heels of a loaf of bread

                                         he didnt mindas a matter of fact he preferred heels

his grandchildren his daughtershis wife never touched them they let them remain until he ate them he couldnt count the times he caught them throwing the heels away still inside the plastic or cellophane and waxpapered sleeves

for which he had no patience Are you out of your fuckin mind

Joe. Your language. They’re chi . .

. . Their my children goddamn it an Ill be damned if theyre gonna waste food Why do you not see its waste the four of you are wasting foodthrowing it away Hell for that matter you even discourage them from eating leftovers

You eat the leftovers.

I eat leftovers because I enjoy them but also because if I didnt you an they would throw them away

I didn’t eat them when I was a girl. We prefer . .

. . Its not a matter of preference Its food

It’s food then, that you can eat.

the disagreement never abatedwas never solved

                                                    and when his grandchildren were flummoxed he was having a small sandwich coldcuts between heels What are you doing, Grampa, there’s fresh whole loaves of bread in the pantry; why aren’t you having a sandwich with slices of bread from them?  now older  and because they werent his children he curbed his tongue blandly he said Im having the sandwich I want

he still thought they were out of their fuckin minds but he wasnt who informed them or had to live with them

and now the smooth creamy peanut butter the oily organic peanut butter the almond cashew sunflower seed butters

he told his grandchildren that they better keep moving if they stood around too long or lollygagged theyd be turned into butter  smeared on wholegrain crackers and maybe  if they were really lucky on heels of bread

You’re teasing us.

Am I

      for that matter they couldnt take peanut butter or any nut butter sandwiches for school lunches because some kids had allergic reactionsviolent reactions to nuts

Youre freakin kiddin me he said to his daughter Thats why children take their own lunches to school

Dad, you never swapped your lunch for another kid’s lunch when you were in school?

Sure I did But if I knew I had a allergic reaction I wasnt so stupid to swap a lunch for a lunch that would make me sick How much pandering do children need  protection Wha because they havent sense enough or intelligence enough to know what will hurt them Who wipes their ass Who ties their shoelaces Kahrist

Dad.  The school’s . .

. . The schools liable The schools liable because a parent or parents havent informed their child suchansuch makes them sick

They’re only children, Dad.

I was You were Look Were both hereHowd that happen Yawanna tell me Keep the chaff with wheat No winnowing  Its fiber  fibers good for us

his daughter looked at him  concerned  slightly humour  she better not let condescension show  

Yaknow I cant believe I remember this It must have made an impression on me Matthew somechapterverse excuse me if I screw it up paraphrase it badly Fan winnowing fork in hand He will thoroughly purgeI really remembered that word purge its aggressive violent he will purge his crop he will gather his wheat and he will burn up his chaff with you want violence he will burn up his chaff with unquenchable fire

Unquenchable fire

I might suppose I ferreted and read all the steamy parts the sex and violent parts But I couldnt buy into it at all Pissed my parents offNo not parents  my Maw 

My point is an thank you for allowing me to labour as a child I was informed by my parentsyou were informed  I wouldnt knowingly put a gun in my mouth play Russian Roulette Wheres their sense of self an selfpreservation Animals have that An we animals have bigger brains than other animal species For the most part

he was tempted to bring Skippy Super Chunky peanut butter when he visited for a weekend but like a good ex-Catholic he defied his temptation

all his grandchildrens friends and he asked it was a point on contention all their friends wouldnt eat chucky peanut butter if it was the only peanut butter to be eaten they all wanted creamy peanut butter it wasnt that they preferred it they would only eat smooth peanut butter

                                               and none of the better than two dozen kids he canvassed much to his grandchildrens chagrin Stop, Grandpa, please stop. none of them had an allergy to peanuts none of them could imagine not eating peanut butter and the other butters

he hadnt a clue there were other butters 

seemed to him to be on par with licorice 

red licorice isnt licorice

black licorice is licorice

red licorice has no licorice in it

strawberry grape watermelon cherry chocolate licorice  arent licorice either

he heard a giggle behind him at the trash and recycle cans in the kitchen

he turned in his chair

it was his youngest grandchild a little girl 

she held a limp plastic bag weighted by sourdough heels over the trash

Yaint that cute lil one Throw it away an immediately afterwards youre following it head first

I’m teasing, Grandpa.

Im not

0700-ish,  Wednesday,  16  10. 19

1247,  Reggae Friday,  17  4. 20

Richard Hell and the Voidoids  I Belong to the Blank Generation  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AL0gicJZKBs 

Matthew 3:12