incorrigible

Strangeness, Integration, and Crisis  W G Sebalds elegant essay ON PETER HANDKE’S PLAY KASPAR

within he read a quote

                          I will have become because I am.

four lines later an affirmation mantra  is said to be repeated three times

                                                                               I am the one I am.

seemingly to reinforce I will have become because I am.

simplistically

               he pronounced I am

like No

needs no explanation

   he deemed I am long ago while a child who should not have known that at the age he was

he was at loggerheads with his parentswith indoctrination  education    school

they

it

tried ferociously to back him down

but submitting would have violated who he was

    back down then

                          then when would it stop It wouldnt

why would it

it was a long narrow barrel

the emittedchild a bullet inexorably spunspinning at some distant target

it would have been nice it would have been easier to have been a bullet

                                                                                but he knew he wasnt

they

it

knew too

   who was incorrigible

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1035,  Monday,  7  4. 25