schizoid

          when oiding he failed to cite what started him down the rabbithole that lead to brain organoids or brainoids

how the hell he skip schizoid

                              void it

no idea

he was humping pavers with a buddyhad split a tenmg edible BlueDreamBerry let him ruminate while lugging

                                                                                                                                 Fuuuck

What?

My oid piece yesterday Forgot to include schizoidwhich is crazy because thawas its germination  Like growing a plant without a nightsoil or seed

Without seed? You can’t do that.

It had been there idea was there

                                     Dropped it                                                      

But nevertheless . . the derived piece came to fruition.

nodding It did it did

                      Actually he laughed  actually like former thanking his family for his South Carolina primary win an forgot to mention a son an daughter-in-law Last time you forgot one of your four sons   Ever

Never.

        How the fuck ya do that?

I forgot schizoid

                 But maybe former slitheredcross my mindtagged himstuck masking tape on his back MagicMarkered KICK ME like we did as kids   Member  An somebody always did   Hard  Square in the ass

   We didn’t.

Yadidnt

No.

Pansy candyass California upbringing Beach Boys coudnt have formed anywhere else

You knocking the Beach Boys?

Yah I am

              But youre prone to Candy Pop Archies Sugar Sugar

he sneered They were good.

Yalistenin to yourself

What?

Yaknow  Think Ill give ya a pass

                                    Yare high

he mumbled something

Wha

I said you forgot schizoid

I did

        Likely cuz its redundant

Redundant? How?

Im one

3PM,  Sunday,  10  3. 24

1101,  Saturday,  23  3. 24

https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/immunology/articles/10.3389/fimmu.2021.792316/full

https://www.santacruzsentinel.com/2023/10/16/thc-gummies/

Sugar, Sugar  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eX28cgKHHyc  &  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=84SwKM6KfaU

“I don’t know a fucking thing.”

he didnt the more he learned the less he knew his daughters whenever he told them thought he was awfully funny

“That must mean I’m finally sane and that’s an excellent place to start going crazy again.”

   Sane he thought

                       Doubt it

In saneYah two words

                          in sane somewhere at the margins in extremis  then the shoe might fit though he preferred going shoeless

liked to be connected to the earth

lightningrod style

                   an frankly wouldnt bitch if struck by lightning electrocuted smoky ash gust of wind blowing him like   whell blowing him

                            as a kid a young man now when visiting the Midwest placed an order that someone in the family take on the responsibility of doing a raindance HEAVY RAIN LIGHTNING & THUNDER in extremis because when it arrived – theyve not failed him yet – he strippedput on a pair of shorts an ran madly backanforth upandown his parents enormous frontyard making a spectacle of himself if someone other than his parents saw his mother  If you keep tempting Fate, it’s gonna strike you down with a lightning bolt!   You think of a better exit than tha   I’ll have to think about that. then laughed wholeheartedly

once a year for years he visited

she was still thinking it over

SANITY

OVERRATED

February, 2024

1022,  Reggaefriday,  22  3. 24

quotes from The Killing of the Tinkers by Ken Bruen

   an oops

              everyones allowed not one but several

he maintained cardboard boxes and boxes

kept them in storage

                      someone wanted to get into a pissing match over who was more deficient he had copious receipts

the oops that prompted him was a quote from The Killing of the Tinkers Ken Bruen which when he read it arrested him Hemingway said of Wyndham Lewis  “(he) had the eyes of a professional rapist”

he was agog

              one could be a professional rapist what was the pay rate he would have been incensed had someone said that of him

so he had to dig

research

         “I’ve now come to appreciate that research is really mesearch.” Rosen The Tao of Jung: The Way to Integrity

integritty

             he wasnt sure he agreed

from Hemingways A Moveable Feast

                                       “Under the black hat, when I had first seen them, the eyes had been those of an unsuccessful rapist.”

so unless Bruen was referring to the reviewers words he did not quote them David Trotter published in the London Review of Books at the conclusion of Hemingways quote Mr Trotter when on to write “There might presumably have been some hope for Lewis had his eyes merely been those of a successful rapist.”

