he had had a couple of whiskys

                                  then he heard John Lewis died  

Lewiss death atop C T Vivians earlier in the day   well  he decided hed have a couple more although he stepped up his game Eagle Rare

he sipped 

           he wasnt going anywhere

he thoughtgrimly if ever was a time for a reset personally or nationally  it had to be now

because if not now then likely never he hated NEVER he hated HATED  if ever there was anything that could turn the worldturn his world upside down

                                     this Anything everyone was amidst was it Look around world were treading water treading badly build new rafts of humanity jettison the status quo  our virtue ought to be equality  

but some would argue they swam better 

or they wanted their own raftNO

                                    but letem swim  theyd tire   and sink

he knew he could swim better than most but to harbour satisfaction in that would be selfish and he was not a selfish man

he couldnt break himself of that despite knowing the benefits of being a sociopath

but hed eat the barrel of a gun before hed be a cunt

and that mentality provided his difficulties regarding cunts

                                                              his brotherinlaw didnt believe himaccused him of being hyperbolic when he said he would cut a particular cunts throatNO  he wasnt ridiculous his brotherinlaw didnt work ranch didnt work as a butcher hadnt rendered living animals dead as he had  and had too many times to count

his brotherinlaw also didnt appreciate that to him there was little distinction between animals

Were all animals

No.

Yasee yourself better than other animals

I think you and I are better than a dog or cat o . .

. . I dont Its that kind of thinking I believe that allows one race to be superior to all other races

I think animals

I think earthlings

Earthlings righteouslyso deserve being and mutual respect So when a cunt proves itself a cunt a sociopath I believe avenues exist to move them along eliminate their taint

You realise that you’re talking like a sociopath or psychopath.

I realise that using ratiocination – his brotherinlaws word – deductive reasoning Being Sherlock I have vetted the cunt and confirmed his cuntship

                              I do not believe a sociopath or psychopath will have afforded me the same courtesy

Correct me if I am wrong

2327,  Friday,  17  7. 20

1028,  Saturday,  18  7. 20

https://www.livescience.com/21569-deduction-vs-induction.html       

he couldnt say it any better so he let Mr Lewis say it  perfectly

“In a 2004 interview with the nonprofit Academy of Achievement, Lewis recalled how preaching to chickens on his family farm in Troy, Ala., prepared him for a life in Washington.

" ‘I say now, when I look back on it, some of these chickens would bow their heads. Some of these chickens would shake their heads," Lewis laughed. "They never quite said 'Amen,' but they tended to listen to me much better than some of my colleagues listen to me today in the Congress, and some of those chickens were a little more productive. At least they produced eggs.’ " 

1101, Saturday,  18  7. 20

https://www.npr.org/2020/07/17/792579944/rep-john-lewis-a-force-in-the-civil-rights-movement-dead-at-80?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20200717&utm_term=4681914&utm_campaign=breaking-news&utm_id=28916831&orgid=55

Mr. John Lewis Georgia congressman died today  https://www.cbsnews.com/news/john-lewis-died-civil-rights-icon-dead-age-80-pancreatic-cancer-2020-07-17/ 

Reverend C. T. Vivian also died https://www.cnn.com/2020/07/17/us/ct-vivian-death/index.html

he hoped people knew their Civil Rights historytheir Black history and could appreciate the depth of their terrible losses

2314,  Friday,  17  7. 20

Dion  Abraham, Martin and John  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5qLuLC2vTw 

https://www.npr.org/2020/07/17/792579944/rep-john-lewis-a-force-in-the-civil-rights-movement-dead-at-80?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20200717&utm_term=4681914&utm_campaign=breaking-news&utm_id=28916831&orgid=55 

https://www.npr.org/2020/07/17/892223763/c-t-vivian-civil-rights-leader-and-champion-of-nonviolent-action-dies-at-95  

its too bad he wriote I cant remember things about me that others do.

he wrote it in paleblue chalk on a blackboard

                                                he dreamedwhat he could remember was he was in a nondescript room and everyone in iteveryone were strangers to him – he rarely dreamed of people he knew – communicated by printing on a small blackboard held in their laps with white chalk

                                                         he had no idea why he was printing in paleblue

and when he wrote its too bad I cant remember things about me that others do PERIOD  the chalk when he struck it crumbled in his hands  it sifted like particles of sand through his fingers

                                                                             he couldnt speak in the room

                                                                                                             he had to leave his voice outside it

                     it was odd to leave something that he didnt think could be left

even as he jabbed the blackboardmade the PERIOD at his sentences end he opened his mouth to exclaim NO  only air passed it passed like NO 

nothing was heard

                     though the room heard the stabthe PERIODlooked up and recognising that his chalk was crumbling coveted their chalk handled it more gingerly

