a character in a film he watched asked What do you know about death

the question lingered in his mind long after he heard it

he had trouble remembering which filmhe held his head in his hands inspecting its features much as Hamlet did as he looked into the vacant orbs an over the flatbone of Yoricks skullwha was the film  a moth of recognition flutteredbeating white motes in black space  but nothing came of it   What do you know about death  asked of a contemporary woman

he wished he could remember  it vexedhaunted him

he knew death

he didnt inflict death except to eat

he thought if people wanted to eat meat they ought to kill an butcher the animal they ate

he wondered then  how many people would eat meat

butchers were turned into slaughterhouses that have been turned into meat factories

animal flesh a cog in a machine horrifed by the many murders of its brethren before its very eyes  

terror infecting meat

he preferred his terror blackanblue

                                                      what did he know about death

he killed an butchered his share of beef fowl rabbit somehow fish seemed different so a repetitive birthday wish he made as he blew out candles on his pie was that fish for a day had vocal cords an could shriekaghast ripped from the wateriron in their jaws an faces  sometimes the hook swallowedin their throats  SCREAMING when thin knives were stuck in their vents disemboweled  So what was your wish? Cant  If I tell you it wont come true an I reallyreally want it to come true there are worse things to wish for

he never did kill an butcher pigs an lambs  however he rarely ate eitheras a matter of fact the only time he ever ate lamb was growing up in his parents home an when he returned East to visit them  

his parents adored lamb

                           then also ethnic Eastern European he discovered that he was very fondthat he had much in common with Mexicans in California their cuisine  that they also relished organ meat the brain liver kidneys heart sweetbreads bone marrow  when you killed an animal you ate everything    Harhar  people thought he was joking when he said if someone was stupid enough to break into his house while he was home hed eat free for months  human beingsdespite their thinking are part of the food chain  thats why he took umbrage when a mountain lion took down a human being an authorities went out an killed a lion

                                                       he thought We aint special

what did he know about death

he knew enough to get byhed lost scores of relatives  he was in the hospital room when his best friend died  later when his wife died  he was right beside many of his cats when they died

he knew dead was dead

he knew religion was great gouts of smoke blown up peoples asses  which however attested surely to the titillation sensuality of the anus

No
   he wasnt going to Hell

it didnt exist

death returned you to the stars

Thursday evening,  22  2. 18

1349,  Sunday,  25  2. 18