--   Mygawd

what little he knew of her

was already more than he cared or wanted to know

he already knew hed have to take a pinch or grain of salt with whatever she had to say

and  truth be known  he was readily available to drop a ton of it on her head

to shut her mouth

she didnt just open her bleachedblonde mouth

she brayed

brayed incoherently upon all sorts of matters without possessing the facts to either

support or furthur her arguments

she regurgitated wholesale right wing talking points and had she stepped back  really

to examine what she was saying she might also recognize her wholesale racist talking

points

if someone got a word in edgewise refuting her earnest glimmered perceptions she 

retorted

--   You dont know what youre talking about

--   Fine

I am anxious for you to prove me wrong

Dont tell me I dont know what Im talking about 

Talk to me how I am errant  Persuade me  Turn me around

--   Persuade you  You havent any faith  I have faith in what I say

there was no refuting faith

the power of pristine faith is that it can be believed without reason or facts

it cant be reduced

its tidy

a neat little bundle

a hardened resilient bright diamond

like the one she wore on her finger

she was married at eighteen to the only boy she had ever been involved with

he was seventeen and had to have his parents permission to wed

four years later

she wasnt so keen on him

shortly after they married he fell sick

something in his genes

something his family had no idea of because they didnt believe in the prowess of science

and medicine

                        it was in Gods hands

everything was in Gods hands

and because he was ill

he couldnt work

he couldnt father children

she resented his illness

she resented that she had to become their provider

resented he couldnt impregnate her

she was supposed to multiple

how was she to fulfill her obligation to God

she stuck in her thumb and pulled out a bad plum

and it disgusted her

all her girlfriends had babies

had virile working husbands

  

she was cheated

 

there was adoption

there was her vows

--   I didnt vow to this

“in sickness and in health”

--   Thats beside the point

if it was thrown around if she were the one who was incapacitated  suffering

--   Im not am I  Thats not the case  Thats utter supposition 

                                                            

Im not unhealthy
 

her girlfriends counseled her to leave him

--   Hell get half my house (her grandparents put up the money that paid for their house)

Why should he get half  He failed me

that ton of salt

 

it would put her out of her misery

maybe it was just the trick she was looking for

Nah  he thought  Ill take her with a grain of salt  One pure white grain at a time

2055,  Friday,  26  9. 14