                                                                                    successful is a far cry from professional

successful isnt necessarily better paying than professional

                                                               per se Jack the Ripper

a sexual mutilator prostitutes his canonical victims possibly could have been a rapist although no evidence was found however the eleven unsolved Whitechapel murders 3 April 1888 to 13 February 1891 forensics investigations werent what they are today

  this piece went darker than he saw

sometime in February, 2024

1139,  Thursday,  21  3. 24

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2001/jan/23/londonreviewofbooks

Oboy Mama said thered be days like this

                                                -oids coming on  oodles an oodles of -oids

which tickled himmade him laugh

                                    he was easily tickled nonsensical humour enthralled him

others oblivious

                   not so much

misunderstood his braying

                              but he wouldnt let ignorance fussbuttery spoil his fun

 hedbeen

a hapless haploidsperm hurtlingheadlong which collidedpenetrated an ovoid haploidovum

said -oiding

            unavoidable

oid shaped

oddshaped

misshaped

humanbein

mongoloid

           many believe dated not where he grewup still thriving delivered with a crack across the back of the head

                                                                                                                               tard too

though queer

               it was an Irish neighbourhood he wasnt their nationality what have you the most prone susceptible nationality

according to recent statistics

                               and within the United States the extra copy trisomy chromosome 21 Mosaic translocation Down syndrome he didnt have to be crass afflicts sixtyseven percent non-Hispanic and White sixteen percent Hispanic thirteen percent non-Hispanic and Black three percent Asian or Pacific Islanders one percent American Indian First People

-oids

       no avoiding

brain organoid or brainoid

                             “is a miniaturised simplified version of an organ produced in vitro in the dimensions that mimics the key functional structural biological complexity of that organ”

                                                                           “. . . the fields of biomaterials science and tissue engineering have shown great promise in creating bioartificial tissues and organs which isnt to say the Real McCoy for use in a variety of regenerative medicine applications.”

   he opened a can of wigglyworms  

3PM,  Sunday,  10  3. 24

1001,  Thursday,  21  3. 24

Shirelles  Mama Said  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L842mz-tNBQ

Downs https://www.cdc.gov/ncbddd/birthdefects/downsyndrome.html

Will blow your mind  https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6680880/

I like the way he writes  Pithy

Pithy? That’s quite a compliment.

For crime fiction noir  Irish   More than I imagined

Who’s this?

Bruen  Ken Bruen

                     Not only pithy but apercu liberally scattered throughout

What?

Apercu

You said, I asked what? A learning moment would ya?

I apologisedidnt mean to assume   Youre well read

Thank you, but you tend to hammer down are more granular than I am, or more so than my attention is willing to withstand.

Thas a curious  willin to withstand

It’s the truth.

                  Apercu.

Enunciated well

Thank you.

Means comments brief references  Making illuminating entertaining points

                                                                                An reading its occurred to me many of his references are factual not madeup not fiction Unique in crime writing to my experiencealbeit  my limited experience

But you read fiction, as you’ve said, like candy, to treat to yourself.

Yes I love my nonfiction the science physics history politics psychology philosophy

                                                                                        But then I need to change it up

How many books in ten are fiction?

They tend to be scifi though recently crime  Bruens draggin me back in  When I was younger I read Chandler Hammet Himes Highsmith McCoy Cain Fearing recent Mosley Ellroy Winslow caught his eyes wandering not granular I coud go on

You didn’t answer my question.

No I didnt Was getting lostmusing of the great stories Ive read

                                                                  Perhaps   Obsessing Yare not one to interfere in ones obsessions arya

Answer my question an Ill let ya return.

Motherfucker May I

You may.

           laughed

Not ten percent for months and months then at a sudden threefour

                                                                       You can do the math

Cute.

Apercu

Amen brother.

evening,  day-between-2-Ts,  13  3. 24

1258,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  3. 24

Ever have . . .

Im listening

I’m trying to remember what it’s calledescaping me . . right now.

Thas unlike you babe

Isn’t it though?

Hint

      Like . . . profound.

Thas heady  Not our usual trek

No. It’s not.

              There’s another word that’s escaping me.

Pivotal.

Thas a good word but by the expression on your face not the word youre searching for

A pivotal . . . moment.

This is like an audiooral crossword

                                      A pivotal moment

Like that, yes.

   An epiphany . .

. . YES. Exactly.

Love your enthusiasm

Queer I couldn’t think of it. Shame on me. Thank you.

Youre welcome happy to help

                                     Whawas your epiphany if I can ask

Jeez.  Now I’m sidetracked.

