he looked at his inside feral catshis outdoor ferals peeking in through two separate screen doors  Awright gang  feel like stretching my legs this afternoon  Too nice a day to stay inside 

from overhead through the open doors he heard his hawk cry 

it was his hawk because no one in the neighborhood ever seemed to stop what they were doing to take in its free criesits luxurious circling

                 give him wings and hed soarhed see how high he could fly and never worry the wax meltinghis wings rooted deep in his skeleton his muscles constricting relaxing constricting relaxing flung  held outright fixedwing  soaring  diving   Hit this raptor he thought an you got 210 pounds of flesh sinew snapped bones hurtling through your windshield  Aint no airbag savin your life mebbe packing your brains back in your skull  Mebbe  Shovin your eyeballs back into their sockets Mebbe  But guaranteed aint no open casketaint no separating me from you entirely your familys gonna have to burn the whole mess   Will in order    Did you really love up your family the last time you saw them not knowing it was the last time                           

he lived with cats   

he loved to torment themloving them up  theyd know for certaintheir coats still mussed that he loved them

it was a fine bright blue day whiffs of cloud like subtle beads of sweat at ones temple  moisture in their armpits 

he hadnt walked five minutes down the Old Town road when he came across a tangle of black irrigation tubing broken kinked laid atop a leather workglove 

he looked again

wrong

he was wrong

but what he was looking at was wronger yet

a squirrelrather its remains  nothing but something that looked like a large twisted fivefingered gloveJESUSCHRIST What the fuck was with people 

had there been a car on the driveway hed have doubled back and knocked on the door and ask if whoever was responsible for tearing up the irrigation was around  if he was going take issue with someone in the house he wanted the right culprit  no sense braining an innocent though by association possibly not-so-innocent themselves

acorns apples apricots dont fall far from the tree 

What the fuck was going to have to suffice for the front end of his walk

it wasnt as bright blue as it was a moment earlier

descending a steep hill dead leaves in the breeze came on his heels like fast knowing lizards  lizards running through his legs then out ahead of him stopping  then avoiding his steps halting  running again  jeering him eluding him  

their playfulness was balm helping offset the dead squirrel   Really he sighed

he walked and he read for nearly two hours 

he walked ways he hadnt in nearly two years prior to whatever it was that incapacitated him nearly nine months  he liked to think of himself as either that terms baby or resurrected  his body attempting to wreck him 

if it didnt put him away it made him stronger

on the last of the long string of San Jacinto lazily strung between El Camino Real and Traffic Way  staring at him from up Nogales on his right  in the roadFUCK ME in the middle of the road  something   he wandered over expecting to find yet another small animal dead that no one from the homes either to the left or right had any sense of compassion to remove itbury itnot let it be smashed disfigured any furthur 

Ah  Its nice to find something that isnt dead he said out loud  it was an inanimate thing a handkerchief of green tan camouflage

he snatched it off the road and stuffed it in the back pocket of his jeans 

hed wash it and utilise it  no waste for him 

before he picked it up he was halftempted to take a picture of it print out Lost/Found fliers an staple them to electric poles tape them to street signs in the neighborhood  put their assemblymans telephone number on it label it Bubba Whiteman
            for shitangiggles  

itd be exactly something like that that would take the smart of thoughtless human callousness out of his eyeshis dayhis mind

1257,  Monday.  5  2. 18

1123,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  2. 18

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