Today we're going to talk about faculties . .

                                             he always sat up front if he didnt he risked falling asleep and sleeping in class peeved teachersnot that they were aware why he slept  exhausted  school wasnt the be-all end-all of his teen yearshe hustled  he hustled what he could to help feed the family after his father diedyacant hustle if yer asleep 
Can ya

Whashe getting at

Faculties  his faculties the faculty she was a part of  

                                                        Whafacility were they  every faculty he was a student under were bound by chains boundevidently by curriculum curriculum  asif it were a kind of Middle East honor code a teenage girl stoned to death because her uncle raped her he would have been happyelated to visit uncle with the straight razor his father left him dismember Uncle not cut his cock off NO disenfranchise him cut his balls off then cut his throat while his hands were busy at his suddenlyvacant suddenroom between his legs

curriculum  somehow sacrosanct  a blood oath  Blood In Blood Out

numbly he repeated faculties to himself then the stoned girlburied up to her neckher head bludgeoned  unconscious  the last rock ENORMOUS slammed down on her headcrushing her skull  deliverance  a crude coup de grace why was he fixating on faculties his facultieshis senses where was she going with faculties 

                                                                               something kicked in

he tried to disassociate himself from thatwhatever it was THAT sudden anger that voice 

he stood

           Faculties FACULTIES

Faculty Faculty  

                Yah  howbout FACKulties he was losing it she was the best teacher he had in years and it galled him she was taking the partyline succumbing to pressures she obviouslywith him had tried to resist

                                                                                                  maybe she was worn thin

maybe threatenedmaybe they dug a hole in yard to bury her body leave her head exposed threatened to brain her with their books

her look communicated QUIET SIT DOWN shed overlook his outburst then only a classmate could rat them out 

woe be to that classmate either boy or girl   

his reputation preceded him HE WAS A CRAZY MUTHAFUCKER he didnt have time or the luxury to be otherwise

he sat down

he looked her hard in the eyeapologising Please excuse me  I didnt mean to interrupt your lessonI dont know what came over me  I apologise  then over his shoulder to the class  I apologise to each and everyone for my outburst  I am sorry

after his words were outand they were necessary that was the last time hed kowtow to authority

he dug his heels in

if he was offended hed defy them  it   authority

if his theorythoughtfulness was in opposition to the authoritys the faculties

                                                                              hed throw in behind his faculties to theirs

his teacher lost her job at the end of the year

he wished someone had the faculty to apprise him so he could have said goodbye to her and thank her for her kindness her compassionate instruction  her selflessness

freshman year high school

                                    she was the last teacher who inspired him

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1132, Twosday,  16  4. 19

Alice Cooper  School’s Out  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0Q9en-GEBU

Perfect she wrote

he hated it when anyone aligned perfect with anything to do with human beingsit hung beside peoples use of evil and good  whawas the unfortunate connotation opposing mediocre

evil was a religious appendage

used to strangle and kill its prey

religions have prey

                  they would be those who do not prescribe to their particular fantasyMyGawd the world is wide enoughvast enough for everyone and anyones fantasy

however if their fantasy is the destruction of the other he was willing to bear the misfortunecrossed his fingers that they might tripcatching their toe and fall breaking their fucking necks

                                                                         their intent is to limit the possible  the improbable

: : Perfect

: :  I’d love to talk tomorrow (he wrote) – and as I’ve been standing between october and indie (she’s actually backing down by my voice alone (since I stepped in between them during their last altercation)) I would think my presence should be adequate to dissuade her – besides, likely, you’ll be able to enjoy the out-of-doors, music through the screen, Scrabble, cold beers as we catch up.

: :  that sounds perfect to me.

they didnt have their time together

he didnt suppose

                     perfect is not all it is cracked up to be

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1013,  Twosday,  16  4. 19

Cul De Sac  I Remember Nothing More  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgStBppTFWI

if its an unwanted relationship

quit wanting

wanting isnt needing

get up off your assquit sitting on your hands 

                                            affirm in action what youre thinking  

quit thinking buhbye

                   say Buhbye baby  bye  bye

1605,  Sunday,  14  4. 19

1409,  Monday,  15  4. 19

indie wasnt happyhe was freaking

                                   his one-ton Tom  indie  was backed into cornersfled in terror when his queen  october her three kittensher tribenot a month old stalked him 

indies like  Whadafuck man

                               he had nothing for him Dont me look at me

I understand the opposite sex as much as you

Id recommend keep yer head down hold yer nuts up stupid whada dumb ass he covered indies neutering  castration caught in his throat NEW TIERed newtiered he absolved himself asif he took Sunday confession confessed before Gawd like a Catholic priest who was brushed asidemoved along to the next new parish despite their daisychain of violated children invisibly dragged along behind them WHAS THAT SOUND?  it wasnt a panicked wind fearful breaths 

but then theres nothing more delectable tender delicious or orgasmic than a breath caught in the tight throat of someone unsuspecting                           

oysters were more delicious raw than prepared

indie hadnt shown any curiosity of the fat fuzzy carpetcreepers he hadnt been in the same room or within twenty feet of them

no doubt he could smell them sense their presence

but he stepped on his curiosity 

                              that infamous curiosity that killed cats 

as he fled october he cried over his shoulder  Back off bitch aint my problem dey yours

although maybe thats why she went after him  

                                              Hes foot loose fancy free Ill fuck him up

Lola  whatever Lola wants Lola gets

yagotta be careful what you wish for  you really want it   

Welcome to club indie

I dont get women either

Poor bastard 

              if he was ever sexually-inclinedif he could remember now nine years ago  if he could  more power to him

he had to think that no female could smellcould possibly be that perceptive

              perceptive?