Want me to backup the train see if we can find the siding

Train?

Train of thought

Ah.   Clever.

               No.

An epiphany a startling bright light Abombbright  etching shadows onto concrete  rocks

That’s a devastating appraisal of an epiphany.

Thas how they occur to me

                             But then as screwy as my mind works one coud argue I had it comin

You’ll have to admit you are curious.

As long as I made you curious  Im good

she leaned over kissed his temple

                                     You smell good too.

Thank you

               Lost your epiphany

I believe I have it’ll come to me.

Then youll share

I’ll share. It had something to do with you anyways.

Now  now Im curious

As I’ve said.

             she laughed  sighed

Itll come to you

It will.

he leaned back head back

                             Lookup

she didnt hesitant

Is tha Gods brains I see scattered on the clouds

sun was settingthrowing reds oranges yellows ambers purpling

Like he shot himself in the headcommitted suicide

   Now.

          I’m curious.

0005,  Reggaefriday,  15  3. 24

1209,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  3. 24

Korantemaa  By the time you’ve finished your coffee  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mj5JrBxwqA

I believe one must be assertive a preexisting condition  before they can effectively confront someone

                                                                                                            Which is why youre lousy at it

   Lousy?

Yah frankly both  Youre neither assertive nor confrontational they do not exist in your makeup blame your folks

My folks? What’s that supposed to mean?

Wha woudya suppose it to mean

You brought it up, tell me.

Silverspoon baby you were born with a silverspoon in your mouthbefore ya take affront understand many are  youre one of hunreds of thousands if not millions an millions spare the rod spoil the child aint necessarily in relation to punishment

   So . . . you’re saying I was spoile . .

. . Yah Are you tryin to insist you werent

                                                  Don  go  there

I enjoyed . . certain benefits.

You certainly did

                   Ive related how I grew up youve shared your upbringing How opposed are we

Opposed?

           You’re not suggesting you’re an opponent?

No

What then?

Think in terms of black white hot cold spicy bland on off

Diametrically. he muttered

Wha

I said diametrically.

Better

       Opposite extremes polar opposites  Agree

Yes yes, I’d agree. 

                     Diametrically opposed.

Getting warmer

   Warmer?

              What's hotter?

Ill tellya

          Were diabolically opposed

Shocking huh

               laughed

he didnt know what to say

1645,  Thursday,  14  3. 24

1120,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  3. 24

Beatles  Hello, Goodbye  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2C3f0Atcoo

one itch he couldnt tolerateneeded to scratchviciously

                                                          Tolkien

he managed to read The Hobbit but nothing could compel him to go furthur down that Hobbithole nyuk nyuk nyck maybe The Three Stooges

Tolkien

cellar door the most beautiful word in the English language

                                                              Please

the phonaesthetic itch that presents is to keep his ears open eyes peeled find better candidates – not that any single word would be the most beautiful whos the most beautiful woman in the world – but he preferred options and steadfastly pursues them

   smell smoke

                 a snatch of dialogue from the Irish monster film Grabbers

arrested him

beside him his trusty clipboard red mediumpoint Bic pen

                                                             scribbled

happenstance no coincidence 

he was alert wired

                        itchy

2043,  Sunday – St Paddys Day,  17  3. 24

1145,  2sday,  19  3. 24

Grabbers  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uC4GlNAD5ZA

Saint Paddys Day

                   partied too hardy Guinness Redbreast

since Guinness is so rich he ampedup explored copious whiskey beginning with three fingers of Twentyone Year Old then unknown fingers of Twelve

recovering Monday it brightblue penetratingly sunlit creased  in a mindful stupor

                                                                                          Things He No Longer Does 

a listNAH

STOP

       inevitably it would become a list  verbage tossed away

   the list

he no longer ate breakfast misses steelcut oatmeal multigrain waffles blueberry pancakes CheeriosGrapenuts with Whole Milk

             no longer ate lunch crunchy peanutbutter honey on wheat ham on rye sardines onions on pumpernickel

only ate dinner

                not as radical as it sounds

maybe when he first began

but been doing it since Ninetynine   Last Century

practise makes if not perfect

                               well practised

he didnt think of food

thought fuelthought expenditure

                                   if the tank isnt substantially calorically ticked down

no reason in Hell to dump in an abundance of calories

he crapped once a day

an event that pleased him

nutrition ought to exit  pleasurably   as it entered

   revealed

               he scratched his threeweek beard trim it down nextweek he was mindfull thoughtfull of the time he had on his hands interrupted only by three long weekly telephone calls interrupted once a weekten days fivesix hours by a cohort  was buoyant on long daily walkreads

