts more when we pay attention to it

We don pay attention to it

No we don

Why are you speaking of we when you mean you  an us ofcourse

Careful careful

                 An us comes mighty close to the edge toes the line

An us aint no line

                   Maybe a line in the sand  in the sense that someone has sand or stones or balls           

Youre a riot

Were a riot

            Which brings me back to you using we  including others outside us   Speak for yourself

Yare correct I shouldI can only speak for myself  My apologeezs

Accepted

What I left home forwent out into the world to pursue was like stalking a prey too quicktoo elusive I shot too high

I deluded myself

                  But thats what youth is for  I was still bendy pliable  bouncy

However you were agile too sophisticated enough to cut your losses   not get lost

Yadidnt think I got lost

I thinkIm speaking for all of us an us   Quit your teasing   You may have driftedbecome aimless  but you surfaced againput one foot in front of the other again

                                    Everyone suffers reversals  Thats life isnt it 

Yes  Life 

Then youve done awright

Are we patting ourselves on our back

Sure why not  Well tell ourselves were putting out a fire  

1607,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICLXH8wdXhk

Sinatra  That’s Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnlPtaPxXfc 

it was sobering

                 he believed he was in an intimate relationship 

a friend told him

                   When she couldn’t talk to you, she talked to me.

Shed talk to you

         Yes.

             she may have thought he was going to ask her what they talked about   when he had an issue with someone he went directly to them he wouldnt listen to people who wanted to talk about others   Stop Im not listening talk to them

I doncare I donwanna know its between you   I just wanted to bounce what I thought off you.   No  Talk to them its none of my businessno way Im getting in between

he frustrated many people who tried to obliged himsaid how much they valued his opinion

I have no opinion

he couldnt talk to her

                      she was dead  he couldnt ask her Why didnt you sayAsk why wouldnt you say Why wouldnt you say   Why

a ghostly echo

                Please Joe stop . . you’re too honest . . . you're brutally honest.   You asked me love

 

he didnt try to persuade anyone

                                  he couldntwouldnt be persuaded 

regarding himhis life

                      he was sole counsel  who knew him better than he 

she was dead

she hurt him  

2030,  ReggaeFriday,  8  10. 21

1307,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21

https://www.brainpickings.org/2021/10/10/thich-nhat-hanh-listening-love/

  

he wanted to see him blanchcouldnt resist himself

he turned to Denver one day hed ask her how her name came to be Yawanna see something I think is fascinating

You think it’d be fascinating? Most things that comes out of your mouth are fascinating . . yet you deflect, you say they’re not.

Thank youno matter this will be fascinating

                                              Watch Maxs face he didnt like Maximilianhis given name Guaranteed choice

I’m watching.

Say Max yacatch Norm Macdonalds standup the other evening

No, NetFlix’s right? I heard something about it; any goo . .

. . Its fuckin Norm Macdonald

Was it good?

He was sensationalbest bit of the evening autoerotic asphyxiation

SPASMMaxs face contorted   Didnt I tellya   He’s disgusted.   Certain sex disgusts him   What the fucks with you and that.   He cant even say it   This is nuts.   That that yamean autoerotic asphyxiation   JesusChrist! he looked like he had bile to spit  

Ohmy I keep forgettin yare a prude

You don’t, youyou, you constantly say things that disgust me.

Jacking off disgusts you

                         I heard tell ones ejaculation is halfagainonehunred percent stronger If true Id smash glass in the window I watch my neighbour Becky sunbathe naked through

Do me a favor, man, just shaddupshaddup about it . .

. . Ya wouldnt have known what it was if I hadnt told you

What? Denver asked her eyes rolled

Don’t you start with me, don’t you dare side with him.

I'm sorry, you didn’t know what autoerotic asphyxiation was?

I said don’t start with me.

You look like you’re going to puk . .

. . It’s pukeworthy!

Ask him about giving women hea . . 

. . Shaddup!

Joe smacked his lips So damn tasty

Don’t stop I’m gone.

Denvers eyes got really huge

                              This is unbelievable, freakin’ unbelievable, I’ve known you since we were kids . . you a monk?

No.

    It’s distasteful; yet Joe goes and goes and can’t keep a damn thing off the table.

Why would I

              Were all grownupbig boys

Denver shook her head

                         I must say, I think if I had a dick I might be temptedyou said a climax . a time an a halftwo times more powerful?

Yah

I’d definitely be tempted.

I wouldnt Id endup hanging myself  Cant explain that away

                                                                Id rather be eaten alive in an ad hocthough I wouldnt know it orgy with featheranleatherstrapped tattooed cannibal females

With huge titsjust to complete the picture

Fucking guy.  Denvers head hadnt quit shaking

Some funhuh

Not fun. said Max

Fuckin hilarious

                 Blame Macdonald

1915,  ReggaeFriday,  8  10. 21

1414,  Sunday,  10  10. 21

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/09/14/arts/television/norm-macdonald-dead.html

 

with a heavy heart the only analogy he has left 

it is brutal

           Drumpf Republicans are like the Germansthe Jews who sought to placate Hitler and his Nationalsozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei  Nazis

1731,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21

Dead Kennedys  Kill the Poor  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqnaHDdvh5I

 

                        pensee

subject  Perfect

Perfect

newborns pink nails

held soft in their mothers hand

through an incubator portal

shell be a tough cookie

 

1948,  ReggaeFriday,  8  10. 21

1109,  Sunday,  10  10. 21

 

Iowas Republican Senator Grassley at 88 vacillates or maybe he cant remember what his aides put out in his name very likely he quit thinking for himself long ago

his News Release regarding 6 January

                                          “Today’s violent attack on the U. S. Capitol was an attack on American democracy (voting rights) itself. This was not a demonstration of any of our protected, unalienable rights. These were un-American acts worthy only of condemnation. Those who plowed over police barricades, ignored law enforcement or desecrated out monument to representative democracy (at the formers behest) flouted the rule of law and disgraced the nation.”

Saturday 9 October Grassley aligned himself with the disgraced former

                                                                             “Anybody who’s got the approval rating of 91% of the Republicans in Iowa, you surely wouldn’t be stupid enough to turn down that help.”

he thought about it

                     perhaps Grassleys senileperhaps 91% of Iowa Republicans plus-one are nothing more than lemmings unable to think for themselves nits who enjoy being cultists

1511,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  11  10. 21

https://www.grassley.senate.gov/news/news-releases/grassley-america-must-be-better

https://www.foxnews.com/politics/iowas-grassley-lines-up-with-trump-as-senates-most-senior-republican-runs-for-reelection