Using my daughters linewhich appalls me  It is wha it is

                                                               Im givinem a little taste of wha it will be like

Be like?  her brow puzzling

Jah

        When the time comes tha my father diesFuck wha am I talkin about  He may outlast me

Hes already lostoutlived  outlived three children

Your be like means what?

My absence

 

Absence?

His birthday party is being held today

                                             Im not there

When hes died after attending his memorial   whawoud draw me back again

                                                                                      I go there to see him

Your family.

Not a strong draw

    Because . . . you left home so many years agobeen gone so many years?

 

Jah

        I left because I spent my youth living where I hadnt the means to escape

Then left when I did

    Escape?

Jah

Do you really mean . . . escape?

This is where you were raised

Yes.

You have family all around you

Yes.

Escape sounds harsh

Yes.

    Awright

Now imagine if here is where  you did not want to be

                                                                Is leaving it  accurate

I imagine you cant imagine

                                   Because youre happyhave been  happy here

Yes.

Im happy Im here  not there

                               Took me leaving homeas yasay at twenty  twenty years to get here

Odysseus got nothing on me

 

Except . . . he was returning home.

    Where   he  wanted to be

                                          Nuanced

                                                      Jah 

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