Dont be fooled by numbers 

as I was

Dont look for recurrent patterns

as I did

Or numerology

despite it making sense to me

Dont look to numbers for status  rank   debasement 

numbers are exactly as they are advertised  numb – ers

doughdedoughdedoughde do re mi fa so la ti dode     doggonit

I lost count 
                  ran out of fingers and toes and friends I counted on to help me
whittled a tree to matchsticks trying to keep count   keep up

                                                                                                   with what

I dont recall

Tallying ho 
numbers paramount

numbingly

                  paramount

lemmesee if I can remember(or if I wont make something up to escape scrutiny)  --  scrutiny is uncomfortable  --  will I add up  --  what will I do if I dont  --  what can I do to make up the difference  to add up  --  what slick machinations
  --  and quietly crushed beneath the heaping equations  the first consideration  --  which  perhaps  should have been uttered out loud and vibrant  --  Add up?  to whose standard?  what do I care if I add up to it or not  --  I play nice  --
I dont go out of my way to badger or hurt anyone  anything  --  I dont have to look over my shoulder  --  Im brusque
but I dont lie  --  I have no tracks to cover

--  Im up front)

I cant remember

It must have been important then

to begin

but I lost sight of It(behind the heaps and mounds of discarded numbers to get to the very next  --  the whittled slivers)

No  I cant remember what I was counting on

he got lost in the purpose  the routine 
in the monotone

it misplaced his reason

The Reason
(how many words are there in the dictionary that precede Reason  --  could they be excised   erased)

0027,  Sunday,  7  6. 15
 1417,  Sunday,  7  6. 15