2 things occurred to him in the shower before work this evening 

                                                                    he was trying to reverse-engineer his evening to get them back

2 was a feeble attempt

he always wrote two 

                       it was like a razor slitting his brain which isnt as bad as it sounds his brainanyones brain didnt feel pain you could run bare foot through it  throw it against a brick wall and it would prattleooze forth nahnahnahnah OUCH 

       no brains were beyond pain pain was understood by the tactile nervous system

take the same razor used to slice his immediate Neocortex (which wrapped the Limbic which wrapped the Reptilian gawd he loved his base self ) slash his fingertips his howl would put a coyote or wolf to shame 

                                                                                            the pain worsening as the blood coagulatedbecame tacky things stuck to his fingertips and had to be ripped away like bandaids clinging to the hairs of his arms legs

WAKE UP!

WAKE UP! 

                what were the 2 things that pricked him in the shower maybe if it was in a jailhouse and he bent over to pick upretrieve the soap bar an inmate knocked out of his hands thats a joke its a joke because it didnt have to be a jailhouse it could be in a high school shower after PE physical education after sport practise  there doesnt exist a more crude creature than a wanton teenage boy shot through with hormones sexually inexperienced

                                                                                                    theyd fuck a sheep name it and boast I fucked Sally Shes from another school

like fishing with the wrong bait or fly  nothing was rising    

he was going to sleep on it

Check back in the morning wouldja

it was morning  or mourning 

                               1 of the 2 returned to him actually the first that occurred to him

no sooner than his head hit the pillow it bullrushed him Yahyah  I rememberI remember

he thought to unearth himself

it was a particularly cold evening

he slept with the window open

he could see his breath like a ghost vapour against the night

his body was just beginning to heat the blankets and himself

Fuck it

If I cant remember in the morning thats on meIll remember 

                                                             he liked to bet on himself  the only bet hed take was one where he could physically manipulate its outcome he was allabout fist fights

he didnt play the lottery

he didnt gamble

hed toss a coin heads or tails  as long as he was tossing the coin

he wasnt jealous of anyone who won big money 

                                                   for once the word was out the shit was trying to retain it  

keep it

not have your throat cut 

                         because people cut someones throat for money Inhumanity  greedy Homo sapiens  

hell  they devised religion to fleece Others

he wasnt one of the Faithful

hed rather poke it in the eye with a sharp stick

indie  1 of 2   What the fuck’s with her?

She just had kittens

That’s her problem.

Seems its your problem too Shes chasing your ass all around the house to hell and back because for some reason she thinks youre a threat to her kittens

I was here first. You brought her into the house . .

. . It wasnt me . . 

. . You didn’t say No

No I didnt The tyranny of relationships The tyranny of believing another will be as you are We mindfuck ourselves And were responsible for living with the endgame  Because if we had balls or ovaries  wed kill it

That’s pretty grim. And I’m a cat.  I don’t have the deductive abilities or intuitions your species does.

Yaint saying much Bigger brains aint the be-all end-all  Ill correct myself  We can easily be the end-all  At this time in our reign weve taken to let ourselvesan you to live in a toilet bowl  I often wonder when someones gonna quit saving water and flush it

But back to the situation at hand

The situation you’ve put me in.

Yes That situation

And?

And in any situation  as long as you run from it it will pursue you

Genius.

I know that.

And I’m a cat.

Awright  Stop running

You’ll excuse me if I caution the same.

I would

So, let’s pose a thought experiment. 

I think I’ve heard you mutter as much.

Although I think you’re muttering is facetious.

Facetious  Pretty big word for a cat

Ah. But I’m your cat. I hang on your words.

Because no one comes here and speaks.

So my understandings are incumbent upon you; and either you’re intelligent or you’re a horse’s ass.

I have no means to differentiate between learned and vacuous.

However.

My vocabulary suggests a thoughtful learning; even if it isn’t accurate.

Well this is sobering

The situation as you’ve alluded, if I am accurate, regarding october and her kittens, if I try to stand my ground she’ll tear me up, she’s seven years younger than me, and female; the situation is . . What’s mine is hers, and what’s hers is hers.

Accurate?

out of the mouths of animals and babeshuh

1247 or 0047,  Sunday,  28  4. 19

1116, Sunday,  28  4. 19