                                                and disregarded him from the groupno one offered to break a piece off their chalk 

            he would have

what did that say about them

                                  maybe thats why they were strangers

he left the roomleaving it he recognised there were no windows 

he hadnt earlier because they were printingcommunicating

he took his blackboard with him

he wasnt sure that anyone inside the room even read its too bad I cant remember thing about me that others do. 

likely he hadnt written it for them

                                    for himself

he picked up his voicetried it out he didnt like the sound of his voice so he knew it was his

he woke promptly so not to forget

0855,  Reggae Friday,  17  7. 20

Mamas & Papas  Dream a Little Dream of Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHhz747C0rs

PPEs testing testing testing have fallen badly on their face a queer dismal debacle in light that the president invoked the Defence Production Act and hasnt done a thing with it since his invocation . . kinda like a john whos all talk and a pro cant get him up . . theres a flaccid dick in the White House

MARCH 2020: https://www.statnews.com/2020/03/10/shortage-crucial-chemicals-us-coronavirus-testing/ 

https://www.cnbc.com/2020/03/20/trump-invoked-the-defense-production-act-heres-how-he-can-use-its-powers.html

2151,  Thursday,  16  7. 20

he had too many thoughtswords going through in his head at any given moment and when someone came alongthrough no fault of their own inadvertently per se and added another spoonful of sugar it ticked him off

                                                                                                      the tick sounded particularly loud when it was family

                                       and the fact was their only access to him was through a telephone or cellfone yet another nemesis tick  the irritation was more sharp more grating

his brotherinlaw wouldnt quit sending him the word ratiocination a word that seemingly thrilled him a vocabulary word of Harris and Hitchens – the activitythe process of reasoning he texted him Think Sherlock Holmes

                                                                                                        then hot on his heels was his brotheryounger by a year who want to discuss their sister who died nearly two years prior and how she and her husband and daughter shunned the family – he could write shunned now – but had misplaced the word for better than an afternoon and whichas he thought on it again and again he had badly managed with rebuffed and spurned both incorrect and inferior . . words crowded his head like mercury bent on reforming after a thermometer is dropped and broken on the floor

                     a keen way to learn if your linoleum floor was level or not

Shunned  Since youre using the word I assume you know it

Of course.

Tell me

You know it.

I know it Before I respond to your remarks I want to know what you understand shun to mean

It means ignore, or reject.

Okay

Okay, what?

Take that into context regarding what you just said to me

                                                             You asserted for the last eighteen years first horseshit You pull eighteen out of your ass Sisters been dead two years she suffered her cancers for ten years not nine months of remission between her breast an the onset of her ovarian cancer an yawanna tell me that she and hers shunned the rest of the family while undergoing chemo almost every other week for months at a time

They shunned you

They did.

Lets examine how fuckin ridiculous your words are 

Three people shunnedlets do the fucking math shall we Mom and Dad . two . . your family . four . six . . Robins family and offspring . seven . thirteen . . Toms family and offspring . ten . . twentythree . Joe .one . . twentyfour . Marys family . five . . twentynine . David and his wife . two . . thirtyone 

                                                            Thirtyone people majority adults were shunned by three adults while they contended with Sisters cancers

Thats horseshit 

What it also is  is rank family bullying the silent treatment the cold shoulder It was cruel It was unnecessary And it began shortly after Sister was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2008

Mom set the stage Dad had to live with herhe wasnt going to cross her he submitted  And then the rest of you just went along with it 

They didnt shun you

Thats what you did to them

An very fortunate for all of you then  I lived on the West Coast 

I disagree.

As youre welcome to

1457, off Twosday afternoon telephone call, & 2147,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 15  7. 20

illegal Georgia governor Brian Kemp -- he remembers Secretary of State Brian Kemp counting the votes for his gubernatorial election in 2018 -- screwing Stacey Abrams over – Governor Kemp is striving to fill the same Bozo shoes as his president – hes suing Atlanta mayor Keisha Lance Bottoms over her mask mandate which he says violate his emergency orders

                    https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/georgia-governor-suspends-all-local-mask-mandates-encourages-but-doesnt-require-masks-for-residents/ar-BB16OXPy?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

somebody really ought to violate the governor so he understands what hes talking about   

2130,  Thursday,  15  7. 20

https://www.cnn.com/2018/11/16/politics/stacey-abrams-concession/index.html

https://www.msnbc.com/the-last-word/watch/stacey-abrams-georgia-governor-s-action-on-masks-proves-his-incompetence-87788613614

$138K -- killed

Loyalty Tests https://www.politico.com/news/2020/07/15/trump-appointees-loyalty-interviews-364616?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318

                                if the president did his work if he was succeedingHES NOT loyalty wouldnt be a matter of concern 

           his YESmen and YESwomen invariably serve themselves their job is saying YES no matter how miserably they actually perform their work

