What happened to you when you broke the law of your own words?

she tried hard not tobut she did she glared at him  it followed a flutter of eyelashesa brief askancebutterflies feeding from a flowering white sage  then the hard dark burn

he didnt look away

he wasnt breaking his law

Youre fixing me with this  this this awful situation

It was awful before you stepped in it  Wasnt it

Somebody had to

Nobody had to

Somebody had to help her . .

. . Somebodys always helped her  because thats what she wantsbecause  then she has no responsibility for anything  Shes not even responsible for herself

It gives me no pleasure saying this  I am not accusing you

                                                 Youve said as much

But I have no intention of disabusing you of the notion the lie  that youre where you are for any reason other than you put yourself there

Nobody put a gun to your head

Shes my mother. .

. . STOP 

       She birthed you  But shes never been a mother to you

If she were your mother

If she was Idve been gone long ago

                               But thats semantics because Im not you and you are

You can be very cruel

If me being honest with you is crueland thats how youd define it  Then Im cruel and Ill not apologise for it

You break it you bought it  Youd say

You believe otherwise

I dont

No you dont

But I cant walk away

Then you cant walk away

                      You also shouldnt complain  But then that would verge on sainthood

Ill listen  I will listen   Although I can only listen

Youll wear your white priests collar for me

Im cooler than that  Its a dickie

Groovy

Fuckin groovy

she smiled

I knew there was a smile in there somewhere

Youre always able to make me smile

This is not forever baby

I love when you call me baby

he smiled

Its not forever

It feels like forever

Because youre up to your eyeballs in it 

Yes   Yes  I  am    And youre right   Its my own doing

Identifying the disease is the greatest part of the battle  Then applying the cure  

The balls in my court

As it always has been

Yes

     It has been

he took her by the elbow  Lets walk   Too bad its not raining 

It would be lovely walking in the rain

Your nativecant you do something about it 

A rain dance

Took the words right out of my mouth 

If I could I wouldnt be in my predicament 

Maybe  Maybe not   Would be heap big medicine

Youre such an asshole

I dont even have to work at it 

No  No you dont youre fortunate you know exactly who you are and you cant be pushed off who you are

Thank you  A pig frying in his own fat

Jesus 

         Youre so visual

Gets the job done

It does

he yanked her aside Watch out for the dogshitshe was deep in her head

Fuckin people who dont clean up after their dogs

                                        WhyIoughta

she burst into laughterthen into tears  through her tears she said I love you

he smiled  he gently kissed her forehead

                                  then he whispered into her ear Yaoughta

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