. . . that was unexpected . .

he heard it

did he say it

Yesss

he heard himself say Yes

That was unexpected . . .

he heard it asif he was far off

 

he didnt try to talkhe knew he couldnt

                                         he thought a laugh bubbled in  That was unexpected then he went black   black  blackeryet

going out onto the porch he caught the amberorangetinged crescent moon just above the hill on the horizon yesterday by dumb luck 

            watched it slipout of the sky a long fearsome orca fin shark fin a moltenredorange dot then the sky where it was went black

a feral cat female he named wee walked on the porch rail before him  he petted her as he watched

                                                                                                        Well girl thank you for the company Well have a date tomorrow night too awright 

his fortune in life was his dumb luck 

Wha time is it to no one

                         Christ he stopped writinglet the pen fall to the page and bolted out of the studio up the hall crossed the livingroom the small game room to the screen door to the porch outside

wee mewed in the dark  he heard her leap up onto the railing

                                                                 he couldnt see herstill had too much light in his eyes

groping for the railingplacing his hand flat on top it she bumped his wrist with her headshe always led with her head

Hey girl wheres the moon he was slightly panicked didnt want to miss it he felt for her petted her abruptly then moved right he couldnt see the moon  furthur right just again there above the distant black hill  Dumb luck he sighed a wroughtiron café chair was between him the end of the porch he steppedup stood on the chair

wee moved down the railing to him but because he was on the chair she was out of reach

it was a deeper marbledamber this evening  the moon took its colour from the smoke in the atmospherefrom the wildfires burning north a bruised scythe teetering on the black hill it sank  a sullen boomerang tuna tail hammerhead dorsal blunted chevron flame then a molten dot then blacknesshaunted by the trail of light in his eyes how fortunate he was

sullenly wee leapt down onto the chair from the railingthe chair rocked she got caught between his feet he shifted them to accommodate her he must have stepped on her tail she lashed outscratched him he jerked his leg awaythe chair rockedhe lost his balancewent over the railing backwardslanded in the gravel around the firepit on the back of his headhis body torqued up snaggedleaned on the raw latticework under the porch

 

 

. . . that was unexpected . .

2357,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

1239,  Reggae Friday,  16  7. 21

  

 . . . wellshit   he was alive long enough to realise that ya gotta take the good with the bad 

a once in a hunred year pandemicTrump virus is worth potentially thousands of years of the relief and hilarity that cannabis has provided

                        if Former had a brain in his head and responded vigourously enforced what was the best medical science 600,000 Americans wouldnt have died Mangos a real peach

wild Chinese cannabis is likely the worlds progenitor

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/science-nature/new-study-suggests-cannabis-wild-ancestors-likely-came-china-180978201/?utm_source=smithsoniandaily&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=20210716-daily-responsive&spMailingID=45315462&spUserID=MTIyMTUxODU5OTExNgS2&spJobID=2043862497&spReportId=MjA0Mzg2MjQ5NwS2 

so it goes the eternal dichotomy of good and bad not good and evil

                                                                          evil is a religious descriptor

1715,  Reggae Friday,  16  7. 21

1055,  Saturday,  17  7. 21

Kendrick Lamar  Alright  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-48u_uWMHY

Freya

gotta be careful when yare shakin out cobwebs

                                                   things fall that you havent ever considered or considered in years 

infidelity

           thats a hot number  gotta kick it around the room knockin heat an ash off it before ya pick it up  examine it

What did you do 

Ya fuckin kiddinme  its right there out in the open

Arent you ashamed 

No

   I wasnt ashamed 

My wife didnt find out

Her husband didnt find out

Its one of the few times I might assess a one-off

                                                   Never happened again

You cheated

             Then you say Never happened again  Im hard pressed to buy that 

I aint sweating you  Im honest  I admit I cheated and admit it never happened again 

If youre so honest you wouldnt have cheated

Im not making a defense

                           Im being honest  

If your wifeif her husband asked you if you slept wit . .