                                   think of all the “Acting” members this administration has under an “Acting” president 

None will win Awards

1234,  Thursday,  16  7. 20

wont have a Loyalty Test for Medicare and Medicaid Services chief Seema Verma

https://www.politico.com/news/2020/07/16/medicare-chief-rules-publicity-contracts-365482?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318

                                 the HHS IG has charged Ms Verma with violating federal contracting rules by steering funneling more than five million dollars to GOP-aligned communications consultants

                                                                                         Trump & Co can save time and money and the paper and pen testing Ms Verma – which is to say it probably wasnt – Ms Verma is tight with Acting vice president Pence  

1307,  Thursday,  16  7. 20

Roger Stone who ought to shut his mouth and thank his lucky stars instead cockadoodledoos “ I know that Kevin McCarthy and Elsie Stefanik (good for them) were lobbying the president against any act of clemency. They, I guess (dont have to guess Roger), wanted me to die in a fetid, squalid hellhole in Georgia of coronavirus.” “I know that Matt Gaetz was standing tall, both privately and in public, on my behalf (because Gaetz is a fuckin idiot).”  

https://www.politico.com/news/2020/07/15/roger-stone-clemency-mccarthy-stefanik-364669

curious that Stone remains unrepentant of the 7 felony convictions that should have had him incarcerated  “ . . in a fetid, squalid hellhole . . to die”  maybe dies . . but maybe not by coronavirus . maybe . he hangs himself . . commits suicide

1319,  Thursday,  16  7. 20

they fired up a bowl of opiated hash

Big Steve hooked him up

Steves business Apogee which he had started with a student college loan was thriving  he sold outrageous bongs to headshops known heads came by the factory and paid under the table

Steve hawked them up and down the coast 

heads and headshops loved them

Steve dabbled in product low volume variety of grass thai sticks blunts hashish

occasionally he ran for Steve though strictly merchandise bongs and pipes steamrollers clips hemostats and occasionally Steve turned him onto a treat in addition to his time and mileage

friends

   

his brotherinlaw flinched they passed the bowl back and forth back an forth FLINCH  Really Nomo

I’m good.

Can be better

You be better.

Dont mind if I do he hit the bowl twice more deep languishing tokes  Man  this shit is delicioustastes like flowers

I didn’t notice.

Ya didnt Because yawere backin out when I said what it was 

I’ve never had opium before.

Laced with oil  Just a tiny bit bulk is hash

Yeah. Not a fan of hash either.

If ya prefer I can twist a joint up for ya Smoke whatcha like keep the roach keep it in the matchbox

No, man, it’s cool, this is good.

Well whadasay  Im warm  Can we hit the pool

Yeah, man, sounds good.

private pool his brotherinlaws the girls were out they werent going to be back until latepossibly spend the night with friends

baching it

after porpoising aroundsavoring the cool blue water they met up in the shallow where they left their beers 

he started talking about some Korean films he saw recently

Subtitled?

Yah Ya hung up on subtitles

I don’t watch them . . 

. . Theyre very good

Too much work, I can’t read that fast, not while watching a film.

Horseshit Said only in America Its horseshit because yahyacan Korea knows our market Theyre worded tersely succinct  Yare just too fuckin lazy

I don’t like them.

Yadon like to be compelled to watch Americans seem casual about film . probably why they prefer mindless violence car chases Prophylactic Commitment prevented

I don’t like them.

Yacant not like something you havent experienced

Yes I can.

Jesus Awright Beer tastes good Brother I am stoned  Howyadoin

A little hig . . 

. . Im a lot high Hope you can keep up

I guess we’ll see.

So gun violence in Americasince were talkin film Did ya know that in Korea handguns are restricted If yacan possibly own one ya cant keep it in your housethe police hold it

I didn’t know tha . . 

. . Yah Yacan buy after a class You fail no sale Yacan buy a hunting rifles or air guns Those are okay to have at home Registered ofcourse   

That doesn’t seem right.

Not right

No.

Far fewer suicides in Korean That seems right

It’s our right to own a handgu . .

. . At the cost of suicides and murders and school children . . wha  fifteentwenty vets a day

Could say those are inherent risks.

Could say no his brotherinlaw went to say something but he cut him off Lemmelemme lemme say Its a horrendous priceSo . unlike here in America . . if a Korean wants to commit suicide they hang themselves they committed suicide with pesticides jump off a bridgeout a window or burned yeontan – coal briquettes – in an unventilated space

Wha Im sayinOutlaw handguns Lives an money saved Anif we wanna commit suicide then we hang ourselves too bufirst we manufacture hemp rope Made in America on . . on halfinch diameter rope . say . fortyfive cents a foot . . six feet . less than three bucks  Yacan do the deed rather than spend fourhundredfifty for a .38 caliber fivehundredfifty for a 9millimeter Think of the money saved  Think of new rope manufacturing in America  Anthen we can utilise more money for mental health money for better lives better public educationFUCK schools-for-profit  Though . . I have to admit . Id love to up-sell . a suicide . . to a 9millimeter . magazine holds fifteenseventeen . sell ‘em a box of munitions . .

