1.4.19




he was curious


he was reading the Guardian on-line

he began at Duchamp the pissoir  the article alleged the creation belong to R Mutter alias of Baroness Elsa von Freytag-Loringhoven hed never be attracted to a baroness or a woman whose name included every letter in the alphabet he preferred brevity  what did that say about him if he was asked hed say he was simple things that werent simple made peoples heads ache he preferred his head didnt ache and if provokedcornered he wasnt going to talk his way out of it congenially he was going to hurt someonewhoever  he held people accountable for their provocations

he began at Duchamp fled to Artemisia Gentileschi trippedagain over Djuna Barnes Nightwoodreminded him of college  not having his way with his professors junkie daughter was worth an A the professor was going to fail him because he didnt attend classdidnt listen to his lectures – Sorry doc your first lecture bored me to death – yet unimpeachably his papers and test results either garnered As or were among those graded superior in the class stupidly the professor revealed his grades to him personally relishing that his gradeshis achievements wouldnt matter that what mattered was the grade the professor inscribed  

he did earn his A

it was a good thing the professor gave it to him
                                                 because rather it would have been a blatant example of someone provoking him and he would have hurt the professor badly  on par atleast with the torment the professor treated his daughter  She’s a slut, a piece of shit, left to me by her ungrateful cunt of a mother.
                                                                                        Keep it up doc You realise thats too long for an epitaph


doublingback off Djunas he loved that nameits spelling Nightwood to Artemisia he played quietly with Caravaggio ran away with Ruskin and read a review of Siri Hustvedts Memories of the Future  memories of the future  small polished stones someone dropped but were too lazy to pickup who dropped themrefused to pick them up was someone who hadnt bought them who exhibited they had no skin in the game 
                                                                     he resented people who had no skin in the game
Right-to-(very possibly a miserabledestitute life) Lifers  clowns he didnt counterdemonstrate against because his hands would be too close to their throatshis fists too close to their faceshis knee too close to their balls and cunts a woman would tell you that  hurts   too

the concept  Memories of the Future  fascinated him

he tried to get the book through his library

it was only available on-line fuck eBooks    




he poured himself another tumbler of whisky to sip from beside his black coffee he closed his eyes and was awash in future memories past lies contemporary chatteringcodestwistingwords  Yamight wanna stand backgimme a little room Do  not   provoke    me

he liked to poke around in the dark blindly  let his curiosity find what it may he acquired skinned hands and knees  scrapes   wounds  but every scar he wore was worth it 
                                                              they evoked their own memories  and stories


1111,  Sunday,  31 3. 19 – whered quarter of the year go?

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