when do you put down your pen(your brush chalk charcoal pencil stylus)

when youre unconsciouswhen youre indisposed  earning a livingentertaining family or friends  seeking your own entertainment

he remembered how he felt when Tony Judt was turned Off                                                          his seething roiling filled-to-the-brim vessel kicked over

his books now  soppy remnantssponges of his cooling water   

                                                 though six years later they can still scald you

he remembered Camus Fanon Said Miller Nin Hemingway Burroughs Dick Joyce Twain Orwell 

                                                                      Oh well & So it goesVonnegut

not that hed forget

               he wouldnt forget

not until his vessel was kicked over

                           not the canvases Van Gogh Picasso Gauguin Monet Kahlo Chagall Miro Riveras murals not the sculptures the anonymous Stone-aged Primitives Greeks Mesoamericans Africans Michelangelo Moore not the cave paintings the fingerpaintings in France and Spain and Bulgaria

he would not forget the heatall and every bit of the worlds unfettered imagination and inclinations and Jeez  he knew

if they were stacked one on top of the other they could follow Voyager beyond our solar realm

you dont put them down

theyre taken away from you against your will

Obsess.

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1131,  Sunday,  7  5. 17

Tricky  Vent  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3rwpllGfj9w

“The Whitehouse Station, N.J.-based drug maker emphasized that it is not admitting fault.

“Merck(the Whitehouse Station, N.J.-based drug maker) announces it will pay $4.85 billion to end thousands of lawsuits over its painkiller Vioxx. The amount, to be paid into a so-called settlement fund, is believed to be the largest drug settlement ever.

“Research published in the medical journal Lancet estimates that 88,000 Americans had heart attacks from taking Vioxx, and 38,000 of them died.” hmm  43.1818181% died   thats playing Russian roulette with two-chambered bullets in a five-chambered revolver

do you think if you pressed those five-chambered revolvers to the heads of the Merck Board theyd vote to admit fault

no matter their vote hed still pull the trigger

                                   sounding either a duull cavity or the sharp report of reciprocity

this excursion began with him reading Charlotte Soilihis comment “Super voix” to a Youtube Zap Mamas Mupepe post

voix is French for voice

he didnt know that

entering voix into Google it first rendered Voixx  a 1999 FDA-approved painkiller that within five years of it being prescribed provided half of its compound description

1221,  Saturday,  6  5. 17

1353 days remaining or less

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=5470430 
Zap Mama  Mupepe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSHSFKuutac


 

he couldnt take a hint

seriously

he saw them he heard them they piqued him

but for whatever reason

he shrugged them off

mayhaps  thats what it meant to be from the school of hard knocksno gutno intuition

he was a frank and belligerent devotee of intuition as only one facet of many facile feminine strengths

for that and whatever other reasons intuition never sat well with him

so and hed be the first to acknowledge it

he learned the hard way

complete with all the nicks and cuts and damage

beat him with a stick

                 he learned                                                                                           

subtlety hints were lost on him

he had to learn for himselfhad to experience it for himself

then learned

then bruised or battered

he didnt forget

he was un-American

learning from his mistakes

and learned 

          he was unforgiving

if you wronged him deliberately

he cut you off

it didnt matter  family or friend

he sat down hard  people were people

no family or friend could terrorise him with the entitlement they believed their relationship held

That was a long time ago they said

Yes  It was   A leopard doesnt change its spots

to him the churning whiteboiled water didnt past under the bridgeno water ever went over the dam

he saw malevolent eddies twisting and turning on themselves  tortuously

when he shut the door in someones face
he didnt open it again   

they could knock until they bruised and bloodied their knuckles(they wouldnt)

it wasnt opening

they warnedsubterfuge Youll lose friends  You wont have anyone

Friends   They werent friends to begin with

he saw it too often

Youre too exacting

Xacting?

          all he had to do was look at his scarsthose etched memories reminders

they were his gut

               his latent intuition

 

1356,  Saturday,  6  5. 17

1354 days remaining or less

DJ Krush ft. Zap Mama  Danger of Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzzlYql2Ryk