I’m lost

Wanem to get practise sodeydon miss

What are you talking about?

So dey don miss

What are, I’m not . I'm not following . .

Am I losin ya . .

Lost. 

Im stoned though I think Im makin sense 

Yeah. I feel like I’m watching a foreign film. 

approximately 1715 -- stoned,  Saturday,  11  7. 20

1307,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  7. 20

https://www.businessinsider.com/how-other-countries-avoid-mass-shootings-2018-2#:~:text=South%20Korean%20guns%20aren't%20kept%20at%20home&text=People%20must%20first%20obtain%20a,and%20ammunition%20is%20also%20banned.

Rare Earth  I Know I’m Losing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F28X8--2dFU

the cat next to him left his receipt on the bar

where did they keep that paperChrist yellowed  tea-stained  he couldnt blame the guy for not wanting to put it in his pocket it might spawn or corrupt

                                   he had looked around quickly for a drink menu or a cocktail napkin or a flimsy coaster

Sonofabitch Papers paper

                            he wrote a note on the back of the receipt with a red Bic that went everywhere with him and as she went past him to the Ladies Room he slipped it to her  back to grade school

there was plenty of eye-ogling between them but she was with a table of friends raucous women plying themselves with drinks or wine she was a shot and a beer girl sipped them appreciatively 

he liked that they ganged up to enjoy The Girls Girls girls girls bounced out of their mouths as they shared storiesnever breaking into pockets interacting as a whole

nah he wasnt going to step into thathe wouldnt think to interrupt

returning she walked up to him 

he hadnt been watchingdidnt see her coming 

Smooth she said

he turned to her  Ah you read it I crossed my fingers he held them up to show her she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth her stock was rocketing

I did, with some trepidation, it looked like spoiled fortune from a rotting fortune cookie.

Sorry about that I saw you collecting your purselooked around Fact of the matter beggars cant be choosers

You certainly didn’t write it from a beggar’s perspective.

Would you buy an optimistic beggar

No beggar’s that optimistic.

Ill take that as a compliment

Please. I did have trouble, though, making out your printing; usually that’s reserved for handwriting. Then it occurred to me that it might be part of the intrigue.

Optimism  I wouldnt believe needs intrigues help   I get that a lot Often people guess Im writing in Chinese

So, that said, I think I understood it, although would you mind reading it to me for confirmation?

Id be happy to

some girls at her table began calling her over Girls’ night, D! Desiree! Come on, D!  she acknowledged them held up a finger motioning Wait  In a moment

Desiree

Yes.

Beautiful name It really suits you Parents must have seen into the future 

You ought to see my parents. My family, you’ll excuse me for saying so, is attractive.

he smiled at her Then you understand why I took a chan . . 

. . I don’t think you take chances, at least not without high probability of success – which isn’t to say, right now, youre successful.

she smiled big dimples stock continues to climb

I credit years of random opportunities an being willing to fail  an that Im a little nuts

Your note betrayed you. Please.

Yes

    I wrote Hello my name is Joe Cleverhuh

Rhymes.

Poetry Youre not immune to poetry not when you incit . . 

. . Read on, don’t get full of yourself.

Anfun have humour Ya got a real funny bone

You like funny bones?

I do the things you can do playing a funny bone right

                                                         she rolled her greenagate eyes humour washed pleasantly across her features he felt like he was making headway head for her head for him

                                                                                               as I was saying My name is Joe. 

You said.

Yes

And? Get to the rest. I want to be sure I translated it correctly.

                                                                 her lip curled like a wolves snarl STOCK! WAY UP!

he cleared his throat Our looks across the bar aren’t bringing us closer. You can see I’m interested; you seem interested. So, I’ll tell you what, cut to the chase, have a drink with me and we can tease. But if I finger you, I will split your brain in half as if it were a shelled walnut. 

Itll be nice, my word.

I thought that’s what it said.

Youas you said translated it correctly

Finger me?

Yes

Finger me? her eyes narrowedmaybe a little heat building behind them

Finger you Guess you correctly  Ill take you on a nice ride Desiree

OH.

he smiled at her and whispered Get your mind out of the gutter

a smile snapped on her face

                              Please, may I have a Detour and a shot of RedBreast?

he called the bartender over Please Two Detours Two doubles of RedBreast  Thank you

Okay, Joe, talk to me about how you're going to finger me . . 

hypnagogic 0914,  Twosday,  14  7. 20

1111,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  7. 20