its the way someone turns a phrase mispronounces a word writes a brisk sentence that catches his eye and he cant help but pull it out and play with itsee how it works

years ago reading Jung Jung taught him that everything ought to be turned as if it were a ball in a childs handsthe child is unsophisticated unlearned  therefore experiencing a ball for the first time he or she turns it over and over and over again looking at it from every conceivable angle

as we grow older our naivety is defaced and crushed  moments of what could be wonder and awe are diminished by being possessed to perform to others expectations 

                                        were desperate not to be seen as naïve  as if naïve is a terrible indiscretiona horrible admission  that somehow perhaps we are unworthyof what

he had two daughters  he raised them on what he learned as a young boywhat an elderly man shared with him                                              

Dont give a fuck about what other people think

he read on page 93 of some book he was readingto-day he was reading out of 22 books 9 nonfiction 4 of the fiction were esotericacquired taste  

he couldnt find the passage on page 93 among 13 fictions before him so he might furthur appreciate the context in which the sentence was writtenhed read too much to pinpoint it

he assumed where he read it he had already returned to the library

virtually all the library books he borrowed he wanted among his library  financial constraintsyes but more it was space constraints that stopped his hand  realistically there was no point to have a book if you couldnt go into a room and have it off a shelf to peruse

page 93 

        she was afraid he might be one of those who protected the rich from the poor

she was afraid

women are more often afraid than men

he began turning the ball

he might be

or maybe he wasnt

maybe he was

one of those

he despised the tag one of those  an inherent judgment a broad generalization  a stereotype

fact is you have to be willing to digto get dirty  turn the ball  who are you to determineto dictate what kind of person someone is if youre unwilling to risk learningknowing who they are who you think they are   and accept you can be wrong

which reminded him of the prologue to In Search of Sir Thomas Browne bottom of page xvi  . . . words in print do not represents exactly what was said and what was said never represents exactly what was meant or taken as meant   

ball

who protect the rich from the poor

politicians

bodyguards

entourage

the balls rolling

              she was afraid he might be one of those who protected the rich from the poor

what was she  rich   poor

                       does the rich need to be protected  do the poor need to be protected  might he be one of those who protected the poor from the rich   power tends to corrupt absolute power corrupts absolutely

John Dalberg-Acton

some people look and recognise a ball and are content with their appraisal

give him a ball  he could play with it forever

  

1325,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  7. 17

Dale Cooper and the Dictaphones Mon Bibliotheque  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LIu-7PNR00M