   YAH

          he lavishes himself generously

   

1155,  Monday,  18  3. 24

1038,  2sday,  19  3. 24

Rodrigo Rodriquez  Come Back  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GSZaqwzgwqU

Bibi Netanyahu whines that Senator Schumers remarks were “totally inappropriate”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MD5arHI-T8I

   ah  but history has a way of repeating

                                             he may have conveniently forgotten when he put his thumbs on the scales at the behest of House Speaker Boehner 18 May 2009

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S6ZnsRhWHk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GakQIHd-rFM

two months earlier Bibi had refused to consider an Israeli-Palestinian two states solution

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAx8XxKDNKA

hes a shyster a wannabe autocrat like the United States former president if one can call anything he did presidential

if ones okay with former denying any responsibility for deaths of 1,217,703 Americans  this evening  by Trumpvirus

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

2239,  Monday,  18  3. 24

Funkadelics  Magagot Brain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xby5467EbdU

friend usually set his place with a side of ire

                                               brought it out of him

last evenings helping

                        virtual

                               v.

                                  dreaming

adamantly refused to accept that they werent the same

he disagreed strongly

they were texting good thing

   began with a simple Mexican restaurant recommendation

he replied  :  :  Thas a first

  :  :  What? No recs or negative ones?

  :  :  HA  Who would?

Im a proper ghost

  :  :  The fine people you encounter on the street maybe.

  :  :  Don’t encounter except to stroll on by without taking my eye off the words I’m reading

I have better things to do than people

  :  :  Unless the female species followed by three emojis  womens faces  separate hairdos

  :  :  Wouldn’t notice – I’m walking I’m reading – You’re funny. Get Real

I’m involved referencing he was dating

  :  :  Books over blossoms … I don’t believe that.

  :  :  Blossoms?  What imaginary women are you thinking of?

  :  :  BOSOMS … spell ck.

  :  :  Still – no bosoms – Really?

  :  :  In our dream phase unfortunately.

  :  :  Better there than nowhere, bro disliked phase but didn’t make a thing of it

  :  :  Agree … virtual over oBliViOn every time … Butt a healthy JOLT of real flesh would be a treat.

  :  :  didn’t agree with flesh but let it slide too Please. Dreaming is organic, psychic, not virtual shit

Healthy JOLTs are behind us

Reason to have developed a good long memory which his friend hadnt

  :  :  Virtual as opposed to physical …

  :  :  Virtual is computer-generated, virtual reality. Interfacing

Which isn’t the product of organic dreaming

  :  :  Look up virtual …  Like most words it has several definitions.

  :  :  Virtual – in my world – has only one. Prevaricate, slide, as you wish

  :  :  In your world probably …  For others maybe not … going off as he was prone  speaking for the world Don’t confuse a disagreement w/ prevarication …  Words matter as you should know …

  :  :  Slide

friend doesnt dream like he does cant lucid dream

                                                     cant ply virtual to it when its as organic to him as breath

   point out a mans ignorance he shouldnt get butthurt

2155,  Sunday,  17  3. 24

338preferred,  Monday,  18  3. 24

former HANG MIKE PENCE will not endorse the former president

SCREW THA

              the white Christian ought to say tha hes NOT VOTING for the twice House-impeached president the vile insurrectionist the adjudicated rapist the fraud selftouted billionaire who cannot meet a $464M bond (growing $114,000 a day) to appeal the four times indicted the 88 felony counts

                                                                             orange Jesus

when former Vice-President Pence takes those stark accurate talking points out on the road

                                                                                                 then

hell give him credit 

     

1757,  Monday,  18  3. 24

https://www.axios.com/2024/03/17/donald-trump-endorsement-mike-pence-jan-6

bond  https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-68600093

interest  https://www.the-independent.com/news/world/americas/us-politics/letitia-james-donald-trump-fine-b2502007.html

https://lithub.com/for-the-love-of-orange-jesus-liz-cheneys-new-book-calls-out-gop-trumpers/