                                  or paranoid?

what were they taught as babes?what were the unspoken tiesunspoken bonds of females?

sorority trumped fraternity

fraternities were about making women

sororities were about making women

                                          which made better

he never made a sorority girl 

                               although he made an played with plenty of shiny black patent leather shoed Catholic girls

his 20/15 vision playedgazed off their shiny shoes up their school girl skirts white cotton never looked better

he used their panties to wipe the corners of his mouth wipe his face 

to his brilliant surprise he learned early some girls came as hard as he they squirted  Whodathought he closed his eyes so he didnt go blind  he gulpedhe swallowedhe lapped 

turnabouts fair play

no Catholic girl failed him 

                           Hail Mary full of Grace Blessed are thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb  thy succulent fruit salad 

                        maybe he didnt remember it right he played with more than one girl who could give Mary a run for her money were she a betting woman

Catholic girls were insatiable  torrid    

abstinence unlike vengeance is better served steaming hot

burnt tongues went numb

                         healed in time he loved it when he couldnt enunciatehis tongue like a wooden plank  stiff  inflexible Ride dat one in her enthusiasm broke his nose

itd been broken two times before but this was the broken nose he crowed cock-a-doodle-doed about who wouldnt it informed his decision to wear a moustache  later he could suck at it and enjoy his paramours excited essence 

like ambergris ambergrease refined unique odours   perfumes

if he wasnt he he would have been jealous of him

Nope  indie wasnt happy

they eyeballed each other hopeful octobers insane zealousness would temper and relax and shed return to herself as she was once the kittens were weaned and roaming the house

if not

itd be ugly 

            and not his prior experiences

there were all kinds of learning curves 

                                      hed be grateful if this wasnt a curveball

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0929,  Monday,  15  4. 19

Sarah Vaughan  Whatever Lola Wants  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvcaSBN82ns 

his dream first one to ever reoccur descended upon him like a film trailer and enthusiastically he wanted to share the experience with his father and brother both Robert Stanleys the Sr  the Jr  the Holy Ghost he was mindfulgrateful his brother took that bulletmoniker despite born after him  he was no Bob had he been named RobertBob he would have had to drop it his personality would have wilded 

                                              it would have persecutedlashed him

he knew he   

the closest he ever came to being Bob was when he stopped his father from stripping a length of black Dymo label tape from a palegreen metal toolbox his father wanted him to have it when he left home for good he placed a few tools inside 

No no dont  Please Dad dont

What?  Excuse me?

Leave it as is okay Dad

Joe, the tape reads Bob.

You labeled it

I labeled it because it was mine, now it’s yours.

And I really appreciate your gift Ill always remember this moment but please leave the label intact

I’m confused, why?

I think its obvious

You always think things are obvious, but I don’t live inside your skull. What is obvious?

Ill have the toolbox on job sitesfigure Ill make a living as a labourer or a carpenter he nodded his head at his father as if that was explanation enough

And?  So?

Jesus  Suppose I gotta draw you a picture . .

. . Draw.

Bob  Agreed again his nod

Yes.  You’re wearing my patience thin . .

. . Ive always worn your patience . .

. . You have.

Then Ive been doing my job as your son an youve been doing your job as my father Sons are meant to irritate their fathers

You irritate your mother.

Hence as I said my job Every kids job If were carbon copieswhat a fucking bore

Yah Im nineteen an fuck frosts your fanny Ya might wanna get used to it  Aint no carbon copy . .

. . You can say that again.

Aint no fuckin carbon copy yaknow better than challengingprovoking me

Your provocation has thin skin. 

My provocation is reactionary Akinthough I dont believe in Gawd to not turn a cheek

No carbon copy

You’ve said.

Which returns us to our departure Drawing you a picture

Yes.

I dont want you pulling the tape off  Leave Bob

Again. Why not?

Simple . .

. . In your mind.

Frankly no  I want it to remain And I want it there to enforce who I am on the jobany future job site Ill be on

And that is?

Bob Beast of burden

Thanks not funny.

No notfunny Accurate Therell not be one person out there that will outwork me Ill always be worth more than they pay me

Say no more, I know that to be true. You’ve been the stalwart of our family. I’ll miss you.

