Fourth Quarter said his sister thought he might be suffering anhedoniahe interrupted What  I dont know what that is I dont even think I can repeat itwhenever I hear a word I dont know like an air horn goes off in my headblares obliterates the word bars me from hearing its completely Ever have that problem  

No  Not a problem   The words anhedonia

Glitchin on the pronunciationcould you spell it please  Cant see it break it down 

A – n – h – e - d – o – n – i - a

Awrightawright    Got it now mutters its spelling a-n-h-e-d-o-n-i-a    Hedon unit of pleasure a hedonist seeker of pleasure  An  Prefix   Without or not    Unable to sensefeel pleasure   Whayour sister thinks youre unable to feel pleasure

Yes  She said maybe it was my problem

Yourah  sister  She also lost her father her brother her sisterinlaw  But shes not suffering anhedonia 

Well    No  My sister has Gods comfort you see

Aah   God called her family home theyre with Him safe an sound an waiting for the time when theyll be united again   

Yes

I didnt know your sister was so religious

She is  Yes

Wow

Yes

What did you reply

I told her I thought it was an interesting postulate  I was in a funk for sure

Such a funk that you couldnt feel pleasure

NoI was feeling pleasurefelt pleasure  Not sexual pleasure . .

. . Your wife died

Yes   Yes she did

Sexual pleasure would go to the back burner for awhile

Yes

Emotionally stigmatised  Momentarily cauterised  Take a break from thinking with your cock  Sorry Im blunt force man

Thats alright

However you still derived pleasurehappiness from your childrenan the variety of pleasures your senses inform

Yes

Have you dismissed your sisters anhedonia

I have

Has she

Does she still think Im suffering it

Yes

She does  She says she able to be objective

Did she say where she gathered that notion  Its not usual fare

I thinkif Im correct she read about it in articles from Psychology Today

M-D-D huh

Excuse meWhat

M-D-D major depressive disorder  Psychology Today  A great place to shop for new pharmaceuticals  Your brain in a pill Who reads Psychology Today

My sister she has a subscription

Great  I call my subscriptions prescriptions Literary political magazines Bolstered by lots an lots of booksyour sister reads Psychology Today doesnt she also take psychotropicsI seem to remember you saying something along those linesif Im not mistaken something about her psychologistspsychiatrists  something

Yes  For a long time now

The magazines a great place to find interesting words  Lotsa Latin Greek roots

Yeah   I suppose so

An I suppose nothing a little mindfulness wouldnt also help  Im particularly mindful that while I seek my happiness Im not supposed to be happy all the time Gotta feel blue sometimes  If you cant feel blue you certainly cant feel happiness  Flipside of the same coin  Love hate  Same coin  You cant have one without the other   I take issue with happy pills

You dont think talking to a psychologist or psychiatrist would help  Drugs might help

You ever play catch with a rubber ball off a brick wall because no one else was around

No

Really

Never did

Go play catch with yourself  Aint a fuckin soul who knows you better than you do

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