. . I would have been honest 

                              Im wasnt ashamed of sleeping with her  If asked I would have confessed 

I wasnt asked

It didnt tear me up 

I wouldnt confess for confessions sake  Not to a word a dictate

he pushed it around with the toe of his boot until it looked cool then picked it up  he brushed ash off it against his jacket breast and looked again 

                            he smiled real widehe wished again he had dimples

she did 

dimples in her cheeks 

at her chin

            when he flipped her over  dimples of Venus

it wasnt her dimples that did him in

it was the way she bit her lower lips

                                     like a scolded child mighttoo fuckin appealing  too appealing

applecheeked

high brow

full lips

iceblue eyes

Freya

       Look her up

in that particularly onceinalifetime moment  in that warm bubble bath she drew for him  who does that he soaked pain and exhaustion out of his back shoulders arms  had chopped woods for hours in snow and cold 

                                                                                                     she stood at his hand  set her hand on top of his  Anything else can I do for you?  she bit her lips 

                                                                              he went out the top of his headpulled her into the suds pulledtore her clothing off so her skin would be slick against his otter slick

they kissed pinched groped mouthed bit clutched 

he slipped out from under her out of the tub

put an arm across her backhand in her armpit arm under her knees 

snatching her out of the water he walked over to the bed  tossed her into it  he got in  he held her breast firmly squeezed itplayfully pinched her nippleshe gasped  he kissed her deeply

their breaths painted each other

 they shared idyllic infidelity

 

0154,  Twosday,  13  7. 21

434preferred or 1634,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

 

he had to quit sitting to his right 

he knew better but sometimes there was no seating to his left he was stuck he had to amplifyraise his voice carefully subtly 

       if he was careless hed have to contend with his petulance  I can hear you, you don’t have to yell.

horseshit he heard him but not well

he admitted it was his trick ear

trick ears are troubled ears

he told him as much

                      Have you had your hearing checked 

No, it’s unnecessary.

having a trick ear is built-in plausible deniability

                                                 anwho doesnt want that baked into their cake

anthis mook  he stretched his deniability all out of shape 

it was like talking with a child

I did not.

Yadid

I did not, I did not.

Yadid I told ya an ya said yah

I did not . . or . maybe . I didn’t hear you right.

YATHINK

         whenever he reached YATHINK he knew his eyes bugged he glaredquickly he put his fingers to his eyeswiped them wiped the shit out of them and under his palms he sighed 

                                                                        one of his interior selvesusually more said Knock him out Youll feel better  You know that will make you feel better

                                                           inside his sigh was Sorry boys not a tenable option

he knew more about tenable than he cared to admit

Im sorry wha the hell are ya talking about

What are you talking about? You said it. I’m waiting for you to catch me up.

Catch you up theres nothing to catch ya up about

Then say it again.

Ive said twice

Humor me; say it once more.

he turned in his chair to face him full on CHAISE LOUNGE

                                                             Better

Chaise lounge? You said chaise lounge.

I yelled it

Chaise lounge.

Whadid ya think I said

 

humbly Chaste lounge.

Wha the fucks a chaste lounge

I don’t know, I was waiting for you to explain it to me.

                                                         You said it.

several of his interior selves said Woudya knock him out.

                                                         Nah  to him Its yours Take a shot at it Yamake something up its your bedlame

bedlame

hed miss it

SunnyDay afternoon,  11  7. 21

1337,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

Maisha  Azure  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4irB-qy8NY

Mr.

 

   for the most part he understands its men though they gotta scatter a few women in there so it looks bipartisan hur unprejudiced

                 they just cant seem to get it rightthey wanna deny women the right of abortion

                                                                                                     but on the other hand they want to force contraception – for the time being chemically sterilised – on women 

https://www.npr.org/2021/06/27/1010676954/britney-spears-forced-contraception-revelation-sheds-light-on-reproductive-justi 

                     WHICH IS IT BOYS 

Buck v. Bell 1927 the US Supreme Court MEN ruled in favour of forcibly sterilising a feeble-minded woman Carrie Bell

Justice Oliver Wendell Holmes argued it was perfectly acceptable to force sterilisation on a woman because of her low intelligence he affirmed the value of Virginias law in order to prevent the nation from “being swamped with incompetence . . . Three generations of imbeciles are enough.”

Whabout feeble-minded men

                             an whasitbout men who would have sex with a feeble-minded a retarded woman lets hope shes of age 

Questions questions questions  BOYS

1211,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

https://www.oyez.org/cases/1900-1940/274us200 

Ben Harper  Excuse Me Mr.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJjsEyW5l6M

 

it was a joke between them

courtesy of Trump virus 

                          a bad joke squared

his buddy had family closeby

his family was crosscountry

his buddy was an extrovertuncomfortable being by himself

he was an introverteasily entertaining himself

Man, I can't stand being by myself.

Im comfortable with me

Comfortable with me, bullshit; you got to be lonely.

Lonelys a state of mind 

                         Im good company

Yeah, alright, whatever floats your boat.

A tiresome analogy  Nothing original

Why? Tried and true.

Like sleeping with a hooker

You being ornery?

