he said so and she asked immediately That doesnt bother you

Bother

Why would that bother me

Im asking because it would bother me

But love youre susceptible to fine and minute irritations

You have to hit me with a two-by-four a ball peen hammer to get my attention

Why do you think that

Think Its not thinking
I know it

And how do you know it

I know it because if I didnt delimit my senses growing up in a house with nine siblings it would have been intolerable

I learned to unhear  

I could be in the heart of a full room filled with talk and not hear a thing
I made myself deaf

But you said you could hear it

I said I could hear it  until I decided to unhear it

What did you hear You said There they go again Someones talking about me

Yes

It sounds like the thin chirp of mechanical crickets or the whiling of a three-speeds gears gliding between pedaling

Then if someones talking about you . . . why doesnt that bother you

Its clicking are sounds not words

I cant hear what is said

I understand   Still    Why doesnt that bother you

If people choose to talk behind your back theyre cowardly Why would you be interested in the words of cowards

You wouldnt talk behind someones back

No  If I have something to say I prefer to say it to their face  Id confront them

I have no need for middlemen or to solicit opinions about how I should feel when I know how I feel Probably why I dont participate in polls or make pledges

Theyre crap

If I heard a sound that suggested someone was talking about me itd drive me nuts Id want to find out what was being said

Theyre talking behind your back for a reason They dont want you to know And your wanting to know runs the gamut of worrying over something that adnittedly you cant do anything about

If something is out of your control You have no influence Then why worry it

Its my Nature

The nature of a busybody or the nature of a worrier

Its stress
Why stress something thats unfounded may never find you or you have to secure reserves call upon them if indeed it finds you

Its wasted energy

Why pay a bill for something wasted

You have sound reasons . .

. . But 

      I know theres a but

Thats not who I am

No  Unfortunately it isnt

So why dont you worry this talk about me because I wont
I have better things to do

You dont mind

Knock yourself out  If you Shamus something let me know

Shamus

Yes Private Eye  Theres something Yiddish for everything

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