10.11.20


in jail he walked a long rectangle one way several times then reversed himselfwalked in the opposite direction in the huge common room on a wide aisle between cafeteria tables at its center and bunkbeds on three walls their heads pushed up against the walls

in jail everything was pushed 
                              pushed by white guards who made their bread bullying a majority black and brown men
he was one of the few whites the other whites werent his measure so he was careful
                                                                                         his wing had been busted he was still healing 

fortunately he wasnt going to be in long he had a zealous county prosecutor but other legal partisans disagreed he should be jailed at all so he kept to himself and walked and read as he walked miles and miles around that room  a few men took up with him though not reading 
                                                concurring  If I did that I’d trip and kill myself.  

the first to follow him were the ones he gave his desserts

he didnt eat dessert 
                    as it was he was having a hard time finding food in the meal trays they were given  he supposed the kitchen or acquisitions believed crappy food was part of their punishment  guys whose families could afford it bought foodstuff through a profit-driven commissaryChrist  theres profit and then theres being ripped-off                                                                                                                                Got no choice, man. 
food they bought seemed to him comfort food  akin to packaged food they were raised on  unfortunately they were from poor neighbourhoods where food deserts were rife


an old adage tickled him while he was in  because it wasnt true
                                                                   You don’t know what you got until it’s gone.
what he had he still had  it was only absent

 

he befriended no one 
                     but as he was leaving a few of the guys said theyd miss him  fuck if theyd keep walking in circles  but theyd miss his desserts

saying it like it is

 

that he was going to miss

2109 or 909,  Sunday,  8  11. 20
1149,  Monday,  9  11. 20

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