Not at all  I was commenting on your tried and true

                                                        A tiresome idiom  sounds like ya could use fresh blood or an oldfashioned bloodletting  Leeches or straightrazor

Whatever, man.

he disliked whatever

                        he didnt comment

Ain’t playing, huh? somebody’s got to pique you. And for the time being I’m the only game in town.

For the time being

Okay, we've got the maudlin shit out of the way; room on your dance card for a cup of coffee later this week?

dance card their standing joke

Wideopen as usual Lemme know when yare free

I’m going to have to get back to you; some irons in the fire with family.

 

he called back a couple of days later

                                       Hey, I’m free Saturday. An opening on your dance card, say, around fourteenohone? he liked his odd numbers 

Aw terribly sorryfraid not Bodys in a flair

A flair? Damn. I’m sorry to hear that. Anything I can do?

Thoughtful of you to ask no thank you

You sound uncomfortable. Should I let you go?

Yah 

     Pains my dancing partner

SunnyDay afternoon,  11  7. 21

1444,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

 

Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Let us honestly state the facts. Our America has a bad name for superficiality. Great men, great nations, have not been boasters and buffoons, but perceivers of the terror of life, and have manned themselves to face it.”

cited by Richard Hofstadter in his prefactory note to Anti-Intellectualism in American Life

America has suffered a recent boaster and buffoon

we will learn if moral men and womenunfortunately of one stripe can best those who swim in and have gulped the KoolAid

1440,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

Mango

maybe they didnt get the memo 

                                however its occurred to him that starstruck Republicans dont understand that the abysmal Loyalty Oath they have avowed requires they suck Mangos dick

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZrTOJZN4RU

    Eesh

          no telling where its been

306,  Thursday,  15  7. 21

 

discreet vaccinationscanya imagine

                                      not hiring a PI not having a Madam set a table not having an abortion not confessing your sins

                      but rather headsuptheirass Republicans in Missouri he spelt it Misery and pronounced it alike have forced peoples hands  Republicans refuse to take Trump virus seriously doodle their thumbs

The Former said it would to go away like magic! 

the Former has been vaccinated 

                                                 unlike magic more than sixhunredthousand Americans have died 

now the Delta variant is in Misery 

                                  how horrific is this bout going to be

he supposed as long as it happens to someone else All’s Good

2059,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

https://www.beckershospitalreview.com/public-health/states-ranked-by-percentage-of-population-vaccinated-march-15.html 

a shout-out to Howell HOWL County  https://www.blueridgenow.com/article/NC/20081020/News/606063018/HT

 

Stop stop   stop  Before you go any furthur whos writing the soundtrack for this episode

Who’s writing the soundtrack? What are you talking about?

Gotta have a soundtrackheighten the suspense create moods  Itd be huge if we could sell the ideasell a pilot

A pilot?

         Are you making fun of me?

When don I Ya just keep teeing things up  Id be a fool an idiot if I resisted

Why are you making fun of me? 

                                  a quiet hurt flowed into his face 

Stop it donbe pitiful Suck it up

                               Better ya learnshould have by now to laugh at yourself because yare a wealth of materialcant make this shit up

You’re no better than a guy.

Im far better than a guy however yaint not my type

                                                       But ya have my attention because inadvertently ya make me laugh

I’ve heard other women comment on laughter.

Yah  make me laugh feed me chocolates

                                            Unfortunately your on-line gambit looking for love . .

. . Don’t say it like that.

Yare lookin in all the wrong places Excuse me yare correct 

                                                               Looking for sexthats more accurate better yare honest  Fuck companionshipright  Fuck   Companion

Ya gonna tell me ya donwanna have sex

Why do you have to be coarse?

Because  because youve gone into cellphone on-line meat markets with your head up your ass

My head up my ass?

Really 

Really

What do you say that?

I say because its exactly whaya said

What did I say?

Do you not think before you speak an when a woman replies areya not thrown that she bothered to reply telling ya kindly sharing feedbackwhich ya should have known before you entered so ya don flounder Not even rookie mistakes ifya will  Sheer ignorance

Doesnt make much of an impression

 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Sayin it again  Really 

                        she fingered her skull like she was holding a pistol Lets use your omnipresent line WAIT I think neuron fire . .

. . That’s uncalled for.

No  Utterly called forparticularly  particularly when you said so

                                                                   Anya either cant remember or recall

Awright  Ill refresh your memory

Sure. As long as you quit beating me up.

Oughta beat ya senseless 

                           No hints Full tilt boogie 

I like to boogie.

Ya cant dance to this 

                       If I was her I wouldnt have wasted my time responding So not verbatimcuz I was appalled your jest was she didnt know if you were a bot a scammer or schemer ya didnt remember which or a pervert 

Why the hell if those three occurred to her would she bother Thats wha she lumped you in with

 

I suppose I got some work to do.

