he wondered how this would go

he hadnt seen her in a year

a year

              others who cared for himloved him were perturbed that he hadnt seen her

rather  she hadnt seen him

he extended himself

she was unwell

she refused

he wasnt bothered or upset

they spoke or texted every day

                                usually

because she wasnt well he didnt sweat it if she didnt communicate with him

he let her reach out firsthe didnt want to disturb her

he told her long ago to selfishly care for herself

                                                 she was her first priority

he wasnt going to renege

“Still . . . “ family friends argued

he laughed

               then clearing his throat  Not real comfortable in your relationshipshuh

One should know their worthshould be good in their own skin

he couldnt think of a time since he was a young teenager that he worried about how other people reacted to him or thought about him

he wasnt around to please them

                                  it was his life

hed do as he wanted

coercion wouldnt make him submit

Ah

        it went just how he thought it would

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