4.10.20

 

he was bitchinghe couldnt remember a time he bitched more about not wanting to playhe loved playing

it was the game

there were softfoam letters fitted inside coloured softfoam pieces from which they had been cut-out  varying sizes upper- and lower-case the letters and their cut-outs had been the same colours but the colours somehow faded or were heightened or either letters or forms were missing some letters warped and werent allegiant to where they originated

the other children he was supposed to play with ran away bored  they left him to play by himself  utterly responsible for assembling corresponding pieces 

had he wanted to play he wouldnt have minded it even if it was difficult

but he wasnt asked

he was sat down with them asif children play nicely with other children because . . well . because they are children

hows that work out with adults

 

the little cunts got up and fled laughing 
                                         a knowing cruel laughter that takes no time at all to learn

they left him to pickup the game put everything back together after they punched out separated and scattered the pieces

he arrived late

he hadnt gotten to enjoy the dismemberment the flinging   the irresponsibleness

 

he was angry

 

the adults could make whatever excuses they wanted to try and mollify him

he wasnt going to be mollified 
                                 Where are the others  This is their mess to pickup

They’ve gone. It’s alright, we’ll help you.

Im not picking anything up

We’ll help you.

Im not

We’ll HELP YOU. beginning to lose their shit

 

I am not picking anything up

Part of this mess is yours. asif lowering their voices after raising their voices would be effective

Here we go again he thought 
                           Are you deaf  I am not picking up a thing

 

curious isnt it  how dreaming and living inform and enfold and weave and wind together and how stupid one could be if they ignored the other for the benefit of either 

 

2103,  Reggae Friday,  2  10. 20
1249,  Saturday,  3  10. 20

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