I’ll miss you

begrudgingly his father and brother accepted

Hey Im buying the popcorn Quit with the peeved looks Try an enjoy yourself Its remarkablean only the three of us will ever have witnessed it

the dream rolled in wide screen

everything was hyperfocused hypercolouredit hurt their eyes a miasma flowedmagnified its contents superreal   overwhelming

               they werent eating their popcorn

there was a flutter 

                    a misstep anxiousness ensued he was perturbedangered

another flutter 

then the screen went bright white when the dream snapped

the projectionist shut it down

                               the screen went the deepestblack hed ever seen

noises in the darkness followed 

corrections

quietclamour

a buzz

FUCK

THERE

a switch flipped

the last image they saw POPPED on the screen a minor flutter then they were off again

images washed asif underwater a tide pool  a cleansing 

they couldnt eat their popcorn because they sighed

                                                     they were immersed in his dream

maybe hed finally gotten through to them why he was the way he was

                                                                          that they grasped him

the dream SNAPPEDwent brilliant hotwhite againNO! voidblack followed tinkering the Bobs actually getting impatience

This is something else. his father whispered

his brother  This is very revealing. I think I’m getting a handle on your obviousness, which, for the most part, has been inobvious to us. I’m really happy I’m not living inside your head . .

. . Gotta correct ya my fuckin head

Can’t give it a rest can you, son? 

Nope Cant Thatd be out of character an Im always in character

0357,  Saturday,  6  4. 19

1215,  Sunday,  14  4. 19

should the cunt ever pull his head out of his ass he might learn something rather than think he knows it all (every time he puts his right index finger to his head I hope it would go off)     

                                                                  we need only remember the confine from which he tweets

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/apr/14/ilhan-omar-trump-9-11-september

1025, Sunday,  14  4. 19

he always appreciated that his body tipped him offthought well enough of themtheir brain so that it awoke themnudged them a gentle elbow in the ribs middle of the night so they didnt shit the bed so they didnt wake in the morning unalone  Stickys alias anally conceived  

                                        not a Joy!

howd that work

nobody he asked knew the answer

everyone concurred who didnt like to concur but no one knew

                                                             and Religion thinks it has its Mysteries its undiluted indelible Truth

squatting on the potemptying his bowels  the banana peppers with his In-N-Out burgers proved his undoing  he was fuckin grateful to whatever the processprocedureprotocol was that he didnt shit in bed

                                                                         his queen october he didnt know she was a queen birthed three kittens between his legs one night he had to strip the bed wash the blankets sheets protector it failed dry them before he could go back to sleep hed be damned if hed have redundant bedding it was only himself and a bed his bluff called he was accountable he never had trouble standing at the bellnever had been coldcocked rocked knocked out of this consciousness into another STARS INKY BLACKNESS he had no idea what was on the other side of his consciousness if it reeked of his dream world hed have no trouble lingering there labyrinths mazes doors  people he didnt recognise  which meant it was unlikely their playtime would ever get back to someone he was intimate with

intimate

they were few and far between

he was loquacious social but only if he had to be if required

he preferred being an introvert

                                 like one inside church looking out through its stained glass windows 

outside looking in the beauteous coloured glass looked like shit hence  perspective matters

he didnt mind slipping into other peoples shoes

he was curious

to be incurious was a sin

being a sociopath was a sin

there werent enough Hail Marys or The Lord is My Shepherds at confessional to cover a sociopaths sin and scat with dirt

Hail Mary,/Full of Grace,/The Lord is with Thee./Blessed art thou among women,/and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus/Hoily Mary, Mother of God/pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death./Amen.

right

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want./He maketh me lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters./He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake./Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me./Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over./Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever./Amen.

Ahha  Hmm

Ye of little faith

he preferred reason to faith

maybe Thou protecteth he from a dropping a deuce in his bed

0353,  Saturday,  6  4. 19

1243,  Saturday,  13  4. 19

MSNBC Donny Deutsch 18:26 minute-mark https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/trump-takes-tough-stance-on-immigration-to-a-new-level-1490219075589

Aaliyah  Back and Forth  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0pQjYk9150

whos a sociopath  really    who? 

MSNBC Donny Deutsch 18:26 minute-mark https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/trump-takes-tough-stance-on-immigration-to-a-new-level-1490219075589

1158,  Saturday,  13  4. 19

ever smell Limburger cheese 

                              if a sociopath smelled like Limburger cheese  the FAKE PRESIDENT smells like Limburger 

“an attempted coup an attempted takedown of a president”                                                          

“They spied on me WAAAH”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQGEoNpHrRQ

coups overthrow leaders

methinks he thinks himself a Leader

Ohhorseshit

              cunt  at 0821 hours Saturday  tweeting (NO he hasnt read the Mueller Report because his attention span is that of a gnat a gnu  a gcunt): “Why should Radical Left Democrats in Congress have a right to retry and examine the $35,000,000 (two years in the making) No Collusion Mueller report, when the crime committed was by Crooked Hillary, the DNC and Dirty Cops? Attorney General Barr (political hack) will make the decision!”

"I am going to be reviewing both the oranges and the conduct of intelligence activity": https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqqRUbI1rDQ

high time someone inside surreptitiously releases the Mueller Report think Chelsea Manning  a real American hero  Id like to see cunt and Barr withstand one year of solitary confinement  naked

thirtyfive million dollars was paid by American taxpayers 

ya buy a productya buy anything ya ought to have it

began @ 1014 finished @ 1041,  Saturday,  13  4. 19