Really Dammit Ya said goin in  I just donwanna work that hard

Its flyfishing 

Although the sites sell ya on convenience

An yare big on convenience 

Spend your money on a pro

Sunnyday afternoon,  11  7. 21

1304,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

Tennessee

Republicants 

                     Anti-vaxxers

Ohno

Yes Can you believe it  Theyre putting the screws to their own people 

Dachua

Come on man  thats horribly inflammatory

Auschwitz 

Its the state of Tennessee 

Ravensbrück  medical experimentation 

                                        Don roll your eyes  Theyre playing Gawd with peoples lives  Wanna play with your ownknock yourself out  Don dictate for others

1653,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  7. 21

https://www.tennessean.com/story/news/2021/07/14/tennessee-vaccine-outreach-minors-roll-back-health-department-reactions-tweets/7962563002/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4822534/ 

 

Woudya stop

Me stop. You’re the one in denial.

Christ everything with these clowns seemed like an argument theyll disagree with him slightly agree with him slightly shades of pale wanting to appear more than relevant anyet telling them they ARE relevant doesnt satisfy them 

Did you cross your fingers behind your back?

If I did one of yawoud have seen me Idve been reported by your collective unconscious Morse Code or however the hell ya communicate

                 Ya got me surrounded yare at keyholes playing angles off lookingglasses goofin around at my synapses calling to each other Comon in the waters fine Surfsup

Yareally think I could cross my fingers behind my back tell a lie  to youse 

If yah ya must be forgetful youse me 

                                          A facet of me but me

Somebody gonna acknowledge that  please

since Denial was carrying the ball she answered

                                                   he liked that his females cohorts had ballsbusted his he hoped his boys were paying attentionlearning something

That was a suicide attempt.

A cry for help not an attempt

It was an attempt, you put it out in the world when you wrote about it, when you confided out loud, what? maybe taking measure of the Universe?she sneered The Multiverse?

Yasaw as I saw He was docil . .

. . Asshole, he was a she.

A she A Mommalonglegs

A Daddylonglegs; she’s still a Daddylonglegs.

Doesnt that strike you queerdon answer lets play  Would ya agree to harvester rather than harvestmen mired again in the Daddylonglegs lexicon but   but  we could say opiliones 

Wait for it

What are you talking about?

Wait for it

Waiting.

Comon  a sense of humourwhy so dour

Might be my humourless time of month.

Plausible 

          But youve always been a bit curt 

face could have been made of stone he couldnt read her he wouldnt want to play poker against her if she didnt want such a big cut hed play poker

                               I’m waiting.

Actually I was waitin so see if someone else would surface

At the risk of getting their ass kicked . . out in the world?yah . in front of everyone?yah . Nah.

Ruling the roost huhbabe

For the time being.

Ah 

You forgot. 

            Didn’t you?

Yare makin an ass out of yourself 

                                     Ya know better ya know better than try to provoke me

Once upon a time you were easy to provoke.

Once upon a time

Listenin

 

Been waiting.

Definitely a period not a comma

Damn she wasnt breaking character

Awright  Opiliones

Yes, get on with it; formerly Phalangida.

I thought briefly  too  Phalangilda

stoic

Gilda

I heard you. Clever.

                     You want me to call you clever.

Thats unnecessary 

                     Calling me clever is redundant

Redundant? How?

Im clever without you saying That old wholesome gem It goes without saying

So, thought, briefly. 

                     If not Phalangilda, what?

Opilioness 

            It would have played better if you hadnt dropped Gilda on us

from the back of the room from outside the door through the keyhole he heard snickers a couple of muted HAHAs from inside his head 

                 that was acknowledgment enough for him

she gave him stonyeyes

Ya can give that up It didnt work when my Mom tried

Oh my goodness! almost gay Sometimes I forget you were birthed, had a mother.

Well sweetie 

              Im your Maw

You are, don't remind me; and what happened was a suicide attempt.

A cry for help

               She wouldnt have perched on the bottom of the tub  patiently  unmoved  making her presence known

She didn’t make her presence known.

a few Uh, I wouldn’t say that. percolated from without and within 

                                                                     he saw she was getting peeved

peeved and on her period wasnt good

Seems were getting unsolicited acknowledgments 

Nobody’s talking to th . . 

. . Were always talking

                         Ya know better

However the fact remains 

                            I gathered her up in a glass she didnt resist I released her outside among the poppies she scrambled off pretty as ya please

   

2348,  Monday,  12  7. 21

1237,  Twosday,  13  7. 21