25.5.20



mornings have been odd of recent


thats unfair to morningshes been odd
                                        hes been waking in pain reminiscent of four years ago when a specialist wanted to label him RA rheumatoid arthritis and prescribe him pills that are for cancer patients with side effects that were worse than the pain he suffered
it was only pain

pain lets ya know youre alive


a better morning this morning  he kept to his regiment 

he ran a hot bath scented with lavender oilsufficed with Epsom salts and while he laid there his cats stopped by  paid tribute he fed them
                      it occurred to him exactly how he was feeling

he felt like he was stuffed inside an illfitting suit stuffed inside his skinsleeves twistedtoo tight in the groindressed to the wrong side a leg short and turnedthe other leg long and knotted under his footthe neck too bigshoulders jerryrigged ballbearing stuffed between his knuckles and toes and his skull lashed left porcupine quills to manage if he tried to look right

in two wordsthree
                     a sloppy iron maiden


today was better

he was excited to go to sleep
                               excited to see if tomorrow morning hed be worse or better off
like the difference between business and pleasure

he was skeptical
                   he was darkly optimistic

was his cup halffull or halfempty

his was fiftyfifty 

if he could shake the snakeskin shrouding himif his body was up to it he was all in 

if it wasnt
           maybe the day after or a few days or a week or a month

he was as tenacious as it was

hed come out better on the other side

hed find the fuckin tailor and beat him within an inch of his life
                                                                   unless the tailor had a good reason
he wasnt unreasonable

if the tailor was put up to it hed get the name
                                                one way or another
he was as convincing as he could be charming



let the Game continue

he liked the piecethe part he played


0850,  Monday,  25  5. 20
1613,  Monday – Decoration Day,  25  5. 20
Edgar Winters  Tobacco Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vchy9ftPuB0

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