he couldnt remember any stretch of days before that he ever lost his shitcouldnt turn off his waterworkscouldnt breathe felt himself begin to hyperventilatesuffered panic attackshis eyes swinging side to side in his head as if he were a trapped animal desperately looking for a way outany way outhis skeleton lurchingtrying to deke himbut he kept his eye on the ballthe vertebra behind his bellybuttondrove through ittook it down hardwrapped its legs in his armstook its feet out from under it so it wouldnt go anywhere he couldnt go

he wasnt going anywhere

he wouldnt be anywhere else in the worldhe meant it

2234,  Twosday,  17  12. 19

1209,  Saturday,  2  5. 20

Kascade  On Your Mind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr86Lw785Fo