I died

I died

nothing special

everyone dies

I died unfortunately in a hospital

Ill be sure to finagle it so that doesnt happen when I do

I was old

dying old isnt special

old age eventually gives you that

something will fail

something would when youre old

she rose from my bedside as if she hadnt expected it

she was gentle  caressing   not believing

then shocked to her core and panicked

I made a promise to her and kept it

I would be with her until I died

and I did

the panick shuddered her

tears swelled in her eyes but refused to fall

she tried to say to me I love you

but the words stuck in her throat wouldnt come out of her mouth

she shook me

I didnt revive

not that I wouldnt have if I could

I would have done anything to save her that

but dying didnt save me that

dying took everything I was

and then some

I couldnt console her when she needed me most

her knees buckled

she fell across me

but I was cold

death makes you indifferent

her maudlin moan began

her mouth agape as my own

and only when she put her lips to mine

very nearly our last kiss

did her moan break

and echo in my mouth

she rose up electric

she bolted from the room trying to escape her moan

gone to an ungodly howlNoooo

she fled down the corridor scarcely ahead of it

it was lit subdued

to her right were broad spaced windowpanes

moonlight poured through them and lit her strobe-fashioned

her panicked run to the end of the insensitive wooden hallway filled with her howl

at the end of the hall was a door

she crashed into the door

knocking herself down but not out

beyond the door was a patients shower

and as the door shut against her howl the shower filled with it

she spun the knobs

the water sighedthen roared

she threw her head under its sparkling stream and collapsed in the stall

then   then the tears came

her sobbing choked the howl

I put my hand on her head to console her

she put both her hands atop mine and held it

my dead heart was breaking

I survived that

that was all I could do

I told her I was in her heart

I told her in a strong voice for the last time I love you

and then I left

I left my hand under hers

death cant steal love away

0022   Friday  1  6. 2012

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