28.9.21

 

Alex Smith 

its unfortunate
                Smith is a favoured former Fortyniner QB of a buddy who overcame a spiral compound fracture of his tibia and fibula November 2018 against the Texans he endured seventeen surgeries over nine months refused a recommended amputation and in 2020 was named NFLs Comeback Player of the Year he was playing for the Chiefs
which was fortunate

howeveras he saw it the misfortune lay in the fact his buddy likely suffers alexithymia
                                                                                          no words for emotions
an inability to recognise or describe his emotions  frankly lacking the emotions themselves

while he knew something was off with him he couldnt put his finger on it he thought it was a defense mechanism when confronted with difficult emotions in others

couplethree years ago he related to him that over Thanksgiving his eldest sister took him off to a side and asked him if he had ever heard of alexithymia
he hadnt
she said she believes his lack of emotion which she has noticed in him since he was a boy might be due to it 

Your sisters not a mental health professional

No, no, she read an article and it piqued her attention. She then read a series of medical articles researching it

Wha do you think

It is what it is.

I hate that lineone of my few hates  Thats feeble man

Well . . I’ve come this far.

Did she say there was a therapy

I didn’t ask, I’m not interested.

 

hes come this far

he lives alone 

has few people he needs to negotiate

hes probably happyfeels good that emotions dont tear him up 

hes watched him struggle threefour times shows in his face to comprehendunderstand other peoples emotions  particularly sorrow  exit stage whicheverway to get the hell out of Dodge
                                                                             sympathycompassion must be in him somewhere locked in a cagekept in a soundproofed room atrophied  no exercise no muscle memory

its something hes put in his back pocket to remember  to pulloutto temper his own emotions regarding him when hes chill or vacates the premise when a confrontation – not a better word for it – becomes apparent

alexithymia is probably an excellent explanation why his buddy invokes IQs or dimensionality a continuum on which an individual can have various levels of a characteristic in contrast – who doesnt love contrasting – to a dichotomous take a breath categorical approach in which an individual not a persongawd forbid does or does not possess a characteristic HA he cites IQs or dimensionality in contrast to EQ  emotional quotient   Duhhuh


knowing this little wrinkle  helps him keep things even keel if if he can quell his emotions to remind himself

catchword Alex Smith alexithymia

afternoon,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21
1117,  Twosday,  28  9. 21

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